Thursday, August 12, 2010

So Mark & I slept until about 6pm last night. I'd missed a call from Michael so I called him back and left a voicemail telling him my plans for the night and hoping he was ok. He eventually got in touch with me and told me I was selfish and not a good friend because I didn't invite him out to see my friends on my birthday...when all I've been doing in my head is try to distance myself from how I was treated on my last birthday (in which I let him cum inside for the first time, not knowing that he'd fucked several other guys including 1 just 3 days before) - and so while I love him and want him to be happy, I just needed this space. I punched a hole in the wall. Took a xanax. And I managed to chill without my stomach freaking out. Go me. ;-0)

Mark & I went to Michael's place where I talked to him and argued and talked and he cried and said he missed being in a relationship with me...which I totally miss too, but I explained that I NEED time to learn to trust again, and we need to get past stuff and it's not my fault so I don't know why he's blaming me. We had an ok goodbye and I hoped to see him on Friday.

Mark & I went to Flint to pick up Sean (who's more handsome than he's ever been - and he's ALWAYS been hot!) and on the way home Mark pulled the car over, which confused me. I thought we were out of gas or the police were pulling us over but he pulled over cause it was midnight and he wanted to hug me for my birthday! Sean & I hugged. and then I took a nap on the way home.

TO BE CONTINUED...

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