Monday, September 6, 2010

So...Mark had a talk with me last night and our money troubles appear to be reaching the crisis point. He spoke about cutting so many things from our budget...like phones, internet - possibly even selling the condo and moving to an apartment...it's all so sad. I love it here. I love my room. It really feels like my home and I don't want to lose that. I need to see about getting on disability for my gastro paresis; even when it's going well, part of that is me sitting still and not stressing AT ALL, so as much as I want to have a job...I'm not sure I can do it. It's hard enough to find ANY job, let alone one that's understanding of my condition. :0(

I'm trying very hard not to be depressed about this.

A year ago tomorrow - (which was a Monday last year) - I found out the truth about Michael. Tonight I'll be hanging out with him as friends. Strange how this all works.

I thought the season finale of True Blood was on last night - but it's next week. Ugh. 2 weeks of waiting before we see the finale, which will undoubtedly have a cliffhanger ending. lol

I just shaved and showered. I chatted most of the night and didn't get to bed until around 10am. I feel stressed. The money stuff is stressing me. Ugh. I slept for about 5 hours, in Mark's bed.

I'm gonna get ready and head to Michael's so I'll hopefully be there when he gets home. Just chill with him and try to relax. Take a book or two. And I'm taking a xanax right now. I need to chill the fuck out.

   posted by Bald Jason at 02:46 PM
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