Where are you?

The past doesn't ever let go.

Your pictures, poems

Show other lives

Moments cherished

Lovers lost

You mourn them all

Your blue-gray eyes

overcast reflecting

Your secrets

and honesty

and nakedness

and pain

the unnamed ache

Rushing in

Filling in

cracks

spaces

disappointments

in your heart

and soul

and mind

and spirit.

You won't believe me

but it does matter

to me.

That's all I can give you

and I don't know if it's enough.

Love isn't a pain to fall in and out of.

You know that.

Your beauty is so clear to me.

I wish it was as clear to you.

June 26, 2000

For Jason

In response to Milk and Consequence

And because I love you.

JULIANNE