Sunday, August 15, 2010

Saturday brought lots of Drama. First from Michael as a miscommunication meant I was supposed to chill with him Friday night instead of Saturday...I got sick to my stomach...and realized the only way to not be sick was to smooth things out with him which I concentrated on doing for most of the day. It was a difficult day between my stomach being upset and dealing with serious issues between Michael & I. It finally seemed to have a happy ending with us cuddling and sleeping...

Then the shit hit the fan. Only from Mark. He'd spent some time with family and was back in A2 with his sister-in-law and texted / messaged hoping Michael & I could join - only we were asleep. He texted me 19 times and left 2 voicemails; he texted Michael 7 times and left him 2 voicemails as well - all saying 'call me' and not hinting if it was an emergency or not. I responded as soon as I saw the messages (I woke up thirsty around 2am) but Mark didn't respond, which worried the fuck out of me, making me sick again and leading to a stress headache from hell - only he didn't respond because he was pissed at me. Classy.

So now my stomach is upset again. After I spent all day yesterday working out the drama / stress that was clawing at me, only to have it explode all over me again. I was sleeping; I'm sorry. And 19 texts when it's not an emergency is just excessive and cruel. It's bad enough that I missed the chance to hang out with Mark & Julie (one of my favorite people on this planet) but now i have to be punished for that? Seriously? I didn't answer because I was asleep after an exhausting day. Mark didn't answer because he was being a bitch. Honestly I have more reason to be pissed here than he does. And I know he's gonna read this and be upset but it's my fucking blog; just let me vent! Ugh.

However...we're all under a lot of stress. His former employers are dicking him over. He's waiting on news of a job...and money stuff. He's got family stress. He's got major issues. I need to cut him some slack. I need to move on from this anger and just get past it. I don't want this shit poisoning me.

I'm gonna try to sleep. I'm supposed to hang out with Bryan, Di, possibly Robert, and possibly Mark & Shawn later. I told Bryan I'd invite Mark but forgot in all the drama. I'll go do that now and then try to sleep. Blah. Hopefully I can eat later. That would be nice.

   posted by Bald Jason at 08:38 AM
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