Tuesday, April 5, 2011

So Michael, who sent me a message last week telling me
to never contact him again, left on a comment on my blog
a few days later, which really pissed me off...like...I'd
asked him to not contact me, and he'd then asked me to
not contact him, but he was reading and commenting on
my blog? WTF? Mark had him blocked from my blog. I'd
already blocked him from Manhunt & Facebook. Well,
Thursday night he left me a really creepy, crazy message
on Farm Town. I'd thought because he was blocked on
Facebook that he wouldn't be able to contact me through
there but was I wrong - I didn't get the message until
Sunday.

My phone interview with the state didn't happen on Friday.
Just like last year they didn't call on the day they said they
would. I was less worried about that this time because of
my past experience. Friday night I was planning on taking
a nap and then going to Necto but I ended up chatting
with this cool guy named Nick. We'd chatted with (and
complimented) each other in the past but this was much
more intense. He's 33. Lives near Port Huron. Cute as a
button. Anyways, I ended up talking to him for 6 hours.

I slept really well. On saturday Mark & I went to my Aunt
Shawn's memorial service at my family's church. We were
10 minutes late, so we missed Janice's song (which she
played for me later, at my request - she was fantastic, as
always). We also apparently missed the tiny section in
which Joe the Pastor spoke about my Aunt at all. He
mentioned her name once, but everything else was about
how we're damned and going to hell if we don't accept
Christ. It sucked. I know I won't be at my own memorial,
but to anyone who's reading this, if you're there, and they
start trying to make it about their fictional invisible
mythological friend instead of me - have them removed.
Seriously. Ugh.

Still, seeing all those family members from one of my
dad's sides of the family was awesome. Some of those
family members, I hadn't seen in over 20 years. We
snapped some pictures. Doug was very open about
welcoming Mark to the service. It was all good I suppose.
We later went to Payless shoes, where I found some great
atheletic shoes and Mark got some dress shoes - my
shoes cost $20; I look forward to walking around town in
them this summer.

While at the store I got a text from Laurie. She & her mom
Diane were in Ann Arbor, which was crazed because it was
Hash Bash (which I've never been too - because hundreds
of stoned people just seem annoying to me). Mark
dropped me at home, and I spoke to Nick. Laurie & Diane
came over. Nick soon joined us. Laurie & Diane headed
out to see Phil (it was SO GOOD TO SEE THEM) and then
Nick & I hung out. Mark came home, bringing us Little
Caesars (having had his phone upgraded). We ate. Chilled.
Mark & Nick got on well. Nick stayed the night, and we
cuddled a bit, in our underwear.

Sunday morning we had THE SEX. lol. It wasn't planned.
And it just happened, as it should. It wasn't pushed for. It
wasn't forced. It just came completely naturally. And then
shortly after that, we did it again. It was all good. Nick
later headed home, through a blizzard; he had homework
to do. I sent him off with a disc of Clone Wars episodes, as
he loves the show but had fallen behind. He ended up
watching them all that day.

So, on Sunday I got the FarmTown message from Michael,
which was obviously left for me there because he couldn't
get to my blog. I deleted him from my Neighbors on the
game, which I thought would prevent him from sending
me crazy messages. Mark noticed that Michael had signed
up for some program on his phone (which we were paying
for) that was crazy expensive, and that the cost of keeping
his line had jumped up $10.00 more a month. That he had
this free phone, that he'd used to cheat on me with...that
he continued to enjoy despite lying to me, and hurting
me, and contacting me after me begging him not too -
and now he was using for things that were costing us still
more money - it was too much. Mark agreed when he
heard what Michael said in his message. Mark said he
never wanted to talk to Michael again and he had Michael's
phone shut off. He also blocked Michael's e-mail
addresses from my account, so he couldn't contact me
that way. He was still able to do so through Farm Town
though and he sent me a message in which he threatened
me; telling me to watch my back because I'd just made an
enemy...but I think he'd always been my enemy, he just
wasn't as direct about it. I was disgusted with the new
messages...he threatened suicide in the latter message (a
tactic he'd used to manipulate me in the past) I didn't want
him to suffer, I just didn't want to have any ties to him at
all. He obviously had access to a phone becuase he left
Mark & I several voicemails. I have no idea what they said
because I deleted them all rather than exposing myself to
his bitterness. I also found a way to keep him from
sending me Farm Town messages.

Monday I woke up after not sleeping well (acid related I
thought, possibly from stress, and my throat had hurt on
Sunday). I helped Mark get ready for work as he was
running late. Then I tried to go back to sleep. Michael
called from a number I didn't recognize and I answered,
hoping it was the state interview about my health benefits,
but it was Michael. I hung up when I recognized his voice
and he then called me 7 more times and Mark several
times as well. Mark sent him an e-mail message asking
that he not contact me at all; that he only contact Mark for
access to some computers that he'd recently given Mark,
and told Michael to use this opportunity to call any jobs
he'd applied for - to touch base with them again and give
them his new number. Mark also pointed out to Michael
that Mark had noticed the night before that after losing
his phone, Michael had signed Mark & I up for an
expensive dating service using our phone numbers - and
that Michael wasn't as much the victim as he was playing
that he was. Michael sent an angry response but promised
to never contact us ever again. An ugly ending to an ugly
relationship. There were bright spots, and revelatory
moments, but it was so much more damaging than
anything else I've ever experienced. It might take me years
to recover. I've been broken by that man in so many
ways...countless ways that are hard to describe. I again
deleted all his voicemails without listening to them.

Later the state called and I had my interview which I think
went well, but I won't know until they send me a letter. I'm
trying not to worry about that, with some success. I've
stayed in touch with Nick.

There were mountains of Doctor Who / Clone Wars /
Torchwood news on Monday...which had me quite excited
and distracted me from the fact that I obviously had a
cold...or possibly really bad allergies. I suspect the former.
I'm still feeling lousy today. I'm tryint to stay upbeat
though.

   posted by Bald Jason at 04:34 PM
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