Wednesday, May 2, 2007

I finally wrote a poem for Corey on Monday. When I told Mark he was shocked that I hadn't already written him 30 or 40. lol I'm just not as into writing this year, and that's fine with me. I have little doubt that the urge will hit me again someday. Anyways, Corey, who'd been a bit nervous about the writing, seemed to like it well enough.

Tusday, I made sure to be up for work extra early, and was ready to go an hour before Mark arrived to get me. I've been late a lot lately, and while I haven't gotten into major trouble for this (mostly because the store hasn't been very busy), I personally find it annoying. I ended up getting to work 19 minutes early, and since I had to wait for Mark to pick me up, I also worked over by an hour & 10 minutes. I also made sure I sold at least 3 bundles, and at least 20 Play Guards. I might be trying to cover my ass, but it feels good. ;-0)

Work was deadly dull though. I worked with John, Bryan, Meg, Pat & Joe. We did a lot of busy work: cleaning, stocking, straightening. But we were all in fairly good moods and had no horrible customers to bring us down a notch. I forgot the yogert I was going to snack on, so I went to McDonalds and said hello to Robert. There was much laughter, and while I was glad to leave when I did, I'm constantly grateful for my coworkers, and it's nice to have a job where you can honestly say that.

After work, we went to Meijer so I could get my final Midrin refill. The drug is on back order, but they managed to find a bottle at another store, which should be in tomorrow. I'm not out of my last bottle (I just wanted to refill it before the final refill expires on Thursday), so I'm not a big rush for it, so that was fine. Mark and I said hello to some Meijer people we know from when we worked there, and then we headed home.

We were supposed to do customer billing at Bitserve, but Mark had some other stuff he wanted to do, and I was really tired, so we put it off on Mark's suggestion. I would have struggled through it if Mark hadn't said anything, but I'm very glad that he did. lol ;-0)

I fell asleep soon after laying down, and woke up around 1:30am. I fooled around online for an hour, and then started reading Harry Potter again. I'd read a chapter before work, and was really getting into. I read a hundred pages without noticing, and then remembered I needed to take my prilosec. I also need to go get some groceries before Mark takes the car to work, so I figured I should take a break, though I could easily keep reading.

I've decided that Harry Potter & The Order of the Phoenix is my favorite in the series thus far. When I first read it, I'd had all kinds of expectations for it, that weren't met, so I was left kind of broken. lol The 2nd time I read it, which was about 2 years ago, just days before the 6th book was released, I enjoyed it far more. This time I just appreciate so much of what the characters go through and how they grow; it's really a joy to read, which is odd, since it's a very dark book. For me, Harry Potter 1 & 2, are about the same; enjoyble, but not great. There's nothing wrong with them; they just aren't spectacular. That changes in book 3. And then they improve again in book 4, and again in book 5. Book 6 is a bit strange. It doesn't feel like a complete story, and the author has actually said that books 6 & 7 are much more connected than the previous volumes. I enjoy book 6, but I don't think I'll understand how much, or how little until I read the final volume. Though there is one storyline in the 6th book (which I won't describe here), which makes me glow every time I think of it.

Anyways...I should get to it.

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   Friday, May 4, 2007

I was busy doing random stuff on Wednesday. Wednesday night I chatted with Bobby, and read a lot of Harry Potter 5. I didn't spot Corey online, but he's having a stressful week at work, so I'm not surprised. I also talked to Mollie, who isn't having the best of luck at her job. Apparently, most of her coworkers are in High School, are obsessed with beauty pageants, and are deeply religious, including the gay boy she works with, who has an older boyfriend - I guess they're allowed to be gay as long as they don't fuck. lol Whatever. Oral sex is sodomy too.

Thursday, I was early to work again, after getting very little sleep. I worked over again too. I got to see Chris though, and apparently her school fucked up her credits and so she won't be graduating like she should be!?! Mark & I gave her lots of hugs, and Bryan too, who had a bad day.

After work, Mark & I went to Meijer to get my drugs, plus a new toaster and a blender. We saw Yvette Tower & Karen Edwards, which was fun. I should find some time to hang out with them sometime soon. Carrie and I are talking about hanging out as well.

After Meijer, Mark took me to see his new work space, which is really nice, though it's a bit farther out that the older location. There are all these fancy churches all over the place, but the people are pretty spread out, so I don't know why they need so many. I'm referring now, to out in the country, where Mark's new office is. It's weird.

I was exhausted and went to bed as soon as I got home. I woke up around 12:30am. I downloaded the new Smallville while reading my e-mail. I took my prilosec, and read some more Harry Potter; I'm nearly finished with less than 200 pages now, so I'm slowing down a bit. I ate, and watched Smallville; only 2 more episodes this season, which I think is easily their best so far. I watched a Legion of Superheroes episode; the season is over with and while I don't love the show (or hate it) I thought I might watch the rest of the season. We'll see.

I have to work today, and I'm hoping to be early again, and I'll probably work over again as well. I'll get to see DJ today for the first time in a couple of weeks.

I saw a new Harry Potter 5 poster which rocked.

Spider-Man 3 is open now. I want to see it, but I'm not sure when or if I'll see it in the theater.

There's a new episode of Doctor Who on Saturday which looks cool, and apparently ties into the larger arc of the season. It's the last new episode for 2 weeks, so I hope it's fantastic. It has to be better than that crappy Dalek / New York story from the last 2. Blah.

You may have noticed at this point that I'm rambling so I'm just going to stop while I'm almost ahead.

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   Saturday, May 5, 2007

Was early to work, late to leave, and I've outsold all my coworkers, including my managers ;-0) I'm so weird. I'm either late or early, but seldom on time. What's up with that? lol Work was boring, but fun. Josh Herter stopped in, and I worked with DJ, Bryan, Mike, Alex, Pat, Bill & Nate.

I rented the first disc of Stargate: Atlantis. I tried watching Stargate SG-1 when it first started and thought it was horrible. I know a lot of people that really love it though, so I thought I might give it another shot, only we don't have the first disc at our store. Then I thought I'd try to get into Atlantis, as we have the first 2 seasons, and if I like it, maybe the show that spawned it will appeal to me more. I also rented the pilot and first disc of Babylon 5. I've tried to watch this show in the past, but couldn't get into it. I'm going to try again, as we have the entire series at work, plus 2 of the movies, and if I could watch the whole series for free, in order, then even if I don't like it in the end, I can at least discuss it with people that have seen it. Corey likes both I think, so I thought it would be cool to talk to him about them.

I slept after work, and woke up around 12:30am. There was a voicemail on my phone from my friend Karen Edwards, who said that our friend Adam (who I dated briefly about 9 years ago) were going to Necto and that they'd like it if I joined them. I got ready super quick and got there a little after 1am. I also knew that Kristopher was going to be there, and while I did see him, it was kind of strained as there was major drama brewing. I did meet his girlfriend though, who was really pretty, but kind of bitchy - something was going on there that I didn't understand, so I'm not holding that against her.

It was great seeing Karen and Adam; I bought us all a shot. Adam wanted a kiss, but I didn't know how Corey would feel about me kissing an ex-bf, even if it was just for old time's sake, so I turned him down gently. I wandered the bar and ran into Kris's friend Shane, who I chatted with online a few weeks ago. I met his friend Caleb, and they were both so hot (especially Shane) that I had my picture taken with them. Then Caleb took a picture of me with Karen and Adam. It was fun.

As the night went on, there was major sparkage with Shane, but I told him about Corey; that I was kind of seeing someone but that he (Shane) was a hottie. We hung out for what remained of the night, and we said goodnight there was a kiss. But since I'd not slept with him before, and he knew that I was seeing someone, I figured this wasn't a big deal, and it was a nice night out.

On the way to my car I got hit on. There's this couple that comes into Hollywood on Sunday nights. They just look fantastic together. I saw one of them in passing inside the bar, and said hello to him. Well, his boyfriend, or possibly ex-bf called out to me from his parked car and tried to hook up with me. I told him I was flattered, because I was - this guy is really hot - but that I wasn't seeing someone, and I asked him about his boyfriend as well. He told me that he and his boyfriend are one of those couples that are on again off again, and not to worry about them. I said goodnight, and he made some pretty suggestive remarks, which were flattering, but I got in my car and came home.

Mark listened to my stories, and then I stumbled upstairs. I sent Corey an e-mail. I sent some My Space Messages, and some comments. Then I wrote this.

I'm a bit tired. I think I'm going to jackoff, shower and get some more sleep. But don't hold me to that. lol

I only have a few pictures left on this roll of film, so maybe I can get some pictures tomorrow and get it developed on Monday. I may also go visit my Grandparents and sisters on Monday. We'll see.

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I didn't get to bed until after 9am; possibly 10. I was exhausted, but I just couldn't sleep. I turned down the AC, which helped a lot, as it always does, and I slept until around 4:30pm. I had really weird dreams. I dreamt that I ran into this girl T, at a party, and her husband C was there, and their son was missing. They don't have a son, as far as I know, but their son looked just like C's little brother did when he was just a kid. It was really weird, and there was a bunch of other stuff going on, but it was all very stylized, with lots of detail and everything was beautiful...like one of the Scott brothers had directed it. ;-0)

When I woke up, I brushed my teeth, started downloading the new Doctor Who, and started responding to my e-mail messages. I still have one more to go. Then I can eat, maybe watch the new Who with Mark, and then we have to do customer billing. yay.

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   Wednesday, May 9, 2007

Saturday night, my stomach freaked out, the way that it sometimes does, and I didn't do much of anything. I think I finished Harry Potter 5 on Saturday, or early Sunday. I also tried watching the first episode of Stargate: Atlantis, but I had rented the wrong disc.

Sunday, I got about 4 hours sleep, if that. Sometimes the shower running will wake me up, and other times I sleep right through it. I don't know why, but the shower woke me up that day. I couldn't get back to sleep. I had made plans with Janice to visit our grandmother's house on Monday, so I thought this might not be a bad thing; I could stay up, go to work, sleep when I got home, so I'd be awake on Monday.

Sunday night I closed the store with Pat. Everything ran pretty smoothly. I know someone else worked with us for a few hours, but I can't remember who. It was a blur of returns and people. I do remember Nate stopped in. We got everything done that we needed to. But during the night, I got a call from my sister saying that she had a horrible head cold, as did one of her sons, and that our grandparents were just getting over another illness, so we cancelled - not wanting to make our grandparents conditions any worse. I rented to correct disc of Stargate: Atlantis that night.

All through Saturday & Sunday there was an exchange of e-mails with Shane, the boy I saw at Necto on Friday. When I got home Sunday night there were more. And I found I couldn't sleep again. I sometimes get into patterns where I can't sleep, and was worried this was happening again. Some of it has to do with my acid reflux, which has been getting bad again, though I'm not certain why.

Monday I drove Mark to work, got gas in the car (OMJ - gas is so freaking expensive!) and dropped off my film. I've been taking pictures on this single role of film since December. I usually have 4 or 5 rolls developed at once, taken in a much shorter span of time; at least that was the norm last summer. I just haven't felt like having my picture taken lately, I guess. Anyways, my pictures would be done by 4pm. I went home, and tried to sleep. It wasn't working. I picked up my pictures at 4pm, then went home, but couldn't go to sleep, because I had to pick up Mark from work, then we had to go to Best Buy to get something for Mark. And then finally home...where I finally slept.

The phone woke me up around 10pm. It was Mollie, telling me she got into this great nursing program, and she'd quit her job at Little Caesars, which she hated beyond the telling of it. She says this training is for a job that's in high demand where she lives, but I can't help but worry about her getting another job. I mean, Mollie applied at a lot of crap jobs that were all hiring that didn't hire her. I know that she's happy about this decision, so I'm happy that she's happy, but I can't help thinking that she should have held on to the job she had, pathetic as it was, until she got another job. Hopefully it will all work out in the end.

I did get back to sleep for a few more hours. When I woke up early, I watched the pilot episode(s) of Stargate: Atlantis, which was mostly really cheesy, but featured some cool villains.

Tuesday, I was early to work, and late to leave. I worked with DJ, Jonathan, and later, Nate came in, as well as Bill. I didn't work over as much as I usually did. I changed my clothes early, and went outside to wait for Mark, while I talked to Mollie on the phone.

While I was working, I'd taken a call from the Packard Road Hollywood Video, about a customer of ours returning some 3 of our movies at the Packard Road location. Usually when this happens, they call us, then we look up who rented those movies, and call them, letting them know they made a mistake, and they need to go get those movies and return them to the correct store. This time I didn't do that, because my friend Mallory & her boss Tim were working at the Packard Road store that night, and I'd promised Mal that I'd give them some mashup cds months ago, but kept forgetting to go - so I offered to get the movies myself, which the customer appreciated.

When I got home from work, I ate, burned some cds, replied to some e-mail, and eventually went to visit my other Hollywood friends. I chatted with them for at little over 2 hours, which was fun. I gave them the cds, plus I gave Tim, the new NIN cd I had in the car (note to self - burn a new copy for the car!!!), which he was very grateful for. Tim & I have chatted in passing for years, but we've never gotten to sit down and talk, and while we didn't sit down this time, we had a lot more time this session, which was part of the reason I went there. Tim & his partner have been together for like 14 years or something like that, and this guy must be great, because Tim is really cool; I really want to meet his partner, and hopefully we'll all get along, because...well, I think Tim is fun.

While I was visiting at the store, there was a moment where they were busy, and I called Corey. I left him a message earlier, but I got through this time, and it was great to hear his voice. I can go for days without really missing him; I'm not obsessed with him or anything...but then I do really think about him, and I miss him a lot. He's been throught the wringer with his work lately, and he was resting up for the next volley...when I get my schedule for next week I'm going to call him and see if we can sort out a time when we can see each other again. ;-0)

I dropped those movies off back at my store, and got my boots, which I'd left there earlier, then I stopped by the Aut Bar briefly, and went home. I sent out some more e-mails. I updated my gay.com profile. I chatted a bit, but the updating of the profile took way longer than I expected. I finished the 3rd episode of Stargate: Atlantis. I went to bed around 10am on Wednesday. I slept until 4pm, which felt great. I might take a nap later as well. It rained all day, which made the condo darker, with the rain sounds helping to relax me.

When I woke up, I checked my e-mail, but there wasn't anything from Mollie, Carrie, Corey or Shane...or any of my other friends for that matter. Just random crap. Then I wrote this, which took way longer than it should have, as I'm still half asleep. Maybe I should go back to being fully asleep. That sounds great.

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   Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Since I haven't kept up with the blog this week, and I'm backtracking, expect there to be a bit of confusion. lol

On Thursday I worked. I also picked up a Doctor Who project that Bill was helping me with, but which I still haven't found the time to check out. I'd feel absolutely horrible about this, but I just helped Bill out in a big way, and I'm sure he understands the crazy business that is my life.

Friday I worked. I rented The Fountain for the first of several times over the weekend, and never watched it, though Mark did. I did watch Pan's Labyrinth though, which I thought was great. After work, one of our neighbors who's rarely seen, but always seems to me, to be hitting on me, asked Mark & I if we could drive him to his bank. He smelled like alcohol, and was so loud that he hurt Mark's ears. He kept pushing for us all to go to a bar, and said that he'd seen me at Necto a few times, but that he just doesn't go up to people. We dropped him off at his bank, and then we went home, where I stayed in most of the night. I did rent some porn later, remembering that I had some free rentals slots, and that they'd be due back on Monday, which I had off.

Saturday. I did some Bitserve stuff, which hasn't been happening of late. Mark has doing most of the work, which he says is fine, as I got him out of his slump, but the downside for me, is that the check for $400.00 I'd be getting about now, most likely will be redused to $200.00, as I simply havn't been doing much in that department. Still, I don't love the job. Most of it is fine, but I have a problem dealing with people on the phone, as in...I don't want to do it. At all. lol

I think I talked to Shane on Saturday as well. And Corey & I made plans I think. I mean...I know these plans exist now, I just don't know when I made them. lol

Sunday night I had to work a bit over as the returns sucked so bad, but that was less annoying than it could have been, as Carrie came in to visit me, which was fun. I took back the porn after work. When I got home I watched the new "Desperate Housewives" & "Brothers & Sisters"; both of which made me cry.

Somewhere within all these blurred together days (this is why I should keep up with the blog at all times!) I finished Harry Potter 5, read Trek for a few days, and decided I couldn't wait for HP6 and dived in.

Monday I had off, and slept. Then when Mark got home I went to the party store, then to visit with Adam, Carrie & Jennifer. Stopped by the video store to see Mallory, where I met Josh, who I've spoken to on the phone plenty of times. Then came home and ate, and got ready for Necto. Went to Aut Bar first, then Necto where I danced and danced some more with my friend Rachel. I had a few drinks, had a few laughs. We started calling people we know at random, which I'm not sure why that was...but we did. I started missing Corey, which is weird because we've never gone out and done anything, so it's not like I'm used to having him around on such occasions. Wacky. I left a bit early and hit Aut Bar again, where I ran into some more friends. Then headed home where I played Marvel Ultimate Alliance, ate, and read more Harry Potter. I have about 150 pages left (which means I'll most likely be finishing it tomorrow), and then I'm screwed until book 7 comes out, 66 days from now.

Lucas called me in the early Tuesday hours. He was in Chicago, driving home, having made it through another round of auditions for RENT (which have been ongoing for a considerable amount of time now), and he has high hopes that he has won the part of Mark!?! I hope he gets it. Lucas hurt me with his behavior, but we've developed an odd sort of friendship on the phone and online, which I'm glad we have. I don't count on him to be anywhere that he says he will. I don't believe him when he says he'll be somewhere, but I trust the rest of what he says. It's an odd sort of friendship I guess.

Tuesday. Slept some more. Sleep is something that I've been cherishing more as I age. Mostly because it can affect the way my stomach works - sleeplessness can mean that my acid is high, and can also mean that it will be getting worse as I've had little rest. So I never feel bad about sleeping, which I might have in the past. I've also been drinking a lot of water in the last couple of days. I was drinking a lot of dairy stuff over the last month, and my stomach didn't love it, though my taste buds did...but the water is good. I mostly drink water & cranberry juice, with a little bit of soda, a little bit of alcohol, and nothing much else.

Tonight Mark & I are seeing Hypnogaja play at the Blind Pig. I told Lucas about it when I was on the phone with him and he asked if he could come. I told him that would be fine, but I don't really expect him to be there. I probably should have told a million people about this show, but I just suck at that kind of thing. Plus, I'm not a planner. I was going to ask Corey to go, but when we made plans on Saturday it sounded like he'd be pretty busy or not have the cash or something, so I didn't. I'd ask Shane to go, but he has bad ears and doesn't like live music. I don't love live music myself (which is why I didn't attend last night's Morrisey concert), but I know these guys and I don't get to see them that often.

So Wednesday, Thursday & Friday I work. Friday night I believe I'm hanging out with Shane & then going to Necto. Saturday Corey is coming over and staying until Sunday (which I requested off for the occasion).

Also somewhere within the days in this entry, I got some more poetry written. 1 for Shane (who afterwards said that he loved it and that I really understand him, and that he's never been able to say that to anyone before!), 2 for Corey (which he liked though he found them a bit odd, and said they don't paint him in the most flattering light - though I didn't think of them that way) - so mostly positive reviews, which made me feel great. There were other random poems as well. I hope more will be written soon.

Blah. I'm doing some laundry, and I should shave and shower. I think I might skip the shaving today. I'll probably be sending Mollie's care package tomorrow; that's the plan anyways. I'm going to eat now.

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   Wednesday, May 16, 2007

I found I had voicemails from Corey, Mollie & Jennifer after the last entry, so I called them all back. Corey & I had a fun, if brief conversation about our plans for the week. And we talked about Stargate, which oddly enough, I knew more about than he did; at least the history of the show and the movie. I'm looking forward to spending more time with him this weekend. Mollie told me how she aced her 2nd test, only she has to retake it because everyone else failed and they put it to a vote; she's not worried about having any trouble with the next one though. She was watching "Pan's Labyrinth" when I called, and she let me go so she could finish that one. Jennifer didn't answer of course, as we keep missing each other. lol She might hang out with me Thursday night.

I played more Marvel Ultimate Alliance, then ate and visited with Mark. We just hung out in my room and chatted. I read my e-mail. I uploaded some new pictures to myspace. I got ready for the bar pretty early, but moved slower than usual when it was time to go.

Mark dropped me off at the Blind Pig a bit late. He couldn't come to the show because of the problems he has with his lungs; he avoids smokey environments if at all possible. Jason & Mark (from the band) greeted me just after I entered the bar, and asked about Mark & Mollie, and I explained why they weren't there. They both told me to say hello to Mollie for them. They're in town for a week, and want to hang out with me, so we might hang out tomorrow night, or Thursday. They want to see Spider-Man 3, get some dinner, and go to Aut Bar to drink. Sounds like it could be fun. The show was great, if short, and my cousin Phillip was there to see another band that was playing, as he knew a guy (named Justin?) who was in the band, and I got to meet him too.

After the show, I bought some Hypnogaja stuff, and talked to the guys some more. They looked exhausted, and I had more to do at home, so I said goodnight, and wandered outside, where I called Mark to let him know I was ready for my ride home. While I waited I called a dozen people, who were either asleep or just not answering. I felt like a hooker out there on the sidewalk. Mark arrived soon enough, and we headed home.

We got Mollie care package mostly ready to go (this one is kind of massive); I think she'll love it. I chatted with Shane on the phone for a bit, but I was starving so I let him go so I could eat. I went to my room and read the last 150 pages of Harry Potter 6. Even if I had the final book; I probably wouldn't start it right away. Maybe I'd start it tomorrow, and I'm sure I'll be aching for it in a few hours, but it feels good to stop there for now...which is good, since I don't have any choice in the matter. lol

I'm still doing laundry. I'm dead tired, so I should probably get some sleep before work. Then after work I'll have to try to hook up with my L.A. friends. Thursday I'm hopefully seeing Jennifer, and maybe the L.A. crowd. Friday I'm hanging with Shane. Saturday / Sunday it's Corey's turn, and maybe a bit more Jennifer; she's never met anyone I dated while I was dating them; not since Mark anyways, and that was a long ass time ago.

My head hurts.

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   Thursday, May 17, 2007

Most of yesterday kind of sucked, but was redeemed in the final quarter. My head still hurt. I hurt my back, when I tripped and caught myself on the stairs. It was chilly out. And then it got worse from there when I tried to get some sleep and got a call from my sister. I drove Mark to work and was going to send Mollie's package, but that kind of fell apart as well. Thankfully, the bad stuff passed faster than I thought possible (though it felt like a lot longer), I was able to pick Mark up, sleep, and still hang out with Jason & Mark from L.A. I met up with them at Aut Bar around 10:30, and stayed passed closing time. I had an interestingly fruity drink called a "Leg Spreader"; lol. I got to talk to the guys a lot, which was great, and we made some new friends as well. I made sure to call Mollie but she didn't answer - Mark from L.A. & I left Mollie a nice message though.

We went to Pizza House after the bar, and had still more fun. Lots of really good hugs goodbye ;-0) We might hang out tonight as well. I've been trying to get in touch with Jennifer, since I was hoping to hang out with her as well, but I haven't heard back from her, though I've left her a few messages. After I eat in a few minutes, I'll try her again.

I managed to get about 6 hours of sleep when I got home last night, and get my works clothes washed as well. I got up ontime, and I'll probably be early to work today, which is good. Today is shaping up to be much better than yesterday (if I haven't jinxed it by saying that. lol) It still looks kind of yucky out though.

I ordered a used copy of Stargate SG-1, season 1 this morning. One that didn't include the box art (something I'd throw away anyways), from a seller that had 99% positive rating on half.com, and no negative scores, just a couple neutral ones to bring them down. I tried to watch the show when it first aired but didn't like it. I've heard from fans that the first season just isn't that good, but if I'm going to watch a show I really like to see it in order, and we don't have the first disc of the show at work. I payed just over $20.00 for the first season, which is more than $20.00 cheaper than on amazon. On Amazon I bought the movie for exactly the same price that they sell it at work, only I get kickbacks by ordering it through gothboy.com.

The season finale of Smalleville is on tonight, which I'll probably watch tomorrow morning.

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   Friday, May 18, 2007

I was early to work yesterday; I took an abbreviated lunch, as a customer needed help that only I could provide (Star Trek help, lol), and I worked more than an hour over, I think. I had some really horrible customers. But I managed to stay in good spirits. I worked with Bill, John, Matt & Alex.

After work, Mark & I cleaned a bit, and later Jennifer came over and we caught up on each others' lives. Jennifer has lost a lot of weight, and she has braces, until February. We had a blast, but I think we were all tired. After she left, with my copy of Harry Potter 3 in her hand, I chatted with Corey briefly. Later I went to Aut Bar, not having heard from my L.A. friends, thinking they might be there, but they weren't. I talked to Mollie on the phone, and laughed it up a bit, then chatted with Corey some more, before watching the somewhat disappointing Smallville season finale, and going to sleep.

I woke up a few times, and got out of bed around 5:30am. Not a lot of sleep, but I can't seem to drift back off. I think I might go get some groceries now; I should have gone last night. Or maybe I'll just makeup a list. We'll see. I'll call in my prescription for Prilosec. If I can't get anymore sleep before work, I'll call Shane and see if we can't just meet at Necto, so I can get some sleep after work.

I work today, but then I have Saturday-Tuesday off.

I feel like May 18th is a day I should remember for some reason, but I'm not sure what it is.

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   Saturday, May 19, 2007

I was ready for work over an hour early on Friday. I had managed to get a few more hours sleep, and though I was still very tired, I figured I'd just soldier on through the day. I sent Shane an e-mail letting him know I was planning on sleeping after work, and asking if we could just meet later at Necto. He said he was extremely tired too, and we changed our plans so we can hang out on Monday instead. That was good news.

I dropped Mark off at his work when he came to get me at 12:30pm. I went to Kroger and bought some Gas X, which I'd never taken in my life before, but seemed appropriate. It wasn't. Apparently my acid reflux didn't like it, and everything started coming back up at work. I wasn't in any pain, but it was gross. I was going to stick it out. I sold a bundle and some play guards, I went to the bank for Bryan, and then it got worse. The store was dead, and there were 3 other people there (Bryan, Meg & Alex); I talked to Mark on the phone and he said he could drive me home, or get a ride if I drove myself, and I went home shortly after.

I wanted to lay down, but I had to sit up for a couple hours, until the worst had passed. This is my life I kept thinking. This is what my life has become, and I just accept it. Eventually I laid down and got more sleep, and felt a lot better when I got a call from Mark asking if I could come pick him up after all. I picked up Mark, then we went to Meijer, Kroger & K-Mart, before coming home. I ate. We talked to Mollie on the phone, and that went well. I slept some more. Mollie called me back, and told me some disturbing stories involving man-eating pussycats, people too stupid to notice a fire just next to them, and dreams about her past life in a coal mine. Seriously. That wasn't a dream I had. lol And then I was up.

I started reading the first Star Trek: New Frontier book: "House of Cards". It's a bit better than I remember it being, but it's taking me an awful long time to read a book so small. We'll see how that goes.

As I was typing this Shawn Foreman signed on to yahoo messenger and now we're chatting away. That's nice. ;-0)

I think Carrie graduates today, but I'm not sure. I gave the announcment thing she gave me to Mark to look at and he didn't give it back. If you're reading this Carrie, Congrats!!!

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I finally finished the hardest setting of Marvel Ultimate Alliance! I was thinking of maybe hooking up AVP2 to all the computers in the condo so maybe we could play with Corey tonight or tomorrow. I'm super exhausted though. I need to turn the air down in here; it's kind of hot. blah.

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I worked on my new picture galleries some more this morning, before falling into bed around 11am. I'm happy with the way they're working out. They are so much larger than the last ones, and I think I've managed to give them a new look and feel, even when using older pictures. I still need lots of new pictures to mix it up with the older ones though. There are already about 94 new pictures (mostly from 06, some from 07, and a few random older ones that just never got posted before) in just the first 6 pages of photos, as those are the only ones I've done so far.

I slept from 11am-4pm. I took a bath. I talked to Mark about the AVP2 game idea and he liked that. I need to go to Walgreens and see if they got my prilosec prescription in; if not, then I'll just have to buy the over the counter variety. I also need to pick up some more earplugs. Oh...and I need some duel layer dvdrs! I should clean my room a bit... and I should get the new Doctor Who that was on today.

Corey should be here in about 3 hours.

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I swear I'm cursed. Anytime I plan anything (without 3 months or more advanced notice) it falls apart...or explodes. Sometimes, even with the advanced notice it all crumbles away.

One of the things that I liked about Corey when I met him online a few years back, was his online profile, and what it said he was looking for. Here's a quote from his current profile concerning what he's looking for in a guy:

"you say you are gonna do something do it dont make excuses about why not or why you cant just do it"

Corey can't make it again. He was really close this time. He was half way here when he got the call from his ex-bf roomie Michael who was crying and wouldn't tell him why. Corey gave me a call letting me know he was going back home to see what was going on (which was dejavu all over again for me), then called me back later to tell me Michael's mom had a stroke, and Corey's now driving Michael up north to see his mother. Last time Corey was going to come over he cancelled because Michael had called him crying because he was so sick. I'm sure he was very sick, and that his mother is very ill - I don't hate him or disbelieve him or anything...it's just really annoying, and I'm disappointed and whiney. It doesn't help that almost everytime that Corey has been here he tells me a new story about how Michael treats him like crap. Michael lies to him. Michael actually spit on him once, as they were going into work! He also hooked up with a guy that Corey had met first, and then when the guy treated Corey badly, Michael didn't defend him. Everytime I plan on us doing anything new it doesn't happen. First it was a gallery show of my friend's, which we didn't make it to. Last time it was going to Necto on Factory Night. This time I was going to introduce him to some friends from out of town.

I kind of get it though. I'm sure people who've read my blog wonder how Mark & I are friends when we have really bad fights and often don't get along. Michael & Corey hang out and do there things together...it's not like they are enemies. I just...I put a lot of effort and planning into having everything perfect for when Corey's here, and then 3 times out of 5 or 6 or whatever...he's cancelled. If he hadn't cancelled tonight he would have gotten here 30 minutes ago. :-0(

Mark installed AVP2 on all the computers and fixed the bugs in them, just so he, Corey & I could all play the game together, because Corey likes video games. Mark likes Corey, last I checked, which is rare, but I'm afraid Mark will start disliking him as he sees me getting hurt like this, and that will just make everything worse. I took Sunday off of work so I could spend time with Corey. I'm not complaining that I have the weekend off...

I'm disappointed.

End of story.

Or not.

If Michael is reading this, I'm very sorry that you were feeling ill awhile back, and that your mother isn't doing well; I sincerely wish you both the best of health, and I'm completely jealous of the times you've spent with Corey when he'd planned to be with me.

If Corey is reading this, I hope you're safe and rested and stress free, and as disappointed as I am. And I hope you find some fantastic way to reverse all this shit and make it up to me. :-0)

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I drove out to Walgreens and they did have my drugs. I also got push pins and earplugs. lol I'm still in a kind of funk of denial about Corey not being here. When I was leaving the drug store parking lot, I thought to myself: "Hey, I could go visit Mollie while I'm out here. She always makes me smile.". Only I remembered that she doesn't live here anymore and that just made it all worse. :-0( Though if I tell her that story later it might make her laugh a bit, which would make me smile.

Mark & I might watch the new Doctor Who in a while. He's playing a video game right now. Hooking up AVP2 apparently got his game boy on. That's cute.

There's plenty to do actually, sort of, kind of...it just all seems like a substitute for what I really want to be doing. Less than. Blah.

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   Sunday, May 20, 2007

I went to gay.com last night, and Corey was there. He was at Michael's parents' home, while Michael & his father visited Michael's mother. The conversation we had was odd. I'm not sure what I felt, or said. It was strange.

I also saw Adam P. from Ferndale online. I haven't chatted with him in a couple of years, and it's been longer since I've seen him. He said he wanted me to write to him, and I intend to. I was just leaving gay.com though. Mark & I watched the new Doctor Who episode, which was better than the last few installments; there were moments that felt like really fantastic Doctor Who.

Meanwhile, Mollie watched the entire first season of the new Doctor Who yesterday. She loves it, which pleases me. She was going to start the 2nd season, but I haven't heard back from her about it. Hopefully she enjoys it just as much. I think she'll enjoy Torchwood as well.

I'm still slowly reading the first New Frontier book. I'm finding I like it far more than I remembered. I'm torn on how I should be reading the books...but I'm trudging through. I feel like I should be reading more.

Mark & I might take some pictures today. It would be great to have more pictures for my galleries. I was hoping to get some with Corey this weekend, but that's not happening now. Hopefully I can get a really great mix for 2007. That would rock.

I'm really very tired, but I can't seem to sleep. Not all that shocking really, is it?

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   Thursday, May 24, 2007

The week so far has been mostly low key. Gas prices are so high I find myself trying to not spend money. Been reading, watching Ugly Betty, and chatting. I haven't spoken to Corey in a few days. I'm not sure how we're doing...or if we're even a "we" at all. I hope we are. I mean...I like him, and want to see more of him, but that doesn't seem possible lately. :-0( Hopefully that changes, and we'll see each other again soon? I don't know.

I got back in touch with Sean Mobley this week. I hadn't spoken to him in 5 years. The last message he sent me was beyond cruel and I've been pissed off at him so long, that when I thought about him the other day and realized I wasn't mad anymore, I wrote about him. Then I tracked him down on myspace, and sent him a message with the poem, and he sent me a nice reply, and it appears we may develope some type of friendship, which would be great.

Mollie is doing great in her nursing program. I haven't really heard from Carrie so I don't know how she's doing. I spoke to Adam online a few days ago, and he 'sounded' like he's doing well. Mark has a cat scan on Friday. It's possilbe that the problems he's had breathing lately have something to do with an enlarged thyroid. If that's the case it could have some really serious side effects, but at least Mark would know what was causing him so much trouble, which would give him peace of mind... we'll just hold together and see what happens.

I worked yesterday. I work today & tomorrow. I have Saturday off. I work Sunday. I have Mon-Tuesday off. I work Wednesday-Friday. blah.

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I got some more sleep. I woke Mark up for work. I was thirsty and I got something to drink, then fell, with the drink down the stairs. lol I'm so fucking clumsy. This is how I will die. Besides that, I had to clean up the mess, and I had a sty which exploded in my eyeball, so I'm kind of blind today. lol

I watched more Ugly Betty. Probably finish the first season tonight. There are so many funny lines I think Mollie would like. Maybe I'll send her a digital dvd of them. And it's quite possibly the GAYest show, ever, in a good way. ;-)

I got some writing done last night. And I fooled around on myspace for longer than I have in ages. I'm eating, then I have to get ready for work. I might wear my shades; it depends on how my eye reacts to bright light. I'm like a gremlin. lol

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   Friday, May 25, 2007

Mark's being a dick. Big surprise, huh?

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   Sunday, May 27, 2007

About the last entry: Mark was being a dick, as I said. But the reason he was being a dick (and I knew this at the time before confronting him on it) was that he was stressed out about going to the doctor on Friday, and also about his day job, in which his boss has proved to be a complete moron. When I did talk to him later, and guessed correctly, he gave me a hug, and said that I know him all too well. lol

Since then, I've finished my Star Trek book and started the next. I'm rather enjoying the New Frontier this time, which is fantastic because there are like 15 books in that series, and I have them all. I also finished watching the first season of Ugly Betty, which had quite the cliffhanger.

On Saturday, Mark showed me how to take "The Ride": the local public transportation system. It was fun, if a bit confusing. I've never really used anything like that, except the subways and things while on vacation. I'm kind of excited about knowing how it all works and stuff. A very handy tool, which most people probably take for granted, and I've just never caught on to, as I have no common sense. Also, I've always had a car, and still do, but with gas being so expensive this seems like a sensible alternative. ;-0)

Later, Mark installed a double layer dvd burner in my computer, which seems to work wonders. Now I can burn home movies and stuff for my friends. Yay ;-0)

I slept for several hours, and then woke Mark up as well, so we could watch the latest installment of Doctor Who. The episode "Human Nature" was fantastic, and is part I of II. I have all these theories running around in my head about what is actually going on in the episode, and the episode to come. The episode we've seen was filled with continuity to episodes past, making this one my favorite episode of the season. If part II is as good as part I that would be really great. :-0)

I still believe that Season 1 of the new Doctor Who is my favorite; it holds together so well! Season 2 had some flaws along the way, but some real gems, including my favorite episode of the series: "The Girl In The Fireplace". The season ended with a bang, that very nearly broke my heart in two. The 2nd Christmas Special, Torchwood Season 1, and the Sarah Jane Adventures pilot episode were welcome additions to the Whoniverse, but Season 3, much like Season 2, has been a rather mixed bag for me. The first 3 episodes ("Smith & Jones", "The Shakespear Code" & "Gridlock") had moments that I loved, but there was nothing outstanding about them. The 4th & 5th episodes ("Daleks in Manhattan" & "Evolution of the Daleks"), while looking great, with very cool special effects, were dreadful, and are easily my least favorite episodes of the new Whoniverse. The 6th & 7th episodes ("The Lazarus Experiment" & "42") got better and better, but were still just average kind of episodes with a moment or two of greatness. This new episode though, felt like the start of something amazing; I hope it lasts. There are only 5 more episodes this season: "The Family of Blood", "Blink", "Utopia", "The Sound of Drums" & "Last of the Time Lords"; I have high hopes for all of them now. :-0)

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   Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Work Sunday night was very busy, but it wasn't very stressful - though I was tired when I was done. I've begun watching the older Doctor Who episodes, and browsing others. I wish we had more of them at work, but for what's been released, we do have a good assortment.

I've also been continuing with those New Frontier books, and will most likely finish the 4th one today. I'm still enjoying them, and I'm looking forward to reading more Trek in the near future. I'm really glad I decided to go back and read the books that I own, and that I've saved money in doing so.

I chatted with Corey yesterday. He was watching a Doctor Who marathon on BBC, featuring the five episodes of Doctor Who that introduced Captain Jack Harkness. This a week before they begin airing Torchwood; obviously meant to set up the until now, unaired in the U.S. series. I couldn't help thinking that I owned those episodes until Corey lost them. Though I'm pleased that he's become a fan, and wasn't just humoring me. ;-0)

I have today off. I forsee more reading and more watching of Who. I rented a disturbing amount of it. lol After I see the episodes we have at our store, I might try to find more at others, or purchase some online. It would be neat to have seen the entire series that's available, as the newer episodes do, now & again, reference the older material. The last new episode that aired ("Human Nature") featured drawings of 5 previous incarnations of the Doctor. ;-0)

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