Friday, February 12, 2010

Michael and I spoke again a bit later. Another amazing conversation, yet it ended with him asking me to be his boyfriend again, and hanging up. I told him no. Not because I don't love him, because I do. Not because I don't want to spend the rest of my life with him, because I do. But because nothing has changed. He said that if I was around him more than he wouldn't get the alone feeling and act out by fucking other guys...but I can't be wondering what he's doing all the time when I'm not around. I did that for 4.5 months and it was hell. But I love him, and will do whatever I can to make our lives easier. If he'll go to therapy that would be something that would convince me to be with him again. I told him so, and he hung up on me.

I'm planning on going to his apartment in a bit to cuddle with him, and reassure him that while nothing has changed for the better to allow us to be a couple again, nothing has changed for the worse and we don't need to lose the relationship we've been developing the last few weeks. Does that make me weak? I don't know.

I'm mixing a cd now for the car.

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