Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Got a lot done this morning. I'm pretty sure I have the first 59 (of 87) episodes of Batman: The Animated Series locked into place. I have a rough guess-timate of the final 28 episodes. I've made awesome progress! Yay!

Went to the jaw doctor today for a followup. No worries unless things change. My jaw will most likely never work the way it once did which saddens me, yet I'm getting used to it...adapting to the pain I suppose. Also went to Meijer, my doctor's office to make an appointment for several reasons...then Kroger and home. Just harvested my Farm. My jaw hurts from stretching it for the doc and I may take a muscle relaxer before going to sleep, but if I do I'll be out of it until about 24 hours from now.

I read the early reviews for "Predators" which have been mostly positive, saying it's the best installment of that series since the first one. I think people diss the AVP movies based mostly on the last one (which was HORRIBLE), which isn't exactly fair, but for my money AVP (Part 1) is the best Predator movie so far. Perhaps I'll like Predators even more. I hope so.

I'm worried that things with Michael have to end. I don't want them to. But with my jaw being all fucked up and my stomach being all out of control, my ability to have sex has been severely compromised...and Michael has a HUGE sex drive. Part of me is hurt that after more than a year with me he will most likely choose to not be with me, and part of me completely understands. This isn't his fault or mine...I didn't expect my body to change like this, and I expect we'll always be friends who love one another, but I think our time as a couple is ending...but maybe I'm just being dramatic and I'm wrong, because he doesn't seem interested in leaving me. Yet I feel guilty for not having sex more often...and a kind of pressure to do so, even though it physically hurts me to do so. We'll see. Maybe some kind of balance will happen that I can't foresee yet?

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