Thursday, October 8, 2009

Mark says the home remedies just make your pee more or less acidic - and the ones that make your pee more acidic clear out the bacteria because the bacteria doesn't like the acid. I feel like I'm already pissing acid though. What I want is relief. I want the symptoms [PAIN] to be gone, and I want something to cure whatever is going on inside of me, be it injury from a catheter, movement of a kidney stone (which I highly doubt it is as I have zero back pain), or a UT Infection. Why is this so hard to get across to my doctor / hospital? I know I'm basically posting the same thing over and over but it's helping to keep me from killing myself. And I'm not serious about that last line...I've not seriously contemplated killing myself since the 2nd week of September, but I feel hypersensitive in my own skin - like if I could just rip off my outsides I'd be ok, which I KNOW is silly, but that's the sensation gong through my brain. I'll bet Mollie understands this. I just...UGH. I'm stuck in this loop of pain and horror and NOTHING is being done about it. This should have been cleared up by now but it's not and I NEED TO KNOW WHY and how to stop it now.

On a side note I've noticed that my stomach barely hurts at all when I get up or lay down now. It's CRAZY that the stuff from my operation, which was crazy painful on Friday is almost all pain free now, while the UTI or whatever is is has only grown worse - when you'd think the UTI would be the more common thing, and the more easily controlled. I'm living in some kind of fucked up nightmare world. Somebody wake me the fuck up!!!

On my geeky side note; it's now Thursday, October 8. Sarah Jane begins 1 week from tonight. BSG: The Plan is released just 19 days from now.

And I better fucking be in far less pain when Sarah Jane arrives goddamn it!

   posted by Bald Jason at 01:12 AM
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