Wednesday, February 7, 2007

If I have an opinion, that is different than Mark's, and I express that opinion, then he says I'm being mean; that I'm just a mean person. And he says that I don't even believe what I'm saying; I'm just trying to be cruel...which I think is mean of him to say. I mean, how could I ever have an opinion that differs from him? Ugh. He says the next time I tell him something, that requires his sympathy, he's not going to give it. But surprise, he seldom does that anyway. In fact it's so rare an occurance, that I'm already shocked at every instance.

This all started, as Mark was telling me, once again, that he was playing poker, and he 'should have won' only he didn't because someone 'who shouldn't have played the way they did, because it's stupid' did play, and beat him. This is the same story he tells me every time. He did very well in this tournament, coming in 8th out of (I want to say) 40some players? Or maybe it was 400? It was a lot, anyways, and I told him he did good (I never doubt his skill at the game), but then he just kept going on about how stupid these people are that beat him. I said that maybe it wasn't stupid, and that bluffing and GAMBLING are part of the game - and he didn't like that. That was mean of me. Whatever.

I just watched Pirates of the Caribbean 2, as I was missing Mollie overly much today; she loves those movies. I hated the first one, both times that I saw it. I think I laughed once, and the only redeeming quality of the film was Johnny Depp; which is a sad, sad thing. I enjoyed the 2nd one quite a bit more. The ending had been ruined for me, by a customer who I'd pleaded with, not to tell me...but what can you do? I think the 2nd one was directed better, and the tone was a bit darker. If the 3rd one is more like the 2nd than the first, that would be nice.

I'm usually asleep by 9pm, or lately I am, but I'm having trouble sleeping tonight. I'd like to turn the heat down a bit, but Mark will think I'm trying to freeze him. I'm so tired.

Jennifer called me on Monday, but I missed her call by about 8 minutes; I called her back, and she asked if she could call me back in a little while, as she was on the other line with Elvis. I said sure, and fell asleep with my phone next to my head on the mattress. She called me back, nearly 24 hours later, while I was in a meeting at work. I called her as soon as the meeting was out, to let her know I was at work, and I would call her back as soon as I could. I called her when I got home, but there was no answer. Oh well.

I got a lot of fan/het/slash art yesterday. Tons. It was fun. I need to finish putting all that stuff in order, so I can file it all away, but it's a constant struggle.

A week or two ago, I let Bryan borrow all my DCAU dvds. He's been watching them in basic chronological order at home, but he's been hooked into later epsiodes at work, which is fine. I'm excited that he's excited about it. I'm looking forward to talking to him about all the crossovers and connections and stuff.

I know I should be asleep, but I'm not and it bothers me. I have to drive Mark to work in the morning, so I can have the car, so I can get to work. That means I have to be up early, and that I can't just sleep the morning away before work. It also means that I can't come home right after work, but I have to pick up Mark, which often times, takes a lot longer than you'd think. I'm not looking forward to this.

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Oops. I don't have to drive Mark to work in the mornings anymore; I guess I misheard him. That's cool, and yet it sucks, because I'm extra tired now, but can't really sleep, because I have to work at 1, and need to eat and get ready... blah. I'm trying to not be upset about this though, and just kind of go with the flow...but I'm so freaking tired!

I got a bunch of pictures in order this morning, which makes me feel good. I haven't gotten any reading done over the last few days, which is annoying. Maybe after I eat I could read a chapter of something? We'll see. Maybe I can read a little after work, before falling into oblivion.

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   Saturday, February 10, 2007

I want to get some more piercings. I used to have my ears & eyebrows pierced. The eyebrow piercings hurt like hell, and one of them was constantly getting infected; they looked cool though. I still have my lebret and right nipple pierced. For a long time I didn't think I'd ever get another piercing...the last one I got was back in 2000 I think, or possibly 2001. It's on my mind a lot lately, but while I have some ideas about what I would like, I'd like to be sure, and have some kind of plan for them, as I'd like something a bit more elaborate than anything I've done in the past, but classy.

If I had hair, I'd change it all the time. I used to. I don't miss having hair really, but I like changing my appearance as much as anyone else, and it's harder to do without having the option of hair style/color.

I need some new clothes too. Pants especially. It sounds like I just broke up with someone doesn't it? Isn't that when most people have the urge to change themselves like this? Only I haven't, and really, this has just been on my mind of a long while now, and I'm just making a note of that.

I'd like to do something about my teeth. I can see that they are yellowing more in the last few years, which is odd, as I've been brushing more than ever...but I think part of it is from my acid reflux. I mean, it's gross, but it's like every time I sleep, I'm having a 3 course meal or something, only in reverse. Yuck. Sometimes I don't know how I keep on going, or how I've managed to get used to this. It's sad that I'm used to it, I think.

I don't hate the outside of my body though. I don't know why so many people go through life hating the way they look; it just seems kind of pointless. And in the end, I don't think that what you look like has as much to do with being attractive as people would have you think. Obviously it factors into it, but the majority of people could get passed the little things just by being outgoing, and having confidence in themselves. I think that's why so many people find me attractive, when I'm not really anything special; not really. And that's kind of cool too... Either that, or they just want my dick, which is nice too. lol

I'm in a strange mood; can you tell?

I saw Jeremy on Thursday. It was nice, brief, and odd, but good. I hope I see him again soon; he stirred up a lot ideas and feelings; a lot of ghosts and memories...good ones. I talked to Steve Ball this week too; we might hang out on Wednesday. I don't ever know what to make of him/us. We're fairly odd, aren't we?

I had a date Thursday night with this guy, Ray. It was nice. I'm not looking for anything spectacular. I'm just going to have fun, and take that with me, and let all the drama pass me by. I started doing this last year, before Jeremy came crashing into me, but even then I mostly kept it together, which is something I'm really proud of.

I'm worried about Mollie. I called her this week and her mom was back in the hospital. I wish there was something I could do to help. But honestly...I don't know what to do. I talk to her as often as I can, and I think that's probably all I can do. I wish I could hug her, and spend time with her, and be with her. And I'm not the only one; I know a lot of people here really miss her. She's that kind of person you know? Life seems just a little less lively without her around. Like everthing is fine here, and yet you know something isn't right, and it's that Mollie isn't there to make a joke, or to just look at me and understand without us saying a word.

I talked to my ex-gf Jennifer this week too. She broke up with the asshole she brought to my party back in September. I was all set to give him a chance, because he seemed to be making Jennifer happy, but my initial impression proved dead on, and he was just a dick after all. I wish I'd been wrong though. Jennifer was going to spend Friday night with Elvis; I hope that went well. I like the old gang being together. ;-0) But Jennifer got another cat. I guess I won't be visiting her new place anytime soon.

Things at work are good. I'm a little worried that I might lose my job because of the piercings. My store's people don't care, and the customers don't care, but the higherups don't like it, and that could be trouble. It's so stupid. I know about movies, and I can help people there. Why does a piece of metal in my ear change that? It doesn't.

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   Sunday, February 11, 2007

Mark told me he talked to my sister Janice yesterday. She does my taxes every year, because she thinks math is fun, while I think that math is annoying. lol I'm sure she also does it because she loves me, but that's another story. lol Anyways, for the last few years I've gotten next to nothing back, because I'd set them up so that I would get the majority of my money with every paycheck - because when I first started at my job, Mark was unemployed, and we needed as much money as possible. We changed that less than a year ago, but it's already made a difference. In the last few years I've owed so much money, that I almost ended up gettting nothing. This year I'm getting $300.00 dollars back, which isn't a fortune, but it's like a great bonus.

I really don't make very good money where I work. I don't work for the cash though; I work there because I mostly enjoy it. I say mostly, because there are times when I don't want to be there, but I imagine that everyone feels that way about their job, sometimes at least. But I love a lot of the customers, and all my coworkers, except 1 who I don't dislike; we just haven't connected yet. I even love our District Manager. I love some of the managers at other stores too, so it can be a lot of fun. Add to that, the wacky movie knowledge that's stuffed into my brain, and it's pretty good mix.

I felt kind of out of it yesterday, and I didn't accomplish anything that I thought I would. Mark said that was ok, because it was Saturday, and I should be allowed to have days like that, and I guess I'm just going to have to accept that. Today I feel like I have far more energy. I don't know why that is...but I'm enjoying it.

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   Saturday, February 17, 2007

This week has mostly sucked.

My grandparents were in horrible car accident on Monday. She's fine. Everyone is fine. But their car was wrecked, by what appears to have been a drunk driver, who fled the scene. Horrible. My grandparents were driving north on 23, when a truck driving south on 23 drive through the ditch between the directions and rammed into the back of my grandparents car! They actually flipped around several times, colliding 3 times! Then the guy, who had a friend with him, said he didn't have his insurance papers (but claimed to have insurance), gave my grandmother his name & # (maybe), and said he called the cops on his cell. A driver stopped to see if anyone needed help, and the guy said he needed to get his wife, so the driver took the guy and his friend from the scene of the crime - then it turned out he hadn't even called the cops. When the police were told, and arrived, they found open alcohol in the truck, and no papers of any kind - the truck was registered to a woman. Ugh. This sucks. But I'm glad everyone was ok.

I didn't find out about the accident right away. But when I did I kind of freaked out, though I was exhausted. I've been really odd concerning sleep lately. I've been sleeping, but having really odd, disturbing kind of dreams; I guess they're nightmares. I've not had nightmares in...a very long time, so it's strange. And I think I may have had a mild fever this morning.

Work has been mostly normal this week. Stuff to do, but not overly busy. It's good to see my coworkers, and 'work'. My job mostly doesn't feel like work, which is maybe good, or maybe bad. I really don't know anymore.

With the nightmares, and some acid problems that are completely my fault, I didn't get a lot of sleep last night, so I went to sleep less than 30mins after getting home. It's Friday night, or Saturday morning now, and a small part of me would like to be out, but the rest of me is just happy to be home.

I started re-reading the Harry Potter books tonight. I've never read the first 2 books a 2nd time. The first one seems so short, with so much of it portrayed in the film, that it seemed pointless. And I hated the 2nd book when I read it. Only Mollie's enthusiasm for the 3rd book got me to finish the 2nd and continue on. And yet I loved the 2nd movie. Maybe things will change with the reading this time. I'm already rather shocked by all the details in the first book that I didn't remember. I tried reading the first book again about a year ago, but got sidetracked, so I knew that Sirius Black was mentioned at an appropriate time in the book (which was a surprise at the time), but I didn't expect anything more than that this time. Only I was delighted to find mentions of Mrs. Figg & Cornelius Fudge. I had no memory of them being in the book at all. Neat. I'm reading the books now of course, to warm up for the final volume in July. I hope to have the first 6 read through this 2nd time by June; then I'll see the 5th movie sometime in the week before the final book (or not - it depends) - and finish the final book within 48 hours of it arriving at my door, so to avoid spoilers. I've actually read the 3rd, 4th & 5th books twice already, but I've never read them all like this before. I can't believe I've rambled about this for so long.

I've been chatting with this guy who wants to hang out sometime soon. We've actually chatted a few times over the years, and our story is kind of interesting already. I don't feel like typing it right now, but maybe later, if things progress at all.

I'm downloading episodes of "The War At Home". The show featured a gay story arc over the last few weeks, and I saw an episode of it, so I'm going to fill in the gaps. The show never appealed to me before that. I've really been amazed by some of the fantastic gay storylines on television of late. It's about time.

I'm going to read some more.

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   Tuesday, February 20, 2007

There's a picture of Mark's nephew Nick on the refrigerator; he's so adorable! I wish Marcus & Julie (Nick's parents) lived closer to us. It would be nice to be a bigger part of their lives, as I've known them for so long now. Mark's mother and I seem to have finally gotten over all the drama of Mark's coming out all those years ago. Thing with Mark's family seem to be going well.

Mark has been having trouble breathing for weeks/months now. He's seen the doctor a couple of times, and found he's developed asthma, but despite his meds he's still having a lot of trouble breathing. This has been stressing me out for most of this time, but I've never posted anything about it here before because he reads my blog and I didn't want to worry him. He has another appointment today at 3:30pm. I hope it goes well. I'd go with him, but I have to work. Erg.

Speaking of; I should finish getting ready, which will only take 2 seconds. ;-0)

Oh. And I had a nice little date last night. We'll see if anything comes of that. If not, I can survive; it was fun, and I'll take all the fun I can get. But if something continues, that's nice too. I love it when I'm feeling all layed back about something. ;-0)

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   Thursday, February 22, 2007

Got my midrin refill on Tuesday after work. Then Mark & I got new phones, and we sent one of to Mollie, and one to Mark's mom, which maybe wasn't a great idea, because the phones don't seem to get great reception, and everything sounds 'tinny'; we're going to try out new ones on Friday, after work. I also got a Blue Tooth earpiece, which is cool.

After all that, I ordered another copy of the new Harry Potter, with no intention of actually buying it when it arrives, just to get a free "Trust Snape" sticker from Borders Express, for Mollie. Then we headed home, where I tried (and failed) to sleep, before having a snack and shower, and meeting my friends/co-workers for bowling, which was tons'o'fun ;-0) It's always good to see my peeps outside of work. I briefly stopped at the Aut Bar after work, but came home after that.

I talked to Luke (the boy I went out with on Monday) for awhile on the phone. We both had Wednesday & Thursday off. I slept. I woke up Wednesday and finished reading the first Harry Potter book. It was really great reading it again, and not as boring as I suspected it might be. Later I watched the Mirror Universe episodes of Enterprise in preperation for the new Mirror Universe book, which I'll be reading next.

Luke came over later, and we had some naked wrestling fun, before we were joined by his friend & roomie Brandi, who played euchre with us & Mark. Mark & Brandi kicked our asses, but it was fun, despite my having a monster migrain, far worse than the headaches I've been having the last few days. It was all good fun though. Brandi left around...I don't know when. After 2am, I'm guessing. Luke stayed the night.

I woke up around 11:30am, then mixed a cd for Luke who slept a few more hours. We talked, and wrestled some more, but we didn't fuck, as he wants to wait, which is fine, except I really wanted to. I tend to have sex very fast or not at all. Waiting seems odd to me, and kind of freaks me out. He left around 3pm. He forgot his cd. I left him a message telling him so, jacked off and showered.

And now I'm writing this. I should eat something. I need to wash my bedding. It was really hot in my room and there was a lot of sweating going on... Oh. Luke used to date Tony Jacobs & Frank, & knows Bobby, Ryan Gage & Bill Saunders. Small fucking world.

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   Friday, February 23, 2007

Mark just told me he's starting the Harry Potter series again this weekend. He's going to skim through the first one, and then read the 2nd one, which he's never read before. He's read the 3rd & 4th ones, so he'll probably skim through those before reading the rest of the series. I'm writing this here, in front of him, so if he doesn't start reading them this weekend, I can call him out. ;-0)

I just updated my Animated Trek page. Almost all the pictures and references to such are new. I think it works pretty well, and with maybe one more update that page should probably be done. ;-0)

Luke sent me a text message, which I can now get on my new phone, saying he wrote me a song. Cool. Luke's working at the bar tonight.

I'm kind of tired. I should probably read, but I'm thinking I'll have a snack, and maybe finish my video game. I'm such a child sometimes. lol

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   Wednesday, February 28, 2007

I've been getting a lot of reading done lately. I've read about 18 books this year so far, which is probably more books that I read in all of last year. I started off reading a bunch of Star Wars books, which I plan on getting back to at some point in the year, but for now I'm reading the new Star Trek books (which I preordered last year, and are finally arriving at my door), while reading the Harry Potter series in preperation for the final volume in the series.

Last night I finished the first sement in the new Mirror Universe Volume 1, which will be followed by Volume 2 on March 22, 2007. Each volume contains 3 stories of the Mirror Universe, filling in various gaps in the long running Trek story. The story I just read is called "Age of the Empress" and follows up 3 episodes of Trek: Classic Trek's "The Tholian Web" & the Enterprise 2-parter "In a Mirror, Darkly". I wasn't sure how I felt about the story at first, but in the last 40 pages or so I was riveted. I'm looking forward to reading the rest of the installments. A Classic Trek story is next, which follows up on the Classic Trek story that started this whole storyline: "Mirror, Mirror". There's also a Next Generation story here, with the next volume featuring stories from the New Frontier series, along with Voyager & Deep Space Nine. These stories will eventually tie into the DS9 Relaunch series, which has delved into Mirror Universe stories of late. It all sounds good to me.

Currently I'm reading "Harry Potter & the Chamber of Secrets", which I strongly disliked the first time around, but which, so far, I'm enjoying quite a lot. I don't know why I disliked it before, though things that I loathed about it then actually make me smile now. Plus it's a lot of fun to read all the stuff that didn't make it into the movies, which I'm far more familiar with, especially for this volume.

The new Star Trek: Enterprise novel just arrived at my door as well; it's called "The Good That Men Do" and is meant to explain how the HORRIBLY written death of Trip Tucker in the series finale didn't really happen. I'm all for anything that discounts that insulting episode; my least favorite episode of Trek...EVER; it's that bad folks. The book looks fabulous, and I read the first few pages, which feature Jake & Nog from DS9, so I'm extra excited about this one, but I'm also struggling not to get too happy about it before I actually read it. The book is written by some of my favorite Trek authors, but their previous Enterprise novel ("Last Full Measure"), which set this novel up, proved to be a continuity nightmare. I'll have to set up a page with all the info I gathered on that book so I can have a record of the whole thing. Bottom line, I want to read this book, and I hope the last one's problems were just a fluke, because these authors (Michael A. Martin & Andy Mangels) have always been awesome in the past. Here's hoping the new book kicks ass.

I've also been rewatching The X-Files. I work in a video store which carries most of the series, meaning I could see the majority of the series again for free. I know that there are episodes that I missed, and that the series started pissing me off in the last 4 seasons; I thought I'd give it another shot. Only I couldn't watch it. I tried...but I'm just so familiar with the show that it would be a pain to rewatch the whole thing. I quickly, but almost by accident, found myself watching the 'Mythology' episodes, and decided I'd rewatch those instead. So far I'm really enjoying it. It's possible I'll go back & watch more episodes when I'm finished, but I doubt it. At least not for awhile. We'll see.

I talked to Luke last night and got some stuff squared away. I talked to him about how I like him, but don't want to rush things; we've only been on 2 dates after all. He's coming over later to hang out, though I don't know how late he's staying; we both work tomorrow.

I need to get in touch with Jeremy and get my DS9 discs back; I have another friend who wants to borrow them, and I know Jeremy & Danny are finished with the ones they have. I also want to check in and see how he's doing; he was having a bit of a hard time at home last time I talked to him, and I want to make sure he's ok.

I actually need to get in touch with a lot of people. I need to call Jennifer back; we have much to discuss. I tried calling Carrie today but she wasn't home. I called Mollie, and she answered saying she'd call me back, and that it wasn't a good time; she sounded like she was crying so I'm super worried about her now; that was about a half hour ago.

I was talking to Janice last Saturday and I got kind of nostalgic for Tiger baseball of all things. We used to go with our mom when we were kids...ALL THE TIME. We had really good seats, but I really didn't care for baseball; though I liked the tight uniforms, and if I'd been allowed in the locker rooms things might have been very different. Anyways, I'm talking to Janice about us taking mom to a game this summer. I hope that happens, because I'm pretty excited about it. Weird, huh? I was actually at Tiger Stadium when they won the World Series back in 84. We even had a record of their theme song that year: "Bless You Boys" - which had a sequel a few years later. It's been stuck in my head for days. Bleh. lol

Steve Ball & my cousin Joy. 2 more peeps I need to get ahold of. Catherine. Elvis. The list goes on & on & on.

Bryan, Robert & Chris are all on vacation this week; I hope they're having a blast, whatever it is they're doing!

I should get something else done now.

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Ok. My blog just went haywire. Hopefully it will get back on track now.

Oh. And for the record, Mark did indeed start the Harry Potter series; he skimmed the first book, and is now reading the 2nd book, which says he's enjoying. That rocks! Mark used to really enjoy reading, but he hasn't had time in ages. I'm glad he's making the time now, and I hope he finishes the series, because I think he'll really enjoy it.

Oh. A lot of Ohs today. I read yesterday that Doctor Who will begin it's 3rd season on the last day of March, so just 1 month away! All be 3 titles have been announced for the season.

Wendy came over Friday night and watched the first four episodes of Torchwood with me. She said she loved the show, though she had a problem with one scene that didn't quite gel with her suspension of disbelief; though I had great fun pointing out the holes in her 'logic'.

Just as I was finishing that last sentence, the phone rang, and it was Jennifer. Much was discussed; fantastic that we're still friends after all these years. Then I read the 4th chapter of Harry Potter & the Chamber of Secrets, and realized I hadn't finished this entry...so now I have.

And for anyone who thought they'd send me a text message now that I can get them...don't. I went back to Sprint, as T-Moble's sound quality is pathetic. I have my very old, much loved phone back, though I may be getting a newer model in the near future, if I can find one that suits me.

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