Tuesday, March 20, 2007

I did manage to get a couple hours of sleep before work on Sunday. It was a struggle though. The neigbors were really loud, and the AC refused to come on for the first hour or so, but eventually things cooled down, and I was able to block out the noise and get some rest, which probably made working that night tolerable. It was actually a good night at work, though I was afraid that I had hurt my back, which thankfully, I didn't. I came home right after work, chatted online, watched the new L Word, finished Harry Potter 3, and went to sleep.

Monday I worked at Bitserve. I started reading the 2nd section in the 1st Mirror Universe book that I got last month; this part is called "The Sorrows of Empire" and covers the fallout for Mirror Spock after the Classic Trek episode "Mirror, Mirror". I updated my webpage, filling in the poetry sections, making all my poetry from last year and this year available. I chatted a bit online. I made some new friends, I think.

I had strange dreams later. I had planned on going to Necto that night, but changed my mind at the last minute, and decided to stay in, which I think was wise. I rewatched Shortbus, which was a lot of fun. Then I rewatched it with the commentary, which was very insiteful, and filled with a lot of symbolism and stuff that I didn't catch on my own; some of that was brilliant, while other bits made me feel stupid for not seeing it in the first place. lol

Tuesday, today, I read more of the Star Trek book. I worked on the new galleries on my webpage, which took hours. I look forward to having new pictures to work with. I'm having a lot of fun with the new galleries. Not just with all the new material, but the way that I'm cropping and arranging the photos seems to be giving them a new kind of life. I'm really excited about them. Someday, when I'm done, other people will be able to see them. Some of my friends have already had a peek and seem to really like them.

Later I slept and had this horrible dream that my nephew Jonathan died, and that my sister had another baby, who seemed to know everything that Jonathan knew, and then some. But he was a kind of monster and we had to kill him. It sounds really stupid now, but in the dream it was very serious and dire, and heart-wrenching. I woke up feeling really horrible, and emotional, and wanted to call Janice (my sister) but didn't.

Later, I got a message on yahoo messenger from Lucas. I posted this poem that I wrote about him on my webpage on Monday, and sent him a myspace message, letting him know it was there. I thought he might read it. I thought he might delete the message on sight. I never expected he'd contact me. He apologised for standing me up. He affirmed that he "REALLY REALLY" likes me. He sounded kind of broken. I was honest with him, and told him that he'd hurt me, but that I was mostly over it. That I just wanted him to be ok. And that I hoped he would get his shit together, and that when he did, he'd have no problems finding a boyfriend, and I looked forward to seeing him happy someday. Closure is good. That's what I got today.

I got some stuff in the mail (a cd & a book), which was nice. I did the Bitserve stuff again. Strange that I have no days off anymore, yet I don't really work that much... It's odd. I guess I'm working more now than I was. Some of it is a lot of brain work, and some of it is just customer relations stuff that I could do in my sleep.

Fuck, I'm rambly today.

I hadn't heard from Corey in a few days so I gave him a call; he sounded odd on the phone; said he'd contact me on yahoo later.

Then I wrote this.

I'm hungry. How the hell did it get to be 10:32 without me noticing?

   posted by Bald Jason at 10:32 PM
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