Saturday, January 23, 2010

Kept chatting online. Michael later texted me about LOST (he's bypassed me; he's 8 episodes ahead of me now) and then called me and it was all very laid back until it got all dramatic and painful. Michael feels that he has no friends; that people just depend on him until they can screw him over. He wants his life to end but doesn't want to commit suicide. When I told him I'd never screwed him over and that I was his friend and that I'd do anything to help him, he asked if I would kill him... He's definitely depressed. He's definitely needing help, but says he doesn't need anything from anyone. I'll do anything I can to help him, but I'm worried it won't be enough.

I'd write more, but I'm completely exhausted. All I'll say is that today (Friday) was very tough, but I'm thankful for all of my friends (I got to talk to Mollie briefly on the phone), and all of the encourgment they've given me. And for all the strangers who popped up out of the woodwork to tell me it wasn't my fault, and that I'm attractive and that everything will be ok in the end. Even the guys I turned down online were gracious tonight...and I'm grateful.

   posted by Bald Jason at 01:58 AM
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