Sunday, September 13, 2009

Mark & I went to Lowes first and got a water filter pitcher instead of a new filter for our system, which is cheaper and will work better for me. We went to the mall to look at comforters but the only one in my price range was HIDEOUS. There was one that looked perfect, but then it wasn't a comforter at all. :-0(

I decided I did want to go see Michael; see the place he went last week that nearly killed me...face it. We had to stop and get gas and I took some pictures of Mark pumping gas. Then we hit the road. I was nervous but didn't turn back. When we arrived I took some pictures for my own personal growth, then snuck into the employees only session and shocked the hell out of Michael, who came outside with me to talk. Mark took some pictures of us during this.

What came from this discussion is that I want to continue seeing Michael. The rules being that we aren't a couple; we can't have sex; he has to give me space when I need it (and I might need it often) - and if he dates or fucks anyone else it's over. Period. He also has to answer questions I have to the best of his ability. The thing is...I want to spend time with him, but I'm not ready for us to be a couple again - I don't trust him. I'm not sure I ever will again. But we're both having to be celibate until December, and we both want to see each other, so why not? If this trial run doesn't work out, then we can part ways and nobody can say that I wasn't more than fair, or that I didn't try. But if it does work out...well, we'll cross that bridge when w come to it.

I forgot to do the flu shot thing today, so maybe sometime this week?

Mark & I drove home, and we gave the bananas I got (but hated) to our neighbor Ziba, as Mark (and Ziba's wife Alice) dislike them as well. Mark is now playing Rock Band, and I'm trying to decide what to do next. I might take a nap. I might eat. I might work online. I'm not sure.

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