Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Been listening to music. I watched highlights from 'Children of Earth' and cried happy tears. I listened to 'Halo' by Beyonce, and the mashups from the recent Glee episode. I just ate some more. Trying my best to get strong again. I worked on Michael's farm and chatted with his Aunt Glenda (one of his father's sisters). She had guessed that Michael had cheated based on some of the Facebook stuff and she told me about her first husband (she's been with the 'new' one for 10 years) - she also said that hardships can make relationships stronger, and that if only her previous husband had stopped cheating and really made an effort then she would have forgiven him. Hopefully Michael won't hurt me that way again. I wrote a 2nd poem for him this morning. The first was written as he was cheating for the last time and now seems so hollow. This one feels like a much better effort.

FALLEN:

Thinking back now
to the night of your birth,

And later the nightmare
that crashed you to Earth,

Named for an angel
on that early June morn,

But you'd yet sprung your wings
when your wings were shorn,

The seed that was planted
in your Father's eye,

The first of the men
who taught you to lie,

Followed by men
who hit, lied and shoved,

Who convinced you
that you could never be loved,

But these men were wrong
even though you believed,

Because I see your truth
and I see your grief,

I've seen your worst
and I've seen your best,

And I've seen you play your cards
close to your vest,

I've seen you stumble
at the smallest affection,

I've seen you crumble
at the smallest confession,

I've held you in darkness
and I've heard your fears,

I've held your hand
and I've dried your tears,

But you struck out at me
for you could not believe,

That I loved only you
and that I would not leave,

You hurt me with all of the pain
you'd collected,

But when it was over
you were not rejected,

You fell from such heights
when you listened to hate,

You fell from the sky
and I saw too late...
that all of our life was nothing but lies...

I tried to see through the tears in my eyes...

And there in the heart of all of our pain...

There in the suffering I could not contain...

There was the secret I now knew was true...

You fell from the sky...

But I fell for you.

And now we exist
in this haze of confusion,

As we look into truth
through the daze of illusion,

And I see that the man
that you told me you were,

Exists deep inside you;
and of that I'm sure,

For the wings may be gone
and the wounds may be deep,

But your halo's still there,
when I watch you sleep.

Written By Jason Wright
October 14, 2009

- For Michael -

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