Thursday, March 30, 2006

Over the last 2 days I've almost completely reorganized every aspect of my bedroom. I think I like it, even while I'm slightly homesick for the way it used to be. It's nice to have a change. I can't believe it took me so long though. I still have some laundry to do. I should take some pictures in here to show how much it's changed.

I saw Steve again last night. He seems sad, but not overly so... I can't quite put my finger on it. Maybe I'm trying too hard... I don't know. But it seems we will be friends again, which I'm glad of. I think he needs friends, that won't just bullshit him. I got a free copy of his cd. It's amusing, but probably wouldn't mean a damn to me if it wasn't for him being involved with it.

I had called Janice on Saturday, but didn't talk to her for more than a minute because she had a fever. I checked in with her today, and she's doing better, but still doesn't have any energy. I hope she'll be ok. I spoke to Jonathan on the phone. He's so funny. Jordan's taking new meds, which seem to be helping him. Justin's supposed to start baseball practice this week. Jillian was playing with Brooke. It was nice to catch up. But I wish I heard from Jamie more often.

I did have one amazing conversation with Jamie a long while back, and it looked like we would continue having such conversations (the way that Janice & I do), but she told me something very private and then jumped to conclusions when she learned that Janice knew about it too - she thought I told her, and before I could explain she hung up on me. I was so angry at the time, that she would think me possible of such a thing, that I didn't correct her mistake - I didn't tell Janice - her fiance did. He made a joke about it in front of Janice & our mother. Janice just asked me a question about it, which was asked out of love, not out of some wacky gossipy bitchdom. And now Jamie and I might never be that close again. I know it's mostly this guy's fault, but part of me still stings to think that Jamie believes I betrayed her.

I talked to Carrie yesterday, which was nice. I talked to Jennifer (finally) Tuesday night, and learned the sordid details of her recent visit to Michigan and why I never saw her. Plus we got to chat it up about boys, which is always fun. There used to be so many more boys to chat about and now we're just...circling the same 2 or 3...or that's how it seems. Weird.

I look forward to seeing my friends' reactions to my room. I feel kind of tired today, or maybe just tired of being here. I miss work, and I wish I was there right now. I miss having a car. There have been a half dozen times this week in which I would have just jumped in the car and gone somewhere, but I couldn't. Bleh. I'm ok though, and I guess that's all that matters... But I want to do SOMETHING.

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