Tuesday, April 3, 2007

Luke (Lucas) just called me. He's moved to Adrian, Michigan. He's going back to school. He's doing all these great things. This is all fantastic. He asked me what was new with me, and I told him about my job, which he thought was cool. He sounded really happy, and excited to be talking to me, and I was just kind of shocked that he had called at all. I haven't even seen him in over a month, and when I broke things off with him, I didn't think he'd ever talk to me again. Especially since he was already avoiding me, and only contatcted me after some time had passed, and I wrote out my feelings in a poem that I sent him a link to. He apologised to me then, for lying to me and stuff, and I accepted it. I accepted it and moved on, and I sincerely wished him well...which is maybe why he called me.

Then I told him about my date with Corey, and that I was seeing him again. And everything changed. He said he had to go. He sounded like he was going to cry. He said that he was surprised, but that he shouldn't be because I'm wonderful. He said he was sorry that he fucked everything up. I was still in shock, and that shock was just getting more and more pronounced. He had obviously called to get back together with me, which I never expected in a million years. I didn't know what to say, except that I was really flattered, and that if he was here I'd give him a big hug. And that we could be friends. He sounded like he wanted to get off the phone really bad, so I let him go. Now I feel weird. I hope he's ok.

About Corey. We visited with his ex-bf on our last date, which was fine, but weird. Now we've got plans for this Saturday, and he wants to visit his ex again. Isn't that strange? It's strange. It feels strange. But they are friends. And I live with an ex, so I understand that being strange. Of course, Corey lives with another ex, so it's already strange on both sides. He asked if it was cool that we go see the ex again, and I didn't want to say no, but maybe I should have? I don't know. This ex, and he dated for like 5 years, and I think he was Corey's first official boyfriend. They sounded like old friends at the bar, but it kind of felt like maybe they had unfinished business there. I don't know. In my experience, boys hook up with their ex-bfs when they're supposed to be with me (Travis), so I've had some bad experiences in these typse of scenarios. I don't know. Maybe I'll invite some friends along, or I'll just stay home and they can go party. I don't know. It's on my mind though. And I don't like it. I don't like the scenario in general, but I also don't like that it bothers me, when it could be nothing.

Men are strange.

   posted by Bald Jason at 12:49 AM
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