Friday, February 1, 2008

I finished my latest Trek reading, which I wasn't sure I was going to enjoy...yet I did. The story got better as it went, which is a huge relief as there are a number of books in the series and I already own all of them! lol. This is why I've been reading so much lately. I have all these books that I've never read. I have all these movies on my shelf that I've never seen. Well I've done a pretty good job of knocking them down this week. Go me!

I'm contemplating reading a Dune or Star Wars book in between Trek installments, but I haven't decided if that's what I'll do yet. I mean...I already kind of miss the characters I was just reading about. I'm sure I'll decide one way or the other within the next day or two.

5 days until episode 4 of Torchwood, Season 2. A new 90 second trailer for Season 4 of Who will be in theaters in the UK starting today. Hopefully it will find it's way online soon, as I'm aching to see it! ;-0)

I work today. I need to burn some discs for DJ. I should do that now. I have to get my prilosec perscription filled after work. Beyond that...who knows?

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I decided to soldier on with the Trek series I'm reading, but I did get the Dune & Wars books out that I'm considering reading soon, so that they're there if I need them. I started the 2nd S.C.E. story before I went to sleep this morning. I woke up a bit before my alarm went off, with some abdominal pain, but it passed quickly.

Just after that had passed, I continued the downloading of the HD Torchwood episodes, and began updating the book section of my website. Soon after that Mark came into my room. I'd assumed that he'd left for work this morning, but he hadn't. Then I assumed that he'd overslept, and I apologised for not waking him up, as I had (like I said) assumed that he was at work. But apparently there's a blizzard outside, and he had called work so that he wouldn't have to drive through it twice, and is just driving to work with me to save himself the trip. He wanted me to slow down my downloads as I was hogging the bandwidth, which means my downloads will take even longer now...

I do remember now, looking out the window this morning and being surprised that there was snow out there again. Ick. Not loving the snow out there. I did just get a voicemail from work though, saying if I donated $5.00 to this charity I could wear jeans and a red shirt today? Weird.

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   Saturday, February 2, 2008

I got to work on time yesterday. The day went by fast. I worked with Pat, Brad & Laura. Michael visited me. Rookie stopped by briefly. Later I worked with DJ & Bryan, but just for a short while. Michael picked me up from work and took me to meijer to refill my prilosec, then took me home. We had what would seem to be our first argument. I was exhausted and pissed off by what was said, and asked him to leave, but we hugged and said we might hang out later.

As soon as Michael left I got undressed, turned out the lights and went to sleep. I woke up around midnight. I ate. I read nearly all of the next Trek installment; I have 40 pages left I think. Then I decided to continue on with season 2 of Battlestar Galactica. I ended up watching 7 episodes! Many of them were truly intense, and it was quite a ride. I watched "Home, Part 1", "Home, Part 2", "Final Cut", "Flight of the Phoenix", the extended cut of "Pegasus", "Resurrection Ship, Part 1" & Resurrection Ship, Part 2". DJ will be pleased. ;-0)

Mark just got up and is taking a shower. He doesn't usually do that on Saturdays. I wonder if he's going somewhere?

I'm going to sleep. I'm tired. I'm starting to get a headache. And did I mention I'm tired?

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I slept for just over 6 hours. I wore earplugs, and just blocked out the world. I dreamt of Battlestar Galactica. It was really nice. :-0)

As more and more 'gay' themed storylines pop up on Torchwood, and as more and more people watch it, there suddenly seem to be a lot more stupid people bitching about it. I've come to think of the last year or so as the golden era, when people either loved the show or didn't, and if they didn't, it wasn't because of the gay stuff, but because of what they viewed as shakey writing. But just about everywhere I go now there are threads about how gay the show is. Which it's not. All the characters are bisexual. And the only true relationships we've seen them in have been hetersexual, with a lesbian fling thrown in. All the sex we've seen on the show is hetero. We've seen some male/male kisses, but that's it. And that's pretty much all we've seen this season too, only now 2 of those guys are building some kind of relationship, and suddenly that's too much? Whatever. Pisses me off. But thankfully the show is unlikely to change it's tune while it continues to air. The ratings are out of this world, and there's already talk of a third season. ;-0)

4 days until new Torchwood. I know a bit about every episode that's airing this year, and so I'm excited about some episodes more than others, but I'm looking forward to all of them. This next episode ("Meat") is a big Rhys Williams episode, and I really like him, so I hope it's really good. The 5th episode of the season is called "Adam" and sounds amazing! The 6th episode features the return of Martha Jones to the New Whoniverse, where she sticks around for 3 episodes. Then in episode 9, which is something of a comedy, the storyline is about Gwen's wedding, which should be fun. Episode 10 is said to be very dark, as is episode 11. Episode 12 is the one I'm most excited about, and is rumored to explain how Toshiko, Owen & Ianto were recruted into Torchwood. We know how Gwen was brought in, so that won't be covered, and there should be quite a few cool surprises. And all that's known about the finale is that "old wounds are reopened, new wounds created and punishment is meted out". It's also almost certain to feature James Marsters as Captain John, and tie into his "finding Gray" comment from the premiere. And it may or may not have some lead-in to Jack's 4th Season Doctor Who appearance. Very cool.

It seems more and more likely that I'll attempt to read more of the Dune series this year. I'm just starting to get excited about it. I've only read the original trilogy (Dune, Dune Messiah, Children of Dune), and there are now 11 other titles to read (with at least 3 more on the way), plus various other short stories, which I've looked over and while many people have a problem with Kevin J. Anderson & Brian Herbert's writing, I'm not one of them. I loved Dune. But I thought Dune Messiah felt rushed, and like it was only written for money - and that one was written by Frank Herbert himself. Children of Dune thankfully got the series back on track in my opinion, with the senior Herbert's classic, timeless style of writing. I don't expect that flavor from the new books, and from the reviews that I've read, the people that most have a problem with the new stuff is based on the difference in the style of the writing. So I'm thinking I'll at least try to read the first chronilogical trilogy in the series sometime this year, and then go from there.

I'm thirsty.

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   Sunday, February 3, 2008

Since the last entry, I've eaten, started the next Trek E-Book installment (S.C.E. #03: Hard Crash), talked to Michael on the phone, and watched 6 more episodes of Battlestar Galactica. I watched "Epiphanies", "Black Market", "Scar", "Sacrifice", "The Captain's Hand", & (my favorite episode so far) "Downloaded". That leaves just the final 2-Part story from the 2nd Season.

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I read more of the Trek story; I have 77 pages left. I watched 5 more episodes of Battlestar Galactica. I tried to sleep, but couldn't quite get there. I chatted on gay.com for about an hour, and met a lot of nice people who respected that I wasn't looking for sex, but still took the time to compliment me - which was unexpected. I slept. I woke up once with some pain, but it went away and I got back to sleep. I just woke up again a few minutes ago. I need to get ready for work.

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   Monday, February 4, 2008

I was late to work last night. I shaved for the first time in weeks and was right on track, but then I got sidetracked by those Torchwood bigot 'fans' and then was left wondering if I even worked, as the schedule hadn't been finished when I'd left work on Friday. Still...it was so dead at work that we had everything done by 10pm. And Bryan sent me home around 11:30. I went to the grocery store before home. I chatted with Mollie & Michael. I watched a movie I rented ("Scenes of a Sexual Nature"), which I'd read about - it was odd with not much happening, and yet I wasn't bored. I chatted on gay.com for awhile. I watched 2 more episodes of Battlestar Galactica...started another one, but went to sleep after the opening credits, at about 8:30am.

I woke up around 3pm. I checked my e-mail. And found some Doctor Who news. Apparently the best bet for the season four opener is Saturday, April 5 - either 3 days after, or 4 days before the 2nd season finale of Torchwood. The new UK theatrical trailer for season 4 has already been posted in youtube. I've seen 2 copies so far. See those, here & here.

I chatted with Michael briefly. Updated some bits on my webpage. And now I'm going back to bed. I'm still tired, and I have the time, which is nice.

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I woke up around 8pm. I had a snack. I checked my voicemail. Jennifer Clemente & I have been playing phone tag for a few weeks now. Checked my e-mail but there was nothing of importance there. I'm all but certain that I'll be going to Necto tonight.

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   Tuesday, February 5, 2008

After the last entry, I went to Barnes & Noble, and Borders to look for new Who magazines, but they didn't have any. Then I thought I'd pick up "The Road To Dune" which has a story that I need, but there was a printing error in the copy they had, so I came home empty handed. But surpringly, Mark's comic order came in and I actually got a Doctor Who magazine before it hit the stands here, which is really rare! That cheered me up! Then I found a Torchwood article online that gave the rest of the titles for Season 2, plus some plot spoilers (which were mostly things that I knew or had at least heard rumors of). Awesome.

Season 2 of Torchwood goes somthing like this:

01 Kiss Kiss, Bang Bang
02 Sleeper
03 To The Last Man
04 Meat (airs in about 40 hours)
05 Adam
06 Reset
07 Dead Man Walking
08 A Day in the Death
09 Something Borrowed
10 From Out of the Rain
11 Adrift
12 Fragments
13 Exit Wounds (finale)

After eating and reading my magazine, I changed my clothes and headed to Necto. I had a blast. I bought Charles a drink, as they'd mistakenly given him a 21 & over bracelet. I had 4 drinks myself. I complimented this extremely cute guy. I danced with these girls that I met. I danced with Christine. I met Jolene & Jessica, Danni & Caitlyn. I ran into Heath, who Mollie knows. It was all good clean fun. And good exercise. ;-0)

I'm home now (obviously), listening to music from Torchwood ("Ooh La" by The Kooks, at the moment). Still mostly dressed and smelling of the bar. I'll probably shower and eat, and maybe read a bit more, or possibly watch another of the movies I rented. I don't know.

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After the last entry I ate; I had eggs, toast and water; all of it good. I stayed up so I wouldn't get sick afterwards. I played a video game. I showered. I ordered the four Dune paperbacks that I didn't have, plus 3 movies. The books turned out to be buy 3 get 1 free, which was a nice surprise, plus I had a gift certificate for $47.95, so I only ended up paying about $18. I was planning on ordering the lastest Harry Potter dvd, but passed on it in favor of 3 GLBTQ titles. I so need to get some sleep before work now.

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   Wednesday, February 6, 2008

I had a headache last night, but it wasn't a migrain, which was really interesting, because I don't usually get them this mild. It was so tolerable. Weird. Today my stomach is slightly upset, but nothing near as bad as it has been in the past. I'm writing this off as a good day.

I've finished another Trek fiction installment since the last entry. And watched nearly all of Battlestar Galactica (just 5 more episodes left, including the Razor movie as 2 installments). My favorite episode of the 3rd Season (so far) has been "Unfinished Business", which will have an extended cut on the dvd, so I'm interested in seeing that.

The new Doctor Who magazine comes out tomorrow (in the UK), and there's usually new info online just after, so I'm looking forward to that. I need to get the new Buffy comic which came out today, though I doubt I'll venture out tonight. My Dune books will be here tomorrow (hopefully), and I'm planning on reading the first short story as my next bit of reading. It seems we might be getting 2 episodes of Torchwood next week (giving us glimpses of Jack's past - Ianto/Jack goodness - and the return of Martha Jones), though that's not certain, and even if we do get 2 episodes, we'll most likely have 2 weeks to wait for the next installment. I've downloaded Torchwood 2x04, which I'll watch with Mark when he gets home.

The roads are really bad from what I hear; freezing rain all day, and then snow on top of it.

Everybody drive safe out there.

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   Thursday, February 7, 2008

Mark made it home safe from work and we both enjoyed the new Torchwood. The new episode info from the latest Doctor Who magazine has already been posted, which was all good to know. Oh, and The Sarah Jane Adventures have officially been confirmed for 12 new episodes.

Later, my stomach was still upset, but still not as bad as it's been in the past. I'm cool with it, which is odd, I suppose.

Mark & I both finished the 3rd Season of Battlestar Galactica, though separately. I'll watch the Razor movie later. I would rate Battlestar Galactica as my 2nd favorite Sci-Fi show after Firefly/Serenity, which is high praise from me. To me, the Firefly series and it's concluding feature film are this perfect thing, which was then shared with some of my closest friends. There are no flaws in it. Battlestar Galactica is in many ways it's equal, or even better - yet it isn't complete, and I won't know how I really feel about it until it reaches it's conclusion. That being said, as it is, I can recommend it highly to my friends. My 3rd favorite sci-fi series would be Doctor Who & it's spin-offs. Star Trek: Deep Space Nine, and Enterprise follow closly behind. Buffy/Angel would rank on that list too, except I don't consider them sci-fi. I'm hoping the 2 upcoming Star Wars series will also feature on this list.

I can't wait to dive into the Dune series when my books arrive tomorrow. I'm thinking of reading the Narnia books as well. I've read the first 3 chronological books, but never made it through the other 4. I'd asked for a boxed set of the series when I was in grade school, and gotten them for Christmas. I have fond memories of reading "Prince Caspian" (my favorite of the 3 I've read), at my grandmother's home. I started but did not finish "The Voyage of the Dawn Treader" which I found to be annoying at the time. I read "The Magician's Nephew" at random, years later - and was excited to learn that it was in fact a prequel, which any of the new box sets take for granted; the older boxed sets used to carry the 7 volume set in the order the books were published, which is rather different. Anyways, I might purchase some new copies of the books, as mine are boxed away, and are kind of crappy. lol

I haven't spoken to Michael in days. I haven't seen him in nearly a week. I think about him a lot. I miss him. But I don't know what I should say to him at any given moment. I'm kind of wrapped up in my own head; so many thoughts, and all so complex that I find it hard to express them. I sometimes wonder if this is how my father feels all the time? Did he end up getting lost completely? I think so. Though I think that on my worst days I'm simply breaching the edge of the dark forest where my real father was last seen. Sometimes I catch glimpses of him, but never for long.

Feeling physically ill, and terrible weather doesn't encourage me to break out of my personal shell.

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Before going to bed last night I viewed the Battlestar special 'Razor' and all it's special features. It was a good episode for the series and should (IMO) be viewed during the 2nd Season, between the episodes "The Captain's Hand" & "Downloaded" - it does set up something for Season 4, but the placement of the episode is a no-brainer, and it ruins nothing. So I'm done with Battlestar Galactica until Season 4 until April. I'll be sending my discs to Mollie next week sometime, or at least that's the plan.

I slept fairly well...though I woke up in distress. I've been ill all day. There have however been bright spots. I got to talk to Jennifer, and she helped me make some decisions and think of things in a new light. Also, my Dune books arrived and I starting reading the first chronological story (Hunting Harkonnens), which I'll finish soon. I may then dive into the first novel.

I've decided to begin an experiment with a drug that has been perscribed to me. The drug is an anti-depressant called Cymbalta, but it's not been perscribed to me because of depression, but because of the side effects of the drug which would be good for my stomach. My doctor told me to mess with the dosage until I found what was right for me, but I never got around to it, because the reactions I had to the meds were new to me, and kind of freaked me out. When you first take it, it makes your skin crawl for about a week (taking it everyday), but then that goes away, and it helps my stomach problems immensly. And while it doesn't prevent me from desiring sex, it does make it impossible for me to have an orgasm (or at least I've never had one while taking the drug). It was so odd for me, that I stopped taking the drug altogether. I like sex. And I just decided that if I had a bad spell with my stomach I'd take the drug, and then get off it again. But I don't think that's the best way to go anymore. Now I'm thinking I'll take the drug, and see how long it stays in my system...and go from there. I'll use that information to decide how often I take it, and hopefully I'll be able to get some kind of balance going where I can have my cake and eat it too, and not get sick from it afterwards. Wish me luck. I think I might need it.

Oh. And if I turn into a raving bitch, I apologise.

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   Friday, February 8, 2008

Not having a great week.

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Called into work. I'm in the exhausted skin crawling phase of my treatment. Hope for the best, but never ever expect it.

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   Saturday, February 9, 2008

When I think about things I get stuck. That's a side effect. I don't get anything done this way. I think about something and I'm lost. An hour or two ago I was chatting online with Michael. Then I was chatting with him and some friends on gay.com, and I started craving fresh Benny's Bakery's glazed doughnuts. I didn't think about it, I just told everyone I had to go shower and dress so I could get my doughnuts, and then I was showering and getting dressed and the minute I actually thought about stepping outside and warming up the car and driving to the bakery for my 4 glazed, I froze. I sat on my messy bed and stared into space for 10 minutes. Now I feel like I could go now...but I'm not sure it's in my best interest to drive. I know it's not. And though I feel like I could make there and back with no trouble, when I'm like this, I can be wrong; my abilities switch on a dime, and I'm not on firm ground here. It would scare me if I could bring myself to care.

I'm beneath the surface. I can see the other me up there, but I can't touch or feel him. When I can, then it will be ok to drive. But doughnuts won't be available then.

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I eventually slept. I don't know what time it was, but it had been light outside for a few hours. I had watched the extended cut of David Lynch's Dune, and I was already tired when I started it, but couldn't sleep. I woke up around 5:30pm. I sorted some e-mail. I laughed at Mollie's comments (thanks for that). I changed my mind about what I wanted to read, and began the Voyager segment of last year's Mirror Universe series; it seems like the right time.

I should go to the pharmacy, but I don't know that I have the energy.

I'd really like to fuck, and I'm sure that Michael would oblige me, but I don't know that I feel up to conversation. Oh, well.

I'm going to clean my room (finally). It's been beyond terrible for almost a week.

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Still haven't cleaned my room. But I did get some much needed work done on my webpage, so I do feel like I've accomplished something, which is nice.

I just remembered that I was supposed to take my prilosec like 8 hours ago. Fuck.

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   Sunday, February 10, 2008

I cleaned my room. I shaved and showered. I chatted with Michael & Corey online. Corey might be visiting Tuesday night, which would be cool; I haven't seen him since August - and he still has my Doctor Who dvds, plus Mark can see him too and they get along quite well. Michael came over cause he needed a hairdryer (seriously)...and we had The Sex. We had conversation as well, and it was all good. After he left I ate and watched that old 80's movie 'Black Widow' which is way cheesy, but I love it. I also read the first 3 chapters of my Mirror Universe book. Now I'm tired...and probably going to bed. I work tonight.

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   Monday, February 11, 2008

I slept well on Sunday. I hadn't been outside in a few days, and I'd known that it had snowed, but I didn't realize it was so disturbingly cold outside! I was a few minutes late to work, as I didn't plan for the time to warm the car up. I didn't take my lunch though, so that more than made up for the time. I closed John; worked with Joe for a while first. We were busy for awhile and then it died down fast, and the last few hours dragged. Driving home sucked because of the cold, but once I was home it was all good.

I watched 'An Evening With Keven Smith 2: Evening Harder' which put me in a very good mood with much laughter; I'll be buying that title next time I work along with 'The Simpsons Movie'. Then I watched the new 'Brothers & Sisters' & 'The L Word' episodes. Then I started 'Nicholas Nickleby', which I couldn't finish, as I was nodding off. I fell asleep around the time Mark left for work this morning, I think. I heard my phone vibrate a few times, but beyond that I was sleeping well. Odd dreams about weddings and gay kids at my old church. lol

I woke up and read the news, of which there was very little. And what little there was sucked. Like I was hoping to read today that the Writers Strike was over, and the writers had gotten a good deal, but there was nothing about that. Instead, the only thing of interest to me was news that the Hobbit movies, which had seemed to have leaped the final leagal hurtle to arrive in 2010 & 2011, may be snagged up in yet another lawsuit over unpaid cash from the first 3 films! These new movies were 2 bright spots on a very dim entertainment horizon, and now New Line has apparently fucked it up again. Erg.

Still. In about 48 hours I'll have 1 (or possibly 2) new Torchwood episodes. Yay!

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   Tuesday, February 12, 2008

What have I done in the last 12 hours? I talked to Mollie on the phone. I played 2 video games. I read some of my Trek book. I ordered some movies. I slept. I ate. I jacked off. I showered. I downloaded the new Terminator episode. I laughed with Mark. I watched the Classic Who serial "Four To Doomsday". And I stayed inside where it was warm.

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Went to bed around 10am. Woke up with my stomach in knots. Going back to bed soon. Blah.

At least there's Torchwood to look forward to tomorrow.

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Slept ok. Dreamed about 'The L Word'. Woke up feeling worse than before. Pretty sure the 'The L Word' had nothing to do with that though. I love the lesbians.

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Well, I finally did get more sleep, which was nice. I feel way better, I think. My plans with Corey fell through because of the weather, but I talked to him for awhile on the phone. He's planning on working at Cedar Point again next summer (he worked there awhile back). We had nice little conversation. It was fun. I also talked to Janice (my older sister) for a bit; she's taking her family on vacation tomorrow. It was good to hear from her.

I watched part of "Bram Stoker's Dracula" before I fell asleep. I just realized there are some girl on girl kisses in that one, which means I can get it for my GLBTQ inclusive shelf. Nifty. There are other horror movies I need to get for it like "A Nightmare on Elm Street, Part 2: Freddy's Revenge" & "Bride of Chucky"; both of which feature gay characters. I like that I've got these diverse kinds of things on my all inclusive shelf. It's cool.

There was more cool Clone Wars news today, which I'm excited about. Yay! And in less than 24 hours I'll hopefully have 2 new Torchwood episodes. These are all good things. :-0) Still upset about the possible Hobbit delay. :-0(

I'm chatting with Michael at the moment. Not sure what I'll be up to later.

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   Wednesday, February 13, 2008

I slept until about 4am. I then had some eggs and watched "A Good Woman", which was enjoyable, if nothing special. Some of the dialogue was nice, while other bits were not. I do love Helen Hunt though.

I rented 'Magnolia' once again, and still have not seen it. Perhaps I will see it this time however?

I'm getting a rather horrible headache.

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Mark was in an odd mood this morning. He said it was because he'd gotten 8 hours of sleep (a rarity for him of late), but that he felt worse than when he called in to work yesterday. We laughed a lot though, and that was nice. He was still home when I went to sleep, and woke me up around 1pm with his talking on the phone, but when I woke again around 4pm he was gone.

I tried watching "Magnolia" and while I feel I should be impressed or excited about the movie, I'm just not. In fact, one sequence in the movie made me long to shut it off. I think that if I'd seen it when it was new I might have enjoyed it more. As it is, I stopped watching it fairly early, and started watching another classic Doctor Who serial ("Kinda").

I just updated some random things on my website. Now I'm downloading the 5th episode of Torchwood's 2nd Season, "Adam". Hopefully, in an hour or so, then 6th episode ("Reset") will also be available, though I'm not sure it will be available at all this week. We'll see.

Mark gets of work at 6pm, but given how late he was, he'll most likely work over. Last week at this time I was approaching the end of the available Battlestar episodes and loving it...

And creeping up on me is Valentine's Day. It's been a long while since I was dating anyone on a 14th of February, and I find myself wondering what to do for Michael on that day? The day itself means less than nothing to me. Maybe because I'm cynical, or maybe because I've experienced it before in all it's glory and been unimpressed by it; by national holidays all together. I'd rather be inspired to give or celebrate something, than be encouraged to by the masses. Yet I'd like for Michael to enjoy it. Is that odd? Just one more shade of crazy...

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Mark's home. I've downloaded both new Torchwood episodes, and invited Michael over to watch them with us, as his copies won't be done for awhile. Plus after midnight it will be Valentine's Day. I have another headache though. I took my painkiller and a shower. Now I'm going to eat, and hope that helps.

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   Thursday, February 14, 2008

Michael, Mark & I all enjoyed the new Torchwood episodes, though Mark enjoyed the first one best ("Adam"), while Michael & I preferred the 2nd one ("Reset"). There wasn't anything wrong with the first one exactly, but the 2nd one was like continuity porn, with nods to all sorts of other Torchwood & Doctor Who episodes. I think the 'Adam' episode had some great things to say as well, but 'Reset' is when things really started happening. Very cool.

Afterwards, I started watching 'Episode II' but Michael distracted me in the best way possible, and once again sex was had. Very good. Kudos all around. ;-0) And that was the Valentine's Day gift. Michael actually brought a card with him, which noted that I'm not a holiday sort, so that was cool. After the sex and showering and chatting I was nodding off, as I'd taken my pain killer earlier and it had finally kicked in. Michael kissed me goodbye, let himself out, and I fell asleep for a few hours.

Now I'm awake. Obviously. The roads are loads better, or so I've heard. That's assuming it isn't snowing outside. If it's not, I'd really like to get those doughnuts this morning; the ones I've been craving for weeks but haven't really had. I also need to stop at the grocery store and pick up a few things. The bakery opens at 5:30am. Maybe I could hit the grocery store first? Or not. I don't know. I'll probably take my time and get to the bakery first.

It's been revealed that the previously announced release date for the new Star Trek film has been changed from Christmas 2008 to May 2009! This is actually very good news in my opinion. It was said that the movie was working with an original film script that couldn't be worked on during production because of the Writers Strike, but now the strike is over and that can be worked on now, which is a huge relief to me. This move also allows the stuido more time to promote the film, and allow audiences to warm to the idea of this new reboot to the series. Besides the fact that more production time is always good; being rushed to theaters can't always be good, and in many cases can be devistating. I'd rather they take the time and get it right, than rush the process and fuck it up. This doesn't mean the movie will be good, but to me, this means they have more options, and more of a chance to get it right.

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I guess I'm just not meant to have sugary snacks today. I drove all the way out to Saline to get my favorite doughnuts in the world. Before I got there I worried that they might be closed for the holiday, as that would just be my luck! Only they were open. As pulled up I could see the doughnuts sitting out, and 3 people sitting at 2 separate tables and chatting over coffee. I parked and walked into the store, so pleased with myself that I was finally going to get my favorite morning treat, and months of putting it off. I ordered 4 glazed, not really paying attention to the woman behind the counter as I drooled over my upcoming reward... Until the woman asked me to repeat what I'd said. Then I noticed that the woman's eyes were watered and red, as was her nose. When I repeated myself she apologised saying that she had a terrible cold and that she couldn't hear anything, before using one of those sanitary things to pick up my doughnuts and put them in a bag. Then she sneezed. I didn't want to be rude and cancel my order, but now the thought of eating those doghnuts was akin to swallowing poison. I paid for my doughnuts, and went to the car...defeated.

I went to Kroger and bought $60.00 worth of groceries. Seeing the sad ill woman reminded me to buy more hand sanitizer for work, as we're just about out, and I like to have it there at all times. I bought 3 of them actually, and left one in the car.

I'd left the doughnuts in the car when I went in to Kroger. I brough them in the house with me with the groceries. The entire time I shopped, and drove home I toyed with the idea of eating them. Maybe she hadn't infected them all... Only I couldn't bring myself to risk it, and threw them away. This sucks.

So I'm home...and the groceries have been put away, but my headache is back with a vengence. They were out of a few things I needed from the store, and I need to get the pharmacy and Best Buy sometime soon. And I'd like to go to Hollywood Video as well... But I need to go there tomorrow for work, so I might wait on that. I need to get to Whole Foods and get some of those rice snacks that I enjoy so much. I need to get to the Vault of Midnight and get the new Buffy comic for Mollie. If my head didn't hurt so much this would be a lot easier to plan. As it stands I believe I'll do these things today or tomorrow.

But now I'm going to have a snack, and maybe watch some more Who or Star Wars.

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I slept well today. I woke up a little after 6pm, rolled out of bed, and then Mark got home asking me if I'd gotten his messages. Apparently they had MIDRIN (my often dreamed of migrain medication) in at Meijer and he'd had my perscription filled! So I got dressed, and we went to Mejier to get my perscriptions and some other things (chips, Boost, The Narnia Chronicles omnibus, & a giant hand sanitizer for work). Then we went to Best Buy where I bought 2 dvd folder things to send Mollie's dvds in (1 for Battlestar Galactica, and another for Doctor Who), plus the Special Edition of Braveheart, which I've been waiting years for. Then we we went to Briarwood so I could get a new belt (I got 2), where we ran into Paul & Nate. I forgot to introduce Nate to Mark, but when I told Michael later, he said it probably wasn't an issue. Mark & I then went to Kroger to get a few more things we needed. On the way there I left a message for Mollie and called Michael. And now that I'm home I'm exhausted...and very happy that I got all that stuff done, as now I won't have to do it tomorrow. I do wish Michael had been with us though, because he's never met Paul before, and it would have been cool. ;-0)

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   Friday, February 15, 2008

I slept a couple of hours. Mark woke me up accidentally, but I might get back to sleep...I don't know. I still feel sleepy. We'll see.

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   Saturday, February 16, 2008

I did get back to sleep after the last entry, but only for an hour or so. Then it bacame clear to me that if I wanted to be to work ontime I'd need to stay awake. I read some of my Star Trek book. I started re-reading "The Magician's Nephew". I made my bed. I ate. And I did make it to work ontime.

DJ had some good news for me when I got to work. Brenda, our wench of a district manager is no longer employed at Hollywood. Later I spoke to the new DM on the phone, and he seems like an improvement. DJ also let me know that he's enjoying Doctor Who, though he watched some of it out of order. I also worked with Bryan, Amanda, Bill & Brad. Meg stopped in for a visit, with her new boyfriend; Austin, I think his name was? It was good to see her, and I guess she'll be working at Hollywood over Spring Break. Neat. And I talked to Michael briefly on the phone as I'd told him I'd probably work over and now that looked like it wasn't going to happen. It's good that I called him, because he was planning on visiting me at work, and I wasn't going to be there.

I got out of work on time, picked up Mark, and then went home, where I checked my e-mail, and then climbed into bed around 7pm. I slept well, until about midnight. After that I kept waking up, but I was determined to relax and get more sleep, and I did, which was good. I got out of bed around 4am I think. I called Michael back, as he'd left me some messages, and I called Mollie as well. She messed up her already messed up leg and needs a couple surgeries; ick. We talked and laughed, and then took a break so we could both eat and then continued with more talking and laughing. It was good.

Later I watched "You Are Not Alone". I own 4 or 5 Danish movies and they're all extremely laid back about stuff, but this one was...set in the 70's so all the boys have long hair and look really girly. I'm betting Mollie might like them, because they're so androgynous. It's a nice addition to my shelf though; I was entertained...but I have a few movies from that era and they just seem so completely different to the way things are now that it's jarring to witness them.

My right ankle is aching, and I have no idea why.

I'm probably going to have another snack, and read some more.

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I had my snack and finished the Voyager section of my Star Trek book, which was alright. And I just watched another movie from my shelf: "You I Love", which I enjoyed. I love my movie collection. :-0)

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   Sunday, February 17, 2008

I slept even more after my last entry. I woke up around 8pm, and took my prilosec, returned a call from Michael, and went back to bed. I got up around 1am. I called Michael back again and chatted with him, then worked on my webpage for a few hours, before getting some food and chatting with Michael on yahoo. We made plans to hook up after I get out of work tonight. I slept a bit more and then watched "Bridget Jones's Diary" (which I'd never seen before). The gay character in the movie is played by the guy who plays Baltar on Battlestar Galactica; he's in part 2 also, though I haven't watched that one yet. Again, it's fun watching the movies on my shelf that I've never seen, but I didn't think this one was as good as it was hyped to be, and I'm not certain why it was such a huge hit.

I read for an hour or so.

I had a bit of a headache later. I still took the time to reply to some e-mail though, and I had a snack and tried to sleep, but it was extremely warm in my room. I thought I might have a fever or something and took my temperature: 96.6? Hmmm. I think I just need to get moving.

Mark is having a really bad day. He made this really horrible, yet human, mistake, which is causing him some horrible stress, and has ruined a lot of the work that he's been doing lately. It stresses me when he's stressed. I hope he can resolve this situation soon, without driving himself (or both of us) insane.

I need to have a snack, shave and get ready for work. I need to go to the bank and to Kroger after work. I got this V8 Fusion stuff last week and it was so good; I want some more.

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   Tuesday, February 19, 2008

I was slightly late for work Sunday night, but it was a mostly slow evening. It was rather warm out for this time of year, and it felt good, though it cooled a bit later on, and it was quite windy. I worked with Ruki & Bill. And I just remembered Ruki saying something about bowling on Wednesday. She's always telling me of work related outings and asking if I would go; I get the strong sense that she wants me to go to these things so that she can have someone to talk to there. Michael & his friend Erica came into the store to visit me, and they got to meet Ruki, though they didn't stay overly long, and Ruki left around 9pm. It was very nearly dead in the last 2 hours, and I was able to leave at almost exactly midnight.

I went to the bank and Kroger just as I had planned, and then headed home. I chatted with Mark, and straightened up my room a bit, before calling Michael and letting him know I was home so he could join me. He'd been sleeping. He joined me fast enough though, and we had some fun; you know what I mean! But shortly afterwards my stomach started feeling a bit odd. Actually, I had some rumblings before I called Michael, but I rebelled against them as I wanted to see him so much. Michael left shortly thereafter, and I rode out the stomach troubles, and eventually slept.

I woke up Monday morning as Mark was getting ready for work. I got up, pleased that my stomach wasn't troubled, and checked the news and e-mail fronts. Then, in a random act, I again updated some bits on my webpage, including a section for Michael, which you can see here.

Later, I ate and read nearly all of the first Narnia book, before falling asleep around 2pm, thinking it only a nap, but waking up around 8pm. Mark still wasn't home, but there was a message saying he was working late. I fell back asleep, and woke up again when Mark came in the front door. While I slept I dreamt I was in my old church and my cousin Michael Curtis had brought a gun to church and began shooting people, like they do now in schools. I escaped through the basement's exit door, and came back to find many of my family members had been shot. I distracted Michael, and shot him myself, then stood shooked, covered in blood, then woke up.

I spoke to Mark for awhile, and checked on some things. I read a rumor suggesting that Heath Ledger's final film project, which was not "The Dark Knight", might actually be finished with his recorded footage in tact, as it involves him stepping through 3 different mirrors into 3 different worlds, and his footage for those scenes have already been filmed. How they plan to finish the film, is to have him become 3 different actors (Jude Law, Johnny Depp & Colin Farrell) as he enters these different worlds, which would sort of rock in my opinion. Hopefully the rumor is true, and the movie is cool beyond the nifty concept.

I ate and finished the Narnia book. I'll finish the Mirror Universe story next, and then read some more S.C.E. stories before getting back to Narnia; or that's my current plan. I fell asleep again a bit later, and had another intense, bizarred dream, that I was living in my Aunt Marge's house, with my step-father and his daughter Jamie... I thought there was a giant insect in the room, but it was actually a small bird, which I captured, and then saw it was only a baby bird, and that a family of birds had nested in the upper corner of my window, which had refused to close. The nest was a mixed family of Cardinals & Bluejays, which didn't seem odd in my dream. I was afraid the baby bird wouldn't be accepted by his family now that I had touched it, but it had flown on it's own, so it was alright, or so my grandmother told me...

I woke up around 2:30am. I had a snack. I realized I hadn't taken the meds for my stomach, which reminded me that Jennifer had told me that when she doesn't take her meds she's tired a lot and she has strange dreams. Now I know what she meant.

Oh. And apparently Blu-Ray has won the HD-DVD war. HD-DVD is dead. I'm just glad the war is over. It still sucks for anyone who bought one of the loser players, and all the dvds.

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   Wednesday, February 20, 2008

I slept for awhile after the last entry, then got up around 9am. Mark left for work, and I had a shake. I read, and got ready for work. Mark picked me up, and I dropped him off...it was all very routine. Work was...fun. Just one of those cheery days where nothing spectacular happens, but it's fun just the same. After picking up Mark from work, and calling my Grandfather to wish him a happy early birthday (he's 80 years old tomorrow), I went right to bed. I woke up around 2:30am I think. My stomach was slightly upset, but not in a painful way, which was a relief. I read all of "The Lion, The Witch & The Wardrobe", as I rented the movie. I strongly disliked it in the theater, but I'm giving it another chance this week; that's the plan anyways.

I need to get some sleep soon. I'm planning on going bowling tonight, with my coworkers, and Michael too. Torchwood is on tonight as well, though I don't know that I'll get to watch it until late. We'll see.

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I'm awake. I need to contact Michael and let him know for sure that I'm going bowling. I need to get ready. Mark still isn't home from work.

The new Bionic Woman has been cancelled. Thank You Joss! :-0)

The season finale of Nip/Tuck was on last night and didn't disappoint, though there was another glitch in the copy I got. Hopefully Mollie will still be able to watch it.

And hopefully later I'll have a new Martha Jones on Torchwood episode to watch.

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   Thursday, February 21, 2008

Bowling didn't happen. I mean, I did go, but no one was there. I got in touch with some people, and they said they were coming later, but I went off and met Ruki, Michael (as well as Joe later on) at Aut bar for a drink and conversation. It was nice to see everyone. All of us had to be up next morning or were dead tired, and we were out of there by midnight. I stopped for some groceries, came home, read a chapter of my book, and went to sleep.

I woke up around 3:30am. I couldn't get back to sleep, so I watched the new Torchwood episode. I didn't want to watch it with Mark, because I was worried I'd ruin it in some way, but I needed have bothered to watch it separately. What I thought I knew about the episode was something very different than what was actually there. Still cool. Just very different. I kind of like my idea better, but their idea was a lot more flashy, and had ties to completely different aspects of the series than I expected. We're over half way through Season 2 now; 6 more episodes to go.

The Doctor Who team, supposedly just did a read through of the final episodes of their fouth season last week. Looking forward to seeing the Doctor and his companions again. I'm enjoying Torchwood, but with tv shows like this, I'm never sure what to make of them until their seasons end and I can look at the whole thing.

I may sleep, or read some more now. I'm reading the 3rd Narnia book, "The Horse & His Boy", which I've never read before. I like it just as well as the others I've read, and it's interesting reading the others that I'd read when I was younger, as I have quite a different perspective on them now that I'm older.

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   Friday, February 22, 2008

On Thursday, after the last entry, I did read some more Narnia; I have about 64 pages left in "The Horse & His Boy". I also read some more of my Trek book; the DS9 Mirror Universe story called "Saturn's Children"; I have about 80 pages left in that.

I rewatched "The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe". I saw it in the theater with Mollie and found that I loathed it. I remember that I was happy with Lucy and Mr. Tumnis, and that all the kids were hot when they grew up at the end...but found little else of enjoyment in it, to which Mollie agreed. Rewatching the movie directly after reading the book (which takes longer than reading the book), I found I enjoyed it a lot more. It probably didn't hurt that I was able to pause it for a lunch break. But I was also able to appreciate all the things they had changed between the book and the film. I'm not a fan of slavish adaptations of novels; I'd much rather they spice them up a bit, and this film was done rather well. For instance, in the book, it's rather sexist, with Father Christmas telling the girls that war is an ugly thing when women are involved, while in the film they just say that war is ugly. Also, in the book, the girls don't use their weapons at all, while we see them practice with them in the movie, and we see Susan actually save her brother's life with her bow. I think the film handled a good many things far better than the book, yet I while I now appreciate the film as a grand adaptation of the book, I still don't find it to be an outstanding movie. It drags. I don't think there's a single moment that inspired awe, or much of any emotion really, though in many ways in improves on the source material, which I'm grateful for. I no longer hate this movie, and I'd watch it again, but it's nowhere near the top rung of my movie choices, even if I was limited to fantasy films.

Later I started getting a massive headache. I took my magic migrain meds and layed down in the dark, and starting letting my mind wander to all the things I could be doing in the condo. I thought about doing laundry, and cleaning the kitchen, and sorting the bottles and organizing all kinds of things. And soon enough my headache was gone...and I got up, and started doing the last thing that had popped into my head.

I hadn't put any pictures up in my room for nearly a month, and I'd had some pictures I wanted to use, but I've been sort of planning it out in my head. There is this graphic novel, called The Crow (which was the basis for the film of the same name), which has always haunted me with it's intensity of emotion. It's something that the movie captured in moments, but couldn't quite hold on to. It's something none of the sequels or tv series, or spin-off's have come close to, in my opinion. Because of this, I decided a few months ago to buy a new copy, and put the art on my walls... When it arrived, I even sorted out a lot of the work of separating all the pages I'd need and all that...but then I set it aside. Part of that was because it's a lot of work that I wasn't feeling up to, but mostly I put the project on hold, as I wasn't sure I was up to the task of telling this story the way I see it in my brain, because in all honesty, there are whole passages of the novel that don't mean anything to me. I guess the film got that part right after all. And the parts that I do enjoy are jumbled together, like a fever dream... So I was trying to figure out how I should present this to whoever came into my room, and yesterday I just decided it was best to follow my passion and not the exact story outline...and it turned out beautifully! However, it also took nearly 6 hours, in which time my headache returned, and Mark got home from work. I wouldn't let him see it until I was finished, but then stopped just short of completion to take more meds and go to bed. He said he really liked it, and made a note of all the work I'd done. I'm really proud of this new section, but my head was killing me.

I did eventually fall asleep. Mark woke me up later to ask if I wanted to watch Torchwood with him, but I passed as my head was still hurting. I took my last allowed pill, and went back to bed. I woke up around 4am, with my headache gone, and continued where I'd left off on the wall, but stopped shortly after to eat, and write this.

I might work on the wall some more, as there are about 10 pictures I'd like to add in the near future. I already started doing the dishes. I'll probably do my laundry next. I might read a bit, or just try to relax. I work later today, from 1-5:30pm. Michael wants to go to Necto tonight, and that's fine with me as long as I get some amount of sleep between now and then; probably after I get home from work.

Ooh. There's a new Aliens game coming out later this year, which I want. It doesn't feature the Predators at all (damn it), but it's the first PC Aliens game to come out in years, as far as I know. It's called "Aliens: Colonial Marines". I'll have to keep an eye out for it. I don't think it will be out until Autumn though.

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Since the last entry, my stomach got all upset for awhile, but I think it's ok now. But my headache is now coming back. But I'm in a good mood...so there is that. lol

I also did some laundry, and read a short story by Neil Gaiman called "The Problem of Susan", which is about the older sister from the Narnia books, and a response to where her character ends up in the final volume. I had ordered this book ("Fragile Things") so I could read the story when I was done with the series, but I was aching to read it and it was only 10 pages long, and I'm happy that I read it now...as it makes me think differently about all that is to come, which I like.

I might not be going to Necto tonight after all. Michael just left me a message, and it all kind of rests on if I want to go or not, but I thought he wanted to go as his friend Brandon(?) was going? Maybe I'm just deeply confused. I'll have to call him and find out what's going on.

Mark is still here, and wants me to drive him to work, but I don't think I can at the moment, which might cause problems for me later. :-0(

My head is really starting to hurt now, so I'm gonna back slowly away from the screen, and hope for the best.

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   Saturday, February 23, 2008

My headache did go away after the last entry. Sadly, my stomach rebelled shortly thereafter and I was left wretching for most of the day, with far more discomfort than I've felt for at least a month; probably longer. It was altogether a most unpleasant day, though I had good customers and good coworkers surrounding me. I slept after work, which was heavenly, and though I got up to join Michael at the bar, he was no longer interested in going, so I went back to bed, and woke up around 4am, I think...feeling much better.

I chatted with Michael for awhile, and some other random people. I was going to finally have some breakfast, when I got a bloody nose. Now I'm thinking I should probably call my sister and see how she's doing. It used to be that if I randomly got a bloody nose, then there was something wrong with my sister. Crazy. I know. But it always made an odd kind of sense before. We have this odd kind of connection. It's like she projects things, and I pick them up. But I don't really think that's what this is. At least I hope it's not.

I told Bryan I'd cover part of his shift today, so I'm working 3 hours for him, 2-5pm. I haven't worked on a Saturday in at least a year; probably longer. I remember it was usually pretty insane. Hopefully my stomach really is doing better today, and the nosebleed was just a fluke. I'd really like today to go much better than yesterday. lol

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   Sunday, February 24, 2008

I was early to work yesterday, but the store was dead; probably because the sun was out and the breeze wasn't too chilly. They let me leave an hour early, which was great because I was starving. I went to McDonald's to eat, then went to Whole Foods to stock up on those rice treats I like. I also stopped into Barnes & Noble and picked up some magazines; one for it extensive Torchwood coverage (and pictures), and another one which had a preview of Battlestar Season 4. I actually have to go back and get 2 more copies of the Torchwood one (1 for more of the pictures, 1 to keep), and the latest Doctor Who mag, so I can rip up the one I already have. I considered dropping by Michael's place on my way home, but didn't, which turned out for the best later on.

When I got home there was a message from Michael saying he was still at his mom's house. He had thought he'd be back home around 5pm, which would have been perfect, as I'd have time to shower and stuff before we hung out, and I wouldn't be too tired. He didn't get home until around 9pm, which was about 2 hours after I'd gone to bed the night before, so I was tired by then. Michael was tired too though. In fact, he sounded more exhausted on the phone than I've ever heard him. He didn't actually make a lot of sense, but I figured that might just be me being tired, and I didn't pick at him. I told him he should take a nap, and I'd take a nap, and then we could hook up later.

Now, he remembers saying that I should call him, but I remember him saying he'd call me. Which one of us is right, I have no clue. But I got up around midnight, still sleepy, but excited to see Michael. I cleaned my room a bit; I shaved and showered. I read some of my Narnia book (I now have 3 chapters left). And still Michael hadn't called, and it was now about 20 after 5am. I called him. He was asleep, and the minute I heard his voice I was no longer annoyed. He sounded so cute. He told me he thought I was going to call him, but he was still sleepy, so he said he was going back to bed, and would set his alarm to wake him in an hour so he could throw on some clothes and come hang out with me. I said that was fine, though by now I was starting to get a bit tired, as I'd only taken a short nap.

2 and half hours later Michael still hadn't called. I figured he'd kept on sleeping, but couldn't be pissed about it, as he sounded so tired. I was starting to get a bit of headache though...and worried that our hoped for rendezvous was doomed to failure at this point. I sent him a yahoo message, as he was still logged on, but there was no response.

I decided I'd have breakfast. I had eggs and toast and water. It was really good, and so far there hasn't been any stomach trouble. This does mean I'll have to wait until noon to go to bed though, but I think it was probably worth it. ;-0)

So now I'm thinking I'll play a video game for a bit, and maybe work on my wall a bit more. I work tonight. I work Tuesday & Friday. I might hang out with my friend Bobby this week sometime, if we have the time.

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   Monday, February 25, 2008

I slept for a few hours, and then ate & watched the director's cut of Beowulf, which I thought was very entertaining. The behind the scenes feature that showed how they captured the features of the actors and all the props and things was really interesting. Hopefully, these kinds of motion capture films will continue to evolve, and go on to tell many different kinds of stories. Mark (who watched this movie yesterday) said he enjoyed all of this stuff too.

I have to leave for work in about 2 hours, and I really don't know what to do until then. I updated my website earlier. I never got around to working on my walls, but I don't think I want to get into that, because I tend to get sucked into that for several hours, and I don't want to have to stop to go to work. I should contact Michael and decide if we can see each other after work. Oh. And I can burn the 2 Battlestar Galactica discs for Mollie that I keep forgetting to do. ;-0)

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   Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Work was dead Sunday night.

Michael came over after I got home from work, but I ended up getting the mother of all migrains, which strained things a bit. We made the most of it though, and I had a long talk with him about my feelings for him, which he thanked me for later. I took my meds and went to bed.

I'm a bit worried about my migrains lately. They're back to the recurring horror that they sometimes are, and I'm not happy about it (duh). Even with the Midrin, they don't stay gone, which sucks more than I can tell you.

I watched the recent musical version of Hairspray & the new episode of L Word on Monday. I thought the movie was cute, though I didn't fall in love with it. And The L Word continues to rock. Just after I finished watching it, I got a myspace message from Elvis asking me if I watch the show. lol. She says she's dying to talk about it with someone and was hoping it would be me. She suggested hanging out at Aut Bar some Saturday.

I finished reading "The Horse & his Boy".

Monday night I slept instead of going out. I've been trying to sleep when I'm tired lately to avoid stomach problems. I woke up early today, and briefly chatted with Michael. Later I got a bunch of stuff ready for Mollie's next gift box. I still have more to do with it, which I have planned for tonight.

I drove Mark to work this morning (while suffering another migrain), in a blizzard. I stopped at Staples on the way home and bought all the poster tape they have, so I can work on my room later while I'm burning Mollie's discs. Michael said he might stop by and see me at work today. Oh, and I've got to wear something with a big collar because he gave me (with my consent) the most violent looking hickey. lol Of course if my knuckles were bruised from punching someone's lights out, people would think was cool, but since the bruise is on my neck, it's like the scarlet letter. lol Whatever.

I just showered. I need to make sure I'm all set to go to work. My headache is...muffled. I ate, and my stomach isn't as upset as it could be, so I'm counting that as a plus.

And Mollie's right; my days are very routine.

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   Wednesday, February 27, 2008

I was early to work today, and stayed late, but my lunch was extra long because they fucked up my food. But it was worth the wait to get it fixed. I worked with DJ, Alex, Laura & Mike; Bryan & Chris passed through briefly. It was a good work day.

After work I stopped at the bank, then went to pick up Mark. I had to wait for him, like usual, but I had an adorable conversation with my nephew Jonathan, that made it all better. ;-0)

After we got home, I changed my clothes and went to the bookstore to get more Torchwood themed magazines which went well, though one had a flaw and I had to exchange it later. After the bookstore I went and visited with Michael and Erica, which was also good times. I got to look through these fun photo scrap book things; Michael was always yummy. ;-0) I had to leave eventually though because his wicked cats were making it hard for me to breathe. I went to Borders and got still more magazines and this killer art book (which the hot Billy boy gave me at a discount becuase it was all beat up). It has some amazing Star Wars art that I'm going to put up in my room, though probably not until the sun comes up, as I'm getting way tired.

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   Thursday, February 28, 2008

I got some work done on my room today. I'm starting to run out of room for pictures. I'm really happy with how this project is coming along. I didn't get as much done today as I had hoped, but I planned a lot of it out.

I'm reading 'Prince Caspian' now. I had meant to take a break from Narnia, but now I think I should read all the books and be done with it. It's not that they're terrible; they're just kind of silly. I have 57 pages left in that one.

I talked to Michael briefly on the phone. I got to watch Torchwood with Mark. I left Mollie a message. And I burned 4 or 5 discs for Mollie, which took forever. I'm about to start another one, which will prevent me from using the computer.

Since I wasn't going to be able to use the computer, I hopped on to gay.com to see if Michael was chatting. He wasn't, but Mat was there and I said hello to him. But then this guy that I used to know, mostly in passing, said hello to me. His name is Tom, and I met him through Donnie & Dean, though apparently he also knows Carrie and Adam. Well, he moved away back in 2005, and I had just asked about him, because I hadn't seen him around and I rather liked seeing him around, but I was kind of a dick at the time. Well, when I heard he was leaving and that he'd kind of had a bad time of it here, I decided to write something for him, which I then tried to send him, but it never reached him...but as soon as I knew it was him I was talking to I told him that I had written about him back then, and I e-mailed him a copy, which he liked. So that's a really good ending to a mostly good day (my stomach was bothering me earlier). The poem I wrote Tom years ago isn't on my website, as I never finished any art for hit, but I'll repost it here:

MISSED

Two or three times I spoke your name,
Though never for long,
we spoke just the same...

And I was an ass before each goodbye...
But I was just nervous,
though I can't tell you why.

You are actually gorgeous,
square shoulders; compact,
with great looking eyes,
strong thighs; all of that...

But your smile
& manner
& the look that you gave...

You made me so nervous;
and somehow, afraid.

I fucked it all up...
Each time that we spoke.

I was so messed up then;
And then... "That's all he wrote."

And I regretted each time,
and I never told you...

Though I once had a dream
where you once let me hold you...

But the dream was just laughter,
and the truth is what matters,
and the truth is I'm sorry
and I want you to know...

That your smile was sunlight,
Your manner was just right,
But my bullshit was more than I could let go.

Your seemingly delicate,
meaningfully circumspect,
flick of your eyes made me stutter and leave...

But it wasn't disinterest,
it wasn't just meaningless,
and I pray my confession is heard & believed.

For looking back now,
I was stupid and wrong...

I was struck by your beauty...
Vulnerable...
Strong.

And I heard you were leaving,
And I hope when you're gone...

You'll remember my shame,
and that I took the blame for not treating you
just as you deserved
to be
Tom

Written By Jason Wright
MAY 20, 2005

For Tom

I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner,
but I just never saw you again.

Be Happy!

Bald Jason

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I went to bed just after the last entry. I slept well. I woke up around 6, and ripped a disc for Mollie; the burning of which took most of the next 4 hours, though in the end it failed!?! Fuck. This is happening more and more and I think it's because of the discs. I used to use memorex, but they're hard to come by now, and like 3 times as expensive. This sucks...

I'm gonna get something to eat.

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I had a snack. I read some more Narnia; 21 pages left in Caspian. I retried that damned Doctor Who disc for Mollie; it worked thist time! And while that was burning I put more pictures up in my room; I've added 18 pictures in the last 24 hours. That doesn't sound like a lot, but it is, when you add in all the scouring for pictures, the cutting and taping (which is a lot more complicated than it sounds), and then getting them to fit just right. So far my day has been a good one...and I'm really, really horny. ;-0)

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I'm done with my room for the day; very happy with what I've done. The total for the day came to 39 pictures. Very nice. I was in the zone, as they say.

Now I've eaten, and brushed my teeth. I need to attempt another dvd for Mollie. I need to shave and shower. Michael should be here about 9pm for a snog-fest...so I've got to hurry. And after that, I hope to finish 'Prince Caspian' and get to bed fairly early.

Did I mention that I love my room? ;-0)

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   Friday, February 29, 2008

When Michael arrived he was on the phone with his sister. Something he said prompted me to call my sister Janice, which was cute, as we were both on the phone with our older sisters, chatting away and laughing. Later we cuddled, and talked, and eventuall had the sex. We showered, and talked some more, but because of the sister time, things had gone on a lot later than I had expected, and I was exhausted. I was also getting hungry, but didn't want to eat before I slept. I did have some pineapple juice though. Michael let himself out, and I went to bed.

I woke up around 7am. I had been burning a disc for Mollie, and it was finished. I have to burn 4 more for her, for this set; one of which I don't have yet, but should have next week. This set will give her 39 more serials, from the 4th Doctor's "Revenge of the Cybermen" to the 5th Doctor's "Castrovalva"; though maybe if I have time, I'll try throwing in a few more, so that she can have the complete set of the 4th Doctor's adventures? That would be cool, but I'd have to buy a new holder for the set, and update some other stuff, which I might not have time or money for. We'll see.

Mark is working from home for the first part of today, so that I can drop him off at work for a meeting, and I can still get to work, nearly ontime. That way I'll have the car for my lunch break, and also leave work ontime.

Mark's sister-in-law and and nephews are going to be at Mark's father's house tonight, but I don't want to say I'm going ahead of time, because I never know what my stomach is going to feel like...so I'd rather not plan ahead. Mark says that if I don't go, that he's not going either, which I don't really understand...but that's not required, I suppose. lol. I would like to get some groceries after work, which I'll probably have time for before I pick up Mark anyways.

I'm gonna start working on another dvd for Mollie, just after I read the news. Then maybe I'll get something to eat, and finish off that Narnia book? Or maybe I'll try to get some more sleep.

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Today is starting to suck.

Mark waited to shower with me, so we could leave. We do that sometimes; the showering thing. I can't express to you enough how non-sexual this is after so many years living together. We're naked around each other all the time, and simply don't see each other that way, if that makes any sense... It's just not a big deal. It's like having a conversation at public shower. Only that's probably slightly more sexual now that I think about it. lol

Anyways, Mark was asking me if I wanted to go see his sister-in-law and nephews after work, and I told him again that I wouldn't know until after work because I don't like to plan things cause (sadly) my ability to keep down food can switch on a dime. As if to demonstrate this, he started lightly badgering me for an answer, which upset me, and then I got sick. I'm super sensitive about my condition, and when people pressure me about the way I don't plan stuff and why it makes me feel damaged and crazy and insecure...and then all those things upset my stomach, and it's always bad. Mark saw this right off and apologised, but the damage was done. Now I'm sick to my stomach, and Mark can't be late for his meeting, so now I'm stuck without a ride to work...with no real desire to get dressed and have anything touch my stomach. And assuming I get in there somehow, and my stomach calms down, I won't have the car to get any lunch. Pretty much all my planning (which wasn't all that to begin with) has been decimated by one little conversation.

How pathetic am I?

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Mark, after going outside, realized he wouldn't make his meeting anyways, because there's a bunch more snow than we thought, so he stayed in. He called Mollie and offered her a data entry job to help Mollie (and himself) out; which I thought was awesome, because if that works out, and Mollie has a job to do, and at least some income, maybe that will help her out, and also raise her spirits. After calling Mollie, Mark called my work, and told them we were running late because of the snow and my stomach. Now he's gonna eat, while we wait for my stomach to calm down. I still feel crappy, but less so, if that makes any sense, as I don't have to find a ride now. Also DJ told Mark that there was no rush, as they're not busy today, which makes me feel better too. Now if my stomach would just stop behaving like it has for the last 7 years then I'd be great.

I'm looking forward to working with DJ and finding out where he is on Doctor Who. I think he should be to the 2-parter that 'introduces' Captain Jack. Rock on. I find myself wanting to rewatch Battlestar Galactica. When I have money perhaps I'll buy it. I have 16 pages left in my book. Maybe I will take a break from Narnia after that, and maybe I won't. It depends on how I feel when I'm done, I suppose.

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