Thursday, January 1, 2009

Happy New Year.

This is the first New Year's Eve I've ever spent completely alone. When I was younger it was the one night of the year my mother encouraged us to stay up. Early on it was just snacks and tv. Then we started renting movies. Later, on my own it was parties with friends; Darla always had great parties. Mark was part of the mix, and I've spent almost every New Year's with him since, though I opted for a party last year with my then-boyfriend Michael, and ex-bf Steve. But in year's past we've always had that little New Year's Eve kiss. Nothing sexual about it. Actually, our first kiss came on New Year's Eve 1995. There were other year's where the kiss was planned. There were several years where I slept unti midnight, only to have Mark wake me up, wish me happy new year, and kiss me before I went back to sleep. There was at least 1 year where I returned the favor.

Mark was going to be with me tonight. He was going to work until 11pm and then come home. We weren't really going to do anything. But we always have the little kiss. Sometimes a lingering hug.

Mark is in the E.R.; he went there right after work. He's been shitting blood, which is always a bad sign, but I guess it's getting worse, or at least continuing, and he has a brother who suffered something similar that was serious, so Mark is at the hospital where he needs to be. I hope he's alright. That whatever is happening with him is treatable and non-threatening.

And this is the lonliest New Years ever...

I got a Happy New Years texts from Shawn Foreman. Exchanged messages on yahoo with Trevor, online-Mark, & Corey.

I feel exhausted, and not very well myself.

I'm going to crawl back into bed.

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