Don't look so sad,

I whisper to my reflection...

& I smile just for the hope &

rightness of our suffering...

And I think about the words

I must surely say to him:

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"Leave me now...

go...& push me from your heart...

for I pass now into memory &

memories are ghosts that can

not hurt you."

"Leave me now...

go...& push me from your heart...

for love held prisoner in such a space

becomes a hardship & a torture

from which you may not survive &

from which no hope may quicken us."

"Leave me now...

go...& push me from your heart...

but never stop loving me,

for my love for you is endless

& you shall always be in my thoughts,

prayers, & dreams."

"Leave me now...

go...& push me from your heart...

as you pass out into the world

& live your life freely as you are

clearly meant to..."

"But in your travels,

should you dream of me,

or remember our love,

not as this transparency, but as a

living breathing joy

between us...

do not curse it, or myself,

or yourself for your leaving."

"Leave me now...

go...& push me from your heart...

for I will not have you suffer

for the loving of me...

& all I hope for is your return...

all I know is love burns...

& all I dare wish is that we shall endure &

be happy."

"Though our dreamed Ever After

may survive with some mending...

Our future is unclear...

Our roads must be travelled...

We must face our own fears...

Though we may be unravelled...

We may find Ever After...

Or at least Happy Ending."

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When

the time is right... When

the ghostly smiles &

the tear stained voices grow weary; &

goodbye is the only option to keep

love & hope alive

& healthy...

When that day dawns...

When that moonlight fades...

When even our love is

what makes us afraid...

Then I can say this

& not be unmade.

I turn away...

I shut it down...

My smile stays...

Embracing the frown...

I go back to bed

& what comfort it brings...

And alone I continue

The Lord Of The Rings.

- Dedicated To Travis, When The Time Is Right -