Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Ended up passing out last night. Woke up around 5:30am. I downloaded the new LOST, V & Glee. I watched Glee while I ate. Did the Farm Town thing. Got ready to drive Mark out to Toledo where he'll get his bus. It's a free trip for him (his brother is kindly paying for him) and he really needs a vaction so I'm all for it. I just wish my life didn't seem to be falling apart while he was away.

I need to try to relax myself.

Spoke to Michael briefly and he said he's not mad at me for not coming over last night. It's hard for me to not over-analyze these things after his former behavior. Did he hook up with someone else last night? Probably not. It hurts that these thoughts are there even if I quickly shoot them down. I fear I'll never get back to the place I was before I learned the truth, when I could say I need time to myself or something to that effect, without worrying if he's off fucking 4 other guys. Perhaps it will come in time.

I'm tired. When I take a muscle relaxer it seems to hit me in waves, with me getting up and then going back to sleep. If I wasn't taking Mark to Toledo I'd so go back to sleep right now.

I took out the trash & plastics. I'm doing the dishes. I'm doing laundry. I made my bed. I'm not being completely lazy.

   posted by Bald Jason at 08:24 AM
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