Monday, August 1, 2005

Slept. Went to work. Came home. Went grocery shopping with Mark. Talked with Mollie & Carrie on the phone. Mollie spoke of Serenity; Carrie is apparently going to watch Firefly, and then see the movie with us. I had never rewatched the final episodes; I just did. I fucking love that show. I'm so excited about the movie...but in a calm way. I'm glad they made it, and I want to see it, but it's like when Mollie & I were watching it for the first time on DVD and we didn't want to rush it because we knew that there were no more episodes than the 15 we had on DVD. I don't want the Firefly story to be over after the movie. The movie is getting a lot of positive hype, and there are options for sequels, but I wish that they were planning to bring back the series instead. I'd much rather Joss do Firefly for HBO or something, instead of Wonder Woman. erg.

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My stomach has been a little upset all day. I think it's because I had ice-cream last night. I tried some new flavors that I was really excited about, but I had forgotten that a few years ago I stopped eating ice-cream because it didn't seem to get along with my insides. blah. The ice-cream was yummy too! Whatever. I'm over it. There's so much I can't eat, now that I actually want it. I'm usually ok with that, but today it sucks. I can't really "drink"; alcohol I mean. I can have a drink but then I have to stop. When I'm tired, I can't drink coffee to wake me up. When I'm depressed, I can't eat chocolate. When I'm hungry, I can't wolf out on pizza. It's all very annoying, but I think I've handled it fairly well.

My room's a bit messy. It's not that bad, and I could make it look really good in about 10 minutes, but I don't feel like moving. I did get some stuff done, while not moving. I updated some of my picture pages (randomly, of course). Pages 8, 9, 18 & 20 all have some new pix up. I should invest in still more pictures but I don't think I have the time.

Mollie has her surgery this week, and another one the week after; I'm worried about her. Mark called me to let me know that he had to run some errands, and he said that he read her blog and that she doesn't really have money for her meds, but I told him that when I talked to her last night she was on her meds, so I'm assuming she got them. If not, Mark obviously wants to help her as much as I do; that makes me proud of him. Things are always better when your friends get along with each other.

Laurie should be back in Michigan by the end of the week. I hope I'll get a chance to see her soon. And Shawn & Jonathan as well. I hate knowing people that are so cool, that I see so infrequently. It's just annoying. You meet people that are cool, and become friends with them, and you want to see them, but you just can't, and it sucks. I know that's true for everyone, but I'm feeling it a lot lately. Jennifer is in Washington, and Paul, Jason & Mark are in California; Amber is in Virginia, and a good number of my friends in Michigan really don't live that close to me.

Why am I whining so much?

And I miss Solomon & Janella too. And Nicole from Meijer; I'll have to get her phone # from Karen. erg. I have so much to get done, and things keep popping up, and I'm trying not to be stressed, but I just can't help it. I'm getting a lot done though, and that's cool.

I'll be 31 a week from Friday, which is something of a non-event for me. I really don't care about it. I don't feel bad or depressed or anything like that about getting older. And I think that Mark & I will have a lot of fun. We're going to Red Robin for my birthday; just the two of us. ;-0)

I know you're reading this Mark, so just let me say thank you for the shelf in advance...and I've really been enjoying our friendship lately. A lot. Thank You.

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   Wednesday, August 3, 2005

Tuesday morning, I got out of bed, and called Mark to let him know I'd be ready around 12:30 so he could bring me the car so I could get some stuff done, but he told me the car was at the dealership having some minor, but annoying flaws taken care of, and it wouldn't be done until around the time he got out of work. That really threw my day out of wack. Then I had some online shopping problems that I had to deal with, which was pretty annoying. And I felt like I didn't have any energy, and that I just wanted to get out of the condo. I went outside and sat for awhile, and got the mail.

I got some cd work done. I slept for a few hours. When Mark got home, I got ready and we went to Hollywood to return a movie, and to check up on some stuff, which proved fruitless. We went to Meijer & Kroger but ended up getting nothing before coming home. I watched a few episodes of Cheers, and I spoke to Mollie on the phone briefly, about stuff. She said she'd call me later, but she didn't, which is fine.

Aroudn 12:30am I went to the Aut Bar and chatted with Scott, who was looking very handsome; it sucks that we don't click as well as we would seem to. Then William dropped in, and it was great to see him, actually. I hung with him for awhile. William is a strange one. He's very attractive, but when I met him, he was kind of an ass. He's getting older, which is nice, and he is actually a lot more attractive now, but I love how his personality is developing, more so than his body. I told him I was going shopping, and he asked if I would mind him tagging along, which I didn't expect. It was fun. We went to Kroger & Meijer, and talked a lot, and it was all good. I introduced him to people as my friend, and he asked if that is what we've become...and perhaps we have, which is nice.

I bought him a rose, at Kroger which he loved. The boy is crazy about flowers & clogs. And he's fond of saying "shutup", in an adorable way. I gave him a big hug goodnight, and I'm really glad I ran into him at the Aut Bar - he really provided me with a fun couple of hours, and I really appreciate that these days.

I work today, at 1pm. I should get some sleep so I can drive Mark to work later.

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   Thursday, August 4, 2005

Work was fine. I almost had a breakdown later though. I just had all these unexpected money problems that sprang up out of nowhere to ruin my surprise for Mark... But everything's back on track now, which is nice. I'm lucky to have him.

Today was Jennifer's 31st Birthday; I hope it was fantastic! ;-0)

Mollie has her surgery in the moring. I'm super-freaked about it. I'll probably be all over the map tomorrow.

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   Saturday, August 6, 2005

Mollie's surgery was the most painful thing she's ever experienced (and that's saying something, when it's Mollie); I wish there was more I could have done to help her - the whole thing just made me feel so helpless. It may be even worse for her later today; the whole thing just sucks beyond the telling of it. Mark & I went to see her at her apartment Thursday night (she didn't end up staying overnight at the hospital after all), and then later I went back & watched Firefly with Carrie, Mollie & Kenny, which was a lot of fun.

Friday, I had to get a ride to work, and I had a horrible headache, and I didn't feel that great, and once I got there, I was mostly ok. The day went by really slowly though. After work I started watching a movie and fell asleep for a couple of hours. Then I got up, shaved, showered, got dressed and stopped at Aut Bar on the way to Necto. I talked to Robert, and Garret, and Ian & his friend Michelle. I saw Becky & Scott. Patrick was there, and I danced with him; he's so cute. I danced with Fabio too. I was all in vinyl so I was super sweaty, but no one seemed to care. James was there. And a million other people I knew; it was very social.

I was waiting outside to say goodnight to Ian, and there was this stunningly hot guy named Mahesh, who I complimented, and then we were all over each other - like Way all over - like we had to stop when the police drove by or we would have been arrested. I was dead tired though, and I figured he just wanted sex, which is fine, except I've been looking for a boyfriend, and I just...I don't know. I'm turning into such a prude. But he was so beautiful; bi-racial guys are so hot! And he had these hazle/green eyes that were just...he should have been a model. He lives in Ann Arbor though, and he got my number, but if he calls me I'll be astounded. I just don't see it happening, which is too bad, because I could have licked him for hours ;-0) erg. His ass was amazing - his...his everything was the essence of yum.

I had missed a call from Jennifer while I was at the bar, and I called her back, and left a message, while I was peeling off my clothes. I took a much needed shower, and now I feel clean...tired, but not overly so. I have to get some work done, but I think I'll sleep first, actually. Mark said he might go see "The Island" tomorrow, but I'm not sure he'll actually go. We've been spending a lot of time together lately, and although he now knows that I'm giving him something on his birthday, and that all those sweet-tarts were intended for him, which I was kind of hoping he would never find out, at least until after my bithday... Even though he knows all of that, he still doesn't know what I'm actually giving him, which is sort of a surprise; I just suck at planning things.

Maybe Mark & I can go visit Mollie & company after we eat at Red Robin? That might be fun. Anyways... I'm off.

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   Saturday, August 13, 2005

Alright. For all of those who read my blog, who don't really know me, or don't see me on a regular basis, I'm sorry that I haven't written anything in a week...but everything I wanted to talk about had to be kept secret from my friend Mark, because I was in the midst of an evil scheme concerning a surprise party for him (on my birthday! - I'm 31 now), of disturbing proportions, which was quite overwhelming for me. Luckily, I have friends & family that were willing to help me unfold this evil scheme, and it turned out even better than I would have dared guess, despite some truly terrible lies, and at least one extremely close call involving some late neighbors, which is a funny story now, but at the time, was beyond the stressful!

So thank you to everyone that helped with this party. Thank You to everyone who attended the party. Thank You to everyone who wanted to come but couldn't. Thank You to those that weren't invited for not being assholes about it (it's wasn't about me not liking you, it was about you not knowing Mark & the amount of space we had for the party). Thank You to the Red Robin people for helping to make this happen! And thank you Mark for Not guessing that I was throwing this huge party!

Mark almost drove me completely insane in the weeks leading up to the party - he was always finding things out that he shouldn't, and I was always forced to spin these intricate yarns that came pouring out of my mouth while silently screamed at myself to shut the fuck up!!! But the party was a surprise; the gifts were a surprise; the people and the laughter & the tears, and then the party back at the condo, which was smaller, but filled with just as much love & laughter. The party at the condo was all about the talking for me - I didn't get to hang out at Red Robin while waiting for Mark to show up, because I was with him, and then everything was CRAZY, so the part at the house was extra special & fun for me.

The Red Robin part was about as overwhelming for me, as the suprise party for me last year, and I knew that this one was coming! lol Just so many people I care about in one place, and all of them there because I asked them to be. I can see how throwing parties could become addictive, but having to keep secrets from Mark is just something I never want to have to deal with ever again. I didn't get to talk much with several of the people that only came to the Red Robin part of the Party. Diana, Carrie, Phil, Mom & Dad, Jamie, Janice, Justin, Jordan, Jillian & Jonathan (my nephew), Grandma & Grandpa, & Matt & Sarah (who looked stunning). I just realized that Kenny (Mollie's Brother) didn't make it to the party. I feel bad that I didn't notice until now, but there were so many people to think about that I was on overload - so I guess one person that said they were going to be there was not. But that's pretty good for a party of this size I think. lol

Everytime I see Justin, Jordan, Jillian & Jonathan - my heart aches that I don't see them more often. I'm thrilled that they were excited about seeing me (Janice told me that), and whenever they tell me somesomething or vie for my attention, that's the biggest bestest thing ever; because they want to know me and talk to me, and that just seems amazing to me. ;-0)

Carrie made us a fantastic scrapbook dedicated to our shared Vegas Trip. My mother gave me a cool ring with spikes on it. My friend Brian gave me 2 cds of mixed music (some of it mixed by him); I've only listened to the first one so far (3 times) but I love that one, and I'm sure I'll enjoy the 2nd CD just as well. I got some cards (funny & emotional). I got to stand up with Adam (who's birthday was Tuesday) and get clapped at and sung to by the Red Robin people (after Mark endured it first). But the best part was watching Mark realize just how much work went into the Party. Seeing his face when he opened up the Galaxy Rangers, or the gallon drum of Red, Yellow & Orange sweet-tarts; the penguins & Sitch dolls; the Aliens & theme movies; the cards & the cd - and the tears they of joy that they inspired: that was the best part.

People that showed up at our condo included: Janella (and later Solomon), Shawn & Jonathan (who both stayed the night, which was awesome), Mollie, Adam, Karen, Bryan, Robert, Chris, John, Heidi, & Nate, + me & Mark. Lots of talking; lots of snacking on Purple, Blue & Green Sweet-Tarts. lol A bit of alcohol for some, a lot for a few others. lol. Almost everything leading up to the party was HELL - everything from the surprise onward was Heaven. And everyone who said that they would be there showed up, and couple people who said that they MIGHT be there showed up too. I feel very blessed & grateful, and slightly sad that it's over, but happy also, to have to time to reflect on it.

So the party was good. The after party, party was good. The after the party, party, talking was good too. I mean, I wish Shawn & Jonathan lived in Ann Arbor. I wish they lived just up the street or something, because I enjoy them seperately and as a couple, and I loved watching them interact with my other friends. I love seeing my other friends react to them. They just rock! And I can't say enough good things about them.

The Shawn thing is weird because it isn't. Everytime I see him now, it's just...he's like a ghost or an echoe of the Shawn I was hot for, so there's nothing there now. But when we talk about the past, as we tend to do (we're quite the introspective bunch) then I get all emotional, because the Shawn we're talking about was the one I wanted. It's weird. But it's nice, and it's not painful or annoying (to me anyways). Jonathan doesn't seem to be bothered by it, which is also nice. He's so cute, and so much smarter than he gives himself credit for, which is really sad. I just want to meet the people who convinced him that he was a moron or that he was ugly or whatever and just smash their skulls in (retroactively - "moving back in the timeline") so that he won't have this image of himself as a loser, when in fact he's this little hottie, with enough wit & wisdom to play off of Shawn (and anyone else for that matter) and come off as bitchy cool, without being overly insulting or just fucking annoying. That's talent.

I'm alone in the condo right now. Mark is visiting his family today, and won't be home until tomorrow, so the condo that was so full of laughter last night is devoid of any such sound today - making it seem extra quiet by comparison.

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   Sunday, August 14, 2005

The alone time in the condo continues, only I'm really enjoying the quiet now, and really grateful things turned out this way. I caught up on my sleep. I talked with Jennifer; our first really great conversation since she moved to Seattle. I tried to watch the Lord Of The Rings, but kept drifting off, and was annoyed when the movie kept waking me up, and so I shut it off and slept some more. Later, I returned Mark's dvd to Hollywood, planned stuff with Mollie (who was also, randomly watching LOTR), rented porn, picked up some books at Borders, went home, ate, read, worked on some cd stuff, jacked off, showered, and now I'm here again. I almost felt lonely this morning, and now I just feel relieved that no one else is here.

I'll probably get some more CD work done within the next 24 hours. Shawn really seemed to like what I had done on his cds, and it would be nice if I could one day finish those so he actually listen to them as they were intended to be heard; to experience them with the images and the edits in order. And I want to say that it was a great experience watching him listen to this stuff, and seeing that he really did get it; that I had at least on some level achieved something with my insanity! lol And I was amazed at how much I enjoyed listening to them too. I thought I'd finish them and never listen to them again, but as odd as it was to be heard in such a painfully honest, blood, sweat & bones kind of way - it was also rewarding to be appreciated for digging to such depths. I've made some fairly powerful cds, but I've never been with the people they were made for as they experienced them, so this was a special treat for me, which may never happen again, so I'm trying to keep that with me. And his feedback on it; his memories coming back from my words and music - that was so great! Even the not so nice bits had been transformed into art - which made them strangely beautiful somehow. I hope when all is said and done that the cds are enjoyed by everyone who hears them: including me.

Oh! There is an article & a blurb about SERENITY in the new Entertainment Weekly (August 19, 2005 issue); any press for Firefly / SERENITY is good press in my opinion; I can't express to you how much I want that movie to succeed! Actually, I want everything Joss touches to succeed, but I already love Firefly / SERENITY, and that's the next hurdle, so I'm really itching to see this film turn heads. Mollie & I tried to convince Shawn & Jonathan to watch Firefly, but they turned us down. Maybe they will see the film first, and if they like it they can go back and watch the series that spawned it. I imagine many people will do that. I know that since the film started being promoted more & more people have started renting it. I recommend it to people at work all the time. Sci-Fi channel is airing the show now, and while I'm grateful to them for giving the show more of an audience, it seems kind of hypocritical of them. When Firefly was cancelled by FOX, Joss tried to sell the show to other networks (including Sci-Fi) and they all turned him down. He got the movie to work though, but it saddens him that he can't really tell all the stories that he wanted to in just a movie, or even a trilogy; he'd need a tv series to do that, and if this movie could revive the series, that would be my dream come true. The cast is amazing, and Gina Torres looks fricking amazing in the cast photo in the magazine. Firefly actors Summer Glau, Nathan Fillion, Gina Torres & Adam Baldwin were all featured as different characters in the Buffy-verse. Firefly actors Nathan Fillion, Gina Torres, Adam Baldwin & Morena Baccarin have all voiced characters on Justice League Unlimited. I love those guys.

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I updated my page a bit. I've got this Barbarella song stuck in my head, that was on a cd that Bryan gave me for my birthday; I'll have to thank him for it, because I think it rocks. Bryan actually edited the audio of my favorite scene from the film into the Scott Weiland track! ;-0) "Decrucify him or I'll melt your face!" - What's not to love about that movie?!?!

Which reminds me that Shawn actually knew stuff about Duran Duran. I don't know why that surprised me, but it did. I wonder if he's ever seen the movie?

And for all you Harry Potter fans, I caught this awesome glimpse at the 4th movie on Extra. It looks awesome; they showed the death-eaters! ;-0)

On yet another side note... I like drinking Sierra Mist, which I imagine isn't all that strange. I've grown to enjoy many a non-caffeinated beverage over the last 4 years. But the odd thing is...I prefer it warm. It's ok out of the fridge, but when it's room temperature, it's fantastic. lol I'm insane, I know this.

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I had a dream I was watching the extended cut of Lord of the Rings: Return of the King in a huge, stadium style theater. My entire extended family was there. It was crazy, but fun. A lot like the party Friday. lol My Grandmother and I were walking around the place. The stairs were really steep, and people kept falling. My sister Janice & my Aunt Marge were talking and trying to figure some stuff out; I think they thought that the movie was winding down, and I told them that it had another hour to go, and then a persom across from us said it actually had 2 more hours to go! lol Grandma & I continued to wander, after a child fell out of the stands; the little girls was ok. My Grandma told me that she (my Grandma) always goes too far, and that this is where I get that trait from. I was about to ask her to explain when the phone woke me up.

Mark called to let me know he'd be home by 6pm, so he could see me for a half hour or so before I went to work. I was still trying to figure out the dream when I put the phone back in the charger. I had/have a horrible headache. I think I slept wrong; er, I mean, I slept on my neck wrong, or something. I've been having the worst headaches lately; worse than anything I've had in years. I don't really know why. I stumbled downstairs, grabbed something to drink and a snack, and took some painkiller with them. I hope it works, because this sucks.

I still have the Barbarella song in my head, and so far I'm not complaining.

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So, Mark is home. He got home a little earlier than I expected. I updated still more wacky things on my webpage. I commented on some blogs. Mollie was thinking that maybe she & Karen & I could watch Lord of the Rings: Return of the King tonight, since Mollie has never seen the extended edition, and Karen has never seen the movie at all.

I was jacking off again when Mark got home. I've been beyond horny lately. But I'm not interested in dating anyone at the moment, which I'm finding oddly comforting. I've found a few boys attractive, but things never really go well. There was Bobby, who apparently has a boyfriend. I need to e-mail him back. We could be friends, and I'm cool with that. I'm cool with being friends with just about anyone. I had a party for my ex-boyfriend on my birthday, and invited another ex-boyfriend to be there. My ex-girlfriend would have been there if she was able. I just see them all as friends, which I don't understand why more people can't be friends with people they like, have liked as something more? It makes no sense to me.

I've got to get ready for work. Mark is telling me stories of his problems with his Mom, who is pissing me off, just hearing this stuff. erg.

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   Monday, August 15, 2005

I was wrong in the last entry. Mollie & I were actually to watch Lord of the Rings: Return of the King with Karen tonight, not last night. That doesn't seem to be happening now, as Karen has plans to go to Greenfield Village on Tuesday. I guess that's ok with me. This way I can take the time to watch the previous two films, and also go to Necto tonight, if I feel like going.

When I got to work last night, Heidi was just leaving and she said she had fun at the party. She said that she & Nate were both greatly amused by my interplay with Shawn & Jonathan. Heidi has actually heard more of Shawn's cds than he has; she was my springboard to see if I was ontrack, which I'm ever so grateful for. I'm still in a bit of shock about how well Mark's party went. I know I'm repeating myself, but hey, I'm still in shock. lol

Work was pretty busy, but I was lucky enough to see some of my favorite customers. I'm like the odd worker at Hollywood. I actually have customers that run and give me hugs when they see me. I haven't seen anybody else get hugs like that. And my coworkers are always telling me that so & so was asking for me when I was off of work. That's gratifying to hear; it's good to be appreciated.

After work, I went directly home. I read some of my new Buffy book, which is ok. It isn't great, but it's not horrible. It's based on the 6th Season Finale episodes "Villains", "Two To Go" & "Grave", which have always been my least favorite of Buffy's finales. For starters, Joss didn't write it, and that seems obvious to me. The dialogue isn't up to snuff. Too much time is spent with Jonathan & Andrew - when they really aren't doing anything. The line "I said I didn't want to hurt you; didn't say I wouldn't." which is supposed to be really cool, and it was when it was spoken by Spike in the 2nd Season Finale. That previous finale also closed with a Sarah McLachlan song, as did the 6th Season one. Even musically, it felt like a retread. Dark Willow, wasn't half as cool as Magic Stoked Willow from 5th Season's "Tough Love" - in that episode she faced off with a God and actually inflicted some damage. It's just not as satisfying seeing her pursue Jonathan & Andrew (and failing), using lame special effects. I love Willow, and I understand the underpinnings of the Dark Willow storyline; I just don't think it was very well written. Which for Buffy, is unusual, and very disappointing. Still, there were moments in there that rocked (like the surprise appearance of Giles)...just not as many as I've come to expect.

I also chatted online with California Anthony, who was fighting off a cold, while telling me about his new boyfriend. Anthony is really cute, but he lives like...way too far away. Which is ok. I also chatted with Bobby, who will be returning to Ann Arbor soon. We're supposed to hang out. He's in an open relationship, which would have seemed fantastic to me last year, but now it just seems like...I don't know. Less than what I want. Maybe. Of course I don't know him that well, and it's possible we'll be great friends that sleep together every now & again, and there's nothing wrong with that... but you can't force things like that. We're both attracted to each other. I thought maybe he forgot all about me, but since he's now contacted me twice within a week, and claims to have shared the poem I wrote for him with several friends, I guess I was wrong. We'll see how that plays out.

I don't know what time I went to bed exactly, but I woke up around 8:30am or so, and saw Mark in the shower. I remembered that I had been watching Xena: Season Two last week, to distract me from the stress of throwing a surprise party for someone who knows nearly everything about you & your comings & goings, and I looked online to see if I could save any money on Seasons 3, 4 (my favorite), & 5; I already own 6, and I can hold off on 1. I found some significant savings, and cashed in a $38.00 certificate to get those seasons. I probably shouldn't be spending too much money, what with all the party expenses, but I'm starting to feel a bit selfish again; after all that spending for others, I want some stuff for me! lol

I watched the last 2 episodes of Xena: Season Two, before taking a nap. I read some more. I worked on Shawn's CD's; figuring out what song would go where, and trying to figure out how certain songs should be edited. I can't express how time consuming; how complicated, and exhausting this stuff can be. Every step in the process can take huge amounts of time. That said, every time a new track is completed, and I'm step closer to being finished, it seems worthwhile. When this project is finished, which I can barely imagine at this point - these cds will stand out as something really special. They are honest, and emotional, and personal. They are quite intense, at least for me, and they have helped me immensly. Without the work I've put into them, I don't think I would be friends with Shawn today.

It's nearly 6:30pm. Mark should be home soon. I'm not sure what I'll be doing for the rest of today, but I may got ot Necto tonight. I may do some recording tonight. I have to return the porn I rented tomorrow. I don't work again until Thursday. I may get a lot of work done this week. And I can't express how glad I am that Mark's party is behind me. I hated telling him all those outlandish lies; it was truly horrible, but that's done with now. And this 31 year old Jason is just as wacky as the younger one was.

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   Tuesday, August 16, 2005

I went to Necto. Danced quite a bit; I'm very sweaty, and very naked, and very in need of a shower, but I thought I'd write this first. Vince, Brian Cagle & Erin were there. Brian is moving to Toronto in September, and today is his birthday; he's 23. Brian was an online personality that I had a crush on for several years, and we met up at random one night at City Club and got along famously. We tried to be more than friends; indeed we had THE SEX, but we just weren't very compatible, which in the long run is A.O.K. ;-0) We're friendly, and that's all that matters.

I had a lot of fun at the bar. I need to update some webpage stuff later, and do some recording. I need to shower, and eat, and watch more Xena ;-0) And I need to post some more stuff on detroitgothic.net. And that's about all I've got planned for the next few hours.

While I was gone I accidentally left AIM on, and I got pvt messages from Paul, Anthony, Matt, & ZzZSHSzZz, which I wish I would have been able to respond too. :-( Oh well. I'm off to bathe.

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I stayed up far later (earlier?) than I intended; got to bed around 10:30am. I woke up around 4:30pm. Worked on Shawn's CDs. After Mark had been home awhile, I took a shower, got dressed, and returned the porn I rented on Saturday. I went to Kroger to get some groceries, then hit Hollywood video to rent Xena: Season 1 to get my fix, until Season 3 arrives. The only plans for tonight and tomorrow that I have are to work on Shawn's CD's - mostly CD2, as I have a very clear vision of how it needs to be set up - and watch Xena episodes in between sessions to keep me sane.

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   Thursday, August 18, 2005

So my computer is fucking up, which makes working on my cd projects impossible. grrr. It really sucks. I've felt tired all day, and my right eye is kind of sore, and they're both kind of tired. I don't think that I'm coming down with something; I think I should probably just get some more sleep, and stop staring at my computer screen, and reading so much.

Mark found out online that we have a registered sex-offender living in our commuity of condos. He's 30 years old, and at some point after reaching the age of 21 he forced himself on a 13-16 year old. I don't feel worried, or scared about this information; it's just weird knowing about it. He showed me a picture of the guy and told me his name. Mark's a bit freaked out about it because the other day some woman was out here looking for a bookshelf that was (apparently) being sold by that guy. I hope the circumstances for this guy were foggy, or that they've changed, and that he and those he may have hurt are all able to live a normal life now. Beyond that...I don't know. Why am I rambling about this?

I thought that my custom made dvd shelf was going to come today, but apparently it's not even finished, and probably won't be here until Sunday. Until then, my movies are just hanging out in stacks, in my room. erg. This shelf was my birthday present from Mark, which is awesome, but the guy that's doing the shelves seems to suck. He drinks beer in his truck. The stain that we wanted used, and gave them the info for couldn't be found by them, and now they've painted the shelves black - or they were supposed to. The whole mess is just annoying. We should have had an expert do it instead of having gone through a co-worker's spouse. BLAH.

Season 5 of Xena arrived today; of course that's the last of the 3 seasons I ordered, so I can't watch it yet. I've seen them all before, but there are actual story arcs on the show, and they won't be as powerful if I watch them out of order. Hercules: The Legendary Journeys, the series that spawned Xena & Young Hercules is something of a sore spot for me. I think the show mostly sucks; I really enjoyed the 5th Season, which was much more like Xena then the previous 4 seasons, but the other seasons are such a mixed bag! But a few episodes are fantastic, and there are others that are important, even integral, to Xena. I haven't decided if I'll purchase them yet or not. I already own Seasons 1 & 6, so I will probably get the others, but I wish there was a way to just pick out the episodes that I like. erg.

I also got the Buffy book that I had intended to buy at Borders the other day, which I started reading as soon as it arrived. It's set up as an 8th Season of Buffy and is supposed to tie in with all the crossover stuff that happened in Angel Season 5. So far I think it's a good read, but the Buffy books feel like published fan fiction, rather than the real deal. Star Trek fiction used to be the same way for me, but in the last few years it has really come into it's own.

My nephews saw Episode III with their dad, and I bought them the first Clone Wars dvd for their birthdays, which they love. I've been thinking about getting them the Jedi Apprentice books, or the other 2 incarnations of the series that followed. I think they would enjoy them quite a lot. There's a series about Boba Fett also, that I never got around to reading. Hmmm. I also got these Lord Of The Rings puzzle books that they might enjoy. I know they're gonna love those movies when they see them. ;-0)

After my recent discussions with Janice over what she had told her children about my sexual identity (which she never really enlightened me on), I began to wonder what kinds of resources are available to parents and children who are struggling with sexual questions, and I found a wide variety of books that give a great deal of information about a whole array of questions, and a good assortment of them dealt fairly with concepts of homosexuality, bisexuality & heterosexuality. I bought one of these books and it arrived today, and it was just fantastic! I wish something as enlightening had been available to me when I was 10 or 11! The book I bought can be seen here. I intend to collect more books on the subject, as I find it fascinating.

I watched Alien Vs. Predator on dvd last night. It was only the 2nd time I've ever seen it, and the first time I saw it was shortly after my 30th birthday, in the theaters. I remembered enjoying most of the movie, but having a few questions about character stupidity. lol A lot of that was cleared up this time, and the dvd featured a new beginning that wasn't used in the theatrical version, which was also a nice touch. The movie was intended to have an R rating, but was forced by the studio to be released as PG-13; this limitation was imposed on those making the film, 3 weeks before it's release!?! The director's cut of the film will be released November 22, and I look forward to viewing it.

I've always been a huge ALIEN fan, and I've enjoyed the Predator films (both 1 & 2) as well, though to a lesser degree. I would love for them to make Predator 3, Alien 5, and Alien Vs. Predator 2!!! But that's just the fanboy in me talking.

I need to get some sleep.

Bowling Green Matt's friends Emily, Bobby & Val just called wanting to hang out; they are in Ann Arbor, at the Fleetwood Diner; I passed. My eyes really hurt. I need to get some sleep or something. I don't know what's up with me. I'm flattered that they wanted to hang out with me though, and I hope they think of me next time.

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I'm still awake, and apparently still at my computer. My acid reflux is pretty bad tonight, which means I can't lay down at the moment. I updated my webpage with lots of Firefly/Serenity promotion. I can't express how much I want Joss to have the last laugh.

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   Friday, August 19, 2005

Yesterday was Hellish. I finally fell asleep around 4am. I woke up at 7am, with horrible acid buildup. I didn't have any Tums or anything, so I just sat up, and organized some stuff on my computer to distract me from the pain. I listened to Mark get up and get ready, and leave for work. I tried to get some more sleep. No luck. I started getting ready for work. I shaved my head, but not my face. When I'm tired, or cranky, or in a bad mood, I often don't shave - it's like my way of letting the world know that something's off kilter. Only I tend to get compliments on it. lol

I thought I had a clean workshirt in my closet. I could have sworn that we were getting new work shirts in a while back, but of course we didn't. I had taken all my dvds off their shelf the other day in preperation of getting the new shelf (which I still don't have), but I had stacked them in front of my closet, so I had to move them all just to get the closet open a bit, only to find that I didn't have a clean shirt for work. I was un-thrilled.

I was so tired, my eyes felt like they were on fire. I considered wearing my sunglasses at work, but on the way to work I realized they didn't really help. I stopped at Kroger on the way there and got some more Tums. When I did get in to work, DJ was there, in good spirits, which is always nice, and we talked about Mark's party. I told him about my acidy condition, and my sleeplessness. My stomack was a bit upset, but I was determined to make it through the day. I had briefly considered calling in to work, but I felt that my shift was so short that it wouldn't make much of a difference - but Mark had told me he needed to go to the bank & post office after work, which I was really not looking forward to - I just wanted to sleep.

DJ wanted me to take back some bottles to Kroger so he could use the refund money to pay for Inventory Night Pizza - Inventory is tonight. DJ asked Nate to empty the old refridgerator stuff, including 4 bottles of Sierra Mist, which I had kept in there for myself. I actually could have rescued them, but I thought that Nate had already started dumping them, and I was too bitter, and sleep deprived to try to fight it. You know how it is, when you're really exhausted, and even when things annoy you, you just don't have the energy to express it? That's what it was like. But it continued to annoy me later, because I had paid for all of that soda, and they were dumping it, to get .40, to use for a pizza that I would never even see, as I'm not working inventory. Erg.

I took the bottles back myself, and went to Little Caesars on my way back, per my agreement with Nate so I could get my food, and punch out when I got back to work, instead of punching out before going to get my food (which takes a lot longer now with all the construction going on around the store). I told the people at Caesars exactly how I wanted my pizza. They fucked it up. They asked me if the pizza was ok, and I just...didn't have the energy to argue with them, and I was on the clock, and I said it was fine, and bought the pizza, which when I finally got it back to the store, was so undercooked there was no way I was putting it in my body. And I was SOOOO Hungry at this point.

I had rented the Ring Two, which I thought I would watch on my break, but the TV stopped working for the last person who went on break (Scott), who didn't report it, at least to me. I finally thought I would just sit with my head down, but Scott was in the back office yapping on the phone - loudly - and I couldn't even relax. It was too much. I called Mark, and told him everything that had happened and how much I wanted to go home, and he said that would be fine, and that he could get a ride home. I talked to Nate and told him I wanted to go home. I think I was a little snippy with him, but things just kept flying out of my mouth - I just wanted out of there.

I went home, got ready for bed, and I watched The Ring Two, which lacked the really great look of the first film, which kind of killed the sequel for me. Things that looked cool in the first one because of the way it was directed, mixed with the production, looked pretty silly when directed differently. I hope they don't make another sequel. The original film actually had a scene that opened the film, and another that closed the film - completely, which were removed. They should just restore them, and forget this one was made. The 2nd Ring has a few moments where you can see how it could have been great - but their only moments, and the movie never really feels like more than a lame effort at greatness.

I watched Harry & Max, which had arrived in the mail (finally) that day. I ordered it months before. I mostly liked this one, but felt that the film needed something more - and I'm pretty sure what it needed was at least one more draft of the shooting script - so of it came off as real, and other parts just seemed forced, and weird. But I enjoyed it.

Finally I got some sleep, but again it was only for a few hours. Mollie called while I dressed and drove to Borders. Mollie may have outed herself to one of her coworkers, which bothers her because this guy is a great friend to her at work, but he really thinks homosexuality is wrong. Mollie isn't afraid of people knowing she's bi; in fact I don't think I've ever heard her deny it or pretend that she wasn't, which is one of the reasons why I love her. But she's never really encountered someone who drifted away from her because of her sexuality, which makes her seem younger to me somehow. I mean, people have drifted away from me (and been outright violent towards me) because of their beliefs about my sexuality - and that started when I was just a kid, so I'm so...it's just nothing new to me. It's interesting seeing Mollie go through it; not because I feel she should have to, but because it's a different perspective on the whole thing. I like hearing her stories about this guy at work, and I hope this doesn't last too long and the boy comes to his senses, and realizes that Mollie kicks ass. Mollie rocks my socks!

I spent about $100.00 on books at Borders. I got 2 more books about talking to children about sexuality, that feature references to homo & bi sexuality: "It's Amazing: A Book about Eggs, Sperm, Birth, Babies, and Families" written by Robie H. Harris & illustrated by Michael Emberley, and "Understanding The Facts OF Life" by Susan Meredith & Robyn Gee. I also picked up "Why Marriage Matters" by Evan Wolfson, "The Case For Gay Rights" by David A. J. Richards, "50 Ways To Support Lesbian & Gay Equality" by Meredith Maran with Angela Watrous, "The Gay Man's Kama Sutra" by Terry Sanderson, and finally, an extremely cute book that I can completely relate to called "When I Knew" which features all sorts of When I Knew I Was Gay stories.

Mollie & I later made some tentative plans to watch Return of The King with Karen tonight, and I went home, took some painkiller for the horrible headache I was getting, and I tried to get some sleep. It didn't work at first, but eventually I got to bed, and ended up getting about 7 hours, which is far more than I've had in ages.

I had a dream that my family and I were in a city watching Prsident Bush (asshole) give a speech about how we had a stockpile of Nuclear Weapons, and he was basically threatening other nations with them, and put on a demonstration; firing some of the rockets, which backfired and crashed near us, as we all dove for cover. Somehow my family was still unconvinced that the man was evil. Later we were hiding out in a factory, and we found the new quarters which hadn't been released yet. My older sister collects money and stuff, and when we looked at the new quarters they had a triangle on them, and said Homosexuals Belong Death Camps - which finally convinced my sister. We started a rebellion. And the dream devolved into a kind of us vs. them war story.

I woke up a couple of times at night, but I always tried to get back to sleep right away. I wasn't acidy. I barely ate yesterday, and I made sure I took my meds an hour early, and then took an extra one right before I went to sleep. I work today from 1pm - 5:30pm. I'm sure it will go better today. I almost feel like going back to sleep, but I should probably get things ready so I'll be ready later.

I've been putting my slash/fan art in order lately. I'm really quite impressed with my collection. I hope that I someday find a forum to share it with others.

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Mark just called me to let me know that he's at his Doctor's appointment (for his leg), and he's going to be there another 20 minutes or so before he swings by to pick me up for work. I work at 1pm, and I have to drop him off before I go in to work. As fate would have it, I'm already ready to go; I'm eating right now, and then I brush my teeth, and put on my boots and I'm ready. I called Bryan at work and told him the situation.

I feel 100% better today than I did yesterday (Thank Joss!). I could probably use just a little bit more sleep, but I'm mostly well rested, which is far better than almost completely unrested. I've decided I'm going to start reading "Why Marriage Matters" today. It wasn't my first choice at the book store, and I figured I'd probably read it last, but the rave reviews are winning me over.

Last week (I can't believe it's been a week already) at Mark's party, Shawn mentioned that all he reads anymore is non-fiction. I haven't read this much non-fiction at once in years, but I want my fiction too! ;-0) I'd kill for next Post-DS9 book, but that's still months away :-0(

I need to do that inventory of my Star Wars books so I can pack those up & put them in storage; maybe I can get that done tomorrow? I want to make space for this new obsession of mine. My only fear is that my room will became the GAY room. Not because I'm self loathing or anything like that... Just, it's been a mix of different things now. I guess it could be the GAY room for awhile. And then I'll switch to something else, the way I've always done.

I need to hang out with Solomon & Janella again soon. I'm so glad all my friends get along. Mark was miffed that Marcus didn't come to his surprise party, and I told him that I understood, because at last year's surprise party for me, I was miffed that Darla didn't come - even though so many of my other friends did. And even this year, for a moment I considered how great it would be if Darla would have been there for Mark this year, but then the rest of the night would have been stressful, because I would have worried about how many other friends she was offending. Of course that could be a little unfair; perhaps she's not bitchy like that anymore, and she would have gotten along great with everyone else too - that would have been magical! ;-0) Either way, I miss her sometimes, and I hope she's happy with whatever she's doing. I hope we all are.

Someone the other day said I should update my live journal, and I told them that my last post had a link to my real journal - this one. I've been writing in this one a lot longer than any other online journal. This one just feels right. Like I own it. Thanks again Mark.

I'm really lucky to have Mark, and I'm super grateful for his understanding nature yesterday when I NEEDED sleep. THANK YOU MARK!!!

;-0)

I'm gonna go finish up and get ready to leave.

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Work was a lot cooler today. Though I did have an annoying encounter in the parking lot. I did get to eat, and see peeps. Ater work I was way tired, so I took a nap. Now I've got to get ready and go see Mollie, Karen (& adam?).

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   Saturday, August 20, 2005

I was still kind of groggy at Mollie's apartment last night, but I had fun playing cards with Mollie, Kenny & Karen. I drove Karen home, so we got a little bit of alone time; not like we were pushing to be alone, but it was nice.

When I got home I watched the first two episodes of Xena - Season 4. Season 4 is my favorite season of Xena, and I thought it would be ok to watch those episodes while I await Season 3's arrival. Those two episodes (Adventures In The Sin Trade, Parts I & II) are amazing! They just look so intense, and so different from the rest of the series! I really enjoy them, but I'm struggling to not watch more episodes until Season 3 arrives.

I slept fairly well. I woke up this morning when the plumber was here, but I went back to bed. When I woke up the 2nd time around 3pm, the plumber was gone & the sink was fixed. Mark had said something about going to see a movie but he was still home, and hypnotized by his computer. I got the mail; there was something for Mark and some Gift Certificates from Amazon - obviously sent out after I spent so much cash there for Mark's presents. I wanted to get some more queer titled, but realized that the cost of Enterprise Season 2, which I still hadn't paid for, was rising. I found a used one through a 5 star seller for $75.48, including shipping and handling (a new one costs $96.75) so I was already saving $21.27 - then I used the Gift Certificates ($50.00 worth) which dropped it down to $25.48 ;-0) Nice. I've been trying to spend about $30.00 on amazon a week, and though I ordered this a day early, I still have $4.52 left over. I am pleased.

I won the bundle contest at work in two categories which should mean that I can get two prizes; if so I'm going to take 6 movies from the store. If I don't get two prizes, I'm going to bitch, because otherwise what was the point? I mean, if I won two, and everyone else won one, then don't I deserve more? Hell yeah, I do!

I need to get some stuff done.

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Maybe I'm not remembering this correctly, but I seem to recall from my Bible School years the story of Job (pronouned Jobe). In the story Job has great faith & love for God, and the Devil says to God that the only reason that people like Job are faithful to God is because God blesses their lives. God proves the Devil wrong by hurting Job & his family, to which Job still prclaims his love for God. It just came to me that God may have won the argument, but he was actually played by the Devil. If God was right about Job he didn't have to prove anything to the Devil, but he gave in, and he forced people to suffer needlessly, just to prove the Devil wrong. That's pathetic, and it's not love. God apparently has an ego that blinds it to common sense.

Think of it this way. The devil says to me that my friends only love me because I'm kind to them. I hurt them to prove this is not the case - and it's ok that I hurt them - after all - I love them. That's sick, and it's wrong - and no point you could make by those actions is worth proving. If I'm remembering this correctly (& it's possible that I'm not), than God is an ass. Not really a surprise, I guess. How do people respect a guy who does this shit, just so he can hobnob with otherworldly types at the watercooler, about how wrong they are? erg.

See. I have random thoughts.

I need to cleanup my room & start boxing up my books. My DVD shelves will be here tomorrow, which I should be excited about, but it just makes me nervous, because I'm afraid their going to be tacky, and that I won't like them. Plus, they'll probably arrive when I'm sleeping - as I've been sleeping until about 3pm, and I work at 7pm. erg.

I feel like I should go out. I haven't been out since Monday, and it might be good for me. I'm feeling a bit claustrophobic in my room. Perhaps I will, but maybe I won't. It's too early to tell.

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   Sunday, August 21, 2005

I started boxing up my Star Wars books. I compiled a list on my webpage of the books that I have so that I as I collect them I can have a record of all the Star Wars Books I own. I also made a page of the books I don't yet have. I still have a ton of stuff to do, but for now I'm gonna get as far away from my computer as possible.

Star Wars Books That I Have

Star Wars Books That I Don't Have

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I'm nearly finished with my room. It's not as beautiful as I would like, but I got lots of stuff done, and I managed to make both of my older shelves fit in new places. I had to clean as I went downstairs because Mark didn't want me to make a mess, which took me a couple of hours (that I could have used sleeping) and the only mess downstairs is a stack of cds without a home - and the shelves downstairs have actually been improved, so you win some, you lose some.

My room is almost ready for the new shelves. I'll have to make some new arrangements in my closet, but I got all my olde books packed away. I need to shave & shower, and I really need some sleep. I think I may have hurt my back with all the heavy lifting, but Mark was asleep so he couldn't help me, and when he's awake I'll (hopefully) be asleep), and my closet is so cramped that he probably couldn't have helped me that much anyways.

Um, yeah, I can definitely feel my back; this is not going to be good.

I've decided what movies I want from Hollywood. They are all GLBT movies, but they are titles that Hollywood has more than one copy of, so my winning won't deprive any customers/guests from seeing the movies I'm getting. The 6 I've chosen are:

01 Brother To Brother
02 Conspiracy of Silence
03 Fighting Tommy Riley
04 The Grafitti Artist
05 Straight-Jacket
06 Tarnation

I don't know how I'm supposed to get these exactly, so I'm leaving a note for DJ when I go into work tonight.

I'm tired, and kind of skanky, and I have a bit more to do before I can get ready for bed, so I'm gonna get going.

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I had to get out of bed early because my shelves were on their way here. I did hurt my back last night, but not as badly as I could have, which is sort of good. The shelves look pretty good, and even with all my movies on them I can probably fit at least 250 more + I still have my old shelves in my room to fill ;-0) I like that. And I'm really glad I thought to ask Mark for them as a birthday gift, and grateful that he pulled it off so well.

I had a snack after putting all the movies on the shelf, and I just got out of the shower. I really want to go back to bed, but I need to get dressed and go to work. DJ told me that I have a lot of hours this week, but the schedule wasn't up on Friday so I have no clue what days I work - I don't even know for sure that I work today, except that I've been scheduled to close on Sundays for the last 6 months, so I figure it's a safe bet that I'm supposed to be there at 7pm.

I hope work goes smoothly; that it isn't too busy, or too boring, and that I don't have any bitchy customers. erg.

Oh, and I am really enjoying that marriage book!!! It's awesome.

Well, got to go.

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   Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Work was actually enjoyable Sunday night. It wasn't too busy or too slow, and I got to close with Matt, which is always a good time - though we were both kind of out of it, and didn't talk that much. My back was still bothering me, but not overly much. I called Carrie and chatted with her for an hour or so, which was nice. I worked on my webpage a bit, and then for some reason I had the urge to watch the final episode of Buffy, so I popped to the last disc in, but watched all 3 episodes on that disc instead of just the final one. I still love Buffy. I'm not as fervent about it as I have been in the past, and because my memory is so accurate, I find I enjoy watching it less than I did years ago (the jokes & the shocks just aren't as funning or shocking when you know their coming), but it still holds a very special place in my heart.

I slept until 2:20pm. Xena: Season 3 had arrived, and I watched the first two episodes while I ate, and continued to rest. I didn't even try to will myself into something more active. I didn't want to mess my back up any more than it is, and I've felt just the slightest bit stressed the last few days, though I can pinpoint the reason why. After Mark got home, we went to the storage unit, the post office, and finally to Media Play, as I found a $5.00 gift certificate that was about to expire, and I had decided that I wanted to buy The Prince of Tides on DVD. I've seen it there at the store a dozen times, but always passed it up. As it happened, they didn't have it this time, and so I wandered the store, and ended up spending far more money than I would ever have guessed, while saving far more money than I could have expected. I bought Seasons 2, 3 & 5 of Hercules, and Season 1 of Xena - which means of the Herc/Xena universe on DVD all I lack now are the Young Hercules movie, Hercules & Xena: The Battle For Mount Olympus, and Hercules: Season 4. The reason I bought all of that, is because they were used, and I got them for about half the price of the used ones on Amazon, plus they had a deal where if you bought 2 used items you got 50% off a third, which means I got a season of Herc that costs $62.98 brand new on Amazon for $14.99 at Media Play. It's usually the other way around, which is why I never expected to spend so much at the store. I'm happy that I have them now, but I wish I had more money - but who doesn't?

We went to Kroger for Butter, and then we forgot to buy it as we got other items. Mark was a sweetheart and went back & got the butter while I put my new dvds on my shelf. I later ate, and watched 2 more episodes of Xena before falling asleep. I woke up at about 1:30am. I had a snack and woke Mark up, who had fallen asleep on the couch, and he went to bed, and I watched 2 more episodes of Xena. I'd been looking forward to watching this two-parter for weeks now, if not longer. They were the first episodes of Xena that I ever saw that made me want to see more of the series; they made me a fan - they are called "The Debt, Parts I & II". I told Bryan about them a few days ago, and told him I wanted to share them with him; I hope he likes them as well.

I sorted my e-mail, which was piling up. I sorted some Slash Art; I've been implimenting a new filing system which will take me a year maybe to really get everything filed away, but it's fun in it's way.

Fuck. I was supposed to call my dad today, and I forgot. I'll have to call him tomorrow. er, I guess tomorrow is today. I was supposed to call him on Monday, and now I'll have to call him on Tuesday, which is fine I guess, as today is his birthday, which he shares with my older sister, Janice. I was supposed to be born on the 23rd, but I was born early. Janice & I are planning on visiting our father on the 30th; a week from today; 1 month before Serenity opens :-0)

I have had little desire to see any movies theatrically this year. Episode III. I want to see Serenity & I want to see Harry Potter IV. If there are other upcoming movies I want to see, I can't think of them at the moment.

And actually - at the moment. I feel like doing something else.

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I chatted on gay.com for the first time in months. I mostly chatted with old friends, which was nice. Ooh - and I saw the Internationl Harry Potter 4 Teaser Trailer! Neat.

I need to get some sleep. I have to work today.

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   Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Another quiet workday, that flew by. I took my change to the bank and it came out to be just over $80.00. That made me feel better about last night's Media Play event. After work I watched some Hercules episodes that I rented from the season that I don't own, which ran alongside Xena: Season 3. I slept briefly, finshed the ep I fell asleep during, got dressed. I chatted on line for a half hour or so with my friend Scott, and then I got complimented by a very hot guy named Mike. I went to Aut Bar for awhile, though it was dead. It's chilly outside, and there are leaves on the ground. This summer, seems to be the summer where I didn't really do anything. Maybe because I haven't been dating. At least the birthday bash thing was memorable. ;-0)

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   Thursday, August 25, 2005

I woke up around 12pm yesterday & decided to get up, even though I could have stayed in bed, so that I'd get up faster today. Mark & I went to Best Buy on his lunch, and then I took the car and visited Mollie at her job (& I really would have taken Jennifer out to lunch if her lunch had been approaching). After Mollie/Jennifer hugs, I again rented porn, which I hadn't planned on, but I was on that side of town, and no less horny than usual.

When I got home I finished off a Xena episode, and enjoyed my rentals. When I put in the next Xena disc it wouldn't work, and Mark concluded that my dvd-rom was dead, but we later tried to play the disc in the X-Box, and the computer downstairs, and it wouldn't play in those either. The disc doesn't look dirty & there aren't any scratches that I can see. I didn't keep the packing slip, as I checked all the discs for scratches & such when they arrived. The disc is integral to the season, containing "Maternal Instincts" & "The Bitter Suite" (the musical) - two episodes that tie into almost everything great about the season (plus there are crossover episodes of Hercules that take place in between the two episodes that I rented so I could watch them all in order!). I contacted the seller, and hopefully they will replace the disc or trade me a new set :-0( I was really bummed.

There was at least some goodness in the day; I also stopped by Hollywood earlier and got 3 of my 6 dvds that I had won in a contest at work. I got: "The Business of Fancy Dancing", "The Graffiti Artist", & "Callas Forever". Next time I expect to get "Brother To Brother", "Straight-Jacket" & "Tarnation". ;-0) Another good thing happened later on when I picked up Mark and he had a box of new clothes for his site, with some that I had ordered, so I ended up with some cool clothes; a new casual type outfit that I really like, plus a new trench coat. nice. I also later read online that the final animated Batman set comes out December 6, the same day they release Superman, Volume 2! It was previously rumored that they would be released in December, but it's nice to have the dates confirmed, and to see cover art. Hopefully, with Batman finished off, and the final Superman set rumored to be released in June 2006, they will move onto boxed sets of other DCAU shows like Batman Beyond & Justice League.

Mark talked about working on my computer; getting me a dvd burner, and more than doubling my hard drive space!?! Sounds cool! But now that we know the dvd player still works that might not be as big a priority.

Mark & I watched the 1st 2 episodes of Dawson's Creek. I watched the entire first season when it originally aired (after Buffy), and then only caught an episode here or there after that (like the one featuring the first romantic gay male primetime television kiss), but I later rented the 2nd Season of the show, and enjoyed it alot. Then I bought the 3rd Season, which I didn't lover nearly as much, but continued on with seasons 4 & 5, which I liked far more than 3. Now I'm waiting for the final season, and I thought it would be neat to get Mark in on the act, since he used to hate it, and I think he would like it if he watched the later episodes.

After Dawsons's I watched some random stuff, and I went to bed around 1am, only to wake up at about 5:30am, because of being too warm, I imagine. I opened my vent all the way, and turned the air down a bit, and snacked on an icecream bar (which oddly, don't upset my stomack), and I wrote this. I work today & tomorrow, and then Saturday I'm going to a party for my Great Aunt & Uncle (mostly to see Janice & the kids, and possible Kristen), & I might visit other folks that day as well. Now I'm gonna go brush my teeth and try to sleep some more.

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   Friday, August 26, 2005

I might see my cousin Kristen tomorrow for the first time in nearly 4 years. We were pretty close for awhile there, and then...she disappeared. One day she called me with a job offer, and said she'd call me right back, and the next I heard she was living in California. I was pretty miffed about it. But I miss her. I think she may be avoiding me, because when last I saw her she was a lesbian having trouble balancing her lust & her baptist religious beliefs, and from something my sister told me, it sounds like she's now a christian walking the STRAIGHT & narrow. But I loved her before she came out to me. And I didn't love her because she was gay; I loved her because she was Kristen. Or maybe she just doesn't want to hang out with me because I'm a corrupting influence, or maybe now that she's straight, she just finds me disturbingly attractive!?! (that was a joke) But whatever the reason, I find myself wanting to clear all this emotional crap out of the way so we can maybe be close again. erg.

Work mostly flew by today with Bryan, DJ, Nate, Scott & later Ben & Dan; lots of fun was had. The store was mostly dead again. Oh, and Heidi showed up at 5pm which was also fantastic. I rented Lilo & Stitch 2 for Mark, and we watched the next Dawson's Creek episode before I took a breather. I'm gonna get dressed, and maybe go out. I don't know where. Just out.

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   Saturday, August 27, 2005

I went to Hollywood Video last night to drop off the JLU Season finale for Bryan; he used to like Batman Beyond, and the episode is basically a season finale for that series, despite it actually being a JLU episode; I hope it worked ok. Robert & Diana were there to pick up Bry so I got to talk to them for awhile which was nice. I stopped by Aut Bar, but only stayed a moment before heading home. I wasn't really sure if I wanted to go out for more or not.

Around midnight I returned to Aut Bar & said hello to Rusty before going to Necto where I ran into my ex-bf Paul, who I knew must be drunk when he saw me, ran over to me and gave me a big hug. I don't hate him or anything, but I kind of wish he would just say hello and move on because when he's all friendly like that it confuses me, because I have no clue why we stopped seeing each other; he just stopped calling me. But it WAS nice to see him, and hug him, and kiss him too. He says we're all seeing Serenity together, so I guess that's cool.

I also met a really hot guy named Joe, who looked Indian. I don't know what it is with me & Indian guys lately, but I just...biracial men are hot, and their skin is just...tastey. And Indian guys kind of look like their...I don't know. I'm tired and rambly but I don't think he was all about me, but it was fun to flirt with him.

I also met Amy & Paul, who are not a couple, but are friends. Paul is 23, and Amy is 19, and they're from Plymoth. I hung out with them most of the night, and Amy met Edgan/Eden (I can't remember exactly how his name was pronounced as I was really tired and didn't bother to get the name correctly even though he's super hot). Paul was a lot of fun too, and we held hands and stuff. He fixes computer stuff, and he's never been with a guy before - and he's got a nice sense of humor, and I kissed him goodnight, plus some random gropage, which was hot & innocent all at the same time, if that makes any sense? It was fun.

I didn't get to bed until around 6am, but woke up around 8am with my stomack upset; took me another hour or so to get over that, and get back to bed - only to have a hail storm wake me up; at least I think it was hail; maybe it was just really LOUD rain. I got back to sleep, and then got up again to hustle myself out to Milan to go to my Aunt & Uncle's 60th party, where I actually had a quite a lot of fun. Nina & her daughter Carrie invited me to their church, which I'm actually considering attending. I know I have some god issues, and I've never really taken care of them, and maybe talking about them might help. I don't know. I don't want to offend anyone. I just... I don't know. I'm wicked tired, and I'm going to sleep now.

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   Sunday, August 28, 2005

I got quite a bit of sleep, which was really nice. In the wake of my annoying Xena delays I'm back to working on my Animated Batman guide, which is fun, if a bit daunting. Looking at all these episodes regardless of production or air date order, and trying to fit them all together and make sense of the information given (even if it wasn't intended) - it's like a giant puzzle. Puzzles are fun, but there's so much information to sort through; at least I have all the pieces now. The 4th Batman Boxed Set comes out in December, but that incarnation of the Dark Knight takes place roughly 2 years after the episodes that I have. Hopefully I will finish this, and be able to give people an order of my design that makes sense of the differing messages within the framework of the series.

Mollie's Mother & Step-Father should be arriving at Mollie's apartment today; they may already be there. I hope Mollie is doing ok; her Step-Father sounds like an extra stressful person to have to deal with (plus he stinks). And I hope that Mollie & Carrie were able to see that movie yesterday! ;-0)

Am I the only person in the world who snacks on green olives?

I keep hearing people talk about Firefly, which is awesome, and hopefully good news. I know a lot of people are excited about the movie, but I wish that it was an overwhelming number. I mean, even if all my friends go (which I believe they will, which makes me happy) that won't make the movie a hit, but hopefully word of mouth will spread and other people will see it as well. It's only rated PG-13, which means that the kiddies can see it as well, which generally makes a movie more profitable.

I have to work at 7pm. I believe I also work Wednesday-Friday. I may be getting more hours as Scott & Tara have all but quit, and Ben is on vacation. I do want more people hired, and I do enjoy meeting & working with new people, but at the same time, everytime a new person is hired I'm always a bit worried that they won't fit in, or that they'll throw off the group dynamic that we have going. We all have a twisted sense of humor which could offend some people, but it's something that makes work fun for us. And I also have to worry, though not as much, about how they'll get along with me personally, which I don't usually have a problem with. I think I've maybe not gotten along with 2 co-workers, and there's only been 1 that I couldn't stand to be around. But other than those worries, I look forward to the fresh blood.

And if Mollie is reading this, I read that the boxed set of Drawn Together won't carry the unaired episode as they plan to air it in Season 2, and release it with that set. So that's another source talking about a 2nd season. cool.

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   Monday, August 29, 2005

Work went well. It was pretty slow again, but I had fun customers, and I worked with Heidi & Nate. It was all good. I got a message from Mollie and the folks are with her now but she sounds likes she's in good spirits, at least for now - if only Kenny will stop mentioning masturbation while in her room.

I had a thought today that maybe my friend Carrie, who detests Buffy, but loves Firefly, might enjoy watching Angel: The Series, because I'm pretty sure she can't stand the character of Buffy, and while Angel is a spin off, and there are crossovers, the show was made to stand alone. Buffy appears in a few episodes, and is mentioned in still more, but for the most part Angel is Buffy free, and it features at least 5 Firefly actors through the series. I think she'd love Doyle, and I think she'd love the dialogue of the show, as it's written it's very similar to Firefly. I don't know why I didn't think of this sooner. Oh! And I think she would love the 4 parter where the go to Lorn's homeworld. "Numfar! Do The Dance of Shame!". Of course she might hate the idea, but it's worth a shot. There are 110 episodes of Angel.

Ooh! New episodes of JLU starting September 17! "We Are Legion", "Shadow of the Hawk", "Chaos at the Earth's Core" & "To Another Shore" appear to be the first 4 episode titles of the new 3rd Season (or 5th Season if you count Justice League as part of the series). This season may be the final season of JLU, though animates series generally run 52 episodes (which would mean that JLU could possilby get one more 13 episode season); that would rock. Another 13 episodes would also give the writers a chance to rival the finales of "The Savage Time", "Starcrossed", & the 4-part Cadmus finale of last season. I don't really think of "Epilogue" as a JLU episode, so much as the final Batman Beyond episode.

Ok - enough. I need to stop blabbing about the DCAU and get some stuff done.

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   Tuesday, August 30, 2005

I got about 8 hours of sleep on Monday! Mark & I had a bit of a miscommunication about me needing the car that was overly dramatic, but it was all resolved before nightfall. After rousing I ate while watching some Superman episodes that Mark had taped for me years ago that I never watched because I'd lost the tape: "Apokolips Now! (Parts I & II)" & "Legacy, Parts I & II" - the former being the major Darkseid episodes, and the latter being the series finale follow-up to said major Darkseid episodes. These episodes are constantly referenced on Justice League & Justice League Unlimited so it was fantastic to finally see them for myself. These episodes are also from the final 3rd of the series, so they won't be in the 2nd boxed set that comes out in December; if they did I probably would have waited to see them then.

Miss Communication. Such a nice drag name. lol I'm working on nearly zero sleep here, so bare with me. This Sierra Mist is really yummy.

I started gettting ready for Necto around 9:30pm; Paul & Amy had said they would be there, and I knew that I really wanted to go, so all was good. I had to leave home by 11:30pm as I had to return a truly aweful queer film which was due back at Hollywood; the name escapes me at the moment, and that's ok with me. I chatted for a moment with Heidi & Matt before setting off for the bar.

When I went up to the actual bar, I noticed that my friend Becky wasn't bartending, which sucked because it meant i had to pay for my drinks - what's up with that? lol I've become so spoiled. I ran into some people from detroitgothic.net & they in turn told me that it was Becky's birthday, and that she was around the corner, so I went over and gave her birthday hugs ;-0)

I danced with Vince, for a moment before being pulled into a very hot, if confusing dance with Matt's friends Emily & Bobby. Bobby was all over me, which was really weird becaus he hardly speaks to me. It was a fun dance, but it was odd. Of course, some guys when they get drunk, only know how to dance with someone by thrusting against them, and still others only know how to dance that way when there is no alcohol involved, so maybe we can just calk it up that.

Later I wandered outside, and found Paul & Amy, and I met some Lesbians who's names escape me - even though they were adorable. I also met their friends Lou & Kat/Cat. Paul was adorable, we talked about stuff on my webpage, and then other stuff. I went downstairs to use the bathroom and ran into even more people. The madness continued...

I later danced with Vince, Emily & Bobby some more. I was really enjoying the music. Paul joined me on the dance floor, and more fun ensued. I chatted with Colin & his girl a bit; they thought I had probably seduced their friend Tyler last time I saw him, and his girlfriend too, but alas, I did not. When I met Tyler, not that long ago, he WAS drooling on me, which was nice cause he's really hot, but his girlfriend looked kind of...pissed, so I didn't go there. I know that other people were there that I knew and spoke to, but I can't think of who they are at the moment. I'm pretty sure I saw Sandor there, but never really at a moment when I could say hello, so I didn't. And of course I sweated off like 10 pounds dancing; lol. I'm loving the vinyl, but it's pretty fricking hot to dance in.

After the bar, Amy asked me if we were going for pizza, and I told her that I thought Paul was at their car waiting for her, but that yeah I'd like to take them to Pizza House, and so I waited, and waited. Emily & Bobby were going to the Fleetwood Diner, and said goodbye. Eventually Amy pulled up with Paul and the 2 adorable lesbians (Lou & Cat/Kat had wandered off on their own). I asked Amy to park on the street, but she said they were just going home :-0( They had to work in the morning. Paul reached across the seat to offer me his hand; maybe to grab mine, but I just bent down and swallowed a finger; it seemed oddly appropriate. When we were chatting in the bar he started tickling me while I was trying to lace my boots, and I reached right up his shorts and...he stopped me, but I got a good feel. lol.

I came home, and I showered, and got all my makeup off, and put on some (very) different clothes, as I needed some groceries. I stopped at Fleetwood to see Emily & Bobby (after dropping off a friend a few blocks from the diner), and we chatted it up for awhile. I thought Bobby lived in Toledo, but he apparantly lives in Ann Arbor, on West Stadium, near where I work. Weird. He's really shy, & I found out how he & Emmy & Val & Matt all know each other. Matt was apparently supposed to be at Necto as well, but he stayed at home with a wacky lesbian friend. Usually I'd be pissed to hear that, but I had so many other people to interact with that I didn't mind.

After chatting with the Diner crowd, I was off to Krogers, and home. I was feeling kind of acidy, so I couldn't really lay down, which sucked because I was really tired, and I knew I had to go see my dad today with Janice. I slept a couple of hours and got up at 10am. Janice just called me and I need to get ready, and figure out if I need the car or not. More writing to follow...

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Janice is coming to get me, so we can go see dad. We're going to McDonalds or something like that. Jillian & Jonathan should be with us, which is awesome! Mark & I are chatting online; he says he's really behind on my blog.

Season 2 of Enterprise the other day, and I watched the 2nd Season finale this morning: "The Expanse". I miss Enterprise. It seems like the Buffyverse ended years ago, but Angel only ended about 13 months ago. Weird.

My eyes hurt. I'm ready to go. Mostly. "and they mostly come at night; mostly."

I need to do something else.

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Janice, Jillian, Brook (Janice's niece), Jonathan & I took dad to Red Robin to eat. I guess our Aunt Debbie was in jail for awhile; she was back on crack cocain again. That's too bad; she really seemed to have her life together last time I spoke with her - which was, admittedly, years ago. I sat next to Jill in the car so we got lots of bonding in. After the food I was super-tired, but I made it somehow, and now I'm home, and I'm so going to bed.

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So I gave Bryan this disc with last season's finale of JLU on it, but he couldn't get it to play because his computer sucks; or at least that's my opinion. So I'm thinking about putting it on a tape with a whole slew of other episodes, including the 4-parter that comes right before the finale, but even though I can fit about 18 episodes on a tape, that still doesn't cover all the episodes that tie into that amazing arc of stories, so I'm working that out in my head while doing everything else.

I woke up around 6:30pm, and watched an old episodes of Superman I had on tape but had never watched called "Ghost in the Machine" - an integral episode to the arc I mentioned in the above paragraph. When Mark got home he joined me, and when Supes was through we watched 3 episodes of Dawson's Creek. It's nice to be watching a tv show with him again... It's fun.

I checked my friends' blogs and Mollie's mom had some kind of attack, and she's not in the best of health, but she doesn't want to die in a hospital so she's in Mollie's bed, but she's doing better, maybe, so this could be ok, but it could really not be ok, and while I'm sitting here staring at the candle I lit for them (so I'm slightly superstious - bite me), and I'm worried about them, I know that I can't really do anything unless I'm asked. I mean, I can't just invade the family, you know? If Mollie needs me, she knows how to find me. erg. So I think about JLU & Dawson's Creek, and boys & try not to worry too much.

I see that Paul wrote about me, sort of. That feels good. Mark just said he's up for another episode if I am, so I'm gonna go. I need to clean my room later, and get stuff ready for tomorrow so I can be ontime for work. And that's pretty much all I have planned.

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   Wednesday, August 31, 2005

I'm awake; sort of. No new e-mail or any real news. I didn't clean my room or get stuff ready for work, but what I did try to do was get some sleep, which I'm not sure if I did...at least not as much as I wanted. I tossed & turned for a long time, I know that much. Anyways, I've got to get ready. ;-0)

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I was on time for work, which was way slow, but fairly painless except for a random stupid guy who just saw a movie about vampire cowboys but then claimed that they weren't cowboys (until I pointed out all the reasons that they were) and then he said that they weren't vampires (and I pointed out all the reasons they were) and it was just...lame. And there was some girl who said that the flooding of Hurricane Katrina was because god was pissed off at them; that one got ugly really fast, and if she doesn't complain about me I'll be rather surprised. Other than that the work day went by fine, though there wasn't a whole lot to do.

After work I went to Kroger to pick up some things for Mark (so we wouldn't have to go after he got off of work); picked Mark up from work - headed home - read the news on CNN.com and checked my e-mail & blogs and stuff but there was nothing important (except more JLU news) and then watched more Dawson's Creek with Mark while I ate garlic bread that I bought ages ago but never bothered to make. It was all about run on sentences and fun. I fell asleep during the last episode but quickly recovered, and now I'm typing this. It's almost 11pm, and my room is a bit cleaner than it was, but I still haven't done any laundry. Besides that, everything is good.

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