Sunday, March 9, 2008

Friday was a wonderful day. Except for 2 things. 1 was that the final 2 discs for Mollie refused to burn. I wasted like 10 discs on it; though I'm almost certain it was the discs themselves. Blah. That made me rethink Mollie's new dvd set, but it actually probably worked out for the best. She's still getting those stories, with a subtle loss of quality (and no bonus features) but she's also getting a larger chunk of Doctor Who, as the way I reworked things she was able to get 10 more serials, giving her all the 3rd & 4th Doctors, the final story of the 2nd Doctor, plus the 5th Doctor stories that she lacks! So that all turned out just fine, and will hopefully be sent out on Monday.

The other thing that went wrong was of a medical nature. I had a doctor's appointment last Monday that was a followup to a previous appointment, in which my doc set me up with a higher dose of a med that wasn't working for me, which I didn't expect to work...only it did. So I was really happy to go and tell her that all the drugs I'm taking now are working and it was just a great visit. No drama or sickness or anything. But Friday morning I got this weird message from her saying she wanted to talk to me, which just never happens. I didn't have any tests done so she couldn't be telling me I was dying or anything...but it was still odd. Turns out the new meds that are working great for my headaches can, if taken with meds I'm taking to make my stomach happy, cause this syndrome that do all kinds of icky damage to me. Yeah. So my blissful med life, which has always been anything but, was never meant to last, and I now have to give up the migrain meds. :-0(

Besides that, Friday was great. I worked with Bryan, John, Meg, DJ, Amanda, Michael, & Pat. If I'm forgetting anyone; it's not intentional. I was in a great mood by the end of the day. Just a lot of laughing and running around and talking to the customers and my friends. It was a good time. And I worked over. I actually worked over every day that I worked last week.

After work on Friday I went to Meijer to get some perscriptions filled, and to the Party Store for some wrapping paper for Mollie's stuff...and then the comic store to get the new Buffy/Angel comics...and WOW - the latest issue of Buffy was the best one yet!!! I can't even tell you how great the dialogue and the stuff that happens are! It's written by Drew Goddard who wrote my 2 favorite Season 7 episodes, so I guess it's not that surprising, but it was a great surprise. All of Season 8 has been a joy, so loving a single issue more than the others is high praise indeed, and this is only issue 1 of 4! And this issue, and certain plot-lines therein, found their way into the New York Times! Crazy. :-0)

I took a nap after reading Buffy. Then I ate and watched an episode of Batman Beyond with Mark, before jumping in the shower, getting ready, and joining Michael, Mat & Erica at Necto. I saw lots of people I know (like always) and I had a mostly fun time, though the music sucked beyond the telling of it. It's just not my kind of music; I'm sure the majority of people there loved it...I just don't quite fit in on gay night, and I never have, and that's ok. It was great to see Michael. Oh, and Nate & Paul were there. Nifty.

I came home after the bar. I had expected that Michael would join me, but he was driving Erica home, and that was cool too. I don't remember what I did after the bar which probably means that I slept. lol.

Saturday I had a migrain, with the whole sparkly lights / spots before my eyes & arm going numb thing so I took my Midrin and a hot shower and thankfully it worked like a charm, but it left me feeling like I was in Limbo ('and not the one with the fun poles' as Michael would say later). It wasn't a terrible feeling at all...I just didn't accomplish a lot. lol. I did watch last week's episode of The L Word which rocked beyond the telling of it; only 3 episodes left for the season, and 1 of them is on tonight.

Later, I got Mollie's package up to snuff; Mark just has to wrap some stuff, then we seal the big box and send it on it's way on Monday. Mollie's in for a big treat. A big treat that nearly killed me to make, so I'm gonna take a break now. lol

After that I shaved and had Michael over for a visit of fantastic fucking, and then conversationg, DS9 (I think I might rewatch DS9 again) and Firefly. Michael seemed way interested in DS9. He liked it when he was a kid, but didn't understand a lot of it, so I was explaining a lot of stuff, and he seemed to like that, which was a lot of fun for me. :-0)

I eventually cuddled with him in my bed in the dark, but then he got up and left. I had wanted him to stay, as I was feeling all comfortable with him, but I figured he probably had other stuff he needed to do...so I didn't worry about it, and I went back to sleep.

I woke up a few times. I had some crazy dreams. I was jogging. Or maybe I was racing? And I took a break in this kind of random jungle gym thing where this guy obviously liked me and we just fucked right there. I have no idea who this person was; I mean...I don't think he really exists; I don't know him, and I don't remember seeing him in any movie; it was just...odd. But it was like this happy, sunny, thing that happened in my dream, which I was completely ok with. lol. And the dream left me in a good mood when I woke up.

So here I am. Updating the blog. I'm hungry. And I want to do some reading. I work tonight. Michael is working with Mark later, and might be here when I get home. Maybe we can watch more DS9 & Firefly? That would be neat. I have Monday, Wednesday, Thursday & Saturday off. One of those days I'll hopefully be hanging out with my friend Bobby. The other days I don't have a lot going on. I'm supposed to hang out with Elvis sometime soon. Just 4 episodes of Torchwood left; one of which is on this Wednesday.

Food. Now. Please. lol

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Michael came over this afternoon, but I wasn't feeling very well. He worked with Mark while I tried to sleep. Not easy when you're puking up apple chunks, which (if this is possible) is far more gross than it sounds...and did I mention painful? I did get to sleep though and I feel way better now.

I woke up. Burned a cd for work. Michael left but is coming back after I get off work to watch some stuff. I realized I was gonna be late so I called work (my clothes are still damp and in the dryer). I showered and all that; just waiting for my clothes now.

I noticed Mark hadn't wrapped Mollie's presents. He told me he'd do it before Monday so I told him not to forget and then he said he'd try to get to them. I reminded him that he told me that he'd do it today, and he said he didn't say that. And that he has work to do and a movie to watch before he could do that. A movie that I rented for him to watch, which isn't due back until Wednesday. I thought it was weird that he was using the movie as an excuse when he can watch the movie anytime, but the package needs to go out on Monday. I told him if the movie was a problem I can take it back and recheck it out so he could have more time with it. And I said that I resented that the movie was taking precidence over Mollie's gift, and he said that it does!?! I took the movie to my room to return so I could check it back out to him, and then he told me I could wrap everything myself then (because that makes sense). I warned him that I was going to slam my door & to cover his ears, as it hurts him when people slam doors. The slamming of the door helped tremendously and I realized how much I miss slamming doors. It's such a great release! I considered not re-renting the movie for him in response to his outragious behavior but that feels kind of petty. And he's right. I can wrap them myself. And I've no reason to be upset. He lies all the time, which is why we're not a couple, and I should just be used to it. So I'm not gonna let this upset me or bring me down.

I feel good about myself :-0)

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   Monday, March 10, 2008

Work was fun last night. Working with Meg and Ruki was a blast. I 'sold' a lot of playguards and printed a lot of Zoltars. I sold some bundles. Hopefully it all means something. If not, I had a good time doing it. I had Little Caesars on break. It was all good.

After work, I went to the bank and to Krogers; picked up just a few things. Came home and Michael was already there, working with Mark. I took some time to unwind and then joined them. I had re-rented Mark's movie for him, and he watched an episode of Firefly with us, and he wrapped Mollie's gifts. Then he was off to bed, while Michael and I finished off that disc.

There was a sad moment during that first episode when I remembered laughing with Mollie at something in the episode. When I bought Firefly I watched the first 2 episodes before getting Mollie to watch it, but then we watched the rest of the show together; savoring every minute of it. It was something special we had together... And remembering it so clearly made me realize how much I really miss her.

Michael left shortly after that final episode ('Jaynestown'); he's exactly half way through the series, and then there's the movie. I read a bit after he left. I want to finish my Trek book this week. The new DS9 book coming out soon just got a rave review. Mollie might enjoy this one as it's all about how Cardassia came to occupy Bajor, and is the first of a trilogy that will cover the entire occupation; Mollie loves Cardassians. ;-0)

After reading I figured that I should pack Mollie's box up for sending today...and then found that the box wasn't big enough to hold all of Mollie's stuff. I panicked and tried 100 different variations but nothing worked. When I'd planned it out, I didn't make room for the new phone that Mark bought her...because that wasn't part of the original scheme...fuck. So we're working on the new box thing tonight I guess and sending it out tomorrow. So many fucking delays...it's driving me bonkers!

Oh well.

I slept. I woke up around 1pm. I watched the new L Word. Loved it. I do enjoy this season. I think it's my favorite one. They're doing a much better job with Jenny this year. Keeping her in line with last year, and yet defining her as more than just a caricature; it's good work. And despite dropping Pappi with no explanation everything else has felt right. Nice.

Then I read this news and wrote this. I'm going to read now.

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   Tuesday, March 11, 2008

I'm awake. Getting ready for work soon. Mark brought home a new box for Mollie, and we're shipping that out today (again). Maybe I shouldn't be writing that. Maybe it's cursed?

I have a new theory about how Season 4 of the Whoniverse is best viewed (by me). There are actually 2 ways to watch it. One is by series. 1st watching Sarah Jane, then Torchwood, then Who. But for a more integrated experience, my current theory goes like this:

TW 2x01 Kiss Kiss, Bang Bang
SJ 1x01 Invasion of the Bane
TW 2x02 Sleeper
TW 2x03 To the Last Man
TW 2x04 Meat
SJ 1x02 Revenge of the Slitheen I
SJ 1x03 Revenge of the Slitheen II
TW 2x05 Adam
DW 4x01 Partners in Crime
TW 2x06 Reset
DW 4x02 The Fires of Pompeii
TW 2x07 Dead Man Walking
DW 4x03 Planet of the Ood
TW 2x08 A Day in the Death
SJ 1x04 Eye of the Gorgon I
SJ 1x05 Eye of the Gorgon II
DW 4x04 The Sontaran Stratagem [Part I]
DW 4x05 ??? [Part II]
TW 2x09 Something Borrowed
DW 4x06 ???
SJ 1x06 Warriors of Kudlak I
SJ 1x07 Warriors of Kudlak II
TW 2x10 From Out of the Rain
DW 4x07 The Unicorn and the Wasp
TW 2x11 Adrift
DW 4x08 Silence in the Library [Part I]
DW 4x09 ??? [Part II]
SJ 1x08 Whatever Happened To Sarah Jane? I
SJ 1x09 Whatever Happened To Sarah Jane? II
TW 2x12 Fragments
DW 4x10 Midnight
SJ 1x10 The Lost Boy I
SJ 1x11 The Lost Boy II
TW 2x13 Exit Wounds
DW 4x11 ??? [Part I]
DW 4x12 ??? [Part II]
DW 4x13 ??? [Part III]
DW 4x14 ??? [Part IV] (2008 X-Mas Special)

Of course this theory is just that until the season plays itself out. There might be things that I don't know yet about episodes that have not aired yet, and we might have 1 or 2 more episodes, such as last year's surprise animated adventure, and the Children in Need special. But for now, I like how this one works out. For example, having 3 of The Sarah Jane Adventures air before Torchwood's "Reset", gives Martha Jones more time to grow from when we last saw her. Plus having those 3 Sarah Jane Adventures there, two of which directly reference The Doctor within that gap of 8 episodes without The Doctor appearing, is a nice way to keep him present, and keep things centered. And I like that "Invasion of the Bane" serves as a kind of break from what is essentially an 8 part story arc from "Captain Jack Harkness" through to "Kiss Kiss, Bang Bang". Having "Eye of the Gorgon", which references the old appearances on Classic Who of the Sontarans, air just before the new Doctor Who 2-parter that sees the Sontarans return seems to make sense and adds a bit of symetry to the proceedings. Also, airing "Eye of the Gorgon" between Martha Jones's final Torchwood episode and 1st new Who episode gives time for any transitions to occur. Ooh. And I like how Torchwood & Sarah Jane are spread throughout the season, and then Jack & Sarah will both return to who at Season's end. All 3 series uniting in the end. Yeah. And on a personal note (as if this whole thing isn't a personal note), if the Daleks return in the final installments of Season 4 (as they are rumored too) I like that this integrated list puts as many episodes as possible between that wretched Dalek 2-Parter from Season 3, and these new episodes; there should always be 50 or more episodes between Dalek stories; blah. I'm a geek with too much time, but I'm ok with that. lol

Torchwood's "From Out of the Rain" airs tomorrow night. :-0)

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Work was fun. Worked with DJ & Bryan mostly, and then Laura towards the end of my shift, and then with John for a few mintues. After working over, Mark picked me up and we sent Mollie's package by UPS.

There are more reports coming in about Torchwood returning for a 3rd Season but that the show's format will have changed in some way. Some reports say that John Barrowman's Captain Jack Harkness will be reduced to a recurring character, with Martha Jones taking center stage; they also say that Toshiko and Owen will be gone. Now I laughed these rumors off at first, but more and more word is leaking out about a format change. It might be something small or something huge...but until it happens, I'm just trying to not jump to conclusions.

I'm going to take a nap.

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   Thursday, March 13, 2008

Just watched the new Torchwood with Mark. It was dull...pointless...kind of embarassing. It's my least favorite episode since that Dalek shit last season. There wasn't really anything in it worth watching for, IMO. There are other episodes that are less than perfect which feature strong performances and character moments that make them worthwhile...but this...just didn't work for me. The next one looks good though.

I went to B&N tonight and got the new (to the United States) Doctor Who magazine. Also got another imported magazine with some nifty pictures, and a book of expressionistic art (which I'm aching to put up). They had some Star Wars art book that I was tempted to buy, but they can wait.

I've had a headache all day, and my stomach was a bit upset earlier. I'm going to read my Doctor Who magazine, and hope for things to improve.

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I put a couple pictures up on the outside of my bedroom door last night. I tried to chat online, but failed. Michael was sleeping, so it wasn't much fun. I eventually slept. I forgot to take my prilosec, but I slept so well that I'm not complaining. I found a new stash of slash art online, which always makes me happy. And that's about all I've done. Blah. lol

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   Friday, March 14, 2008

Thursday night I couldn't sleep worth a damn. I got some reading done though, and my Trek book went from ok to fantastic in the course of a single chapter, so that's cool. Then I tried to sleep again. Nothing. I watched a movie I rented called "The Nines", which was interesting, though not truly satisfying, if that makes any sense. I liked a lot of it, and I liked some of the concepts in it, but then I didn't feel that the ending really brought it home. It didn't help that when I checked out the deleted scenes, they'd cut out a good chunk of gay stuff that I hadn't even expected to be in the film in the first place. Still...I wasn't bored. Again I tried to sleep, but ended up reading more of my book. I finally got to sleep around the time that Mark usually gets up for work.

Mark woke up, running late for work to see if I could drive him, but I'd just gotten to sleep...and was barely making sense, I'm sure. I woke up again around the time I needed to, which was weird because my alarm clock definitely didn't go off, though it's set for the right time, and all that jazz; I double checked it. I got ready. I shaved, but left a bit of goatee, which I haven't done in awhile; thinkint it looked mighty cute. Actually I looked very cute all around when I was finished getting dressed, and was looking forward to work.

Mark couldn't pick me up. Michael was at work. My stomach was feeling kind of iffy, so I really didn't want to take the bus. I called work to see if I could get a ride, but it was taking a long time because of stuff they had going on there... and so I had a snack. Bad idea. And I even have anything that I'm not supposed to. I had water and some baked chips. And an hour later, bam...it was all coming back up. So now I was thinking I should maybe call in, because my shift, which was already fairly short, was now going to end up being like 2 and half hours long at this point, but I was so sick that I didn't want to leave the bathroom, and I knew work was going to call me before sending someone for me, so I figured I'd wait and see...because sometimes I do feel better really fast, and I was looking forward to working with DJ & Bryan, who both work on Fridays.

More time passes and DJ calls, but just as I answer I throw up again. Not the noise you want to hear when you call someone I guess, as DJ aked if I wanted to stay home and I said yes. But that wasn't really true either. I wanted to work...I just didn't think it was a good idea at that point. So for about a half hour I felt ok, and I thought maybe I'd made the wrong call and I should have gone to work, and I was feeling kind of sad that I'd missed out on seeing everyone, and also...getting paid. And then my stomach exploded in 10 different directions and then I was just grateful that I wasn't at work, but at home.

So yeah. I feel ok now. But I'm not eating anything. And I'm grateful that DJ offered to let me stay home, because it made a terrible day less terrible for me... but still a bit bummed that I didn't get to go to work. Blah.

Not a good day for me.

Mollie will hopefully be getting her package today.

I burned some discs for Bryan & Chris.

Mark won't be home until really late because of a poker game he's going too, which is maybe for the best, because I'm starting to think I might actually be sick...like not just the way my stomach usually is insane, but maybe the flu.

And I'm rambling. Have you noticed? Blah.

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I'm shutting off my phone; turning up the music; and working on my room.

Year Zero Remixed has just made my day much more tolerable. :-0)

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   Saturday, March 15, 2008

I want to be alone. In the dark. It's March again. Hasn't been this bad in years now. Don't know what made me remember, but it wasn't expected, and I can hear their voices. I don't want to, and yet it amazes me that I could forget them at all. I'm sitting here...crying. Mark is in the other room and has no idea...my door is open and the light from the hall and my monitor is the only light in here. Year Zero is playing on I Tunes. Michael is chatting with me...sort of. I'm getting angry for no reason, I think. I wish I could scream. Michael feels rejected and wants to be comforted and I don't think I'm capable of that at this moment. Tomorrow will be better. It always is.

This is odd because lately I've been feeling like I'm losing my passion for things that usually inspire me...and now here's all this emotion welling up in me. Not sure what's up with me. But I doubt I'm good company right now. Probably best that I didn't go to the bar, though dancing violently does usually help... erg.

Flashes of memory are worse than sustained images. Hard to make sense of memories that mean so much, so quickly. Glad I don't do the cutting thing anymore or tonight would end bloody.

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Already feeling better.

I watched Pirates 3. Not as beautiful as the 2nd; not nearly as stupid as the first; it breaks even.

I'm way tired.

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