Monday, July 11, 2005

Thursday I went to work, with a change of clothes on hand for Robert's 16th Birthday Party at Di's house, which Mark, Mollie & I were to attend just after we got out of work. Bryan was having a really bad day, and a bad week in general with all sorts of things going wrong, and here he was stuck at work because of someone's stupidity, and his son was about to have his surprise birthday party. Everything worked out, and he got out of there, and there were so many of us left there, and the store was so dead, that I was given the option to leave as well. I was about to leave when I remembered that Solomon & Janella were supposed to drop by and return my Buffy dvds, so I held off. They never came (they had an emergency), but I was fine hanging out at work with Heidi & Matt...and I think I left a half hour early so I could find something cooler to wear as my new vinyl outfit was not going to work in the heatwave that had arrived that morning.

I picked up Mark from work and he dropped me at the half-off-card-shop, to pick up cards for Robert, while Mark went to Best Buy to get him a gift card; Mollie had already gotten him a $20.00 gift card for Showcase. We picked up Mollie and headed to the party with lots of youngsters making us all feel old. lol We were the adults. lol It was odd, but not disturbingly so. It was great to see Robert - we just watched my birthday video from almost a year ago, and it's so jarring how much Robert has grown in just a year's time. Chris wasn't there, which sucked, but she had her reasons. It was great spending time with Mollie, Mark, Bryan & Di while Robert hung out with his younger friends; he'd swing round every once in a while to make sure we were all in good spirits.

We stayed until a little after 1am I believe, and in that time there was Tequila for Mollie (only one shot) and Bryan (the rest) and card games, and jokes, & banter. There was also comicly ordered delivery, tons of innuendo, and just before we left, a stunning, loving bit of heartwarming Father/Son drama - which froze me. Mark & Mollie both said that they wished that their parents spoke to them the way that Bryan does to his son... And I was just, I don't know. The father figures I've had were few & far between, and I never really had encounters like that with my two fathers, so it was new territory for me; fascinating - hypnotic almost.

Before the drama, Bryan brought up the fact that I had scrapped his CD. Earlier at work I had revealed in conversation that I had decided not to finish his cd because it was all about lust (mine for him) and he has a great girlfriend now (Chris - who wasn't around when I started the project), who I adore, and it just feels weird to give a cd to someone dripping with recorded desire, when they've just moved into a house with their partner... But Bryan told me he really wanted his cd, and he'd help me with it in any way that he could. He reassured me that it would be fine, and that he wanted it, and that's all I needed to know I guess. I worked on his CD Friday-Sunday - made loads of progress - and it feels great. ;-0)

Saturday I worked on the CD pretty much the entire day. I also cancelled my order of the new Harry Potter book, which comes out this coming Saturday, so that I could order deluxe editions for Mollie & myself. I'll get money back because I ordered them through my webpage, and we don't have to pay shipping and handling, and if the books don't arrive on Saturday then we get our money back! And if they do arrive on time, I get to read the new Harry Potter so it's a WIN WIN! ;-0)

Sunday I slept a lot, went to work at 7pm, and the store was mostly dead, again. We got everything done fairly early, and I left maybe 10 minutes early. I rented Harry Potter & the Sorcerer's Stone for myself, and National Treasure & 50 First Dates, so that I could finally complete my mission, as given to me by my sister Janice, to see these 'films'. I also wanted to watch some movies so I wouldn't work on the CD again; I wanted a break. I watched Harry Potter first, then I watched National Treasure; I liked the girl in the movie, and I thought a lot of it was really stupid. I prefer Sean Bean when he's sublimating his attraction for the other men in his movies, or just plain NAKED - but that didn't happen in this movie so he was wasted. lol It was ok, I guess.

I called Janice this morning before I went to sleep, and we talked about the movie, and she told me that I should call our Grandmother because I haven't seen her in a while I guess. I keep hearing things about Grandma; that she's preparing to die, and that she's talking about it, which I think is a good thing (her talking about it - not her dying). I love my grandmother so much; she mostly raised me, and she was the first relative that I came out to who told me that she believed I was born gay - which was huge! She's always been supportive of my boyfriends; she has always treated Mark like part of the family and always sends him a birthday card (with cash)! ;-0) She's Republican, and I don't think she really grasps how much of what she does politcally is harmful to me, but as I've become more political over the years we've had some fairly dramatic fights about the topic. It would be great to have one of those PFlag famlies, but I love my Grandmother, and I don't want her to die. But everyone dies, and she's lived a fairly full life. She's always told me that she likes that I have a sharp tongue, and that I can defend myself, and that I stick up for myself. I sometimes think that she is the slightest bit jealous about some of my adventures, and I think she asks me things, and tells me things that she probably doesn't discuss with anyone but me, and that feels nice.

I need to stop talking about this. Not because it's emotional, but because I just woke up a little while ago, and my eyes can't handle all this monitor time. blah.

So, I'll probably hit Necto tonight. I'll probably get some more work done on Bryan's CD. It would be fantastic to finish a cd; I haven't done that in AGES. lol

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