Sunday, March 18, 2007

Talked to Corey on the phone Saturday night, after sleeping all day. He was going out with some friends to Pronto, and later Ice. I told him about my invite to Backstreet and that I might try to go. He said I could call him before I went into work today.

I did end up going to Backstreet. I could have sworn that I'd heard they moved the bar from the place I went to 12 years ago, but it was in the same spot. It was fairly easy to find, and and was a fairly short drive. I hated the music, but I saw Doug, who will start bartending there next week. Also saw Steven, and other people I knew. I met a few guys. A couple guys groped me, and this little 18 yo freaked out when I told him how old I was; he asked me if I'd had work done. lol I managed to stay till they closed, by chatting with people, and trying to ignore the "music".

I went to the pharmacy after the bar to get my Prilosec refilled. Then I went to Kroger for some groceries, came home and finished watching Alien Vs. Predator, which I fell asleep watching the night before. I worked on my webpage (though I think I forgot to to change the date of the last update) for a few hours. I checked my e-mail, and surfed the web. I started reading Harry Potter, and kept reading unitl I had 5 pages left, and thought my eyes would burn out of my skull. I talked to Mark for awhile, and checked the bitserve mail.

I wanted to call Mollie, and realized I'd left my phone downstairs. I'd missed a call from Corey, but called Mollie to chat with her. I talked to her last night when I was shopping at Kroger; she's reading the Harry Potter books to her brother, and just rewatched the movies, so she's in Harry Potter mode too, so we're having great chats about the books vs. the movies. She told me about a funny note that Carrie had left for her in her copy of Harry Potter & the Goblet of Fire. She told me about a blog entry by Adam that was about how much he missed her, and also talked about how their money troubles keep getting worse. She's going through a really horrible time, but she still manages to laugh... Mollie rocks.

I called Corey back next, and we talked for awhile. He'd stayed up playing World of War Craft(?) while I was reading. We both need to sleep, but I have to go to work. He actually sounds a lot like Shawn on the phone. We chatted about stuff, and then he let me go; saying he might call me back after I get out of work.

I so need to take a nap ASAP. Don't know if I can sleep; part of the reason I didn't stop reading was that my neighbors were making a lot of noise, and now the other neighbors have joined in. I wish I had some earplugs but I'm all out. :-0(

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   Tuesday, March 20, 2007

I did manage to get a couple hours of sleep before work on Sunday. It was a struggle though. The neigbors were really loud, and the AC refused to come on for the first hour or so, but eventually things cooled down, and I was able to block out the noise and get some rest, which probably made working that night tolerable. It was actually a good night at work, though I was afraid that I had hurt my back, which thankfully, I didn't. I came home right after work, chatted online, watched the new L Word, finished Harry Potter 3, and went to sleep.

Monday I worked at Bitserve. I started reading the 2nd section in the 1st Mirror Universe book that I got last month; this part is called "The Sorrows of Empire" and covers the fallout for Mirror Spock after the Classic Trek episode "Mirror, Mirror". I updated my webpage, filling in the poetry sections, making all my poetry from last year and this year available. I chatted a bit online. I made some new friends, I think.

I had strange dreams later. I had planned on going to Necto that night, but changed my mind at the last minute, and decided to stay in, which I think was wise. I rewatched Shortbus, which was a lot of fun. Then I rewatched it with the commentary, which was very insiteful, and filled with a lot of symbolism and stuff that I didn't catch on my own; some of that was brilliant, while other bits made me feel stupid for not seeing it in the first place. lol

Tuesday, today, I read more of the Star Trek book. I worked on the new galleries on my webpage, which took hours. I look forward to having new pictures to work with. I'm having a lot of fun with the new galleries. Not just with all the new material, but the way that I'm cropping and arranging the photos seems to be giving them a new kind of life. I'm really excited about them. Someday, when I'm done, other people will be able to see them. Some of my friends have already had a peek and seem to really like them.

Later I slept and had this horrible dream that my nephew Jonathan died, and that my sister had another baby, who seemed to know everything that Jonathan knew, and then some. But he was a kind of monster and we had to kill him. It sounds really stupid now, but in the dream it was very serious and dire, and heart-wrenching. I woke up feeling really horrible, and emotional, and wanted to call Janice (my sister) but didn't.

Later, I got a message on yahoo messenger from Lucas. I posted this poem that I wrote about him on my webpage on Monday, and sent him a myspace message, letting him know it was there. I thought he might read it. I thought he might delete the message on sight. I never expected he'd contact me. He apologised for standing me up. He affirmed that he "REALLY REALLY" likes me. He sounded kind of broken. I was honest with him, and told him that he'd hurt me, but that I was mostly over it. That I just wanted him to be ok. And that I hoped he would get his shit together, and that when he did, he'd have no problems finding a boyfriend, and I looked forward to seeing him happy someday. Closure is good. That's what I got today.

I got some stuff in the mail (a cd & a book), which was nice. I did the Bitserve stuff again. Strange that I have no days off anymore, yet I don't really work that much... It's odd. I guess I'm working more now than I was. Some of it is a lot of brain work, and some of it is just customer relations stuff that I could do in my sleep.

Fuck, I'm rambly today.

I hadn't heard from Corey in a few days so I gave him a call; he sounded odd on the phone; said he'd contact me on yahoo later.

Then I wrote this.

I'm hungry. How the hell did it get to be 10:32 without me noticing?

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   Thursday, March 22, 2007

Corey did chat me up on yahoo, and he's ok; he's just going through a bit of trouble with his roomie/ex & the boy's new bf. I understood a lot of what he was feeling because I've been through that before. We talked for a bit, and I think I made him feel a little bit better. He's been playing lot of World of Warcraft lately. I'm kind of glad that I don't have a video game right now to take up my time, as I'm still getting a lot of reading done and it's fun.

I didn't sleep Wednesday morning. I drove Mark to work. I read the rest of the Classic Trek section of that Mirror Universe book. I really enjoyed the 2nd half of that story; it had a lot of twists that I didn't expect. I guess the whole story was a twist on what we've been told happened on the show, which din't mess anything up. Except, and this might be cleared up in one of the other 4 or 5 stories to come, but they have all these cloaking devices in the book, and they don't have cloaking devices in the final DS9 Mirror episode. There were ships seen with the cloaking effect in "Though The Looking Glass" I think, but that could have been something other than what it appeared to be, while this would seem to contradict an actual episode. Hopefully that's cleared up later though, as the story was really good.

I thought I might go ahead and read the next Mirror story, or maybe read Harry Potter 4, but now I'm thinking of reading a random Star Wars book. That might change though.

Anyways, after finishing the Trek, I got ready and left an hour early for work. I got a pizza on the way, but they totally fucked up my order. I called them back, and they agreed to trade me for another pizza on my lunch, which was hours away. It really sucked because I hadn't eaten anything before work, knowing that I was going to eat there before my shift. But the pizza I did get on my break, which was made by people who know me, was great.

Work was fun. I worked with DJ, Michael, Alex & Nate. I let Nate borrow "Hedwig & The Angry Inch" & "Shortbus"; I can't wait to hear his reactions.

After work, I picked up Mark. Mark's having some trouble with his family. His family is actually...really horrible sometimes. I don't think they intend to be horrible; they're just too stupid to realize what they're doing to each other. That sounded really harsh, but some of their reasoning has been pretty harsh lately. I even stepped in and let them know how they could fix some of it; I begged them too; I cried. And they still managed to fuck it up. A few years ago, Mark's dad asked him what he wanted for his birthday, or x-mas or something, and Mark told him that he wanted them all to see a therapist, and his dad said ok...and then they never went. I really, really wish they had. This shit has to be stressful for Mark, and it's probably eating at a lot of them in unseen ways. I just wish it would stop for awhile, or get moving at least. It's just kind of festering, and I'm afraid someday it will explode; leaving no survivors.

I talked to my sister Janice on the phone, while Mark drove us to some stores, and then home. I guess our grandmother (who rocks by the way) has the flu. She was ill not that long ago, and she's very seldom ill. I know that she's only got so much time left, because even the healthiest of us has to die someday, and she's getting older, just as we all are... I just don't want to lose her.

I was so exhausted, and there wasn't any real bitserve work, so I went to sleep shortly after arriving home. I did spend about a half hour checking out the stuff that arrived in the mail for me. A new TLA GLBT DVD print catalog, 2 used New Frontier books ("The Quiet Place" & "Renaissance"), the new Mirror Universe volume ("Obsidian Alliances"), JLU: Season 2, and Batman Beyond: Season 3. I watched the bonus features on the DVD's as I'll be lending those to Bryan next time I see him, along with the Uncut version of Batman Beyond: Return of the Joker. When I get all the Animated DCAU discs back from Bryan they are being passed on to Scott.

I slept for about 2 hours before Mark accidentally woke me up. I got up, got a drink, and took my prilosec, before going back to bed. I slept for a little over 5 hours more. I kept waking up, but went back to sleep each time. I got up after a while and put my new stuff away, before writing this.

I work at bitserve today. I should probably get dressed and go get some groceries before Mark goes to work. I'd also like to start reading something before the end of the day.

The L Word: Season 4 ends in 3 days; they've already been picked up for a season 5! 9 days until Doctor Who: Series 3 begins! Oh, and in other random news, I happend on this site that supposedly lists haunted places in Michigan, and one of them is Mercywood Hospital. 15 years today I was an in-patient there. Weird. Wonder what the story is on that.

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   Friday, March 23, 2007

Didn't do much on Thursday. I talked to Corey briefly in the morning. Spoke to DJ & Mollie on the phone later. DJ read the new Buffy comic and is dying for me to read it, so that we can talk about it. I in turn told DJ & Mollie that the final Harry Potter book will be 784 pages long, making it the 2nd longest in the series, after Harry Potter 5. That's good to hear, as the last volume seemed really short, and was of course shorter than Harry Potters 5 & 4. The final Spider-Man 3 trailer should be online today.

I started reading a couple new books. I ate. I slept. I worked at bitserve. I chatted. I put some new pix (or some newly edited pix) in my gay.com profile. I'll update the rest of those pictures sometime soon I think.

I work today, at Hollywood & Bitserve. I'm going back to bed.

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