Monday, August 21, 2006

Friday, spent a long day with Janice, Justin, Jordan, Jillian, Jonathan, and dad. It was mostly fun. I was really tired by the end of the visit though. When Mark got home from work, we drove Dad home, and then gave him a ride to Abe's. Jeremy & I had exchanged voicemails, and I gave him a call back, and he was drinking at Aut Bar. Mark & I joined him for dinner, though I abstained, as I was super tired and didn't want my stomach to be upset later. This was good too, except I started feeling a bit depressed.

It was a lot of stuff hitting me at once. There was the Alfaro Family tragedy. There was me getting to know Jeremy as he is, rather than as he was first presented to me. There was my visit with my father, where a lot of emotional shit came into play that I wasn't expecting. There was even some stuff between me & Janice. Then I also caught Mark & Jeremy in lies at the dinner table. And I was exhausted; physically, and emotionally. I went to bed as soon as I was able, but the feeling haunted me much of the weekend.

I worked on artwork and poetry for my webpage on Saturday, and I got a lot of stuff done. Mark & I were going to take pictures, but the timing between us was just off, and I was still feeling weird about a lot of stuff. Later, I hung out with my old friend Bill, and we wandered downtown, and it was nice, and relaxed. We were lovers once, and there was some comfortable hand holding, a few kisses, and some nice affection. It was very helpful. I know he wanted to have sex with me, but I'm going through a bit of a confusing time, and it didn't feel EXACTLY right. It might have been fine. I'm not sure. But when I'm sure, then I'll know.

Sunday, I continued working on stuff for my webpage. This messed up some stuff that Mark was working on, but Mark didn't think to tell me this in advance, and I never suspected that what I was doing would affect his work, so we were both understanding of the work falling apart, and there was no real drama about that.

There was however some drama over the shit I've been feeling this weekend. We had a long talk about stuff, and it was intense. This talk ended with me giving Mark a killer blowjob. 3 years, and 5 days since I last had sex with Mark. And 3 years, and 5 days since Mark has had sex. It was fun. And not weird at all. And it's still not weird. Which is nice.

I had to leave for work just after. Work was dead. I got to work with Heidi, Bill, and Nate; while Lindsey stopped by briefly. I got out on time, and put gas in the car, before going to the bank, and to Meijer to get more film. I'm going to Necto tonight, to see off Sandor. Kim & Jeremy aren't going, though Mark is, and I'm hoping to get some good pictures. I'm all about the pictures lately. I've been taking pictures all summer, but I'm trying get more 'naughty' type shots, as no Bald Jason update would be complete without those. ;-0)

I have Monday, Tuesday & Wednesday off. Tuesday night, will hopefully be movie night with Jeremy, which is what I requested as my birthday gift. I'm not sure what to watch yet. There are so many fun choices!!! ;-0) We'll see. I have no plans on Wednesday as of yet. I'm really tired though, so I'm going to get some sleep, or something.

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   Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Monday night, Mark & I went to Necto. I had a blast. Lots of fun pictures were taken. I got to see Sandor before he leaves for New York (with a wonderful kiss goodbye), and I got a final dance with Freedom, who won't be out & about for the foreseeable future! What a great night! I felt so ON. ;-0)

After the bar, I chatted at myspace with Shawn Foreman & Jeremy. Shawn was telling me how much he wants to see some pictures I've had taken, and also that he had forgotten how much he enjoys my webpage. He & Jonathan are going to try to attend the September 9th, Party. I had to go to bed eventually.

Tuesday, I got 4 rolls of film developed. Black & White is the way to go. It sucks they discontinued it for my camera. I'm hopeing to get many more arty/naked ones in B&W in the coming weeks. The Birthday Party pix were amusing, and I think I'll actually have to devote a page to them on my website, as mixing them in with the regular ones would be a bit odd, though I may mix and match them a little anyways. I got some really great pictures of me and my dad. My scanner is in the shop, so I can't scan any of them, which is annoying.

After Mark & I dropped off the film, we went to Little Caesars for lunch, which was yummy. It was nice just chatting with him, at one of our old haunts. It was all good. And I dropped him back at his work, so I could have the car to pick up my film, before coming to get him at 6pm.

Just before picking up my film, I went to Hollywood to drop off the Velvet Goldmine soundtrack for Bryan. I gave him a super GIANT sized Jason hug. He asked me if I'd talked to Robert, and said that he thought that Robert would probably enjoy hearing from me. Kyle was there too; he'd just had his wisdom teeth removed. We chatted for awhile, but Jeremy called, and I had to go get my pictures.

Jeremy was supposed to come over Tuesday evening for my promised birthday movie night fest... I prepared myself for a fun night. I also did laundry, cleaned my room, and set up the camera for a photo shoot; I set aside movies to watch, and pretty much centered my whole day around making everything perfect. Of course it wasn't. Jeremy had to cancel. He and Danny are having serious fights, and it was more important to fix that. Jeremy was bummed too; it sucked, but I told him he was right to fix things at home first... He wouldn't have had any fun with me otherwise, and if he had, then he'd have regretted it later, and I wouldn't want that...

So I stayed in. I read my book. I slept a bit. I watched "Heights" for the 2nd time, & now that I have, I know that I love it. And I realized that 3 of the movies I'd like Jeremy to see kind of form a thematic trilogy. It's really amazing when you see them in a certain order. I think they go together, splendidly. They compliment one another. They rock! And talk about dream casts! Combined, the 3 movies feature the likes of: J.J. Abrams, Gillian Anderson, Jesse Bradford, Ellen Burstyn, Stockard Channing, Patricia Clarkson, Glenn Close, Sean Connery, Bruce Davison, Hilary Duff, Anthony Edwards, Heather Graham, Anothony Michael Hall, Mary Beth Hurt, Angelina Jolie, Nastassja Kinski, Alec Mapa, James Marsden, Richard Masur, Ian McKellen, Jay Mohr, Amanda Peet, Ryan Phillippe, Dennis Quaid, Anthony Rapp, Isabella Rossellini, Gena Rowlands, Will Smith, Jon Stewart, Madeleine Stowe, Donald Sutherland, & Rufus Wainwright! Nice.

I'm soooooo tired.

I have no plans today, but it is my father's birthday. It's also my older sister's birthday. I was also due to be born on this day, but I was born early. Wacky, huh?

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   Saturday, August 26, 2006

I read more on Wednesday; I had about 40 pages left in my book, and I was trying to make it last. I'm looking forward to reading a lot more in the near future. Later, Mark & I took some more black & white pictures. Bill called me earlier to see if I wanted to take some more pictures today, and I told him if I had time I'd let him know. I called him to see if maybe after Mark & I were finished, he could meet me at Aut Bar to take some sleezy/glam type pix in the restroom there, around midnight. He said sure, and I met him up there.

I'd noticed that Jeremy hadn't even read the 3 messages I'd sent him on varying topics that day yet, so I thought he was probably at Aut Bar, especially since he & Danny were fighting. Sure enough, his car was in it's parking space, and I found him upstairs, just getting ready to leave. He was with his friend, who is so cute, and always says hello to me; I gave him big hugs goodbye, and got Jeremy to join Bill & I. We took some pix in the bathroom, but they weren't going like I imagined, and we decided to go to Bill's for more.

Bill got hit on by a guy as we were leaving, so Jeremy & I went to my place where I showered and changed, and got my camera, and some clothes, before heading back to Aut Bar and stealing Bill away for our photo shoot. The guy that Bill had met seemed nice enought, with disturbingly long fingers. He seemed a bit toasted, and a bit interested in me, which made me feel uncomfortable. Bill was to call him after we were finished taking pictures.

Bill's condo was an interesting setup, and I thought it was a neat place to take pictures. Jeremy & Bill were there for me, to make my pictures awesome, I felt so supported. In addition to that, Jeremy & I are lovers, and we both love each other, and were recently boyfriends, while Bill & I care about each other, and had a very meaningful night together years ago. Also, I met them on exactly the same night, back in September of 2001. The pictures, which were meant to be sexy, became more & more about documenting our threesome. It was so much fun! It was comfortable, and silly, and very sexy. I had a great time, and I'm told (as if I needed to hear this, after seeing the evidence) that they both had great times as well. Bill has offered to take more pictures for me in the future (clothed & unclothed), which will surely be helpful for my webpage ;-0) And Jeremy is up for more pictures as well. As long as I'm single, I'm up for mostly anything too.

On a side note. I've really gotten to like condoms lately. It's not like I don't use them, but well...I've never enjoyed partners wearing them during oral sex. But lately, I kind of think it's hot. I don't know why, but surely it's a good thing, and for now, I find it very erotic. If people think this is Too Much Information, then they just shouldn't read this damned thing.

After the 'party' I drove Jeremy back to his car, while Bill went on a date with the guy from Aut Bar! Jeremy kept saying how much fun tonight had been, and I agreed. It was odd, because if someone had told me a month ago, that I'd be having sex with Jeremy AND another guy, and I'd be getting off on Jeremy getting off on that - well, let's just say I never expected this to happen, or for me to enjoy it as much as I did. I still have moments where Jeremy feels more like a boyfriend than a friend, and I get a bit jealous, but I think I'm mostly passed that, and we talk about it openly, which is really great. It was such a strange, random, fun kind of night, but I was really tired, and I wanted to shower again. I headed straight home after leaving Jeremy, and I showered, and tried to get some sleep (after looking at the pictures that Bill sent me home with, on disc; more than 100!).

Thursday, work was beyond dead. I worked with Pat & Matt, which was odd, as I seldom work with them during the week. But it was a nice day, and we got a lot done, and were very relaxed, and smiley. I got my film developed from the night before; the black & white pictures Mark had taken, and they were stunning. I'm not just being vain here; they're beautiful because of the way they were taken, and the lighting and everything. Mark is so talented. I feel so lucky to know him, and have him as my photographer! And I'm proud of him too.

After work, I picked up Mark, we went Meijer to get a shirt I wanted, then the post office, the bank, and home. I slept briefly, and then went to the Aut Bar when I chatted with bar friends. I met this guy named Gary in passing; there was a great moment, involving a fantastic hug, and looking at each other, and...wow. It was nice. I went home, read some more, and went to sleep.

Friday I was on time for work, but Mark dropped me off, which meant I had to work over, so I took a long lunch. I worked with DJ, Bryan, Jeff, Matt, Pat & Heidi. My cousins Eileen & Monty stopped in just before I was going to leave, and we talked about tons of stuff, and they met Mark; I love those guys! My new scanner had a arrived, so I was in a hurry to get home, only this new scanner was worse than the last one!!! I was so tired; exhausted really...

We decided we'd go to Best Buy and get a new scanner from there. But as we were getting ready, Chris called, and said that she & Bryan were just up the road. They had attempted to go to a jazz fest, but it looked lame, and had thought maybe they'd come visit us. I quickly invited them along with us, and they said sure. It was another random, impromptu kind of night. We got a new scanner, from compUSA and then went to Big Boys. All of this was filled with fun conversation, and the welcome relaxation that comes from spending time with friends. I had cheese sticks. I used to love cheese sticks many years ago, and apparently I still do. The waiter was cute, and fun was had by all. I was still really tired though...and when we dropped them off at their car (after hugs, of course), I was ready for bed.

Only I didn't go to bed. The scanner. Problems. But we worked out some stuff, and I was able to scan a few pictures for myspace; it's too bad I can't post naked pictures there, because some of these nudes are really fricking hot!

I finished reading my book, and tried to get some sleep. I did sleep. But I don't feel like I did. I'm very tired, and I'm glad I have the day off. I close tomorrow, and then I work on Tuesday, but I have the rest of the week off. I'm having surgery on Thursday, & it will probably be nothing, but I'm a little nervous about it anyways. Hopefully all goes well. I'm having movie night with Jeremy on Wednesday. Mark needs the car on Monday. I'll probably go to Necto Monday night, but beyond that I don't really have any plans. At least I don't think I do.

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