Sunday, May 3, 2009

It took me forever to get to bed Saturday morning, but when I did I slept fairly well. I woke up with a headache, but I struggled to not take any of my meds as I'd taken it 2 days in a row and it's not good for the liver. I managed to hold off for about 12 hours, but then gave in and I'm so glad I did as I feel 100% better. My stomach isn't bothering me, and my butt feels about 90% better than it has been, so I'm doing pretty well.

Michael started watching Battlestar Galactica Saturday night. And he's not stopped watching it; he's watching it right now. He's finishing up episode 9 "Flesh & Bone" in which Kara tortures Leoben. In retrospect this episode is essential viewing. I'd talk about why, but Michael reads my blog and I don't want to spoil anything for him.

Hearing about Michael watching BSG inspired me to rewatch huge sections of the finale, which I liked a lot better this time. I think that when I rewatch the series, knowing what's to come, and then see the extended cut of the finale that I will probably love it. I also like that there is a nice reference to 'Caprica, before the fall' in the finale, which means that future viewers will be able to see the entire series someday and Caprica the series will be referenced in the finale as well. I'm very excited right now about "The Plan" & "Caprica". I wish I had them here on DVD and just watch them all right now. ;-0)

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   Monday, May 4, 2009

Slept until about 5pm on Sunday. I stayed up all night doing laundry, burning discs for Mollie, reading, and playing Wii Tennis. I spoke to Michael briefly. He finished the first season of BSG, and he's upset about the ending and not having the next episode to watch. He's coming over in the wee hours of Tuesday morning - probably around 2am.

I can't sleep. I've tried. Don't know what's up with me. I had to post a response to more bigotry on a Trek site. Blah. I hate writing those replies; they stress me out. But they have to be written.

Mark can't feel one of his legs. I'm trying to get him to see a doctor, but he has a bad history with the medical profession in relation to him reporting symptoms and them ignoring him. He doesn't want them to think he's crazy, but I know that he's not.

I got an e-mail from Shawn Foreman. It didn't 'sound' like him, and it has me slightly worried. I hope he's ok.

I'm back to loving BSG. I'm uber-excited about Caprica and The Plan. And I really want to see the extended cut of the finale.

I've read some more Doctor Who RUMORS.

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Ok. Firstly, I've read this before, but there's a rumor that Gillian Anderson will play the Rani in the first season for the 11th Doctor.

It's also rumored (this one sounds real) that famous actress Claire Bloom will be appearing in David Tennant's final story as The Doctor's Mother!!!

There are also rumors of a possible UNIT spin-off series, but I can't imagine that airing when they're already having a hard time keeping the highly rated The Sarah Jane Adventures on air - plus they still have Doctor Who, Torchwood, and new series K-9. I've been wrong before though.

It's rumored that the 10th Doctor will fight the Master and some other Time Lords who are now evil. I've wondered if the Time War might be undone in some way in this finale. That would set up the Rani appearance in the new season. Hmmmm.

The interior of the TARDIS will be destroyed. Probably true. We know that there will be a new interior design in the 2010 series.

Martha Jones will return. Probably true. It seems that everyone but Rose & her family are returning, which they have an excuse for.

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Still awake. Exhausted. More bigots on Trek Forums. Blah Blah Blah. More rumors about Doctor Who. I need to sleep. NOW.

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Slept for 4.5 hours. Finished Mollie's Discs!!!! Well, this batch anyways. Then next batch I send will mostly likely be a bit smaller. I just woke up Mark for work. I'll try to go back to sleep.

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   Tuesday, May 5, 2009

I went back to sleep and woke up around 1am, with HORRIBLE migrain...and a text from Michael. He came over, while I took my pills and ate. He's here now. After the pills and food and a hot shower that ran out of hot water before I was done soaking my poor miserable head, my headache is less than it was, but more than I'd like. Blah.

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Hours later, Michael is sleeping. My headache is mostly gone...

There are now rumors that besides Sarah Jane guesting in one of the 10th Doctor's final specials, that he'll also be appearing on her series. Nice. I had suspected as much.

Wacky:

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   Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Tuesday was hard. There was the headache. There were problems between Michael and I. The first major problems that we've had actually. I spent most of the day and the following night in shock. I slept a lot. It seemed to help. I've still not fully recovered from my war wounds. Perhaps I never will. Perhaps that's why even when awake, most of Tuesday felt like a terrible dream.

Michael and I have spoken about these issues and intend to work through them if we can. We're going to try. That's all any of us can ever do.

Michael borrowed Season 2.0 of BSG, which is to say that he borrowed the first 9 episodes of Season 2. There are actually 10 episodes in that set, but I'd instructed him to not watch the 10 episode (the spectacular "Pegasus" installment) as the even better Extended Cut of the episode is part of the Season 2.5 set. He had told me that he wouldn't be able to watch it until Wednesday, but last night I learned that instead of cleaning up his garage he'd been sucked into the series and had all but watched every episode. lol. I understand that experience. It worries me that he'll get to the end of Series 4.0 and want to charge on into 4.5, when the DVD's don't come out until the end of July (another 12 weeks). I do have those episodes on my computer, but at least 3 of those episodes will have extended cuts on the dvds and I was hoping he'd be able to see those versions first. But I also worry about taking a break in a series that is far more enjoyable when taken in the shortest amount of time possible. I think long breaks between installments of a series like this is actually detrimental to the enjoyment factor, IMO. And though I've enjoyed BSG for years now, I wish I could have exerienced the entire series as a whole on dvd in a span of weeks. Something that won't be possible until the release of "The Plan" (with a probable extended dvd cut) which might not even happen until early 2010 (though it will probably air around November). And even then, there is Caprica. If Caprica remains as good as it's pilot episode, then I'd extend my wish to have seen all of Caprica before BSG. Yet, Caprica is also well experienced after BSG, as knowing Caprica's fate gives everything a further sense of gravity.

I just watched a 3rd Season episode of BSG. "Maelstrom". I want to talk about it, and how it made me weep. I want to talk about how the end of the series changed the way I view this episode, but I can't. I have friends who haven't seen the end of the series yet, and I don't want to spoil things for them. Suffice it to say, that while I loved this episode the first time around, that I now see even more within it, and am moved to an even greater degree.

I guess that even with Swine Flue scares, a leak online, and some bad reviews, the new Wolverine movie did great business. This means that a sequel is already in the works, which will center on the Samurai storyline, which most Wolverine fans that I know say is their favorite; hopefully this will lead to a better a film. I'm also hearing reviews now from people that actually enjoyed the new movie, which is nice to hear. Also, the character of Deadpool, who features in the Wolverine movie is getting his own spin-off, with Ryan Reynolds already signed to reprise the role. Gambit is being talked about as a possible spin-off. Magneto is also in discussion. I like the idea of all these spin-offs from the original X-Men movies, which are my favorite super-hero series of films.

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I just read more reviews of 'Caprica', and found a new rumor online about a possible cameo in final 10th Doctor story. If it's true...please be true!

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The new rumor is that Rose will appear in a single scene with 'the other Doctor' - also she's listed as Rose Smith! ;-0) Hope this is true!

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   Thursday, May 7, 2009

Yesterday, I watched the newest Graham Norton. Later I watched "Battlestar Galactica: Razor". I tried to sleep a little around 5pm, but couldn't get to sleep. Michael stopped by to pick up more BSG, and that was supposed to be all. I pulled him in bed with me for some afternoon action. I just craved it, right then, and he gave it in spades. We showered, and he left. I slept.

I woke briefly when Mark said goodbye as he left for work, then woke again a bit after midnight. I read the news.

I feel a bit lonely tonight. Not sure why.

Oh. And I downloaded a new Tori Amos song yesterday ("Maybe California"), which I like a lot.

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I talked to Michael on the phone. He has to be at work super early today to clean the store for some big deal at work. I'd kind of love to visit him today (and not just for the curely fries) but if something big is going on at his work I don't want to interfere. Better to go on a day when nothing's going on.

I watched the latest Brothers and Sisters. It made me cry. Nice episode. ;-0)

I tried downloading the season 1 soundtrack to BSG but about half the tracks didn't download. I have the 2nd & 3rd Seasons. I still need the remainder of Season 1 & the miniseries. The 4th Season will be out later this year; Caprica will be out in a in a few months.

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Mark helped me get the BSG soundtrack. Yay! Now I need the miniseries and I'll have all that's available at the moment. Caprica comes out next month.

I'm tired. Exhausted really. And I have been for hours. I tried going back to bed this morning and it didn't work. Why am I still awake?

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   Friday, May 8, 2009

To get Mark to stop talking to me while I was writing this he wanted me to write that I love him to death. Of course later he shouted out to me anyways...and later still attempted to come into my room (Me: "Get out.", Mark: smile. "Fine.") I don't mind talking to Mark (and I often love it), but when I'm writing in my blog I like to not be distracted. And I know that he knows me well enough that he probably won't be offended when I tell him I'm writing and I need to be on my own...which is nice - and something I like about our friendship.

I got to sleep around 3pm on Thursday. I woke up several times but always went back to bed, determined to get 8 full hours. I did get 8 hours. I got up around 12:30am today I think.

Michael and I are on a break. Just for me to get my head wrapped around everything I'm feeling. We've been going SO FAST. And my heart is totally there, but my brain hasn't caught up and I need time to get there. I called a time out, which I wouldn't have done if I didn't want this to last...because I'm afraid it will all fall apart if I don't take care of this odd disconnect between my head and my heart. I feel good about this decision; it feels honest and adult.

Only thing is, HUGE DRAMA has broken out in Michael land. His roomie (and ex-bf) Scott, who is generally an asshole anyways, finally crossed the line and got in Michael's face. He wouldn't get out of Michael's way so Michael tried to push passed him, and Scott punched him. Michael called the cops. Scott fled the scene. Then Scott called Michael's boss and lied to them saying that Michael has been stealing from work (but if that's true then his bank account would surely show this activity and Michael's bills, which Scott seldom helps with though he's the cause of much of them, would be paid - but they're not). Now everything is in disarray. Scott's car is in Michael's name - meaning that Scott probably just lost his car and his place to live - I knew he was stupid, but does he have to be that stupid? But Scott probably has squatter's rights, so Michael should be giving him a 30 days notice of eviction in writing...right? And Michael has to work (Scott hasn't worked in 2 years while Michael has supported him) - and Scott can totally fuck with things while he's at work. Michael is having trouble walking (Scott punched him in the side - fucking coward). If Michael needs character witnesses he just needs to call in his friends who mostly hate Scott. Michael's sister hates Scott. And while I didn't hate him until now, Mark & I have both seen the way he behaves and I've heard so much from so many people that I suspected that trouble was on the horizon. He's just an idiotic asshole. And...did I mention that he's really unattractive? Not ugly per say, but on the cusp of creepy, and dragged over the edge by his horrible personality.

All of this leaves me feeling pretty helpless though. I don't know that there's anything that I can do. I keep thinking of him alone in his house and it's killing me. But if I went out there, I can't lock my car cause there's a problem with the locks which means my car would be open on the street with Scott crazy and pissed off. And if I had Michael come over here then the house would be unguarded and I don't trust Scott to not steal stuff or plant evidence against the crazy story he's got going for Michael (because I really do think he's that psychotic). And if Michael does come here and we solve all this I'll still be all confused about us as a couple, but if I don't do anything there might not be anything left of Michael to go back to.

My advice to Michael would be to talk to his manager and let them know that he knows an investigation is happening and that he wants to cooperate; that he has nothing to hide. That his accounts will demontrate that he never stole money, and that his roomie (who some people at his work are friends with) is bitter that he's alone, and just a bitch in general - and that he's lashing out at Michael as a final act of stupidity.

If anything good comes out of this, it will be that Scott is gone. He's been nothing but a stressful annoyance to Michael for years now, with only occasional bits of support coming from him, probably in his saner moments in which he realized that if it weren't for Michael, he'd be on the street. I don't understand that guy. And I doubt he undestands himself. It wouldn't surprise me if he was borderline schizophrenic - which could obviously make him dangerous...and could explain his recent behavior.

I feel I should be cleaning. But I don't have the energy or the direction. Also, just about everyone I know is super excited to see (or has already seen) the new Star Trek movie that opened at 7pm yesterday - which is gettin rave reviews! And I find myself kind of so wrapped up in this other drama that I can't be bothered with it. Paul Bukowski once told me that he wanted to see this movie with me, but I've not heard from him in weeks. Makes me wonder if he had been hoping to date me again, or possibly just fuck me. Oh well.

I've been throwing up today. It's nothing to get worried over, and it's not intentional. But my doctor suggested restricting the number of pills I take, and we decided that I'd not take them when I wasn't planning on going out or didn't have company. That way I wouldn't gross anyone out (but myself) and it would lower the risk of me getting this other horrible condition. It's not fun. It's really disgusting and really uncomfortable, but it's also 2nd nature after suffering that way nearly 24/7 for 7 long years. So there's that.

My ass is still on fire. I had a really horrific encounter earlier in the week that I don't want to discuss...but which made things far worse for me...and I'm not happy about that at all. It was all very...nightmarish. I just want to recover from the whole thing and go back to being fun Jason.

I'm still stuck on Zelda. And I'm stuck in a spot that I find the game play to be extremely NOT fun. So I'm not playing it anymore, or at least not until I change my mind. lol. It's just a terrible spot in the game. If I had friends that played it, who lived near by, and would let them beat this part for me because it hurts my head to think about it. Ugh. I'm back to playing Wii Tennis & Wii Bowling. My bowling average has started to SUCK; I may soon lose my pro status. My tennis playing has gotten better, but I'm nowhere near pro status.

One good thing happened in the last 24 hours, aside from the sleeping. I jacked off today, and had what might be the best orgasm I've had in...ever. That's not to say I haven't had amazing sex, because I have; some of it even recently. But sometimes masturbation is just better. Not all the time. But sometimes it's just perfect...and this time was. And I wouldn't have expected it to be... It was just a random 20 minutes of perfection. And I'm grateful for that. lol

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   Saturday, May 9, 2009

I cleaned up some of my room yesterday. I watched some ALIAS; skimming through episodes to just watch my favorite scenes. I may watch the rest of the series in this way, or just drop it and get back to the shows that I'm extremely far behind on at this point. We'll see.

I slept from around 3:30pm - a little before 10pm. I tried to get back to sleep, but couldn't. I texted Michael and later called him. It was a good conversation. I'm still worried about him though.

I'm kind of sleepy now, so maybe I'll get that sleep after all? I don't know. We'll see.

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Not feeling that great today, so I'm staying put. I've watched 3 episodes of Desperate Housewives. 10 more to go and I'll be ready for the finale tomorrow. lol. That's so not going to happen right now. I'm tired.

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