Wednesday, November 23, 2005

I know that Mark's job is more important to our well-being, than mine is; he makes a lot more money than I do, and we're really broke. But when DJ called to see if I could come in early, and Mark said he'd leave at a certain time, and the roads are icy, blah blah blah - and then Mark calls after I've busted my hump getting ready superfast, even though my acid reflux is killing me, and I should iron my work shirt and a million other things I'd have had time for if I knew I was just going to be on time - only to have him call to let me know that he got stuck on the phone at work so all that was for nothing....it pisses me off. It upsets me, when I thought I was going to be early, and make DJ happy, and help out my coworkers, who are apparently swamped. And when I'm pissed off, the acid is worse, and it was already horrible - so horrible that I couldn't sleep - which actually makes it even worse... so I'm really, really unhappy, and if I didn't need to be at work I'd, maybe call in, or I maybe wouldn't... I go all the time when I feel like crap. Erg.

Monday work was fine, but I was so tired. I slept after work, and then went to Necto, but the guy I was looking for wasn't there. He later e-mailed me, and we chatted, and he's going to be there tonight, or he planned to be, and so did I. I don't know if I can make it now - but I'll try.

I slept all day Tuesday; it was fantastic. It's easier for me to sleep in the daytime. I don't know why, but it is. I think I need to change my availability at work again, so I can sleep. Maybe I'll do that today. But I'd miss working with DJ & Bryan all the time. :-0(

I'm gonna go wait by the door for Mark, the way I was when he called. I know it wasn't Mark's fault... but it still puts me in a bad place. And I just want to sleep, without acid eating out my throat.

   posted by Bald Jason at 12:35 PM
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