Sunday, August 16, 2009

Adam, Mollie, Michael & I played Mario Party 8. I came in 2nd Place. It's a strange game and it went on a long time. Mark watched most of the game. Afterwards we were all mostly tired. Just before we played I tried a tofu dog, but it had no flavor so I added mustard on a multigrain bun, which were all new things. I want to try relish. I'm tired, but I had a shake after the game to keep me awake on the drive to drop Adam off, only Mark volunteered to do that at the last minute. I would have joined them, but Mark mentioned going to the store for some things, and while I'm sitting awake...I don't think I'm awake enough to go to the store.

Friday & Saturday were good days. Michael is sleeping in my bed right now. I'd like to join him and fall away into cuddly sleep, but my tummy won't let me. I'm ok though. I'd work on my DCAU thing but I lack the energy even for that. My life is a lot of fun right now. I hope it lasts. But if not, I'm savoring what I have for the moment.

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   Monday, August 17, 2009

I slept well with Michael on Sunday morning, though I did have a nightmare that I had to walk off before going back to bed. We got up a bit after noon. Michael had to leave; he had to work at 5pm and things to do. Mollie & Mark were soon up. We relaxed indoors as it was so hot outside. Adam was supposed to join us but was tired and is coming over tonight instead. We watched some tv, and 2 episodes of Battlestar Galactica (Mollie has 3 episodes left). We played some Wii (Mario Galaxy, Tennis, Wii Games). We played several games of Pandemic. We watched more tv. I had another tofu dog; this one with mustard and banana peppers (the peppers were new for me). I also tried some fauxe cheese with flat bread and have come to the conclusion that flat bread isn't good with anything but flatbread. We were up past 1am. Mollie took a shower and I was going to shower after that, but I had a fairly minor spaz attack over my eating again, and cried myself to sleep. I woke soon after to the phone ringing; it was Michael. He sounded odd and asked if he was ok; if his grandmother was ok and he fell to pieces. His grandmother can't be helped; she's dying and there's nothing anyone can do. He said that he'd be busy with family stuff the next few days and that if he didn't call or anything that I shouldn't feel ignored and I told him I understood. I feel like I should be with him, but I'm not sure he wants me there. He knew that he'd woken me up, for though I'd only been asleep a short while my voice sounded weird; probably from me crying. I went back to sleep wishing I was giving Michael a big hug, and slept until around 8am. I took a shower and read the news and wrote this.

We're supposed to try to track down my dad today, amongst other things, and then hang out with Adam tonight playing more games.

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   Tuesday, August 18, 2009

I wasn't feeling well by the time Mark & Mollie got up on Monday so they went to the store and searched for my father without me; leaving a note on his door, just as I had planned on doing. I felt better by the time they returned home. In retrospect I should have slept, instead of using the time to clean my room, and work on my DCAU page, but I had no idea I'd be awake so long.

I spoke to Michael on the phone. His grandmother wasn't doing that well at the time. She's being kept alive by machines and last I heard they were trying to make a life or death decision. It's all very terrible and very stressful. In my heart I think she's probably ready to go, but I don't know her well enough to say. But her quality of life would have to go down from where she is now, and she didn't look like she was in the best of health before. My heart goes out to her though, and her family, especially Michael. They seem like such a good bunch of people; not perfect, but what family is?

We picked up Adam around 7pm, and went to GameStop to return one of the Wii Controllers that we had bought used because it didn't include a strap and we also found a new one online for cheaper. We also went to Whole Foods which has become one of my favorite places in the world. I got some things I'd never had and tried them. Later Mollie made pasta for us all and I liked that too, but I didn't like that it cooled off so fast; I preferred it hot. We had garlic bread as well. It was nice to have a meal prepared at home and we ate together - it was very strange for me.

We played Apples to Apples, and Pandemic, along with some Wii Games. The first game of Pandemic was fun, but around that point I started getting extremely tired and cranky, and Mark & Adam didn't seem to be getting along...and I was worried the night was going to end badly, but that didn't happen. We eventually took Adam home and returned to the condo, but on the way there I started coughing and had a hard time stopping. Mollie later pointed out that she was sneezing around Adam and that it might be that he's from a house that was filled with cats for a long time and maybe our allergies reacted to that. I hope she's right; I hate being sick.

I'm EXHAUSTED. I really would like to work on my DCAU page. I'm very excited to have the time to do that...only I don't have the time that I want. lol I did work on it a bit earlier; fixing some problems that I've found, but I didn't really move the process forward...just worked on what I'd already done.

I'm going to bed as soon as I finish my tea, which is supposed to be good for the immune system.

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I went right to sleep after the last entry. I plugged my phone in the charger first, which had died. I forgot that when you plug this phone in and it lights up it's not on; it's just charging. My previous phone was always 'on' when charging; when plugged in. I slept well, with odd memories of movies and a dream about my still living grandmother's funeral. Mark woke me up amidst blinding headache pain to tell me that Michael couldn't get through to me so he'd called Mark to let him know they were taking his grandmother off life support; Mark said that he had asked Michael if he should wake me, but Michael said no. Mark woke me anyways and I called Michael right away but there was no answer. He texted soon after to ask if he could see me later, and I said yes. There was a new text from him from earlier that read "I need you. Where are you?" which broke my heart. Last night I had something close to an argument with Mark because he and Mollie had planned on going to look for a new car today even if I didn't go - a decision that should be shared by Mark & I - but that I wanted to go visit Michael because of what was going on with him and I was worried about him. Mark and Mollie said that tomorrow is probably the only day that Mark can go look at a car on his vacation as we have plans every other day - but I'm not understanding why he needs to go on his vacation. It annoys me. I feel left out, ignored, invisible - and extremely useless. My head hurts so bad! And to add insult to injury...everything I've eaten in the last 24 hours seems to have made me extremely farty. Maybe this is normal? I wouldn't know. The foods I've been eating most of my life seldom had that effect. It's not fun. I just made sure the phone ringer was on full blast...and took my midrin with some tea.

My thoughts are with Michael.

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   Wednesday, August 19, 2009

I got up later, and my headache was mostly gone. I hung out with Mark & Mollie. I spoke to Michael before that and he was planning on coming over later to see me. I wanted to stay home to be with him, as he had no way of telling me when he'd be over as he was spending time with his dying grandmother, and I didn't want to pressure him to rush or anything. My midrin didn't kill the headache and it was coming back so I took some ibuprofen which killed it. Mark's parents came over later which was cool except his stepmom was coughing on her hands and all over everything - and basically spit in my new juice which led me to dump that out. Later I went to bed and Mark & Mollie went to look at cars. Right before falling asleep (for about an hour) Michael texted and said he'd be over soon; he arrived shortly after I woke (to find that Mollie & Mark had left). Michael seemed interested in going to Pizza Hut with Mark & Mollie so I went and got him to go though I knew I wouldn't be able to eat anything there. After that we went to Whole Foods for more juice, and to the gas station for candy, as I had a craving for M&Ms (plus we put gas in the car. We played euchre, but the game was interrupted with a call saying things were looking grim for Michael's grandma so he had to go; I went with him. It felt good to be helping in any small way that I could, and his sister Rhonda later thanked me for coming with him. His grandmother started doing better again and Michael wanted to leave, feeling that he'd made his peace with her and she was being well looked after. We came home and showered and got ready for bed but I was hungry so I went down stairs for a snack, chatting with Mollie & Mark, then came upstairs and wrote this. I'll be brushing my teeth and then going to bed probably.

I need to pick up my dad at 1pm tomorrow and meet my sister here at the house at 1:30pm.

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