Wednesday, June 1, 2005

I miss Mollie, and I'm worried about her; I wish I knew a phone number where I could reach her. I think she's coming back today, but I have no idea what time she'll be back, or if she'll be too worn out for visitors: I guess I'll try calling her tomorrow. I hope she's ok.

I just finished chatting with Shawn's wife Jonathan. And that 'wife' comment was his, and not meant as an insult. I've been wanting to talk to him for ages, and it worked out nicely; he's a lot of fun, just as I suspected, and I'm going to visit him & Shawn a week from today. I hope Shawn isn't weirded out that I'm getting along with Jonathan because I think it's awesome, and I'm super happy about it. But I haven't conversed with Shawn since the unfortunate telephone incident, so I'm not sure how we're doing.

Jonathan said he found my webpage bookmarked and that he's been reading my blog for 2 weeks! Wacky. I'm glad he likes it. He's very friendly, and I find myself wanting to just talk & talk & talk to him. lol I hope we can become good friends. And I hope Shawn & I can remain good friends; I love being friends with the people I've dated - it gives the friendship an extra depth; another layer.

Well, that's enough of that.

Jennifer called me Monday night (10:07pm), crying, saying that Tracy's a bitch and that they had fought, and Jennifer had walked out of a concert, and was now walking home down Woodword, at night, alone. I tried to get her to tell me where exactly she was so I could come get her, or we could call her a cab; she wasn't making a lot of sense though - which worried me. She tried to get into a McDonalds while I was talking to her but they were locked and she started cursing in my ear about it... She said she was going to call a cab, that she'd call me when she got home & then she hung up on me. She never called me back, and I left her several messages.

When I woke up on Tuesday around 5pm (I worked on my webpage all night, waiting for a call) I found an e-mail from her saying that she was alright (Thank Joss!) and apologising for anything that she had done, as she couldn't remember it. Though she did mention that Michael had driven all the way from Ann Arbor to get her, which I had offered to do before she hung up on me. Well, I'm glad she's ok, and I don't know how to feel about the rest of it.

I'm sooooo tired. I wonder what Solomon & Janella are up to today? Perhaps I should look them up later? I don't know. I need to find time to get out to Milan and try to work things out with Jamie; she thinks I told something personal to our other sister Janice, but while I did speak about it with her, she already knew because Jamie's fiance had told her. And I've let it settle for weeks; giving myself time to calm down so I don't kill her. lol And I want to see Grandma too. So maybe I'll do that if I don't sleep all day.

We'll see.

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It took me forever to fall asleep this morning. I watched a few episodes of Batman before finally getting to sleep, and I watched a few more when I woke up around 1:30pm. I was able to place a few more episodes in a timeline, and once I'm done with this set I'll really start cracking on it.

I listened to this crazy Madonna / audioslave mashup the other night on repeat and it's stuck in my head. It isn't even a fantastice mix; it's just kind of cool, but I can't shake it. blah.

So, none of the stuff I have on order arrived today, which sucks, but I wasn't going to use any of it today anyways. Mark should be home soon. I forgot that it's Wednesday and that Grandma will be at church tonight, so I guess that's not going to happen. If I had thought of it earlier I would have tried to find a way to get the car for the day.

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   Thursday, June 2, 2005

So I slept last night; weird. I called Mollie's house yesterday, thinking I would leave her a message but she answered the phone; apparently her & Kenny had just gotten home from the airport. She said she read my blog while she was gone and tried to post a comment, but she couldn't. No one can because that feature isn't finished. She sounded exhausted, but happy to be home; we're going to hang out today, and I'm so glad she's back.

Mark helps me with all sorts of online stuff that I'm not good at; he's been helping me setup a page where I can post vids of myself from random occasions. His digital camera had a video option so we had some older ones, including vids from my 30th birthday party, and there's a great one of me playing Dance Dance Revolution at Pinball Pete's with Kevin Clark. When Kevin was nearing the end, we asked him if he would like a video camera so that he could record messages for his friends; anything to allow him to say his goodbyes, when it became obvious that he wasn't going to survive. He turned down the offer, mostly, and Mark & I thought we'd get a camera for ourselves, but then we hardly used it. We watched one of the tapes we recorded and it was amusing, to say the least; I'm going to record some more stuff on it today.

Maybe my old music vids, if they even work anymore, could be posted? hmmmmm.

I called Janella last night, who was working, and she gave me Solomon's phone number. I thought that I had their house phone, but apparently they both have cell phones. We set up time on Saturday for them to come over to our condo to play Euchre. I love games. I never really played that many when I was younger, but I love them now, and if that means I'm a big old geek, I'm fine with that. lol

I'm still watching the new old Batman eps, which are really quite amazing.

Watching those videos we recorded - I am so GAY!!! lol I mean that in a positive way. I don't know how anyone could ever not know I was... I used to hate hearing my voice recorded but then I heard it on a recording, and I didn't know it was me, and I thought I sounded hot. lol So I've loved my voice ever since, so watching those vids, and hearing what everyone else does when I talk was neat. ;-0)

I tried calling Jennifer last night, but she didn't answer her phone, and I didn't leave a message.

I'll probably drive Mark to work today so I can have the car; Mollie is going to call me when she wakes up, which will probably be in the afternoon. I could take a nap before then, and maybe visit my grandmother. Hmmmm. Sounds like fun. Oh, there's this cemetary in Ann Arbor that I discovered a few years back, but couldn't find again, that I rediscovered a few months ago, that I would love to visit... I don't know if Mollie would want to go there though. She sounded like she might want to visit Shawn & Jonathan with me on Wednesday, but she doesn't know her work schedule yet, and she may not be available.

Anyways; I'm off.

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   Friday, June 3, 2005

I did end up driving Mark to work yesterday, which was fine, but no one seemed to be home at Grandma's house; I later talked to Janice and she let me know about a surprise party for my Aunt Marge & Uncle Mike which is on Saturday from around 1:30pm-3:30pm or thereabouts, so I'll have to let Solomon & Jenella know that I won't be home for Euchre until at least 4pm.

I'm looking forward to the party, which will be at my old church; I'm related to almost everyone that goes to that church, and I'm still on good terms with most of them. But the church building (which I think they still refer to as "new" though it's been around for a very long time) where the party is to be held is where I used to attend a baptist youth group, where I used to meet boys ;-0) And where I had my first REAL guy/guy kiss. So, the place does hold sentimental value for me.

I added still more movies to my GLBT movie database, and my eyes were so tired from that...I took a nap around 3:50pm, before picking Mark up from work, picking up Mollie & going to Red Robin to eat. I enjoyed my food, and my conversation with Mollie & Mark. We went to Borders at Mollie's request, and I got the new issue of BLUE, and a new Star Trek book that's getting rave reviews from the fans online; I'm sure it will be nice. When we got back to the condo we watched an episode of The L Word, and then went to Bryan's for a brief but fun visit, before taking Mollie home and getting a great hug goodbye.

On a side note, got to mention that Bryan & his son Robert give amazing hugs too, and it was really great to see them outside of Hollywood; we don't spend nearly enough time with them lately, and it was great fun while it lasted. Chris is on vaction so she wasn't there, but aside from that, it was perfect.

After Borders, but before home I stopped at work to get my schedule and I was scheduled to work 1pm-5:30pm on Wednesday which is when I'll be in Hillsdale visiting Shawn & Jonathan & possibly Mollie. I was pissed at first, because I thought it was in my availablity that I would have Wednesdays off, but I think I may have changed that when I switched to days... So I'm anxious to get to work today and resolve that; perhaps I can switch with someone and get more hours; perhaps close the store on Tuesday or Thursday ;-0)

Mark & I went to Krogers on the way home from dropping off Mollie, and all in all I had fairly great day.

A note about Herman. Herman was a spider that lived in the upper corner of our doorway last summer, which for one reason or another I grew attached too. lol I don't like spiders; I think they are creepy and they just freak me out, but this fairly large brown spider (which we've since learned could have killed us) didn't scare me, and we even said hello to it when we entered or exited the condo; which prompted Mollie to name it Herman. I'm sure Herman spun it's web there because I leave the porch light on at night which attracts insects, and if I walked by at night to get a drink of water or something, I'd look out the window to see how much "he'd" grown and if he'd caught anything. Then one day the web & the spider were gone, and I was upset. I'm fairly certain that he was cleared away by the men who do the yard work around here...and I was just thinking about this yesterday night because we've noticed a lot of spiders around lately (we always have these spiders around in the spring/early summer, but there have been more lately), and while I haven't enjoyed these new ones (in fact they creep me out more than ever because I know they can actually hurt me), it makes me miss Herman. :-0(

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   Sunday, June 5, 2005

Work was fine on Friday; DJ rode his bike to work, and was in a really good mood. It was Josh Herder's last day for a couple of months; we got some new shirts, though I left mine at work with the Star Wars Graphic Novel I brought in to show DJ; I hope no one swiped either one; I doubt that a coworker would grab the comic, but "guests" go back there too, and someone may think that the shirt was unwanted, which it definitely is. I'll know later tonight, when I get to work.

I took a nap after work till about 11pm; I was going to relax and rest up for Saturday's activities, but I saw a giant ant on my desk, and I spent the night cleaning my room. Mark set up some ant bait in my room, and put some more outside; hopefull that will be the end of that invasion.

I think I got 2 hours of sleep before I left for my Aunt & Uncle's 30th wedding anniversary party. I'm glad I went; it was nice to see so many familiar faces, and relatives that I don't see very often. I spent some time talking to Michael White Jr. and his wife Jalynn(?) who said I should visit them sometime, and we exchanged phone #s. Hopefully that will pan out as I don't see enough of them.

I got to play with my nieces & nephews too ;-0) I'm planning on meeting Janice & the kids at Grandma's house sometime this week for a video interview with Grandma; something to remember her by if anything ever happens to her. ;-0)

Jamie was there, but she ignored me, which was fine actually.

After the party I headed home, showered, and had a snack just before Solomon & Janella arrived to play Euchre, which was a lot of fun, and I'm really glad they came over. It was another step in what will hopefully be a great friendship, and they seemed to really enjoy themselves as well.

After they left I went to bed, and slept till about 2:30am. I downloaded the newest JLU episode "Flashpoint" - Flash didn't die, but something fairly hardcore did take place that still seemed pretty gutsy, though 9/11 happened more than 3 years ago. And the show continues to rock my socks. After it was over Mark wandered into my room, and I wathed it again with him; the sound was really messed up, but I'll record it again when it airs in the U.S., which should only be a few weeks from now, really.

I work from 7pm to 12:30am tonight. I'll probably watch some Batman episodes, and attempt to get some of them in order. Speaking of, I was on a message board the other day, and people were talking about Batman, and they actually helped me out with the continuity of the show, which was a big help! ;-0)

So, I've got plans with Janice & company sometime this week. I've got plans with Shawn & Jonathan on Wednesday (and possibly Mollie); which reminds me I need to call her back. She closes on Tuesday, and opens on Thursday, which means we'd have to leave Shawnathan's by 10pm; if we got out to vist them by 4pm that would still be 6 hours. I'll have to check to see when they want us to arrive, and when Mollie is up for leaving, and then we can decide if we have enough time to include Mollie; I think we probably can, and I look forward to spending time with all 3 of them. ;-0)

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This post is really...whiney(?) - jesus, I can't even spell.

Today is sucking. Well, I guess it was ok at first. This morning I watched some Batman, and then talked with Mark before he left to see Episode III, which he said was ok (the movie, not the talking). I slept for a few hours. I woke up with my stomach in knots, and though I was exhausted, forced myself to stay up so as not to kill my insides. After a while I felt a bit better, and went back to sleep, only to wake up feeling worse. I had an hour before work. I got ready, but my stomach was not happy, and I called to let them know that I'd be late - and asked Ben to make sure that my graphic novel & new work shirt were still in back...the novel was, but ths shirt was not.

We've gotten two new kinds of work shirts in recently; one promoting the "movies & munchies" bundle, and one promoting the new trade in at hollywood thing that starts next week, and now I don't have either one of these new shirts, while other employees have multiple ones, which pisses me off. They're black t-shirts, which I enjoy wearing, and I've grown to hate our purple shirts, which they just ordered a new one for me, which means I'll have yet another of the hated purple shirts, and none of the black. I'm sure they will order some for me, but they tend to take a long time to do anything like that, which means I have to go work and see people wearing the shirts that I want, while wearing the shirts that don't like, and pretending that I'm not annoyed. I don't know that I can do that today. And I'm especially disgusted because I did have one of the shirts, and it was stolen, by a coworker. It's been along time since I had cause to be disgusted by my place of employment, but I guess it was bound to happen again someday.

My stomach is feeling somewhat better. I should go to work. erg.

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   Monday, June 6, 2005

Well, the power is on, and I'm grateful. We had a lovely storm last night, that produced the strangest light, and multiple rainbows. The air in the store was so muggy & damp. On the drive to work I noticed that several traffic lights were out, and that the lights in Bryan's apartent building were out. He later called me at work to see when I was getting off; he hoped that I wasn't closing and that I could join him & Robert at Pizza House, as they had indeed lost power. Perhaps theirs has returned. He stopped by work to, and I got a good hug.

I also spoke with a customer last night who has been renting for some time; he's gay, and we've never really spoken before except in passing. He's 33 years old, and has only been dating men for the last few months. Men who come out of the closet later in life have always made me sad. Not for their new found lives, but for the seemingly dead years that have passed away. I could never have survived as long as I have without coming out at a young age; I felt stifled keeping it to myself as long as I did... Lies close one up in a an ever tightening cage, and I suppose I'm a bit too claustrophobic for such scenarios.

I watched "Seed of Chucky" last night; I thought it was amusing, and a good followup to "Bride of Chucky". I als watched the Ken Russel film "Women In Love" which, like every Ken Russel film I've ever seen, was rather odd. I liked a lot of it, and was confused by much of it, but when it ended suddenly, with a glance, with a stilled frame that forced me to examine it's content; I loved that moment, more than the actual film. I also watched "Second Skin", which featured the most oddly beautiful woman, who kept my attention just as much as her character's husband's love affair with Javier Bardem! So, all in all, my rentals were wisely chosen, or at least I was very lucky. "Women In Love" & "Second Skin", could make nice additions to my GLBT inclusive shelves, but I'm trying to cut back on my spending; with the movies that I have already ordered combined with the ones I already have filling the shelf in question, I have 300 titles. And yet I want more. lol I try to avoid collecting things, because I've never been able to just stop; I have to have a complete collection.

Solomon & Janella stopped by briefly after the store was closed, and I went out to see them; the night air felt so wonderful after being in that storm ridden steam bath. They had dropped some movies in the drop box, and seemed to be glowing with a fantastic energy, which made me smile for them, and look fondly on them, and smile at my good fortune at having found them.

I slept for a little while last night, as has been my habit this last week; sleeping a little at night, and then again in the day; it's not bad at all really. I'll have to call Janice later & find out what day we will visit our Grandmother. And I need to call Matt, as he hasn't yet confirmed that he could work for me on Wednesday while I'm visiting Shawn & Jonathan. And I still need to call Mollie back, which I will also do today.

I'm really glad I watched those moives, in that order; they've put me in a very perculiar mood, and I'm rather enjoying it. And on a side note, I graduated from High School 9 years ago today.

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   Tuesday, June 7, 2005

When Mark got up for work, I joined him for a shower. Mark & I aren't a couple, and were aren't sexually active with each other (or seperately of late), but we're very affectionate. We hug everyday and try to make sure the other feels loved. We sometimes hold hands in public, and we sometimes cuddle... However, when we cuddle I get aroused, and then we have to stop. lol We shower together sometimes as well, and people might think that's odd, or sexual or something, but it's really very innocent. Mark is more than a friend, or a lover, or a brother, because we've been all of those things to each other; on December 19 of this year, we will have known each other, and been close to each other for 10 years. And for this, I am grateful.

After Mark left for work, I tried to sleep & failed. I tried calling Janice but she was out shopping with Justin; my brother-in-law Jerry answered the phone. Jerry sometimes seems really ignorant & other times seems quite good, so I'm never really sure how to respond to him. His sense of humor, which he didn't have at all when we met, has improved over the years, probably thanks to spending so much time with my sister, who used to always make me laugh.

One time, I was in Adrian, where my sister & her husband, and their children live, because I used to go to the clinic there to get my HIV status tested; I was negative the last time I checked. I went & got tested, and I had to wait 3 weeks for the results, but I went to see Janice & spend time with her before I left for home. Jerry asked me what I was doing in town, and I told him that I had just gotten tested for HIV, and he said: "So now you've got the AIDS?"!?! And I looked at him, completely disgusted by his ignorance, and then I looked at Janice, who looked embarassed, and then I couldn't bring myself to rip into him the way I would with anyone else who said something so universally stupid. I simply tried to explain that if I had AIDS I wouldn't be getting tested to learn if I had HIV, and that even though I used condoms during sex, as a sexually active person it was my responsability to be tested for stds in order to have a full understanding of my health, and the safety of my partners. He just looked kind of dumbfounded, like he really didn't get it.

But he's good to my sister, and he seems to be a good father, and they (Jerry & Janice) have 4 beautiful children whom I love unconditionally. And I'll always be grateful for them.

After not getting in touch with Janice I tried to sleep & failed. I cleaned up my room a bit, which I'm trying to keep orderly, which isn't easy for me, as I'm definitely a clutter moster. I don't think my room gets DIRTY, but I like having a certain amount of clutter around me. My parents' house is dirty, and gross, and while I'm a bit messy, I take great comfort in knowing that I'll never be as bad as all that.

I called Matt from work, and I left him a message asking if he could come into work an hour early on Wednesday, allowing me my visit with Shawn & Jonathan. I called Mollie & left a message on her machine saying I'd love to have her for that visit to Hillsdale. And then a tried to clean up some space on my hard drive.

Around 3pm the mail arrived, and 4 GLBT moves arrived for me. They were "Murder in Portland", "Traveling To Olympia", "Gods of Olympia" & "Revenge in Olympia"; none of which look that fantastic, but they each generally cost anywhere between $30.00 & $40.00, and I got them all for $9.99 a pop, which saves me $120.00 - $160.00, so I'm really happy with them in that sense. Perhaps they won't be terrible movies either; we'll see.

Later I decided to watch some of the movies on my GLBT inclusive shelf, which I've not seen before; I probably have 20 such titles. I watched "Eden's Curve" which was quite a bit different than I had expected; I liked it alot more than I thought that I would, and the story was set in 1972, which I didn't suspect from the description of the film I had read. It was very well done in my opinion, with what I felt was a tragic ending, that would have pissed me off quite a lot, if after the movie ended, it hadn't been revealed to be based on a true story. I liked the song that played during the closing credits, and promptly ordered the CD of the artist, who actually appeared in the movie.

After I finished watching "Eden's Curve" and I still couldn't sleep, I decided to watch another one of my unseen treasures. This time I chose "Prom Queen: The Mark Hall Story", which was about a Canadian boy who wanted to take his boyfriend to the prom, and was rejected out of hand, and who took his case to court, and won. It had really happened in 2002, and I had read about the events on gay.com, and I so I already knew the outcome of events, but that didn't make the movie any less emotional. It was filmed in such a way that it was actually lighthearted despite the subject matter, and some of the scenes in the movie were very well dramatized reenactments of real life events, while others were added to flesh out the film's storyline. I believe it was produced for Canadian television, and I thought it was very well done. I cried a lot at the end. lol The movie starred Aron Ashmore; Shawn Ashmore's twin brother; Shawn plays Bobby "Iceman" Drake in the 2 X-Men movies, which are also about intolerance. After the movie, I watched the extas, and there was actual video footage of the real life events; it was really moving.

There was something strange about the 2 movies that I had watched in a row, which I had picked at random, and had very little to do with each other. Both films revealed to me the origin of the term "faggot" when used to describe homosexuals. For those who don't know, a faggot is a bundle of twigs, sticks, or branches bound together, often used as kindling for a fire. And when they used to burn witches at the stake, they would often use suspected homosexuals as the kindling for the flames; a human faggot. So when people called homosexuals faggots, they were originally suggesting that the homosexual in question should be used as fuel for a fire to burn witches. I'm sure very few people realize this today, though the continued use of the word is somewhat troubling. I can't believe I had never heard of this before, and I can't believe that they mentioned in 2 seperate movies that I watched in less than a 5 hour period of time.

After watching all the extras on the "Prom Queen" dvd, I was extremely tired. It was nearly 5:30 when I called Janice and we decided to meet at Grandma's house today around 10am; I'll drive Mark to work and then drive out to Milan directly from there. I got to talk on the phone with Justin (who wants to come over to my house), Jordan (who wanted to tell me that he started reading "The Thief of Always" by Clive Barker, which I had given to him and Justin, on Jordan's birthday, and then finally to Jillian who had a lot to say to me; she even sang me her "bird song"; lol. I told them I'd see them today, and I said goodbye to Janice.

I called Mark to tell him of my days events, and that I loved him, and that I was finally going to sleep, so that he would know not to wake me up when he got home; this was at about 6pm. I slept until 10pm, and I checked my messages, to find one from Matt, not only telling me that he could cover my shift on Wednesday, but that he had the shirt that I had left at work on Friday, and that he would leave it for me on Wednesday! Matt is awesome! ;-0)

Mark & I talked for awhile, and hung out in my room so he could watch the trailer for "Prom Queen", and then the actual footage of the real life story. I also told him the origin of the word faggot which gave him pause. Mollie called me back and said she wasn't sure she could go on Wednesday since she broke 2 of her toes on Sunday!?! She was in good spirits though through the wonderful healing power of DRUGS, and it was great to hear from her. Mark & I cuddled for a little while, and then he was sent away. lol And I managed to fall back to sleep, and I slept until around 1am. Then I slept some more until 5am. And I've been awake since then. I had some breakfast, and then I wrote this.

I'm trying to curb my spending, which I talked about with Mark the other day, and when he suggested I watch all the movies on my shelf that I hadn't seen yet, before I buy more of them, I told him that I don't really think that will work for me. I explained to him that I've noticed in the last few years, that I watch movies less often, but that when I do get in the mood to watch a movie, I generally watch more than one, and often times, more than four. There are over a dozen movies that I would love to buy right now, but I'm not. I really want to see "Brother To Brother" which will be released one week from today! I've been waiting for that one for months. I may break down & buy a couple this week, but not in the numbers that I have been buying them.

If I watch another movie today it will be "Sugar"; which I've now owned for several months, and is a movie I've wanted to see for some time.

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   Thursday, June 9, 2005

I almost gave in & bought 8 movies at Amazon today, all but 1 of which were under $10 used... But I'm trying not to spend money. blah. Boring. And I didn't end up watching "Sugar" the other day.

After driving Mark to work Tuesday morning, I headed straight to Grandma's house, and arrived at almost exactly the same time as Janice & the kids. We had a fantastic visit, with lots of fun had by all, except for a small exchange between Janice & I, at Kroger. Justin & Jordan were with us, and I told Janice that the one of the things I regretted about not coming out to her sooner was that we were never able to look at guys together, and she said that was inappropriate to say in front of her kids because it related to sex, which I thought was weird because I didn't think it had anything to do with sex, and the thought hadn't even crossed my mind. What inspired the thought in the first place was this hot blondie boy that walked by that I couldn't help but notice, but whom Janice didn't notice at all, which shocked me. Janice later said that she had talked to her kids about me 2 years ago (or so) and she couldn't remember what was said, but that it was positive, but the way she told me & then said she couldn't remember...I'm not so sure.

Whatever she said to them couldn't have been super terrible, because they seem awefully excited to see me & spend time with me, and they are playful with Mark as well - and have asked me questions about him... But I wonder what Janice said exactly. She could have told them that I was evil. lol I don't know. It's in the back of my mind now, and it's not cool.

After all that I headed home, got the mail, took an all too brief nap and before picking Mark up from work, heading back home and going to bed; the kids always wear me out! lol I slept from 6pm-1am. I got online later, and chatted with Jonathan, who had left me two phone messages, that I hadn't gotten yet - we planned for my Wednesday visit, around 4:30pm at their place in Hillsdale. Ironically Shawn was in Ann Arbor when we made these plans; at UofM Hospital with a friend of his with Chrohn's Disease. UofM Hospital isn't even 3 blocks from my condo, so it was odd hearing that Shawn was so near to me.

I drove Mark to work at 9am, shaved & showered, and tried to sleep, but couldn't. Mollie broke two of her toes the other day, and then got food poisoning, so I helped out as best I could; I called her and she wished me luck on my visit, and asked if I had plans on Saturday. I was running late to Shawnathan's so I gave them a heads up; letting them know I'd be an hour late...and I was on my way.

On the drive there, I realized that I really dislike the summer months here. This wasn't true when I was younger, but now, I prefer cooler temperatures. Autumn is my favorite time of year actually... And in San Francisco I remember how the evenings were always cool, and the days were cooler than I had expected them to be. I'm actually looking forward to living there someday. ;-0) And I called Mollie back to tell her so.

I found Shawnathan's place with little to no trouble at all, which speaks volumes about Jonathan's skills at giving directions, because I have no fucking sense of direction, and yet he made it easy for me. I gave them a cd of mashups, which both amused & disgusted shawn - which was more than I expected, so that was cool; Jonthan seemed to like them a lot. We went to McDonald's, and the lake/park, and we went back to their place, and overall I had a blast just spending time with them. Jonathan is awesome, actually, and I really enjoyed talking to him, and getting to know him better. And it is always nice to be around Shawn; I'm just very lucky to know him.

Jonathan & Shawn are working on Saturday, but Jonathan seemed hyped about the idea of maybe calling in that day so he could hang out with Mollie, Mark & I, as we have all but confirmed that we are heading out to the Hillsdale area to visit the grave of Kevin Clark. Jonathan actually knows right where the cemetary is, which would be helpful, and I'd love to spend more time with him, and allow him the chance to get to know Mollie & Mark. Hopefully that will pan out. Of course if he decides to work that day we could still visit him, as he works at a gas station right at the edge of Jonesville. Perhaps we'll visit Shawn as well, as Mollie & Mark haven't seen him since the funeral. We'll see.

I left at around 11:30pm, and I was back in my room by 1am. Several GLBT movies had arrived for me, eariler in the day, and I checked them to make sure that they were working. One of the movies, "Skin Flick", which I had seen back in 2000, was not what I had expected. I had originally thought the movie was called Skin Gang, but I had recognized the cover online, and just assumed I had got the title wrong, which seldom happens with my wacky memory, but nobody is perfect, right? Well, it turns out that "Skin Flick", is the edited version of a pornographic permutation call the Skin Gang, so I was right about the title, and the cover of the movie, but it was odd seeing hardcore sex scenes edited down to R rated content. I decided that I'd just order the X rated one come morning, only when I did finally get up this morning I found out that the X rated Skin Gang flick isn't available on DVD; what the FUCK? So, I'm a bit cranky about that, because the sex in the movie was really hot, and that's what I thought I was getting. Perhaps one day it will be available.

I drove Mark to work today so I could go pay the condo fees. Then I came home, and set aside my amazon order (which is still tempting me), and I wrote this. I'm going to the grocery store in a little while; I might stop by Staples to see if Mollie is working, and/or go to VideoHut & rent some porn. ;-0)

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Ok, ok! Enough with the 3rd Degree! I did it! I broke down and got some of those movies I wanted! Are you happy now? I admit it! I didn't lie before though. I hadn't picked them up. And I actually switched around the movies several times before finally ordering them. I'd feel guilty, but I got some awesome moves that I've wanted forever. I should make a short list of the ones I want above all others, and set that aside, and then just buy them as they become available at used prices or something... It's a thought at least.

I had some "breakfast", and now I'm not sure I want to go out at all. I hadn't originally planned on going anywhere today, but Mark needed the condo fees paid so I drove him to work so we could get that done, and now I've got the car when I didn't plan on having it... Not that I'm complaining. I'm just....

I'm rambling.

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   Friday, June 10, 2005

I fell asleep shortly after the last entry, and 'woke up' just in time to go pick up Mark from work. I rolled out of bed, dressed in a hurry, and ran to the car, all the while trying to keep my eyes open. It was pretty odd.

We had to go to UPS to pick up some packages for Mark, but they wouldn't be available until 8-8:30pm so we went to the storage locker, and then home to have a snack. I talked to Matt Habel for a while, and I left message for Laurie, and one for Amber, who was "busy". I also made sure I called Shawnathan to let them know that I made it home safely, and that Mark, Mollie & I would most likely be in town on Saturday.

I called Carrie & asked her to join Mark & I at Red Robin, which worked out nicely. First Mark & I picked up his packages, and then we stopped by VideoHut where I rented some lovely porn ;-0) Then we met up with Carrie at Red Robin, and watched the Pistons, and talked about multiple random events. It was all good. Mark & I stopped at Kroger on the way home, and when I actually got to my room, I slept until about 3am. I watched 2 episodes of Robotech "Sweet Sixteen" & "Miss Macross"; had a snack, took a shower, and now this.

They didn't have everything I needed at the Kroger we went to, so I'll probably go to the other one (not that there are only 2 in the area) later; possibly before Mark gets up for work. I work today myself: 1pm-5:30pm.

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After the last entry, I remembered Shawn mentioning that Anne Bancroft had died, and it made me remember the first film that I remember encountering her in, which was "Torch Song Trilogy", which I happen to own on dvd. The first time I saw it was on late night television in the late 80's, and it was only the 2nd gay themed movie that I had ever seen, and this one struck me on so many levels; it made me weep. I watched it twice this morning; once just to watch it, and then again with the commentary track by Harvey Fierstein, which was fantastic, actually.

Anne Bancroft appeared in several other films that I had seen, and I was always struck by her performances, though the ones I enjoyed most were (probably) not always, her best. I loved her in "Point of No Return" & "Agnes of God", and of course, "The Graduate". And I don't care what anyone says; I adore everything about the version of "Great Expectations" in which she appears. And I look forward to encountering her in years to come in movies I've yet to see, but she'll always be Ma from "Torch Song Trilogy", to me. ;-0)

After watching TST twice, I tried to sleep & failed, watched an episode of Robotech, while eating & filing away my slash art, then got ready for work. Work went by fairly quickly, but it was hot outside. I ate pizza for lunch, which was made wrong at first, but they fixed it. I had fun. I rented various queer titles, which I intend to watch before returning... I went to Kroger after work for the stuff I didn't get yesterday. I enjoyed the porn I rented, when I got home, took a shower, and then wrote this.

I'm tired. I might watch a movie with Mark. I might take a nap. I might go to Aut or Necto (though I serioiusly doubt it). Jonathan told me he 'knew' Justin Dotson; makes me wonder what he's up to these days, though probably not enough to actually call him.

Speaking of Jonathan, I should maybe call Mollie & figure out what time we're going to Hillsdale tomorrow... but I think sleep is going to win for now. I'll try to get in touch with everyone when I wake up. For now, I'm gonna crawl into my big comfy bed (which I love) and just...relax.

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   Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Mark, Mollie & I went to see Kevin's grave on Saturday, just as we planned. We went to Shawnathan's house, and waited with Jonthan for Shawn's siblings (Becky & Lee) to arrive, since they apparently, wanted to go as well. I hadn't seen either one of them since August 2003, and while I'd seen Becky several times before that, it was the only time I'd met Lee, and he was very drunk at the time. He eventually remembered me, and I enjoyed talking to him about Buffy & other wacky things.

Kevin's head stone is awesome! His picture is on it, and a poem that I'm pretty sure Jason Lyons wrote, or at least read at the funeral, is carved on the back. The whole thing made me smile. Mollie brought flowers, and we took some video & pictures then headed out for some food. We all got along famously. It was great, but it was weird not having Shawn around, and I wish he could have been there too.

After food & conversation, and a completely clueless waitress, I got McDonald's fries and we all met up back at Shawnathan's to watch my wacky videos (circa 1998-2000) which Jon had wanted to see. They held up remarkably well; considering I only had two crappy vcrs, and a decade old stero to work with when they were created. I hadn't watched them in years so it was kind of odd watching them again, with people around.

Laurie apparently called before I arrived back at their place, and said she was maybe moving back to Michigan in August, and that I should call her right back, so I did, but she didn't answer her phone; she never does. I hope she's ok. We're all super worried about her now.

After we left, we stopped at Walmart to see Shawn, but after he was paged twice & still hadn't shown up, we called Shawnathan's house only to get the machine, so I'm not exactly sure what happened there. We were all really tired though, so we just headed on home.

I slept some in the car, and before drifting off to sleep in bed I watched "Girls Kissing" which I would consider a grade A documentary for a college assignment, but something that could use a little more work if it was to be released to the public... But it wasn't horrible either. I slept well.

On Sunday, after thinking about a lot of what was said the day before, out in Hillsdale, and seeing Lee & Becky, and the videos and all that stuff, I took another look at the tracks I'd finished for Shawn's CD's, and I think the ones I've got so far are amazing! I know I want to finish this project now, but when I was warming up to record stuff, Mark let me know that his brother Marcus was coming over, with his wife Julie, and their new baby Nick. I set aside the CD stuff, and got dressed, and had a very nice visit with M, J & N ;-0) We played Euchre, and talked, and they waited to go out to eat, until I left for work around 6:45pm.

Work was dead on Sunday. I had pizza for lunch again, and it was really good. I watched AbFab on my break. I got sent home a half hour early because we were so empty, and everything was done at work. I slept at night again; I've been doing that a lot lately.

Monday morning I waited for Mark to leave for work so I could start recording stuff for Shawn's cd's but Mark wasn't feeling so hot, and he called in, which (selfishly) annoyed me because nothing was going my way. I set the cd stuff aside again. The thing is, when you're in the mood to record you have to just do it, or the moment dies. And the moment came & went, and is gone. I'm still going to work on the project, but I'll do more planning type stuff, in hopes that once I have that squared away (and it could be a long while before it is) that the final recording phases will follow soon after.

Mark eventually went to work in the afternoon, and I got a call from Carrie, inviting me to join her, Mollie & Adam for a game of badminton in their back yard. I had to wait for Mark to get home from work, which he stayed late for, but we were all ready to play around the same time, and had a lot of dorky fun. ;-0) I was sweating like crazy, and drove home with my shirt off, and had a very nice shower at home. And then went to bed early yet again, did some reading, before falling asleep around 11:30pm, and woke up at 7:50am or something like that.

I don't know why I've been sleeping at night lately. It doesn't really bother me though. I mean; my sleep patterns have always been odd, but if I sleep when I'm tired, and I get enough rest, then that's all that matters to me.

I drove Mark to work because I needed more prilosec, which I bought at Kroger, and then I came home and wrote this. Which was a lot to write, since I've skipped the last few days. I don't really have any plans for today, except the cd stuff, and that suits me fine.

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   Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Yesterday I watched "Straight-Jacket & "D.E.B.S." which were both adorable. I organized some cd stuff, and went places, but it was all too boring to recount here.

Today I've finished up the 5th season of Ab Fab, and I believe it's finally time to work out again. ;-0) What the fricking hell is wrong with me today?

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   Thursday, June 16, 2005

Hey, it's like 1:35am and I'm still awake (barely, but I am!). I was feeling hideous yesterday; blah blah blah... I went to gay.com which is never much of a help, though I tend to get hit on fairly often... I just... I don't know. It just isn't what I'm looking for, or something. But I met this guy (named Patrick), and we hooked up at Aut Bar to talk, and it was a boy that I'd actuallly met there a few weeks ago, whom I'd said hello to, and who had then disappeared. It went very well, I think, and he's very nice, very cute, and... it was good.

I met a guy named Ian tonight as well, who was very interesting. He's from overseas & he's 50 years old (I was thinking he was the same age as my Mother, but she's actually 55 this year). It was fun listening to him, and chatting. The Aut Bar is a really good place to meet interesting people sometimes, though at other times it's just dead.

Redcloud was there as well, which was nice. I don't actually think I've mentioned him before, but he's cute, and I like his voice; he's 27, and he's been out for 4 years, more or less. I think we might become friends.

Anyways, I'm really glad that I went out; the thing about working on these cds - they wear you out really fucking fast! They're very complicated, and they are beautiful when they are finished, but they are just so draining. Some parts, like the actual recording, can be incredibly uplifting, but the editing & planning can be killer.

Anyways. I had some fun, and now I really need to sleep.

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   Sunday, June 19, 2005

Friday, work was fine, though I thought I was going to be able to trade in my old movies for the maximum amount of store credit, only to learn that they weren't doing that anymore so I just kept my movies instead; I can get a lot more for them elsewhere. The rest of the work day was mostly good. ;-0)

I got a message from Amber to call her, and did so. She sounded really upset, and a I talked with her for several hours. It was great to hear her voice again, and to listen to all the crazyness that has transpired since last we spoke. Plus I felt like I was getting some bigger puzzle pieces to work with, in relation to all the other people that share our lives. I talked to Mollie soon after, and we're looking into maybe visiting Amber sometime soon.

Amber also revealed that Laurie is indeed moving home to Jonesville, so that she may live rent free, and save more money, so that she can get a house for herself & her girlfriend Amanda; most likely back in Virginia, which means that Laurie's return home isn't permanant. :-0( The whole thing sounds odd, actually. I look forward to hearing Laurie's side of things, and visiting with her, and WATCHING her visit with Mollie - they get along so well, and are so in sync that it's just amazing to watch them interact. Maybe someday Laurie & Amanda (who I'm dying to meet!) will visit Mollie, Kenny, Mark & I in California ;-0)

Patrick didn't call me. I went to the Aut Bar again for a little while, and there was some fun, but also a major letdown that I don't want to type up at the moment. When I drove home, I arrived in the parking lot at the same time as one of my neighbors, who lives across the parking lot from us. I've never really talked to him, just said hello in passing, but he always seemed really friendly. He called me over and asked where I was coming back from, and when I told him, he asked me if I worked there, and then I told him I worked at Hollywood. He went on some rant about he hates Hollywood & Blockbuster and that to find a good movie he has to go to Liberty Street video. I would have agreed with him a year ago, but my store has expanded and now carries more titles than any other video store in Michigan, period. He said he'd been to several places that night, including Grizzly Peak, which I correctly guessed was a "beer place". He asked me to step into the darkened parking area, and kept asking me to talk quieter; I was talking perfectly quiet enough; and I was very sober, as I hadn't had a single drop of alcohol, which I don't think he could claim. I pointed this out and he said he would never drive drunk because he's very smart. He insisted that we talk even quieter and that we could just move closer to each other to hear one another... right. So I asked him how old he was, but he wouldn't tell me; he just kept saying: "How old do I have to be?" and I kept saying it wasn't a matter of him having to be any age, but that I was just curious. I asked him if he was hitting on me, and he started to giggle, and then said goodnight. This guy was seriously messed up. And I lost any interest in him whatsoever when he wouldn't answer my question. It irks me when people won't tell me how old they are. It doesn't matter how old someone is, but it does matter that people guard such information, or if they lie about it, like in a profile where someone lists their age as 502 or some shit like that - it just...it bugs me.

Anyways - that whole encounter was just so odd.

When I got in the house I was shocked to see that JLU was already posted, and I watched that right off. "Divided We Fall" wrapped up the previous 3 episodes in style, and nearly had me in tears. I watched it again with Mark when he woke up, and he later told me that he almost cried during it as well. It dealt with so many different storylines, all of which were handled with a great amount of care, and depth, and emotion. Justice Leauge Unlimited is my current favorite television show, and this episode demonstrated why. And there's still one more episode to go this season ("Epilogue") which, with the amazing season ending feel we had with the newest episode, has me on the edge of my seat wondering what this final episode will mean for the series.

Saturday, I was in some kind of funk. I just didn't feel like myself. And I didn't do much of anything, but that feeling is slowly passing.

I went to gay.com again, briefly to say hello to a friend, and was privated by this cute guy named Justin, who is supposed to call me on Monday. It's been weird for me to admit to guys that I'm looking for a boyfriend, and not just sex. I haven't been this gungho about the boyfriend thing since before I met Mark - so at least a decade. Guys seem to be responding to what I've been saying though. And while I'm super horny, it's been getting a little bit easier to turn down the hottie boys that keep hitting on me for sex.

I work today. It's Father's Day. I called my 2nd Father, Doug & wished him a happy Father's Day, and we talked for awhile which was nice. We used to not get along at all, but we worked it out, which I'll always be grateful for. I hope that he is happy. I don't know how to get in touch with my biological father today; I'll try to see him tomorrow. 13 years ago today was when I cut off the monthly visits that my sister & I had with him. I had started to remember his abuse of us around that time, and I couldn't stand to look at him... There was much drama, threats of violence (from me this time) and a lot of tears. I'm glad that has all passed with time as well. I hope he's happy too.

I haven't heard from Shawn & Jonathan since our visit last Saturday. And we didn't even get to see Shawn that day. It makes me wonder if he was mad that Jonathan called in to work, or if he's upset that we did stuff without him, or what's going on with him. I guess I just wish we had gotten to see him (if only for a minute) to say hello to him. I know that Mollie & Mark really wanted to see him again. Perhaps they will come to visit us in Ann Arbor sometime soon. ;-0)

Ben that I work with, has expressed some interest in Justice League so I'm making copies of the episodes that are available for him; it will be nice to share the series with someone. ;-0) I'm pretty sure I close the store with him tonight. Anyways... I'm gonna get off the computer for awhile.

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   Monday, June 20, 2005

I talked with Patrick on AIM; he said he was confused and thought that I was supposed to call him. He didn't get his kittens; apparently they died before he could get them from the woman who was selling them. He said he was really sorry for not calling and I told him I was working from 7pm-12am - and that since he lives right by where I work he could stop by if he liked. He said that he was about to suggest the same thing and that he would definitely be there.

He wasn't. I didn't take my lunch tonight because I thought it might be nice to take it with him. I told Ben that Patrick would be there, so when he didn't show I felt kind of humiliated. When we got everything done in the store, and Ben offered to let me leave an hour early, I stayed because I knew Patrick would be swinging by. Only he didn't. I called his house around 11:30pm to check to see if he was still coming over but I got his machine & didn't leave a message; I assumed he was on his way over. I checked my messages to see if he had left me one, but I didn't have any. After the store closed I called his house again but there was still no answer and I still didn't leave a message; I thought maybe he had some kind of emergency; figured it probably wasn't that big a deal.

After I left work, I thought I'd stop by the Aut Bar, because this cute little lesbian I met there a few weeks ago said that she worked on Sunday nights; she was there and I said hello. Ian & Redcloud were both there too - and they were talking to Patrick, who said he figured he would see me there. My being there was so random. I couldn't believe he was sitting there, and not asleep at home, or doing something that would have kept him from coming to see me.

I'm a little hurt, and a lot disappointed. And he admitted that it was his fault that he didn't stop by; like it could be anybody else's fault? But he said it like he wanted some kind of reward about being upfront about it. Whatever. He gives really good hugs, and when I went to see him at the Aut bar the other night I had a really good time. Now...it's spoiled. It wouldn't have taken much to give me a call and let me know he wasn't coming. Or to stop by for just a quick visit. Or to not tell me that he would definitely be there, but that he would just try to be there. I slipped out when he was looking the other way - I just - it was too much.

I've been through this shit so many times now; I don't want to be the unforgiving sort, but I don't want to keep opening myself up to the same people just to get smacked down, you know? I don't know what tonight will mean in the grand scheme of things, but for now...it just sucks.

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After the last entry, I decided I'd head back to Aut Bar; it had only been 10 minutes, so I changed my clothes in a hurry, and headed back to the bar. I figured I was taking the whole thing too seriously, and I should go chill with Patrick, Ian & Redcloud, but when I got there 10 minutes later they weren't there anymore, and Patrick was still not answering his phone. I was hoping that he might get some food with me, since I missed my lunch earlier while waiting for him. I looked pretty hot, if I do say so myself, but it was all for naught. I hate eating by myself, and I was not more disappointed than before because I couldn't even just sit & talk to my friends. I left a message on Patrick's machine & I drove around for a little while; feeling like I should be out doing something. When I did get home, I sat in the car for awhile; just listening to music & trying to figure out how this all happened, and why I was taking it so hard.

I don't know why. Except that I had fun the other day, and was looking forward to more of it, and that didn't happen. It didn't even come close to happening. And when I tried to overcome that situation, and head back, and take it less seriously, there wasn't any chance to.

James was there, with what looks to be a new boyfriend named Kane/Cain; they looked cute together. James used to have a crush on me, and I had one on him too, but he's a smoker, and I try not to date them, because my body is so sensitive to that kind of stuff now. It annoyed me slightly that even James couldn't be my buddy tonight, but then I looked at them, and I smiled for them. At least somebody's getting it right; good for them. ;-0)

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I watched the horrible werewolf movie "Cursed" last night; it's released on dvd to rent & buy tomorrow. It's really bad in some places, and it's ok in others. It's sad really, because if they had gotten it right it would have been best werewolf movie since The Howling in 1982. The special effects for the transformations sucked beyond the telling of it; making the creature funny instead of scary. But there was potential. blah.

I played RollerCoasterTycoon3 last night, after the movie; taking perverse pleasure in ripping my old parks to shreds and watching the people plummet to their would-have-been, should-have-been deaths. lol Fell alseep about 6am. Mark called/woke me up around noon to see if I was working today (which I'm not).

I watched "Ode To Billy Joe" on video (which Ben found for me at work); it's not available on dvd. The movie is based on the haunting Bobbie Gentry tune, and I watched it on television with my sister when we were very young. I think I only watched the movie to a certain point and stopped, because I didn't know about the movie's "twist" until a few years ago when I heard the song at random, and decided to track down the movie for fun. Billy Joe, it turns out, was gay. When I talked to my sister about this, she said she remembered that, so she must have watched the entire movie.

I wrote a poem, inspired by that info, soon after.

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   Tuesday, June 21, 2005

So I'm editing some JLU episodes for Ben; but I think I'm going to watch all the old ones as I tape them, just so I can watch them again; because they collectively kick ass! After Mark showed me how to edit avi files, and I started working on that, Patrick said hello to me on AIM and apologised again & all, but I think that ship has sailed. I don't hate him or anything; it's just that when someone diappoints me so soon in the getting-to-know them process (more than once, I might add)... Then it kind of takes the fun out of it.

I was really tired, and I layed down, thinking I would just rest up for a little while, and then return my movies, as Cursed was due back before midnight. I fell asleep right off, and slept till 11:45pm. Mark had forgotten that I needed to be awake and felt bad that he he let me sleep, but it was completely my fault, and I just got up, had a snack, and continued my editing.

After I got most of the editing done, I decided I really needed a night out; some self-healing if you will. I shaved & dressed quickly, since it was fairly late. I wore boots, black vinyl pants, a shiny blue vinyl shirt, a matching studed bracelet, a restraint, my hat & some eyeliner ;-0) I looked hot. And it was cool enough outside that wearing all of that didn't kill me.

I had a fantastic time at the bar. I got there a little after 1am, so I didn't waste anytime. I saw a few people I knew, which was nice. I danced with Vince (of course) which was very hot. And dancing in general in all that vinyl was HOT, but I just danced & danced and I forgot all my problems & I had a blast! I had 1 fuzzy navel, and a bottle of water (which were both free, since I know cool people), and I was sweating like crazy, which wasn't as gross as it probably sounds; it was great actually.

Anyways - lots of fun was had, and I feel better than I have in at least a week. When I got home 2 of my neighbors were outside, and both commented that my outfit was hot, and one of them said I smelled really good, which I didn't expect, what with all the sweating, but women (and some men) have told me that I smell good my entire life, which is guess is a very good thing. I showered, and then I said hello to my friends Heidi from Hollywood, and Matt in Ohio, and now I'm writing this. But it's finished.

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   Wednesday, June 29, 2005

So I haven't written in just over a week. I would have but we lost our digital cable for several days, and when we got it back on Sunday I just wasn't in the mood to write. I guess I am now. I know a lot of stuff has happened since I wrote last, but I'm not sure any of it is worth writing about exactly.

I found a couple new mashups I like yesterday, which hadn't happened in ages. I've been listening to a lot of Coldplay, because I love their new CD and it reminded me how much I loved their older stuff. Mark commented that he had never heard them before, but I know that's not true because I used Coldplay for a track I recorded about Shawn a couple years ago - and Mark listened to that. Plus I've played them a lot, and they've had songs on ALIAS & Buffy.

Justice League is easily my favorite television series at this point. It's just so consistantly kicking ass; the season finale, which was written as a series finale before they knew they were renewed for 13 more episodes was so beyond kick ass, that I had to pick my jaw up off the floor. The episode in question served as a finale for both Batman Beyond & the Cadmus storyarc on JLU! Along the way there were revelations, and glimpses of characters we hadn't seen in ages, such as Andrea Beaumont (the Phantasm), Inque, Stalker, Shreik, Ace (the girl from Wild Cards, not Batman's dog), & Dana Tan. There were also references to Batgirl, Robin, Nightwing & Selena Kyle (Catwoman). There were also flashbacks concerning Terry's Mom & Dad that were...astounding! Unfortunately the broadcaster fucked up and aired some other show for the first 10 minutes or so and so I still haven't seen the Intro & opening credits of the episode! I'll get it when it airs about a month from now in the U.S. ;-)

I got some new clothes yesterday, which is nice. I've curbed my movie spending in a big way; I'm limited to $30 for dvds a week. Mollie came over Friday night & we played all sorts of games with Mark which was actually a blast. I've gotten into all kinds of card & board games; does that make me old? lol I really don't care. I hadn't gotten any sleep on Friday & I didn't expect Mollie's visit to go on so long, but I was having so much fun that I didn't care; I love her so much. We're going Bowling tonight with some of my coworkers, and Carrie will probably come too, which should be a blast!

When we were playing our final game of Rich Man, Poor Man (a fantastic card game that Mollie shared with us a while back), Matt from Bowling Green gave me a call to let me know that he & some friends were in a bar in Toledo and that they would be coming to Ann Arbor shortly; it was after 1am. I assumed they were coming to my house, and I got kind of excited about that, even though I hadn't slept; I hadn't seen Matt in a while, and his friends are usually a lot of fun. Mark drove Mollie home (with an armfull of dvds for her to enjoy) while I cleaned up my room a little... Only to have them call at 2am, after Mark returned to tell me they were just leaving.

To make a long story less long, they didn't come to my house, but went to the Fleetwood only to find the place packed, by the time I got a message that they were in Ann Arbor & at the Fleetwood (I was in the shower when they called), they had already moved on to the Starbucks across town near the Arborland Mall. I arrived there in record time, and...I tried not to be bored. This most likely had more to do with me not having slept than anything to do with Matt & his friends. Usually they are tons of fun, but they all seemed quite annoying that night; I knew it was probably just me though, so I held it together rather well, I think. We ended up at the fleetwood, and I kept throwing a hardon because I was with Matt and for the first time in a long time I was...interested. This could also have to do with my lack of sleep, and my complete lack of sexual activity in the last 6 months (not including sex with myself). But that part of the night was nice.

The sun was up by the time I got home. We later watched the already discussed JLU episode, and then visited Bryan & Chris at their new digs - a place I had sex a little over 10 years ago. lol Weird. I was still super tired though, even though I had slept some since the morning. We went home, and I just relaxed...

I worked Sunday night & Tuesday afternoon; the air conditioning at work is broken. On Sunday it was intolerable; I went home on my break, took a shower & returned to work in shorts. Tuesday wasn't as bad, but it still sucked a lot. I'm actually looking forward to bowling tonight... Looking forward to seeing everyone at the very least.

To all those that e-mailed me to find out if I was ok; thanks. It was just a technical thing, and it was as annoying for me, at least as much as it was for you.

   posted by Bald Jason at 01:24 PM
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