Sunday, May 17, 2009

After the last entry, I watched 2 episodes of Desperate Housewives; I've now seen more than I sent to Mollie. I was struck by the fact that the last episode that I sent her, which was part 2 of a 2-parter that was separated by weeks of reruns was a really nice place for her break in episodes to happen as it's more a closure kind of episode and not one that leaves you hanging. Nice.

I slept after that 2nd DH episode until about 6am.

As far as television to send Mollie, I have 3 episodes of Desperate Housewives, 3 episodes of Dollhouse, and a few Grahm Norton episodes... + 3 DS9 discs. I'll soon have more to share. I can't remember if she watched Dexter or not, but we have all 3 seasons of that (which I've not watched yet).

Mark came in to talk to me for a bit. He said he watched and liked "Underworld: Rise of the Lycans" - saying he liked it better than the 2nd one, when I kind of like the 2nd one more than the first, if not than just as much as the first one. So I'm not sure what that means for me. He also watched the videos on my blog from yesterday, saying he liked "Reach" but that I only like "Agent Orange" because it's about Shawn Foreman - which I'd never thought about, and disagree with - I love the direction and the look of it. That it now reminds me of Shawn is completely because of Mark. lol

I read the news and my e-mail. I sent some friend requests on Facebook & Myspace...and I worked on my cyber facebook farm. Friends that read this, that have been sent Farm requests - please join up and send me fruit trees. Friends that already have farms - send me fruit trees! They seem like a good farm thing to have. :-0)

The pilot episode for the remake of my favorite childhood series "V" (which stars Wash & Inara from Firefly) has been greenlit is a limited tv series!!! I hope it's good!

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I'm fine on my own; I really am...I feel better than I have in days, but I wish Michael was here to share it with me.

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Chris helped me out with my Cyber Farm. She gave me lots of pointers, and also let me harvest her massive crops. This makes sense for her, because you get more money for your crops if you hire someone to harvest them, and it made sense for me, because I get like 50% of the prophets when she sells them, so I made a BUNCH of cash. When my arm is in order and I have a lot of crops I'll return the favor. ;-0)

My stomach feels odd, but not exactly upset. I'm hoping it just me being paranoid and everything is fine. We'll see.

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I had a really nice chat with this girl I went to school with, Joelle G*u*r*n*o*e*. She commented on something of mine on facebook that was pretty graphic, and we went from there. Turns out she's very gay friendly, and a lawyer. Nice. She even suggested we hang out sometime this summer. Sounds cool.

Also traded messages with Stacy Groff. Another name from the past. And again with the gay friendly theme. Nice.

Sadly, I have a bit of a headache. I'm gonna try to shake that.

I wonder how much BSG Michael watched last night?

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   Monday, May 18, 2009

I worked on the cyber farm today. I also watched 2 new episodes of Graham Norton (all caught up on that for now). I talked on the phone with Michael; his friend Jesse spent the night in his bed, which made me slightly uncomfortable so that's going to stop. And that's about all that happened yesterday. I'm exhausted though, and thankfully I didn't feel ill.

Now I'm just waiting a few minutes for my Cyber Grapes to be ready for harvest, then I'll have someone harvest those for me, plow the fields and head to bed. lol

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I slept until about 6am.

I harvested more grapes and strawberries on my farm. Planted more grapes. Grapes only take 4 hours to harvest. And I'm planting those while I wait for these other crops (Tomatoes, Rice, Wheat) to ripen so I can plant a huge crop that will be ready to harvest in a day or two. I also helped out on peoples' farms, sent a neighbor request to Michael, and left him a note with some helpful tips for the game.

I read the news. Apparently Star Trek came in 2nd at the box office by a slim margin, and did better than expected business. In fact, in it's 2nd weekend, Star Trek took more money than any other Trek did during it's opening weekend. lol.

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Still working on the farm. It's nice. It distracts me from all the drama I'm currently going through for financial aid. The medical coverage is screwy and we're trying to figure that out and I have to wait for a call later, which always makes me nervous because I don't know when I should sleep. And I'm tired.

And I miss Michael.

And I'm horny. lol

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I have to harvest my farm around 4pm.

I got that call, and I'm pretty sure we're getting the runaround as far as answers are concerned. They should have a website with the answers for this stuff me thinks.

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I'm bored.

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I got some nice Facebook & text messages from Michael.

I got my skill level up to Pro on Wii Tennis!!!

We're getting the runaround on my health benefits with the state saying it's a county thing, and the county saying it's a state thing. Apparently they are assigning me a doctor and if I don't like the doc I can switch. The thing is I only just found a doctor that I like and I don't want to lose him, so I'm fighting to find a way to see him. I don't want to get all stressed out about searching for a doctor again!!!

Ugh.

I'm bored. And I miss Michael way more than I usually do. Usually, I think of him every once in awhile, and I'm fine, but today I miss him really bad. Maybe because I know that he's going away for the weekend, and I won't be seeing him. Maybe that's a good thing though, as Memorial Day Weekend tends to swamp my brain with too many memories to process...

It might also be good to help me get over some trust issues. Michael has this friend named Jesse, who slept in Michael's bed with him the other night...and this boy is going on this trip with Michael this weekend (as are several other friends) - and most of me trusts him when he says nothing happened with this guy and nothing will happen, but the other part of me remembers guys like Gene Warrick and Travis Kelly who screwed me over in such situations numerous times, so all these red flags go up and I feel...insecure and vulnerable, and I've avoided situations where I'll feel that way for some time now, but either he'll cheat or he won't, and there's not much I can do about it. I have to let this happen, yet it hurts part of me; it's painful reliving the past through current circumstances, even if history isn't repeating itself through the actions of my boyfriend - all the feelings that I felt in the previous experiences keep coming back to haunt me and it's very much like having a panic attack; it's this overwhelming tidal wave of emotion that leaves me feeling helpless and overly sensitive. But I don't want to be the boyfriend that's constantly worried about my partner...but at this point that's what I am. And it sucks.

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I watched "Underworld: Rise of the Lycans", which is mostly a prequel to the first Underworld movie, though there are sequel elements to "Underworld: Evolution" in the story of the Werewolves and the birth of the Lycans - and there's an annoying voiceover that pretty much ruins a huge reveal in the first film, so while this one is a prequel, it should be viewed third. But there's a problem with that too, as I don't like this one nearly as much as the other two. I liked the first one and loved the 2nd one. If this one had been a true prequel, then in chronological order they'd get better as they go...only now because of some crappy stylistic choices, it can't be watched in that order. Ugh.

There's another series of films that I like in which they came out in an odd order, but chronilogically they get better as they go:

Hannible Rising (2007)
was barely watchable.

Red Dragon (2002)
was ok.

Silence of the Lambs (1991)
was riveting.

Hannible (2001)
was orgasmic. The best dark romantic comedy I've ever seen.

I always hoped for a final film, with a bit of closure, but maybe it's best that they don't do that - I'd hate for the final film in the series to suck.

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The cyber-farm continues to flourish. I'm helping Michael with his farm today, and he's progressing well. I like it.

Mark's gonna try to sort out the medical bs tomorrow. Apparently the state fucked up. Big surprise. Big headache.

My mom left me a message saying she needed to talk to me. I called her and apparently my grandparents want me to sing at their wedding anniversary, when they renew their vows. I'm to sing with my sister Janice and they've picked a song but I have no clue what it is. It makes me nervous, but at the same time it's kind of blessing as I think it might interest Mark into going, even though he boycotts anything to do with weddings. I'm going to see if Michael can go too, though I don't know if he can get a saturday off - it's June 13th.

I have to finish getting dressed. I'm going grocery shopping, then getting some LC with Mark. I was thinking of going to Necto tonight, but I don't see that happening unless I get some sleep, and I'm running out of time.

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Mark & I just got home from grocery shopping. My bridge card worked perfectly. I also got a book from my childhood (well a book with several books from my childhood inside it) & some wine. Mark paid for the wine; I paid for the book. I'm sleepy.

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   Tuesday, May 19, 2009

I fell asleep last night about 10 minutes before my crops were ready to be harvested. I woke up at 5am, thinking I'd been out for 10 minutes (and not 2 hours & 20 minutes), confused and frustrated over how my crops could be dead...until I noticed the time. Damn it. I'll have to work to get back to where I was in the game. :-0(

But the worst part is I didn't get to talk on the phone with Michael last night. Though I'm not sure I'd have been able to stay awake for that anyways, as he got out of work after 1am, and then had plans to go on an errand for a friend after that, instead of going home like he usually does. He's such a good guy. I texted him as I was drifting off, at 2:40am according to my phone.

Here's another new tv spot for Harry Potter:

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I've fixed the crop problem, or at least survived it; it was a setback; nothing more. After my next harvest (at around 3) I'm going to plant a cash crop that won't be ready to harvest until Friday. I'll still build up Michael's farm, though maybe not as vigoriously.

I had a headache, but it's gone now.

I also updated a BSG section of my webpage...separating the BSG saga into 3 basic pieces. You can see this page here.

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I've won 7 of the 8 Farm Town trophies! I'm now on level 14. And even though I've just planted a disturbingly expensive cash crop (21,600 coins), I've still got 47,372 in coins (the currency of the game). I've got 11 neighbors, and of those neighbors, the closest one to that amount of cash is Chris, with 19,562 (and she's been playing for a lot longer and is on level 24). Of my 11 neighbors there are only 3 that are on a higher level than me. Mollie is just behind me, but she'll most likely overtake me now that I'm taking a break for 3 days while I wait for my coffee to grow. If I can just remember to harvest my crop on Friday I should make a good amount of coinage. ;-0)

Mark took care of my governmental woes. I should still be able to see my doctor, and get food, and save Mark a bunch of money. Problem solved, for now.

I'm tired, but I'm hungry. I'm going to eat.

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Ok. I can't sleep and I don't know why, as I'm exhausted. I played some Wii Sports to maybe help exhaust me even more. I lost my pro status in Tennis, then got it back, then lost it, then got it back, then lost it. Then, unexpectedly, I beat my record at bowling (255 now) and got my experience points (or whatever they are) up to record numbers as well. I guess these means that I'm playing those 2 sports pretty well. Yay.

Oh. My phone is blinking. Missed some texts from Michael. There. I've now replied. He might be able to stop by tonight. That would be nice, except I'll probably be sleeping. I'm so fucking tired. But I want to see my Michael.

I have the urge to watch Donnie Darko, and Showgirls. This is what sleep deprivation does to you!!! lol.

So...I've wanted to avoid S. Darko (the crappy looking sequel to Donnie Darko) but I just read that Catherine Wheel ("Black Metallic") & Dead Can Dance ("The Carnival is Over"!!!) are on the soundtrack! Why must they use my favorite tunes in crappy movies. Of course the first one had my favorite tunes in a good movie...I seriously had every song on that soundtrack but one - and it was a cover, and I had the original!

My brain needs slumber.

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How cool is this?

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   Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Michael called me last night around 11:37 and told me I should rest; get some sleep. He's so thoughtful; putting my needs before his own. I went right to sleep after the call; sleeping from around 11:40pm - 7am. The only thing that could have made the night more perfect: Michael cuddles. Even after sleeping so well I just took a short nap so I can be wide awake and ready for Michael, who should be here around 8pm. I can't wait to see him!

Here's the trailer for the new V:

It looks amusing enough. Yet it doesn't look as good as the original, which I guess isn't that surprising - but I was expecting a bit more from this. The original V miniseries stands up today, extremely well. It's sequel ("The Final Battle") slightly less so, and the TV Series that followed barely stood up when it was airing. But the original had a depth to it and the special effects for the time were outstanding and look good even today, 26 years later. This new incarnation feels very sci-fi / Syfy; very crappy movie of the week - with heavier religious themes this time around, which creeped into 'The Final Battle', and made that one seem pretty silly. The religious themes in this one look like they're handled better, but if the rallying cry of the resistance in this new movie is a religious one, I'll be more than a little disappointed. Hopefully the movie is better than the trailer would make it seem.

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I shaved and showered. Michael's here now; he's about to shower. I'm thinking of going to Pizza House. I've not left the house since Monday evening.

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   Thursday, May 21, 2009

Been up since around 9am I think. Michael & I did go to Pizza House last night (after some hot sex) and ate well, and spoke well, and had a lovely time. But stepping back a bit, after we'd parked the car and were walking to Pizza House, we were walking past Good Time Charly's and someone called my name, and I assumed it was Ben or Mike, or Jeff; people that I used to work with at Hollywood, and have all worked at this bar at some point, but it was actually Philip Jacobus!?! I had just been thinking about him on the previous Friday, and it turns out he's living in Ann Arbor not that far from where I live, really. It was great to see him. He was still there when we walked back to the car, and said hello again. I guess he lives with his gf, and he looks good, so hopefully things ARE good with him. I didn't like him when I first met him, as he was kind of an ass, but then we had this moment in Virginia, years ago, and we've gotten on ever since.

Anyways, I did some Facebook stuff when we got home, and then we went to bed. Woke up early this morning. Michael had to leave for work. Hope he's having a great day. Our internet connection has been screwy since this morning, but it finally seems to have calmed down.

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On the list of extras for BSG 4.5 there is no sign of the "The Face of the Enemy" webisodes. I'd noticed this last week, or the week before, whenever the news arrived in my inbox, but I assumed it was a mistake. I mean, when the press release for Season 3 was released there was no mention of the webisodes for that season, but they still appeared on the DVDs. Hopefully this is also the case. Not including them would suck.

I've done almost nothing today. I feel sort of crabby about that, but I'm not sure what I should be doing.

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   Friday, May 22, 2009

Slept well last night. Having an odd day. I watched what I thought were the final 2 episodes of Season 5 Desperate Housewives, only to find out there are 2 more I don't have - at first thinking that the end of the season was very anti-climactic! lol I have them now. Perhaps I'll watch them, but I'm really tired...not sure I can stay awake watching them. We'll see.

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My memory is a curse sometimes. It traps me, and torments me...yet I remember good times just as well. 15 years ago today I was working at Target; I shaved my head for the first time, met my cousin Mike's girlfriend (now his wife); outed him in front of many of our relatives, and went to the bar where I met my friend Paul Ferguson. 9 years ago today Mollie, Carrie & Adam & I got a flat tire on the way to some cabin up state and were trapped in historical christian hell; at least the hot tub was fun. And...I don't remember the year, but it was after 1986 & before 1991, my cousin Jeff was in an accident this weekend and while he survived he's never been the same...and I lost the guy that gave me my first kiss. All of these memories are swirling in my head. Some of them are funny. Some of them are erotic. Some of them are painful. When I remember those times, I remember who I was then, and the early memories are...like being thrown down in a basement that once held you prisoner. This is all mixed together with my usual wishy washy lack of ability to plan things, and skipping out on the weekend with Michael, even though I did want to spend the weekend with him. So many ghosts are haunting me at once that it's overwhelming me. I was just laying in my bed, crying. And I know it's beautiful outside, and that people are out enjoying the holiday weekend, but...I feel trapped in the past...and I'm not sure how to escape. Part of me even likes being trapped and visiting these old times. I have a bottle of wine that I got the other day and I have this romantic image of me drinking this wine and toasting Jeff & my 1994 self, and my fun memories of Mollie & Carrie & Adam. But I could do that with Michael, couldn't I? Except I don't have any clothes to wear, and I haven't packed or shaved or showered or planned for any of this... I feel...sad. I feel...it's hard to explain, but I used to feel this way, a lot, when I was younger and had very little control over my life, and now...it's like I'm stuck in my mind...and I'm drifting. I'm not depressed exactly; just caught in this current of memory. It will pass. I just wish I could have avoided it altogether.

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I'm not going on the trip with Michael. That's fine. If it was meant to happen it wouldn't be that difficult. I think. lol. And I've decided to chill with the drama. I'm going to relax and finish Desperate Housewives.

Here's a random bit of Riker / Picard slash to scare Mollie:

And some Kirk / Spock:

While these are youtube videos I found them on this guy's blog, who really likes dishes. I tried to find his e-mail address to contact him, but I had no luck. He seems cool though.

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   Saturday, May 23, 2009

Michael & his friends (2 of his roomies ended up going) all made it up to their camping trip. Michael got drunk, left me several texts, a message on Facebook (delivered by his roomie David), and a phone call. The last message said he was going to bed. Something I'm surprised I haven't done, as I've been in bed by this time every night this week.

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