Friday, January 28, 2005

I woke up around 10am; jacked off; took a shower. Looks like Mark has been cleaning his room; I wonder if this means that Marcus & Julie are coming over after all? ;-0) Probably not though; I don't see him telling them the truth anytime soon. Maybe if he outlives me, then he might tell them. Whatever. At least if his room is cleaned up he won't be stressed about it and that's what this all comes down to really. Mark never lies to hurt anyone; he always does it to protect himself from being seen in a certain light. I'd say I can't believe I'm not more upset about his actions, but I think I've grown used to them after all these years together. And I've done nothing wrong...which is maybe why my stomach isn't upset over it. hmmm. Perhaps the way Mark feels is more important to me than the way that M&J see me? That's something new. Maybe a side effect of not having seen them in so long. I still wish this weirdness had never happened.

After I picked up Mollie last night, we got balloons, a card & some flowers for Heidi at work (her 21st B-Day was on Wednesday, and just about everyone cancelled for her party so she called it off); she gave me a big hug & told me I was sweet, and almost cried ;-0) I returned my rentals (Boondock Saints, The Man I Love, & When Boys Fly) - 2 of which I actually watched, and rented The Grudge because Mollie wanted to watch it; I invited Mark to watch it with us and he seemed surprised by the offer; the movie sucked. I drove Mollie home (my stomack was really upset; I think because I took my pills really late) and I stopped by Carrie's on the way home to give her the new DS9 books that I bought for her, and the bonus DVDS for the Lord Of The Rings which made her jump up & down. I came home, read a chapter of my own DS9 book, & went to bed.

I have poetry in my head for Tony & Darla; I'm going to try to write them after work sometime. I work from 1pm-5:30pm. My new clothes might come today but I won't be here to sign for them, so I'm pretty sure I won't be getting them today. Looks like I work Sun-Tuesday; Tuesday night I'm hanging out with Mollie & hopefully Bryan; Wed., gonna visit my dad at his rehab center, with Janice; new ALIAS on Wed., then Thursday I'm gonna visit Mollie & Karen, work Friday, and there's a new Enterprise, on, Saturday I have off & there's a new Justice Leauge Unlimited. Those are my limited plans for the week. lol I'm such a geek. Oh - & Monday night Carrie wants to go to goth night at Necto? Just like old times.

Marcus just pvted me and said he was seeing me tonight, which means he & Julie must be coming over after all!?! But does this mean that Mark told them the truth, or that he made something else up? Mark isn't answering this question on AIM - though I guess he might be on the phone. Either way I need to finish getting ready for work. If he told them the truth then I'm ecstatic, but if he lied to them again, then I know I'm going to be tempted to tell them the truth, and I don't know if that's the right thing to do...you know? I dont' want to hurt Mark, or for them to have a bad opinion of him (though they both love him); it would be better for Mark to tell them himself, if he hasn't already. wacky.

I need to leave.

   posted by Bald Jason at 11:48 AM
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