Tuesday, February 8, 2005

I'm on a huge George Michael kick lately; I've been listening to "Older" & "Patience" all week, and I'm loving them. I have today off, and I'm listening to them right now. I started writing poetry again recently; feels good! ;-0)

I had the first of my new webpage photos taken the other day, and that feels good too; I've been putting that off for so long. It's not so much that I'm vain, as I feel kind of dishonest; not having current photos for people to see exactly who I am at this moment in time, you know? This was so much easier to get done when I was worried that everyone I knew was gonna die; lol. But this is fun too. lol

I got a new toy this weekend ;-0) It's easily my favorite one ever! I'm sure it will be in some of the new pictures; when I post them, probably next month I'll also rearrange all the pix I already have; I like my randomness, and would like to keep it going.

I find myself wanting to expand my webpage; I want to reveal even more. I want to expose my fears & my flaws; I've already done that to some degree, but I want to give more; I want to be understood, and I want there to be a clear 'picture' of who I am, or at least a decent snapshot.

I miss Shawn. I should write him. And I liked meeting Jonathan, though he seemed a bit freaked by the experience; hope he doesn't...I'm sure he doesn't hate me, but it would be nice if we could get along; he seemed so funny, and cute, and I had a dream the other night that I was leaving this picknic in the middle of this huge redwood forest and I was with Mark & Mollie, and my sisters, and I said I had to go say goodbye to Shawn & Jonathan, which was odd because they weren't even there before, and then there they were, but they were driving away before I could say goodbye. :-( Erg.

I need to go workout.

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   Wednesday, February 9, 2005

I watched Saturday's JLU episode; it was nice; it had Inara from Firefly as the voice of Black Canary ;-0) Me Like Her. Mark helped me out, taking pictures of me last night; I'm tempted to get some of them developed today, but part of me wants to wait and get like 10 rolls done all at once ;-0) We'll see which part wins.

My friend Matt called last night; he's lonely and sad, and it sucks because he's really a great guy; we went out for all of 5 minutes before he dumped me, which he's regretted ever since, and which I got over in the mean time, and now see him as just a friend. He's coming over tonight around 10pm to hang out; he'll probably stay the night; we both have Thursday off; he lives in Bowling Green with his folks.

I'm tired; I didn't really realize how much until this moment. And it's really warm in my room. blah.

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Work was fine today; I slept in, since I'd shaved my head with a razor the night before I didn't need to do it this morning, which was nice, actually. Work flew by. I got some of my film developed today, which rocks ;-0) Though Mark is unhappy with a lot of it; seems that my camera's a bit busted; which he's complaining about endlessly, which is bringing me down; I must be tired for this to bother me so much. I'm very tired; maybe it's the weather; lots of snow today.

Matt left me a message saying he wasn't going to make it out tonight because of the weather & his car is having problems; too bad; I was looking forward to the visit. A new ALIAS is on tonight, and I'll probably get some reading done...but beyond that I have no plans now.

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   Wednesday, February 16, 2005

I have a cold. And I'm kind of spacey from the cough medicine. And I have no clue as to what I should do to pass the time. I should be working on something, or writing or reading, and I keep getting lost in my own thoughts. It's not horrible...it's just odd.

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   Friday, February 25, 2005

This is my 2nd time writing this, I deleated the last one on accident. :-0( I still have a cough, but things are looking up. I got some film develped Monday & I'm in the process (take that as I'm taking it very slow) of updating my pictures section. I've also recently been in touch with Shawn Forman which is almost always a good thing; he gave me his blog addy, which can be found here

I actually had a dream about Shawn & Jonathan last night (they always appear in my dreams together lately, which I think is a good thing). I dreamt they came to visit me, and I was living at my parents' home. They saw me for like 10 minutes before going to check out my Grandpa's old bodyshop where they were staying for their visit, but when I called them shortly there after they had already retired for the evening, which disappointed me. I take this dream to mean that I miss Shawn, and I'm looking forward to getting to know Jonathan; hopefully I'll be taking care of that in the near future.

Mark, Mollie, Carrie & I are heading to Las Vegas, March 23-25!?! It's such a sudden & randomly planned trip that I still find it hard to believe. I don't think any of us have been there before, and the excitement level for everyone seems pretty high. I look forward to going (we're all geeked about the Star Trek Experience, 'cause we're all geeks) but I'm more excited about spending time with my friends than anything else.

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   Saturday, February 26, 2005

I went to the Aut Bar a few hours ago; I didn't expect to; it was very last minute. It was leather night, which I wish I would have known, but I was comfortable in what I wore. Some of the music toward the end made me want to dance; maybe I'll go to City Club tonight; I haven't been dancing in months. I saw plenty of people I knew there, and one guy that I thought I recognized from somewhere; he was really cute. Later we bumped into each other and he told me he sold me my new leather jacket at Wilson's in the mall; his name's Tim; I told him he was delicious, that I liked his eyebrows, and I gave him my webpage address; hope it doesn't scare him too much. I'm pleased he remembered me, but of course it's possible he remembered me because I really annoyed him. lol [I've been laughing at myself a lot lately, which is actually awesome] A few guys hit on me, which was nice; it was very casual & fun, actually. Perhaps I'll go next Friday as well. ;-0)

I spent most of my time at the bar, talking to Matt, Scott, & their various friends. I think I saw Tim talking to my old 'friend' Gregory. I ran into people that I hadn't seen in years, which went surprisingly well, and I said hello to Patrick the bartending chiropractor.

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