Monday, August 21, 2006

Friday, spent a long day with Janice, Justin, Jordan, Jillian, Jonathan, and dad. It was mostly fun. I was really tired by the end of the visit though. When Mark got home from work, we drove Dad home, and then gave him a ride to Abe's. Jeremy & I had exchanged voicemails, and I gave him a call back, and he was drinking at Aut Bar. Mark & I joined him for dinner, though I abstained, as I was super tired and didn't want my stomach to be upset later. This was good too, except I started feeling a bit depressed.

It was a lot of stuff hitting me at once. There was the Alfaro Family tragedy. There was me getting to know Jeremy as he is, rather than as he was first presented to me. There was my visit with my father, where a lot of emotional shit came into play that I wasn't expecting. There was even some stuff between me & Janice. Then I also caught Mark & Jeremy in lies at the dinner table. And I was exhausted; physically, and emotionally. I went to bed as soon as I was able, but the feeling haunted me much of the weekend.

I worked on artwork and poetry for my webpage on Saturday, and I got a lot of stuff done. Mark & I were going to take pictures, but the timing between us was just off, and I was still feeling weird about a lot of stuff. Later, I hung out with my old friend Bill, and we wandered downtown, and it was nice, and relaxed. We were lovers once, and there was some comfortable hand holding, a few kisses, and some nice affection. It was very helpful. I know he wanted to have sex with me, but I'm going through a bit of a confusing time, and it didn't feel EXACTLY right. It might have been fine. I'm not sure. But when I'm sure, then I'll know.

Sunday, I continued working on stuff for my webpage. This messed up some stuff that Mark was working on, but Mark didn't think to tell me this in advance, and I never suspected that what I was doing would affect his work, so we were both understanding of the work falling apart, and there was no real drama about that.

There was however some drama over the shit I've been feeling this weekend. We had a long talk about stuff, and it was intense. This talk ended with me giving Mark a killer blowjob. 3 years, and 5 days since I last had sex with Mark. And 3 years, and 5 days since Mark has had sex. It was fun. And not weird at all. And it's still not weird. Which is nice.

I had to leave for work just after. Work was dead. I got to work with Heidi, Bill, and Nate; while Lindsey stopped by briefly. I got out on time, and put gas in the car, before going to the bank, and to Meijer to get more film. I'm going to Necto tonight, to see off Sandor. Kim & Jeremy aren't going, though Mark is, and I'm hoping to get some good pictures. I'm all about the pictures lately. I've been taking pictures all summer, but I'm trying get more 'naughty' type shots, as no Bald Jason update would be complete without those. ;-0)

I have Monday, Tuesday & Wednesday off. Tuesday night, will hopefully be movie night with Jeremy, which is what I requested as my birthday gift. I'm not sure what to watch yet. There are so many fun choices!!! ;-0) We'll see. I have no plans on Wednesday as of yet. I'm really tired though, so I'm going to get some sleep, or something.

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