Monday, October 5, 2009

After the last entry, I checked e-mail and such; uploaded new pictures from the 2nd hospital visit to Facebook, and finished watching Labyrinth. I've always loved that movie, but I feel I was seeing it through new eyes. The movie is odd, and while I see why I loved it in the past, I think I may have outgrown the movie's hold on me, which strikes me as both slightly sad, and oddly appropriate.

I traded some texts & calls with Michael. I miss him, but there's not a lot I can do right now accept drink and pee and complain about such activity. Not a fun date for us. Yet one more reason I want this UTI to be gone ASAP. Michael is frustrated by his job and his home life and it's stress he doesn't need or deserve. He finally kicked Jesse out, who was just 1 in an outragiously long line of people who've moved in with Michael and then used their money on other things than paying Michael, who is struggling to keep his house and pay his bills, which then include supporting people. He still pays for 2 cars; one of them being driven by his ex-bf Scott, who is supposed to be making car payments, but isn't. When I think about all the stress that he's going through it really upsets me. I need to find a way to help him out of this mess if I can. Any suggestions would be appreciated.

I slept well. My UTI remains active and alive...and painful. Honestly, of all the problems I'm having right now, that is the worst, the most annoying, the most painful. And by noon tomorrow I'll be out of the antibiotics that were meant to cure it. This has me worried and scared that it won't work...and then what will I have to do? I know if it doesn't work I'll see my doctor and hopefully have another line of attack, but it's just very draining to have this kind of pain for 4 to 5 days in a row. It starts off as just being annoying, but it's moving beyond that now and its freaking me out.

Oh. And I woke up with a hardon (rare for me) from some really random dream about high school and sex, and catching HIV from a cousin who got it from the boy I most wanted but never had (in the dream) - it was so weird. And so not fun to have a hardon with a UTI. Ugh! Not fair!!!

I need to see my doctor anyways. I need to see about seeing a specialist for my vitaligo, which has spread to my arms and hands. I need to see him about getting a refill for my Reglan, though I still have plenty in my last bottle. I need to see him to consult on a possible switch to Imitrex from Midrin, to possible help my liver, though the hospital said it was in great shape.

I still haven't had a bowel movement since my surgery, which isn't altogether unusual or worrysome for me, but as the doctors think it's important I've been taking a laxitive that Mark uses; I also had some prune juice the other day, and tried dried prunes - both of which were sort of gross in my opinion; perhaps I'll grow to enjoy them. Either way, I think the problem here is that I just haven't eaten enough. I'm not a big eater anyways, mostly because if I don't have small meals then my stomach can't deal with it and it just all gets gross really fast... And now I'm being told that a lot of the (admittedly junk) food that I snack on which usually produces reliable BM's can't be eaten at the moment.

I feel I've been getting enough exercise, but could probably do a little more; it's just hard to do when your dick is on fire. I feel like my deep breathing has returned to normal, which is great. I feel like I'm now doing a good job of keeping my legs from swelling; been keeping my feet up everytime I sleep, which I thought would be harder - I've never been prone to sleeping on my back, but this has come very easily indeed. I've been drinking a lot of water and taking my pills ontime, so I feel like I've been flushing my bladder very well, especially in the last 48 hours. The first few days I was reticent to drink a lot of fluid as I feared the pain of urination, but then it was pointed out that I had to go through the pain; that I had to flush the bacteria out of my bladder for this to work, and so I've embraced that hardship altogether. The thing is, I feel I'm drinking a CRAZY AMOUNT of WATER, but in reality I'm drinking only slightly more than people are supposed to drink every day of their lives! It's insane how much we're supposed to be drinking and pissing and I'm betting that I'm not the only one who doesn't drink as much as they're "supposed to".

I just had another piss session and this one was slightly less painful and 'fuller'; the stream was heavy, which has been unusual of late. But I took some pain killer about 30 minutes ago, so I'm not sure the non-pain is a good sign, or just a nice perk of the drugs. I take my next antibiotic dose at noon, though I may take it before then.

My plans for the day: same as every day recently. Exercise. Breathe. Take pills. Keep feet elevated whenever possible. Drink lots of water. Pee a lot. Stay clean. Stay relaxed. Stay positive.

10 days until The Sarah Jane Adventures.

22 days until Battlestar Galactica: The Plan.

I've still not seen the new episodes of Smallville or Dollhouse (both of which are getting terrible ratings on Friday nights and will most likely be cancelled). If Smallville is cancelled, I can deal. The series isn't that great really, but it's entertaining and can usually be counted on for a few good moments here and there, with 1 or 2 fantastic episodes a season, with some seasons sucking more than others (Season 7 was crap, Season 8 was mostly gold). But it's a long running show, and it would be nice if it had a great finale to kind of wrap it up, though with all the retcons that show has done, that might be impossible. If Dollhouse is cancelled I can also deal. I feel the early episodes are terrible but are paid off in the later episodes of Season 1 - with the DVD only episode bringing a nice new twist to the whole story. I felt like the series had already been cancelled at that point, so any episodes from Season 2 just feel like a bonus. I'd be happier if the show was doing really well and there were seasons of Dollhouse on which to build, but I'm just grateful that the show did improve and that I no longer have to dislike a Joss Whedon project.

I've seen new episodes of Desperate Housewives and Brothers & Sisters. Both shows I've enjoyed in the past...but I'm not really thrilled about at the moment. Thankfully there is Glee. Glee is the show I most look forward to watching these days. It's cute and fun, funny, biting comedy, with a musical twist. It's sort of like my replacement for the now deceased Pushing Daises.

I didn't write this entire entry in one sitting. Been moving around. Been following doctor's orders. I'm gonna go now, and keep that up. Take that antibiotic now.

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