Monday, September 13, 2010

What a difference a day makes. I read before bed this morning. Went to sleep around 10am. I woke around 4:30pm, feeling rested. I got ready for my coffee date; very casual. It was nice outside so I walked to the meeting place (Starbucks on Main); leaving the condo around 5:30pm; I was supposed to meet Matthew at 6pm. On the way there I passed the Aut Bar and saw several friends sitting outside, and thinking I was probably going to be early for the date, happily stopped in to see them. These friends included Feelix, Sean, Drew & Dwayne - and someone I didn't know name Josh. I enjoyed chatting with them but had to go to the date.

I was a few minutes late to my date, however, so was Matthew, and so we thought it was funny that we had such perfect timing. He bought me a coffee and we sat outside talking. We tried going to Vault of Midnight but it had closed earler. We then went to the Ann Arbor Brewing Company where we had more great conversation - we have a lot in common, with many differing opinions, but I loved the conversation and the relaxed nature of it all. I walked him to this car after - which was about a mile out of my way, but had a great time and we parted around 8pm.

Soon after this I was rammed in the leg / hip from behind by a bicycle rider who swerved to miss me at the last second (on the sidewalk) and ran into a post. He then proceded to rant at me. I called him a bitch and told him to watch where he was going next time...or at least warn a person. He told me I should be careful who I call a bitch and I said FUCK YOU! - which I think actually echoed for several miles. He scurried away.

On the way home I passed Aut Bar on the off chance that my friends would still be there and surprisingly they were! I joined them, and another friend who told me his name twice yet I still don't remember it - despite him being a very nice guy. There was lots of conversation; lots of spirited debate. Loads of laughter. Later saw my friends Ryan & Jared...and met a guy named Aaron in passing. Liza was our waitress.

Michael texted me at 9:21pm:

"Dont text back. Goodnite. Hope youe date is going well. I love and miss you."

Which sort of made me grumpy but he did wish me a good date...and sent love and miss you so I think it was a good message in retrospect. My back hurts

I headed home around 11pm; cold from sitting outside and needing to walk home. The walk was chilly but relaxing. The sky was BEAUTIFUL. When I got home I had some candy and wrote this - and also discussed the night's events with Mark. Gonna show Mark a picture of Matthew, then probably take a bath. Have some real food after that.

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Ate. Watched the True Blood finale. Read stuff online. Took my relaxing bath. Missed a text from Michael. Going to bed soon; sleepy.

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Basically, after the last entry, I texted Michael back, and then went to sleep. I just woke up about 20 minutes ago. I slept extremely well. I had really good, really silly dreams that are already slipping away. I saw that I'd missed a call from Michael less than 10 minutes previous to waking so I called him back; he had a good day. He asked about my date and if I was still going to a wedding with him in October...and expressed concern that if I found a boyfriend that he and I would spend less time together. I told him that might happen...or I might not find a boyfriend and he might...or him moving might affect us hanging out...that things will obviously change because that's life, but if I have a boyfriend the only thing that would change between Michael & I is that we would no longer have sex. He seemed somewhat comforted by this. I might visit him tonight, but he has some sex scheduled that may or may not happen (a guy he's been aching to fuck is supposedly gonna let him today - only now he's not in touch) - if it does, he might call me after to hang out, or if it doesn't happen I may go then. We'll see.

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Read the news. Took my prilosec. Talked to Mark...apparently Carrie visited while I was asleep and I'm sorry I missed her...but the sleeping thing was great. Too bad I couldn't have done both at the same time! It looks nice outside. Think I might go for a walk.

I have a slight headache that MIGHT get worse. Grrr.

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   Tuesday, September 14, 2010

My headache didn't get worse. Went for a brief walk with Mark but my tummy was upset so we came back fast. I've felt ill the rest of the night. I ate some fries. And now I have a killer migrain. Not happy.

:-(

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Was up with the headache all morning. Blah. Managed to get some sleep. Woke up with the headache still with me. Thought I was hanging out with Michael today but that doesn't seem to be the case now.

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   Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Struggled with the headache most of the night. Finally went to Michael's to cuddle or get a hug before he left for work but I just missed him. We spoke on the phone and are planning to chill tomorrow. Mark's Uncle's viewing is tomorrow also and I may go to that as well, but it depends on how I react to a pill I have to take to relax my jaw. I want to go to a party tonight but not sure I'll be awake for it. Friday I have another date with Matthew, who's coming here to watch a movie. Then Saturday I have Coming Out Fest and Carrie's party. Hopefully Sunday I'll be able to crash.

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   Saturday, September 18, 2010

Mark & I went for a walk on Wednesday but we came home soon after cause my stomach was bothering me. I later slept, trying to dodge the head pain I was having. I did go to the party in Allen Park. Had a mostly good time. Saw some new friends and made others. Ran into people I've only ever known from online. Boys flirted with me. It was nice.

Thursday I went to Michael's but as soon as I got there he was called into work so I slept a bit while he was there. When he got home we went to the store for detergent and then got food for Michael. Went back to the apartment. I took my muscle relaxant and ate. We watched Ally McBeal & Xena. I slept much of the day and night because of my pill. I left for home the next morning.

Friday I chilled and cleaned and did my laundry...all in prep for my date...only I was STILL tired. I told this to Matthew (we had a date scheduled at 6pm) and he suggested we postpone the date, which disappointed me but was understandable. He told me to have sweet dreams. I felt good about this. I was gonna get my rest and he was understanding... I thought maybe I'd have the energy to hang out afterall though...only I then found out he was attempting to hook up with a friend of mine for the night which hit me pretty hard. I know that he's not my boyfriend or anything and he had every right to do that...but when I was with Michael, the times he hooked up with others were most often the times when I was busy or had to sleep and there were at least 3 times when he actually encouraged me to sleep so he could hook up with other guys - so this stung quite a bit. I blocked him from my account...slept a bit, feeling better about it once I'd spoken to Mark about it. Then I got a message from him asking why I'd blocked him (I didn't think he'd notice) and that he'd been looking forward to our date. Hm. Anyways...writing him a message explaining but not done with it yet. I unblocked him.

I slept really well today. I have to eat and get ready for Carrie's party. I'm afraid I'll be missing Out Fest this year, which SUCKS!

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