Friday, June 16, 2006

Wednesday morning I woke up coughing. I have this cough that hits me at night, but then goes away and I feel fine. It's weird. My sister thinks I might be allergic to something in my room, but I've been on my bed in my room when I wasn't sleeping and didn't have a problem. So...that's weird.

I got up, shaved & showered and whatnot. Jeremy called & said he'd be right over. I was watching Buffy, and just about to relax in our massage chair, but when Jeremy arrived I surrendered it to him, which he enjoyed. We chatted, and there was lots of smiling and all that... And he wanted to go to Pizza House which we had talked about maybe doing, and I was all up for that, but just as we were leaving my stomch got upset. I almost cancelled everything right there, which I'm really glad I didn't do, despite my discomfort. I wasn't able to eat the food I was so hungry for only hours before, but Jeremy was great about it; better than I was. He's so sweet.

When we got back to the condo, I stripped down to my shirt & underwear, and we sat on the couch and talked some more. Within all this conversation (throughout the day) I learned that Jeremy plays the piano (his whole family is very musical); he wouldn't mind going into theater. He hates Euchre. He loves "The Lord of the Rings" (he owns the extended editions on DVD just as I do), and fantasy in general, having read "The Wheel of Time" series by Robert Jordan, and at least some of Mercedes Lackey's "Velgarth Series". I've never read the former though I know of it, but I'm a big fan of the latter; a page of my site is devoted to that series; that page can be seen here.

Lets see...what else...He's never seen an episode of Buffy the Vampire Slayer. He's seen some Trek but not a lot, and knows next to nothing about DS9. I showed him a scene from the 22nd episode, "The Circle" to demonstrate why I love the show so much. He suggested we watch the first episode, but it's 2 hours long, and we only had a few hours to spend together; I told him I could loan it to him if he liked, though we didn't discuss that again.

Jeremy and I talk about a lot of intense stuff. Anytime I think I've maybe said too much, he comes out swinging, with revelations of his own. Some of these moments are funny, or touching. Others make me feel extremly protective of him, and his well being. He had to take a call from work, which was going on really long, so I...distracted him. I felt almost completely better by this time, and we...well...I'm sure you can figure it out. Greatness. I'd go into detail, but it's come to my attention that a lot of people have been reading my blog lately, which is flattering, but strange. lol

So after all the talking, touching, talking, touching, showering, touching, talking...Jeremy had to go to work. He'd told me that his friend Kim really wanted to meet me, and I wanted to see exactly where he worked, so I suggested that I go with him, and then I could walk home. So off we went. I met his coworker "Quin"(?), out on the sidewalk on our way in. She had this amazing top, which I commented on; I guess she does manicures and stuff. Jeremy led me through the Kerry Town shops which I'd always wanted to take the time to see, but never had. I used to know someone who worked in the coffee shop just below where he works, but I don't know if he still works there or not.

I met Kim, the receptionist, and we got along famously. I was just going to say hello to everyone and then leave, as Jeremy had to work, but he was cutting Kim's hair and she invited me to stay, so I did, which was a nice surprise. So I got to see Jeremy work, while I bonded with Kim. We both love movies, and we were naming off GLBT titles, and she hadn't seen "Claire of the Moon", which is this really extremely cheesy, cliche ridden lesbian drama from the early 90s, which despite (or maybe because of) it's many flaws, I happen to love. I told her I'd let her borrow it. She also asked me if I could take a bunch of pictures of her, so that she could have some cute pictures of herself. Oh, and this girl Lisa, who comes into Hollywood Video on a regular basis, also works there, which was a nice surpise (Bryan & Mark both claim I know everybody). Anyways, I had fun, and it was fun spending more time with Jeremy, and meeting some of his gaggle of friends.

After he was done for the day, he was going to Aut Bar to eat before his WRAP meeting, so I joined him for more conversation, while I waited for Mark to pick me up. This was all good. There was this moment, where someone he knew was obviously wondering how Jeremy & I knew each other, and Jeremy kind of ducked the non-spoken questions. He aksed me if that made me uncomfortable, and I asked him if it made him uncomfortable... He's knew to the dating a guy, while having a boyfriend thing. And it's hard for him to tell other people about it because they don't understand. His friends at work all knew about me already, but random people we run into do not. It's...kind of like dating a closeted man, which... You know, in retrospect it kind of sucked, but I didn't think it did at the time. And I was aware of all the stuff going on in Jeremy's brain, and I knew that it was hard for him, so it didn't/doesn't bother me as much as it might have. I know how Jeremy feels, or at least I think I do, and this is unknown territory for all of us...so, there's bound to be a period of adjustment.

Mark arrived just as Jeremy was off to his meeting, which was perfect timing. I told him about the day. I told him about my upset stomach and he urged me to see my doctor about all this acid reflux shit. You know, for 5 years I've lived with it being bad like this on a fairly regular basis. I know people that have had surgery to correct it; people that say it saved their lives...and I'm starting to get to the point where...I'm just so sick of having to deal with this all the time. I'm not sure I can do it anymore. Physically it's exhauting, and emotionally it's terribly taxing. And it makes everything so fucking complicated and difficult.

Later that night I googled Jeremy online, and I'm pretty sure I found his family address, which I wasn't looking for; but given the facts I know it made sense. There were actually a lot of hits; most of them having to do with his work with WRAP. I also found this interview filled with stuff that I already knew about; some of it I had only learned from him a few hours before. There was one bit that he hadn't told me yet, but I'll ask him about next time I see him...or perhaps I'll just let him tell me. "There will be many days..." as he has often said.

I got a call from Jonathan in Grand Rapids, while I was beating off. I told him I'd call him back. When I was finished, and showered, I called him back and we chatted for about an hour. It was great to hear from him, and let him know about everything that's going on here. He has a job now which he likes, and he & Shawn live in the same building as Shawn's brother & sister-in-law. He also talked to me about speeding tickets, and how you always get points on your licence, and that he once had about 11 points on his, which made me feel better, somehow. I later watched some Smallville, and then went to bed.

I woke up on Thursday with the worst headache, and took some midrin, which hit me fast and hard, which I was grateful for. I couldn't eat anything because I'm stomch is rejecting everything. There was a time when I could go a week without eating, and I wouldn't even notice. I know that I'm better now because I'm constantly hungry - which sucks when I'm not allowed to eat. A lot of this has to do with my diet lately; I've basically been eating everything I shouldn't for a month, and now I'm paying for it. But even when I'm not giving in to my cravings, the whole thing still mostly sucks. I need to make an appointment and then go to a specialist or something.

I later went to work, and rented another Smalleville disc; I'm nearly half way through Season 2; there are currently 5 seasons; soon to be 6. Work was dead. I got through to my lawyer and went over some stuff for the whole ticket fiasco, which also made me feel slightly better. It's possible that this whole thing will prove fruitless and I'll still have to pay everything, and suffer the memory of it all, but at least I'm trying to do something about it. We were so dead at work that they sent me out at 3:30pm. I went home to change, hung out for awhile, and then went to pick up Mark. I had decided that I'd stop by Jeremy's work to give Kim the movie I promised (along with "Relax... It's Just Sex", which I thought she would like. When I got there, Jeremy, Quin & Kim were at the front of the salon, along with another girl who I wasn't introduced to. Jeremy reintroduced me to Quin, but he seemed tired or uncomfortable...or something. I don't know what that was, and if we'd been alone I would have asked him. Kim was super happy to see me, and said shw was really excited to watch the movies. I guess she'd seen "Relax... It's Just Sex" before, and had loved it for exactly the reason that I thought she would. That made me feel good. I also gave her my phone # & e-mail so she could get in touch with me when she had time for pictures. Kim invited Jeremy along for the picture taking, which I didn't want to presume would be the case, and I'm not sure how all that went... I had to leave to pick up Mark, and Jeremy had a client arrive. He gave me a quick hug, and then I walked out. I walked through some different shops this time, and looked in a toy store, which had some stuffed animals that I might get for some friends. The Jeremy encounter left me in an odd mood; it was really strange, or had seemed strange, but maybe that's just because he was working or something. It looked like he was wearing the same shirt he'd been wearing the day before, but maybe he did laundry... Or maybe he has 20 of those shirts! ;-0) lol Who knows?

Mark had to stay over at work for about 20 minutes, which was really annoying. I was still feeling weird about the Jeremy thing, and I was achingly HUNGRY. I told Mark about wanting to have surgery to correct this, and that I was just really tired of it all. He agreed. And I was tired in general. When we got home I put on some soft music, turned the lights out, and slept for about 4 hours.

I later had some light foods; nothing too heavy or bad for my stomach, with water. Later still, around midnight, I went to the Aut Bar to see if any of my friends were there. There were people that I knew, but I was hoping for something more. I went to Meijer to see Frank, and get ones for Mark so he could take the bus tomorrow. I hung out with Rhonda, Sharon, Dorothy, Nona, & Gretchen. That was fun. I saw Frank's friend Shannon again, and met Emily, who is Wanda's daughter. I used to work with Wanda, so that was cool. Emily has a really nice smile. Frank looked crazy tired, and Rhonda & Sharon weren't feeling well, so I didn't stay much longer than was required; a little innuendo and I was out of there.

And then I wrote this. I'll probably watch an episode of Smallville, and then get some sleep. Or possibly reverse that... I'm tempted to finish of my roll of film, and get the last 2 developed this weekend, but I might yet hold out for more. I like getting a lot of film developed at the same time because it increases the chances of getting back good prints.

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