Tuesday, July 29, 2008

I just took a quick bath.

"Thunder only happens when it's raining;
Players only love you when they're playing;
women they will come and they will go..."

Patrick asked me last night if I'm a player. Ever since, I've had "Thunder Only Happens When It's Raining" stuck in my head. I told him I'm not. But what if I am? I mean...is player status dependant on perspective? I mean...I might seem like a player to an 18yo virgin. I mean, I enjoy sex. I can't remember a time when I wasn't having sex. The longest I've gone without some form of sex since I was 4 years old is 9 months. And yet I don't even feel like a whore, when I know people that hook up randomly with random people on a regular basis, which I've seldom if ever done. I know my sexuality though; I know what I like, and how I like it, and when I like it. I'm not ashamed of that; that's actually one of the things that I love about my age; that I know more about myself now than I did then. I've hooked up with several men that I knew I wasn't likely to see a 2nd time, but for me, I've learned that I have to reach a certain comfort level with them, based on our chemistry, and how well we connect, and if we reach that instinctively defined space, then I never regret the sex that follows. But do I seek out those kinds of encounters? Do I play people against each other? Do I lie to my partners or try to hurt them. No. No I don't.

"When the rain washes you clean you'll know...."

:-0)

My stomach feels kind of iffy. Hopefully, that will pass. I haven't seen Jordan in so long, it will be nice to hang out.

   posted by Bald Jason at 06:07 PM
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