Sunday, September 7, 2008

I did go to the Aut Bar, and Preston was there, and he was sincere, and everything's ok now. In fact he doesn't remember saying the horrible things that I was told that he said. He's got an apartment now and he's cut way back on the drugs; he looked a lot better.

Jeremy Merklinger was also at the bar and we caught up. I told him all about the drama at work, my happy eating pills, and about my sister and my newly out relative, which he & I had suspected years ago. He told me that he and Danny split up (finally); that he's moved out and is living on his own, in Ann Arbor (on 1st & Anne?), and has done well the last 3 weeks. He still cuts hair. He doesn't work at WRAP anymore, and the Metro Cafe closed down? It was a great visit. Jeremy was the last boy I was in love with, and it was an interesting encounter tonight, as I realized I didn't want to have sex with him. I have very happy memories of fucking him, and us being together, but I doubt we'd ever be together in the form we were before and I don't want to settle. Or...I don't even think that it's that per say, as that we've both moved on, and what we had was perfect for the time, and I don't regret it at all...and it's of the past. Still, it's always fantastic to see him.

The only weird part of seeing Jeremy was when he told me lurid details about my cousin Jeremy, whom this Jeremy had slept with - all kinds of details that I had no need to ever know! Ugh. lol. Jeremy also told me that he had met Preston before online a few years before and that Preston had lied about his age, but that they ended up not hooking up anyways.

After the bar, Preston wanted me to see his place so I followed his directions and met him there. It was a nice apartment, that's been kind of trashed, by him and his roomie; a cute lesbian named Chris/Kris(?). Their friend Lucy, that I'd met downtown ages ago, in the Diag, was also there. Preston wanted me to stay the night, and told me that he loved me; that he loved everything he knew about me; that when we were apart that he missed me and spent a lot of time on my website. I told him that it wasn't a good idea. That I have issues, and that he has issues. He talked about how he wanted his life to be complete and I talked to him about how people have to make their lives complete on their own; they can't just couple with someone and look to another person to do it for them. I think I could be a very positive influence in Preston's life. And he's very cute, friendly, and I know from his attack on me that he gives killer head. lol. I just think we'd make much better friends than lovers.

After I left the apartment and it's assorted peeps behind, I went to Kroger, left Mollie a message on her cell, and did some fast shopping. I tried to get an application from Kroger, but they said I have to go online. I came home, told Mark about my night, and came to room to write this. I'll probably take a shower, read, and eat before I eventually sleep.

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