Sunday, October 10, 2010

Had a great date with Matthew on Friday. We watched "Heart of Ice" (B:TAS) and talked and eventually had 'the sex' which was great actually; relieved a lot of tension. He went home fairly early. I later went to Necto to see Shawn Walker. On my way I stopped at Aut Bar where I saw several peeps, then picked up Felix on my way out, going to Necto together. Lots of stuff happened. Lots of people were seen. Lots of laughter, a bit of drama, a bit of everything really. I got home around 4:30am. Exhausted. Didn't get to sleep until around 5:30am.

Saturday, Michael found out about the sex with Matthew and freaked out. He wants me back. He doesn't want me having sex with anyone...even though he'd had sex with 3 people in the last 8 days, 2 of which were unprotected. Double Standard...yet understandable emotionally. I love him. I want him to be happy; want us to be happy, but it just seems like we'd be better off as friends.

Also, Friday I was able to keep down 3 meals!!!! Saturday wasn't as lucky. I had eggs and soy milk (small portions of both) and it all came back up. :(

Went to Aut Bar last night. Saw Shawn Walker, his friend Brandon, Tom, Jared, Brian, Ryan (who told me that my sort-of-friend Jesse is dating his ex-bf?) - had fun but I was tired and my stomach was VERY upset. Came home and went to bed.

Today. Woke around 11am. I just ate and took a bath. I need to find my phone; it's not where I usually sit it; it might have fallen out in the car. Matthew and I were supposed to see a movie today. It still might happen; it depends on how my stomach deals with the food I just had. I like him.

This guy on Manhunt, Jay, recognized Michael in my pictures though Michael's face is blotted out - he recognized Michael's body. I knew that they'd been lovers before I met him, and that they've had sex recently, but it was kind of a shock. Plus he's one of those boys who knows Michael as Collin. Weird.

I miss Michael and hope we'll be able to continue our friendship.

My stomach is very unhappy.

   posted by Bald Jason at 02:11 PM
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