Wednesday, June 22, 2011

I've decided I'm not taking my 2nd dose until Friday night.
I have plans with my dad, sister Janice & her kids
tomorrow...and this drug, it seriously makes me feel like
I've smoked a bunch of pot...and I don't want them seeing
me that way. Mark swears that after 3 or 4 days that effect
wears off and then I won't feel that again until they up my
dosage. I'll have to take his word for it, but I HATE it and I
don't want it. I also want to wait to take it when Mark will
be available to supervise me because it prevents me from
driving and makes me feel...like a lot of things could go
wrong. I was looking at the papers that came with the
drug and it says that suicidal thoughts and actions are
more common during the opening salvo of the drug, so I
need to be sure that Mark is here to watch over me. I don't
really know anyone else who can stay here with me. I'm
dreading telling him this, because although he's not told
me of any plans with Gen this weekend, I think he's had
plans with her every weekend for the last several weeks. I
don't want him to resent me for needing him for this.

I've made the most of my increased energy level. I did
laundry. I took pictures I'd been wanting for awhile now,
and I may take more. I edited another episode of Caprica. I
shaved and showered.

I'm suddenly tired but I don't want to sleep until tonight.

   posted by Bald Jason at 02:10 PM
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