Sunday, September 20, 2009

Michael is sleeping soundly behind me while I type this. I have to wake Michael up in about 8 minutes to get him ready for work.

Michael and I went and got my HIV test results yesterday morning: Negative; Non-Reactive. This is a good first step. This doesn't mean I'm HIV Negative though. I won't know for sure until early December.

On the ride out to HARC, where I get tested, Michael confessed that he was scared too. He was afraid that his hurtful behavior could possibly damage me and destroy us. It was a confession that he might not have shared previously, and brought home how much this experience has changed us both.

After the negative result we returned to the condo, taking a different route. Michael worrying that we were doomed regardless of the results and I confessed something to him as well. I want to spend the rest of my life with him. If we come through all this in December and we're clean, and Michael has really changed, I don't ever want to lose him. This is statement that I may not have been able to express before, thinking it silly or weak, but having come so close to losing him, I know that I simply don't want to ever have that happen. But I don't want any more lies. And he has sworn that this will never happen. We'll see how it all works out.

We later went to Little Caesars and Taco Bell; the food was good. I gave my leftovers to Mark, who said that he enjoyed them. We watched another episode of Battletar Galactica ("Deadlock"), then got ready and went to his cousin Billy's BBQ.

The family get together, which was in South Lyon, was fun, though I didn't get to talk with as many people this time. There were still some connections made and I felt honored to be by Michael's side. I played with his niece Katie, and got some sympathy from his cousin Lauren. It was nice to see his aunts and sisters again (and his mother). It was what it was. And afterwards we headed back to the condo.

On the way back there was more conversation about us as a couple, and how very different we are. We didn't end up going to the condo, but instead went to the bank & RiteAid to get my Eppy Pen, only the pharmacy was closed. I got some M&Ms. We went to Whole Foods and I got more Tofu (the plain variety for smoothies and things), some Vegan Mayo (which seems to taste like the real deal), some Colby Cheese (so I could compare the real thing with something else I bought) and some more Green Goodness. I'd like to try some fake eggs if I could, with my vegan cheese and maybe some vegan bacon. It's something I'm thinking about.

Once home we chilled in my room. Michael had some more of the pudding he'd made the night before, and I had a vegan shake (using the chocolate tofu that I'd bought previously), which was yummy. . Michael had bought a vegan cook book so I could find recipies I might want to try and that he could cook for me - and he was thumbing through that and checking things out. He suggested that he might start eating better if he was helping me with foods, which I thought sounded cool. I thought that Mark was home in bed, but he called to see if we wanted anything to eat, but we were set, so that was that.

We watched another episode of BSG ("Someone to Watch Over Me") and then had more conversations about us and everything relating to us. Michael said he had questions for me. He asked me if I loved him and I told him I do. He asked if I meant what I said earlier about wanting to spend the rest of my life with him, and I affirmed that I did mean every word of it. And then he warned me that I wouldn't like the final question, but asked if in December we're good on all fronts would I consider being his husband, and I said I would. That must sound so crazy after what we've just been through, but if we can make it through that and get to December, then I will certainly consider being his husband, because honestly, that's what I want to be. I did however stipulate that I want a prenup that says that if he cheats I get all his stuff. lol. And it should be noted that while I want this, and I hope we make it to December without any troubles, I'm well aware that this is not a sure thing and I'm trying not to get excited about it. We'll just take it one day at a time and see where life takes us.

There has also been much talk of Michael getting rid of his cats and dogs, selling his house, and possibly finding a job and apartment in Ann Arbor - which would be really great. ;-0)

After that we watched the penultimate episode of BSG (the extended cut of "Islanded in a Stream of Stars") before we went to sleep. My stomach was upset much of the night, and I have some other troubles I don't feel like discussing here, but I slept enough, and thought enough, and cuddled enough to feel like the the night was a complete success. I also updated some bits on my website; mostly Doctor Who related.

Michael woke up while I was writing that last part and I tackled him, giving him a friendly morning wank; a safe activity, which he enjoyed quite a lot. He cleaned up and got ready, and I walked him out, with a big hug goodbye.

Mark asked me if Michael just left and I said he did and I told him about the pre-engagement-engagement thing. We talked about what Mark got up to last night... and my stomach was still upset. Erg. Not feeling well today at all. And I think I'll actually need a few days to recuperate.

Got a sweet text from Michael at 12:26 PM:

"I love you and miss you already. But my heart is filled with happies cause of you. It's all your fault"

;-0)

If I wasn't so sore and blechy I'd visit Michael at work today. I'd like to visit him this week sometime at his house, but I don't know his schedule yet. We'll see.

Here begins the ravings of a BSG fan, which can be skipped by anyone who doesn't care about such things:

I was thinking about Battletstar Galactica earlier. I was thinking about the upcoming BSG movie "The Plan", and how I think it will probably play better between "No Exit" & "Deadlock" rather than after people finish the series. I understand the allure from a marketing standpoint, to encourage people to watch 'The Plan' after the run of the series to entice them into rewatching the seres from the beginning, but I just don't think that serves the story of the series.

Here's how I see the series playing out:

001 Caprica: The Movie [Extended Cut]
002 1x01
003 1x02
004 1x03
005 1x04
006 1x05
007 1x06
008 1x07
009 1x08
010 1x09
011 1x10
012 1x11
013 1x12
014 1x13
015 1x14
016 1x15
017 1x16
018 1x17
019 1x18
020 Razor Minisodes [19 Minutes]
021 Battlestar Galactica: The Miniseries
022 1x01 33
023 1x02 Water
024 1x03 Bastille Day
025 1x04 Act of Contrition
026 1x05 You Can't Go Home Again
027 1x06 Litmus
028 1x07 Six Degrees of Separation
029 1x08 Flesh and Bone
030 1x09 Tigh Me Up, Tigh Me Down
031 1x10 The Hand of God
032 1x11 Colonial Day
033 1x12 Kobol's Last Gleaming, Part 1
034 1x13 Kobol's Last Gleaming, Part 2
035 2x01 Scattered
036 2x02 Valley of Darkness
037 2x03 Fragged
038 2x04 Resistance
039 2x05 The Farm
040 2x06 Home, Part 1
041 2x07 Home, Part 2
042 2x08 Final Cut
043 2x09 Flight of the Phoenix
044 2x10 Pegasus [Extended Cut - 59 Minutes]
045 2x11 Resurrection Ship, Part 1
046 2x12 Resurrection Ship, Part 2
047 2x13 Epiphanies
048 2x14 Black Market
049 2x15 Scar
050 2x16 Sacrifice
051 2x17 The Captain's Hand
052 2x18 Dowloaded
053 Battlestar Galactica: Razor [Extended]
054 2x19 Lay Down Your Burdens, Part 1
055 2x20 Lay Down Your Burdens, Part 2
056 BSG: The Resistance [Webisodes]
057 3x01 Occupation
058 3x02 Precipice
059 3x03 Exodus, Part 1
060 3x04 Exodus, Part 2
061 3x05 Collaborators
062 3x06 Torn
063 3x07 A Measure of Salvation
064 3x08 Hero
065 3x09 Unfinished Business [Extended Cut]
066 3x10 The Passage
067 3x11 The Eye of Jupiter
068 3x12 Rapture
069 3x13 Taking a Break From All Your Worries
070 3x14 The Woman King
071 3x15 A Day in the Life
072 3x16 Dirty Hands
073 3x17 Maelstrom
074 3x18 The Son Also Rises
075 3x19 Crossroads, Part 1
076 3x20 Crossroads, Part 2
077 4x01 He That Believeth In Me
078 4x02 Six of One
079 4x03 The Ties That Bind
080 4x04 Escape Velocity
081 4x05 The Road Less Traveled
082 4x06 Faith
083 4x07 Guess What's Coming to Dinner
084 4x08 Sine Qua Non
085 4x09 The Hub
086 4x10 Revelations
087 4x11 Sometimes a Great Notion
088 4x12 A Disquiet Follows My Sou[Extended]
089 BSG: The Face of the Enemy [Webisodes]
090 4x13 The Oath
091 4x14 Blood on the Scales
092 4x15 No Exit
093 BSG: The Plan [Extended]
094 4x16 Deadlock
095 4x17 Someone To Watch Over Me
096 4x18 Islanded in a Stream of Stars*
097 4x19 Daybreak [152 Minutes]

SPOILERS FOR THE FINAL 11 EPISODES OF BSG FOLLOW:

During the closing episodes of Battlestar Galactica (installments 87-97) we get a series of flashbacks & revelations; newly revealed truths about events we thought we understood but did not.

The first of these episodes is "Sometimes a Great Notion", which reveals that Earth was the home to the 13th Tribe and that they were all Cylons. The episode also features flashbacks of Galen, Saul & Ellen thousands of years ago, revealing Ellen Tigh as the final member of the Final Five.

2 installments later, in "The Face of Enemy" webisodes we learn that Gaeta & Hoshi are bi / gay; while flashbacks lay the ground work for Gaeta's upcoming swan song, including new information on the New Caprica Arc along with the answer of what Baltar whispered to Gaeta in 3x13 "Taking a Break From All Your Worries".

3 installments later we have "No Exit" which all but spells out the entire history of the Cylon race, revealing that Cavil is the villain and that the Final Five are merely victims of a larger scheme. The installment also features flashbacks revealing new information to several key Season 3 & 4 episodes including 3x04 "Exodus, Part 2", 3x12 "Rapture" & 4x09 "The Hub".

This is followed up by "The Plan" which goes back to before the BSG Miniseries and tells the first 2 seasons of the series from the Cylon perspective, revealing startling truths of scenes we only thought we understood the first time around, and shedding light on dark corners we never suspected existed.

2 episodes later in "Someone To Watch Over Me" we have flashbacks to Seasons 1 & 2 concerning Tyrol and Boomer (without new information), which is commented on during the final episodes of the series. The episode also gives us more glimpses of Kara as a child.

2 episodes later we have the grand 152 minute extended cut finale which has flashbacks to before the start of the series for characters including Lee Adama, William Adama, Zack Adama, Karl "Helo" Agathon, Samuel Anders, Gaius Baltar, Caprica Six, Laura Roslyn, Kara "Starbuck" Thrace, Ellen Tigh, Saul Tigh, Callandra "Cally" Henderson Tyrol, Galen Tyrol, and Sharon "Boomer" Valeri. The coda of the series also references 'Caprica Before The Fall" - a nod to the prequel series, and acknowledging that this is the true ending to the entire saga.

Viewed my way, 6 of the final 11 episodes feature flashbacks and revelations that change what we thought we knew about the characters and the storyline as a whole, while also allowing for the final image from 'Daybreak' to BE THE FINAL IMAGE. I could go on, but I've probaby scared everyone away already.

I just think it's cool that viewed in this way, the series comes full circle and ends it's run by looking back at what came before, while looking forward to what is to come. It feels very much like what I'm going through right now in my life, where looking back on the past is a necessary step to embracing the present and approaching the future. It resonates for me. Bring on "The Plan". ;-0)

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