Saturday, February 10, 2007

I want to get some more piercings. I used to have my ears & eyebrows pierced. The eyebrow piercings hurt like hell, and one of them was constantly getting infected; they looked cool though. I still have my lebret and right nipple pierced. For a long time I didn't think I'd ever get another piercing...the last one I got was back in 2000 I think, or possibly 2001. It's on my mind a lot lately, but while I have some ideas about what I would like, I'd like to be sure, and have some kind of plan for them, as I'd like something a bit more elaborate than anything I've done in the past, but classy.

If I had hair, I'd change it all the time. I used to. I don't miss having hair really, but I like changing my appearance as much as anyone else, and it's harder to do without having the option of hair style/color.

I need some new clothes too. Pants especially. It sounds like I just broke up with someone doesn't it? Isn't that when most people have the urge to change themselves like this? Only I haven't, and really, this has just been on my mind of a long while now, and I'm just making a note of that.

I'd like to do something about my teeth. I can see that they are yellowing more in the last few years, which is odd, as I've been brushing more than ever...but I think part of it is from my acid reflux. I mean, it's gross, but it's like every time I sleep, I'm having a 3 course meal or something, only in reverse. Yuck. Sometimes I don't know how I keep on going, or how I've managed to get used to this. It's sad that I'm used to it, I think.

I don't hate the outside of my body though. I don't know why so many people go through life hating the way they look; it just seems kind of pointless. And in the end, I don't think that what you look like has as much to do with being attractive as people would have you think. Obviously it factors into it, but the majority of people could get passed the little things just by being outgoing, and having confidence in themselves. I think that's why so many people find me attractive, when I'm not really anything special; not really. And that's kind of cool too... Either that, or they just want my dick, which is nice too. lol

I'm in a strange mood; can you tell?

I saw Jeremy on Thursday. It was nice, brief, and odd, but good. I hope I see him again soon; he stirred up a lot ideas and feelings; a lot of ghosts and memories...good ones. I talked to Steve Ball this week too; we might hang out on Wednesday. I don't ever know what to make of him/us. We're fairly odd, aren't we?

I had a date Thursday night with this guy, Ray. It was nice. I'm not looking for anything spectacular. I'm just going to have fun, and take that with me, and let all the drama pass me by. I started doing this last year, before Jeremy came crashing into me, but even then I mostly kept it together, which is something I'm really proud of.

I'm worried about Mollie. I called her this week and her mom was back in the hospital. I wish there was something I could do to help. But honestly...I don't know what to do. I talk to her as often as I can, and I think that's probably all I can do. I wish I could hug her, and spend time with her, and be with her. And I'm not the only one; I know a lot of people here really miss her. She's that kind of person you know? Life seems just a little less lively without her around. Like everthing is fine here, and yet you know something isn't right, and it's that Mollie isn't there to make a joke, or to just look at me and understand without us saying a word.

I talked to my ex-gf Jennifer this week too. She broke up with the asshole she brought to my party back in September. I was all set to give him a chance, because he seemed to be making Jennifer happy, but my initial impression proved dead on, and he was just a dick after all. I wish I'd been wrong though. Jennifer was going to spend Friday night with Elvis; I hope that went well. I like the old gang being together. ;-0) But Jennifer got another cat. I guess I won't be visiting her new place anytime soon.

Things at work are good. I'm a little worried that I might lose my job because of the piercings. My store's people don't care, and the customers don't care, but the higherups don't like it, and that could be trouble. It's so stupid. I know about movies, and I can help people there. Why does a piece of metal in my ear change that? It doesn't.

   posted by Bald Jason at 08:12 PM
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