Thursday, January 27, 2005

I believe I'm in shock. My roommate Mark just got home from work about 40 minutes ago, to find me cleaning the condo because Marcus (his twin brother) and Julie (Marcus's pregnant wife) were going to visit us tomorrow night. I've been cleaning for about 2 hours, because I know Mark likes everything to be perfect when his friends & family are over, and he's been stressed out so often lately, that I just thought I'd help out. ;-0) I was looking forward to seeing Marcus & Julie, since they haven't visited in several years and I always enjoy seeing them.

Ok. Now, Mark wanted them to sleep in my bed, which I didn't want to give up, but eventually relented to, but then Mark told me last night that they would be getting here aroudn 8:30pm & going to bed aroun 11:30pm (or something to that effect), and I'm going to be awake all night, away from my bed, away from my computer and forced to stay in a Friday night that I had originally planned to go out on, because I wouldn't have acccess to my room. I live in my room.

So I told Mark that I'd need my room so I could get ready & go out; that way I wouldn't be around to make noise while they were asleep. Mark has a bed that could be used and Mark could sleep in my room and not be bothered by coming & going, and changing my clothes & searching through my closet & drawers for random things to wear & use. Mark said his room wouldn't work, because it's really messy; filled with boxes & stuff - so then he wanted to fill up my room with the boxes; and stopping me from getting to the things I needed. I suggested he store them downstairs, which wouldn't bother me in the least; he said that he'd just call Marcus & Julie and tell them that I didn't want them here. I said, "So...you're going to lie to them?" and he said that it wasn't a lie. He went in his room, called his twin brother & then told him two lies; he told him that we'd just gotten into a fight (we never even raised our voices - I didn't realize we were arguing?) and then that he told Marcus that I now didn't want he or his wife here, which isn't true. Basically, Mark is ashamed that his room is a mess & instead of telling his brother the truth he lies about me.

I know I shouldn't be surprised when he lies. It's why we aren't a couple after all. But this was just so hurtful. I don't want Marcus & Julie thinking I don't like them, or don't want to see them, or that they aren't welcome here. I was really looking forward to talking to them. Marcus is such a sweetie, and Julie & I have always gotten along reallly well. This just sucks. I don't want to call them and tell them the truth (I don't think I even have their phone #, anyways); I don't want them to know that Mark lied... This whole thing just sucks!

I was gonna go see my dad today, after Mark got home, but then realized I needed to clean the condo; cancelled my plans and cleaned instead; does that sound like something someone would do if they didn't want someone to come over? grrr. If I didn't love Mark, I'd really hate him.

   posted by Bald Jason at 07:07 PM
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   Friday, January 28, 2005

I woke up around 10am; jacked off; took a shower. Looks like Mark has been cleaning his room; I wonder if this means that Marcus & Julie are coming over after all? ;-0) Probably not though; I don't see him telling them the truth anytime soon. Maybe if he outlives me, then he might tell them. Whatever. At least if his room is cleaned up he won't be stressed about it and that's what this all comes down to really. Mark never lies to hurt anyone; he always does it to protect himself from being seen in a certain light. I'd say I can't believe I'm not more upset about his actions, but I think I've grown used to them after all these years together. And I've done nothing wrong...which is maybe why my stomach isn't upset over it. hmmm. Perhaps the way Mark feels is more important to me than the way that M&J see me? That's something new. Maybe a side effect of not having seen them in so long. I still wish this weirdness had never happened.

After I picked up Mollie last night, we got balloons, a card & some flowers for Heidi at work (her 21st B-Day was on Wednesday, and just about everyone cancelled for her party so she called it off); she gave me a big hug & told me I was sweet, and almost cried ;-0) I returned my rentals (Boondock Saints, The Man I Love, & When Boys Fly) - 2 of which I actually watched, and rented The Grudge because Mollie wanted to watch it; I invited Mark to watch it with us and he seemed surprised by the offer; the movie sucked. I drove Mollie home (my stomack was really upset; I think because I took my pills really late) and I stopped by Carrie's on the way home to give her the new DS9 books that I bought for her, and the bonus DVDS for the Lord Of The Rings which made her jump up & down. I came home, read a chapter of my own DS9 book, & went to bed.

I have poetry in my head for Tony & Darla; I'm going to try to write them after work sometime. I work from 1pm-5:30pm. My new clothes might come today but I won't be here to sign for them, so I'm pretty sure I won't be getting them today. Looks like I work Sun-Tuesday; Tuesday night I'm hanging out with Mollie & hopefully Bryan; Wed., gonna visit my dad at his rehab center, with Janice; new ALIAS on Wed., then Thursday I'm gonna visit Mollie & Karen, work Friday, and there's a new Enterprise, on, Saturday I have off & there's a new Justice Leauge Unlimited. Those are my limited plans for the week. lol I'm such a geek. Oh - & Monday night Carrie wants to go to goth night at Necto? Just like old times.

Marcus just pvted me and said he was seeing me tonight, which means he & Julie must be coming over after all!?! But does this mean that Mark told them the truth, or that he made something else up? Mark isn't answering this question on AIM - though I guess he might be on the phone. Either way I need to finish getting ready for work. If he told them the truth then I'm ecstatic, but if he lied to them again, then I know I'm going to be tempted to tell them the truth, and I don't know if that's the right thing to do...you know? I dont' want to hurt Mark, or for them to have a bad opinion of him (though they both love him); it would be better for Mark to tell them himself, if he hasn't already. wacky.

I need to leave.

   posted by Bald Jason at 11:48 AM
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   Saturday, January 29, 2005

Work was fine yesterday; I love working with DJ & Matt; they always make me laugh. Nate is great. lol And Bobby is often great to talk to, but when he does annoy me, it's a very bad day at work. Luckily, that didn't happen yesterday. Scott was there too, but I didn't see him that much.

When I got home, even though I was dead tired, I helped Mark clean up the place, and it was great to see Marcus & Julie when they arrived. I talked a lot with Julie, while Marcus & Mark went out to get Little Caesars, which I abstained from, since I had some at work. We all talked and I showed Julie my slash art collection, and then Mark & Marcus joined us and I showed them some mashups which they seemed to enjoy. We played 2 hands of euchre, boys against girls, as Mark put it (Mark & Marcus vs. Julie & I); they won a game, and we won the 2nd game. We all went to bed, we all slept well - Julie said this was the best night's sleep she's had in months! I gave them a mashup cd for the road, and said goodbye. It was a great visit, and I'm really glad it all worked out in the end.

After they left, Mark & I watched last night's new episode of Enterprise "Babel One", which impressed me quite a lot; Enterprise is kicking ass this year! The story & development, continuty & special effects were all great, but the direction was amazing; it looked like a feature film. I hope the next two installments in this story hold up to the promise of this episode. I know bits & pieces about upcoming episodes, and the next 4 episodes all sound awesome. ;-0)

Mark is getting ready to go to his Dad's, where Julie & Marcus are, and I'm trying to figure out what I'm going to do today. I find it hard to plan ahead; my plans fall apart, and so I don't plan, or at least not very detailed plans. I won't have the car, which limits things; and Heidi wanted to hang out tonight, so I'll have to see if she can drive out here; not that she lives that far away... I just, don't like to ask for things, I guess.

Anyways,

I'm off...

   posted by Bald Jason at 11:29 AM
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