Saturday, October 3, 2009

Mark got me more muffins; I tried them all. I had banana nut muffens, pumpkin muffins, and this odd apple oaty variety thingy from Whole Foods. I liked them all. Go me! And a big thank you to Mark! He picked me up a few other things as well. He can be very thoughtful.

I slept for nearly an hour. That's progress. That's the longest I've slept since I was put under for surgery. My pain levels are managable for the moment. But that could change very quickly. Some moments I feel the exact same pain as another moment but react to it differently. There are times when I feel very good about my progress, as it's been only a very short time since this all started...and there are other moments where everything seems agonizingly slow...as it's only been a very short time since this all started. Either way, I've never felt more comforted by or justified in using pain medication outside of headaches. This stuff is keeping me alive until I don't need it anymore. Hopefully it lasts long enough to get me there; I have about enough for 6 more days I think. If I feel that I need more relief at that point I'll switch to something a little less addictive, like the acetaminophen with codeine Michael gave me ages ago. I knew it would come in handy someday. Thanks Michael.

Michael should be over fairly soon from now. It will be nice to see him, though I'm not sure how cuddling will go. Even if we were having more sex these days, I'm not allowed to have sex until at least the 20th, which given my condition isn't something I'm craving at the moment anyways...though I'd like to be in condition to crave it again ASAP.

My legs are getting a bit sore. I usually lay down (and sleep) far more often than I have in the last few days, but when I lay down I feel all my hurts and wounds and while I can't feel that in my sleep, I find it hard to drift off while laying down, and harder still to stay asleep. Though I've fallen asleep for quick moments while sitting up several times.

October 3. Tomorrow will be 13 years since I last slashed my wrists. It will also be 1 month since I last got FUCKED. Coincidence? I think not.

Battlestar Galactica: The Plan comes to DVD in 24 days.

I don't know if I've written about his here, but the final disc of my copy of BSG has an ugly scratch on it. I don't have my receipt from Amazon; at least I can't find it. I don't have the cash to buy a new one. It sucks. Not sure where it came from as I've let several people borrow it, but I'm extremely unthrilled about that.

The Sarah Jane Adventures returns in 12 days, and the whole Whoniverse returns with it! Series 3 features Sarah Jane, K9, The Judoon, The Trickster, the TARDIS, The Slitheen, and one of the final appearances of the 10th Doctor. The series has never reached the same heights as Doctor Who or Torchwood, but it's a nice distraction, and is doing it's part to keep the Whoniverse in our homes this year.

That sleeping while sitting up and typing just happened to me again. Is that healthy? I'll feel completely awake and then...I'll be waking up from a random thought. It's kind of surreal.

Oh. And I get to shower today for the first time since Wednesday evening. I'm just not sure I'll be getting as much pleasure as I normally do from such activity. Everything is so complex at the moment. Even the easy stuff.

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