Saturday, September 10, 2005

I woke up about an hour ago. I watched "The Prince of Tides" before going to sleep, and my dreams were all wrapped up in the movie. I first saw the film with my ex-gf Jen Beam, who thought it might be a powerful film for me; it was; I cried a lot; thanks Jen. I haven't seen Jen in about 7 years, but I wish I had her phone # or her address, and I hope she is doing well. I have seen that movie several times over the years. It's seems slightly more cheesy than the last time I saw it, but the good still outweighs the bad, and there's another layer too it now, as back in summer 2001, while trapped in Travis Kelley's basement (his parents were out of town & I stayed the week - but he had to work, and his dad's co-workers, who worked out of the bodyshop next to the house were not to see me staying there) I read his mother's copy of the novel. The book makes me remember that week with Travis, when things were still great between us, and there was nothing to sour my memories of him; I remember his room, his home in great detail, though the days there are a bit blurred between hanging out with his friends, and fucking (we had really good sex).

My eye looks even better than it did this morning, for which I'm grateful; that sty was really beyond annoying. 3 more GLBT titles arrived for my shelf, which I love. I love the idea of my movie shelf, and how there are tons of them there that I've never seen. I love knowing that on a day where I don't feel all that great, I can watch an assortment of these movies, and see how there are so many different stories and perspectives to gay peoples lives; be they portrayed as human, monsters, killers, lovers, friends, neighbors, anything under the sky. Sometimes I'll get a movie & Mark will point out that it's not a gay positive role or something, and to me that's not really the point. The idea of the shelf is that it doesn't deny gay existence, or in some cases, the idea that men can have sex with men. It's the denial of such things that bothers me. And for all those (mostly older) movies that portray gay people in a negative light, there are now a good assortment of positive portrayals to balance them out, and not all gay people are heroes or lovable, and as long as there is a balance of such stories, it doesn't bother me.

New episodes of JLU in one week ;-0)

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