THE WISHES OF A SON'S HEART:

I Wish That This Poem Was Easy To Write. I Wish That There Was No Reason To Write It.

I Wish That I Had Kept Track Of Your Birthday So I Wouldn't Be Writing This At The Last Minute.

I Wish That I Could Make This Poem Sweeter With Rhymes And A Pattern Of Sing Song Like Verses.

I Wish That I Would Get To The Point And I Will...

I Wish That You And I Were Closer And That I Could Admit This Without Tears.

I Wish That I Had The Guts To Call You And Tell You That I Love You Although

We Seem To Have So Little In Common. I Wish That I Was The Son That You Had Dreamed Of.

I Wish It Didn't Hurt So Much To Admit This.

I Wish I Had Found A More Clever And Profound Way Of Telling You That I Dream About Knowing

You When You Were A Child. I Wish That I Could Have Known You Like That...

I Wish That I'd Been Your Childhood Friend Who You Could Love Without Expectations

And Share All Your Secrets With.

I Wish That I Could Have Known My Father When He Was In Love With You; When He Was Still Sane.

I Wish That I Could Have Seen You Together And Happy. I Wish I Wasn't So Jealous Of The Memories

That You Have Of That Magical Time When Father Was Handsome, Young, And Alive With His Wonders,

Confusions And Doubts.

I Wish That He Hadn't Hurt You. I Wish That I Could Have Protected You From His Sickness.

I Wish That I Could Have Dried Your Tears When You Cried Yourself To Sleep At Night,

Wondering How You Would Make It Through. I Wish That I Had Been Smart Enough Then To

Look Into Your Eyes And Tell You That You Were The Most Beautiful Woman That I Had Ever

Known, And That I Would Always Love You No Matter What My Father Said Or Did To The 3 Of Us.

I Wish This Didn't Sound Like Such A Common Freudian Fantasy For A Child Of Divorced Parents.

I Wish That Freud Had Never Written.

I Wish That I Could Have Been More Accepting Of Doug When You Were First Married, And That

It Hadn't Taken Something Like 10 Years For Me To Love Him...I Wish That I Hadn't Been Such A Burden.

I Wish That I Had Been More Of A Brother To Jamie. I Wish That I Could Stop Whining.

I Wish That You Could See The World Through My Eyes So You Would Know What It Is That You And My Father

Created. I Wish I Could Share With You The Love That I Feel For So Many People. I Wish That You Understood

My Passions And Fears...And That You Accepted Me; I Wish That More Than You Can Know.

I Wish That I Didn't Wish For Your Acceptance.

I Wish That I Could Afford To Buy You A Buffalo.

I Wish That I'd Done Better In School So You Could Brag About Me.

I Wish That I Could Father Children For You To Dote On.

I Wish That We Had Hugged More Often.

I Wish That You Wouldn't Smoke Because It Makes Me Worry About Your Health.

I Wish That You Would Watch Titanic So You Could Cry As Much As I Did.

I Wish That You And Your Sisters Could Spend More Time Together.

I Wish For So Many Things That I Can't Even Think To Write Down At The Moment.

But I Want You To Know...That I Wish You A Happy Birthday, However Lame That Sounds.

I Wish That You And Those You Think Of As Friends Will Have Many Happy Days And Nights Ahead Of You.

And I Wish For You To Read This And Know That All I've Written Here Is True.

I Wish For You To Not Doubt The Sincerity Of This...Don't Doubt That I Love You.

© NOVEMBER 7, 1999 By Menes

-FOR MYRA MARY PHILLIPS WRIGHT CANELL-

WHO HAS ALWAYS BEEN MY MOTHER -

AND WHO I SINCERELY WISH COULD BE MY BEST FRIEND.

LOVE ALWAYS -- YOUR SON,