Tuesday, October 4, 2011

I picked Mark up on time on Sunday. We watched the
Doctor Who finale. I called Jim H, and explained why I
never went out with him again back in 2007, then we
made plans to hang out soon. I slept. I ate a full meal, with
no troubles. I hung out with Mark for a bit. It was a quiet
night but it was nice. I made plans with David for
Saturday.

I slept a bit Monday morning. Mark got me up for my
psych evaluation, which went well, I guess, though I'm not
sure how I feel about some of the things that came up.
Too soon to say if this will be helpful or not. I went home
afterward. I slept more. Sleep is apparently essential for
my stomach to work. Later I went out for food with Mark,
after which Mark sprang the news on me that he'll be
moving in December for sure or sooner...this was very
upsetting to hear. I'm trying my best to not fall apart,
which is really difficult...basically all that's been promised
to me for years is being tossed out in the trash so he can
be with Gen...which is a betrayal on a level I've never
experienced before, so it's hard for me to process because
I love him so much.

A bit later we met my new friends Ilyssa & Sarah at a shop
and went to Starbucks where the cute guy behind the
counter was nice to me for a change, and commented that
he'd never seen my eyes before because I usually have my
sunglasses on. We went to Aut Bar briefly where we saw
Jeff & Calvin, then headed home where we chilled until it
was time for us all to get ready to go to Necto (everyone
except Mark, who was on the phone with Gen). Necto was
fun, if fairly uneventful. Lots of fun dancing with my
friends. I hardly drank at all. I ran into Adam's old friend
Wendy; I knew her (barely) back in 1995 or so, and we
didn't get along at the time, but it was nice to see her
now.

After the bar, I parted ways with my friends and came
home. My ears were ringing for a very long time after the
bar, which is odd, because the music didn't seem any
louder than usual. I watched the new installment of The
Sarah Jane Adventures before sleeping.

I woke up a few times. I've been trying to reorganize my
website, which I have a lot of ideas about, but it's a
struggle. I'm sure it will be worth it once I have it updated,
but for now it's not a lot of fun...it's a lot of work. It's fairly
nice out and I feel like I should maybe go out, yet I have to
be places on Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday &
Sunday, so I'm thinking I might just stay in and work on
my site and try to relax.

Today marks 15 years since I last slashed my wrists. Also,
it's Anne Rice's birthday.

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