Sunday, May 4, 2008

I got everything done before Corey showed up. Things went really well. I had a huge meal before he arrived, just in case my stomach was going to screw me over, but I wentt with Mark & Corey to get food at Long John Silver's - where the wait for food was bordering on never-ending. We also went to Staples to buy a shredder and tape, the post office, and Hollywood to get my schedule; I work today, Tuesday & Friday.

On the way back to the condo I heard back from Wendy, and she met us at the condo. She brought her boyfriend Jeff with her to meet me and Mark, and Corey, who she'd never met. It was a good time. There was much talk about Mollie, and how much we all miss her.

Wendy & Jeff eventually left. I liked Jeff. He's cute, and funny, and sweet. Wendy will be moving to Texas for school in August...which means I'll probably see her even less often. Bummer.

Corey, Mark & I watched the new Whos, before we all went to bed. Corey & I bunked together, as we always do, and I slept for awhile, but woke up hungry. I had a snack, and now I'm waiting for stomach to settle so that I can lay back down and sleep. That won't be for awhile yet, which is too bad, as Corey is sleeping right behind me, and it would be fun to cuddle. I guess his boyfriend went to the prom last night with some girl he's hot for. wacky.

While I ate, I read the first 105 pages of then Next Generation book "Resistance". I'm enjoying it so far.

I'm tired.

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I layed down to sleep shortly after the last entry. I woke up shortly after that, sick to my stomach. Corey left shortly after that as he had to be to work. I've spent the whole day feeling ill. I took my pills. I've tried to stay hydrated. I nearly called into work, but I think I'm gonna tough it out today. Hopefully that's not a huge mistake.

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   Monday, May 5, 2008

Work was mostly hell, but I feel better today. I watched the new 'Brothers and Sisters' and cried with joy (and gave Mark a big hug). I watched the new 'Desperate Housewives' and glared at the little bitch girl. Saturday's Doctor Who was ok; it was a much better 2-parter than the last one that writer gave us (which isn't saying much, but it was a lot better than pig men in the sewers working for retarded pepper shakers from Skaro) - but I think the direction was kind of bland. Next week's episode looks good though, and I'm interested to see what happens next.

I'm going back to bed.

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   Tuesday, May 6, 2008

I didn't get much sleep last night...but then I slept a lot yesterday, which was fantastic. I rewatched Hellraiser: Bloodline, which I hadn't seen since the theater; it was still kind of crappy. The first Hellraiser is ok. I've always loved the 2nd one, and felt that it improved on the first...and the 3rd one, isn't as good as the first 2, but that it's still worth seeing. The one I just rewatched is the 4th one; the script for which is very ambitious, but the budget was cut during filming and it's rather evident, and kind of kills the whole thing. There are 4 more sequels that were released direct to dvd, which I've seen 2 of...they're rather like episodes of a Hellraiser tv series. Blah.

I read more of my book last night. I have about 80 pages left. I chatted with Michael briefly. I watched some old Smallville episodes.

I'm dressed for work. I started another load of dishes. I emptied the dryer; I tend to leave my clothes in there... I burnt a disc for Bryan (the Sweeny Todd Soundtrack). I still need to shave. I work today...and I should really finish that now.

I'm extremely hungry, but I feel like if I eat anything...it could go very badly, so I'm trying not to.

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   Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Work was fine yesterday. I worked with Bryan, Laura & Joe. It was pretty dead. I was still really hungry though, and I got Itallian Cheese Bread on my break, which was good (though they fucked up my order and had to remake it). I picked Mark up after work, but I was early.

I finished reading "Resistance" in the car, just after Mark got out. It was pretty good. The only problems I had with it were how they harped on the fact that the Borg Queen is the only female borg, when we've seen other female borg characters in the past. We saw them in Peter David's "Vendetta" novel. Seven of Nine was obviously female, even before she was rescued from the Collective; as was Marika(?) from "Survival Instincts". Hugh from Next Gen's "I, Borg" & "Descent, Part II" was obviously male. At the very least these characters had masculine & feminine characteristics. I think the reason they did this, is because in the Borg's first appearance on Next Generation (in 2nd Season's "Q Who?"), Q makes a big deal of pointing out that the drone that's come to the Enterprise isn't a he or a she, but that doesn't mean that this applies to every Borg. Locutus was obviously Picard, who was male. The other thing, which slightly bothered me, was that it felt slightly rushed - I mean, Picard is reassimilated, and returns to us, and he's not scarred by this at all? Of course this was very different, and could maybe even be seen as a healing experience, but I doubt there'd be zero emotional fallout from going through all that again.

Mark need to go to Meijer, so we went there, and then we went to the gas station so I could find this gum that I like. When we got out of the car, I noticed a woman in a truck at one of the pumps was pointing at us, and I figured they must know Mark, but as I pointed this out to Mark, the woman's husband, who was pumping the gas, came over and said that they were just asking about me. They're customers from Hollywood. My coworkers are constantly telling me that so & so asked about me; apparently I'm popular, or just really memorable. lol It was funny, and Mark & I talked to them for a few minutes, before getting some candy and heading home.

I tried playing my video game for a bit when I got home, but I was dead tired and went right to bed. When I woke up around 1am, I started reading the next Next Gen book, "Q & A", which I'm currently over half way through, and enjoying it quite a lot. I played more of my game as well. I chatted online. I went back to bed around 8am.

About the dreams I had before waking up at 1am. I dreamt about shopping at Food Town in Milan (which isn't there anymore), with Mark, and running into Jean Wiggin; this customer from Hollywood, who I'm sort of friends with. And she was shopping with us and chatting, and she was asking me what my work schedule was, and I told her that I had to work on Friday, and this disappointed her, as she was hoping to take me out for food and conversation that day, with her and her husband, and her husband's father. I asked if the morning would be ok, as I figured I could take her to Benny's Bakery, and she said that it wasn't because of this tradition they had...it was a nice dream.

I woke up around 2pm when the phone rang. It was Bill from work asking if I could cover his shift on Saturday. I told him I'd see what I had going on, and then tried to get back to sleep, but it just wasn't working, which was fine, as I'd slept enough. I read some more of my book. I had a snack. I read the news. I wish Clinton would just drop from the Presidential Race - I find that I don't trust her at all. The new Trailer for Star Wars Clone Wars (check out the poster)will be out this weekend. Randomness followed. lol

About my dreams before the phone call. These dreams are all very fuzzy. I only just remembered them when writing out the dream about Jean & Mark at the grocery store. These dreams involved me living in a very large city, where there was a boy that confessed he liked me, and had been searching for me, but by the time I understood this he was gone, and I realized I liked him too. It was very romantic, and odd, and beautiful... and meloncholy. And it played out over all sorts of different locations and events. My family was in this dream. And part of it was set at a concert. It's hard to translate in a description, but it was very moving. And waking up to the phone ringing really pissed me off. lol

So. I should have something to eat. I should call Michael, as I've been missing him of late. I should get ready, so that when Mark gets home from work we can go to the comic store to pick up Buffy/Angel/Trek and whatever Mark wants. I'd also like to get tested as I haven't since August, and I like to keep that up to date; maybe Mark would like to go with me. I don't know. But I need to get going.

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   Thursday, May 8, 2008

So I called Michael after shaving and showering and snacking, but he had a 'friend' over. The friend wanted it to be a date, but Michael did not, and it didn't go very well, though I wished him well. I was ultra horny though. lol I also called Bobby to let him know that I wasn't ignoring his messages, and Mark to make sure he was gonna make it home on time. I also left Carrie a message, as I haven't heard from her lately, and I was worried - and I still haven't heard back from her, but I'll give it some time.

When Mark got home, we went to the comic store and got all the latest issues. I just read the new Buffy a few minutes ago, which was fabulous. After the comic store, we went to HARC where I got an HIV test, and had lots of fun chatting, before leaving with a large assortment of condoms. Then we went to the video store where I rented some *ahem* movies. I got "Ream His Straight Throat 6" & "Bachelor Party 2", becasue sequels are so much fun! Then it was off to Whole Foods, where I got some bottled water, fresh strawberries, and low fat un-mixy peanut butter. Mark got some stuff too. We stopped at the book store, but the latest Doctor Who magazine continued to elude me.

When we got home we ate and Mark watched an episode of Smallville with me ("Cool"). Then I chatted with Michael, who's date was about to end. Then I got the dirt on that, and he got news on Jordan and Corey, which lead to much lust filled ideas about future sexual encounters, and very nearly led to cyber sex. Oh, and he wanted me to point out that when he 'helped me out' a couple of weeks ago (tomorrow) that I was coding that, and what it translated to was that he fucked me, and extremely well. :-0)

Happy now?

So...that went on longer than I expected, and my eyes were getting tired, so I said goodnight to him, thinking I'd be going to bed. But I had to go downstairs and I remembered the strawberries. I left Mollie a message, and had a strawberry, dipped in sugar. Then I started burning a disc of Smallville episodes (2x09 - 3x09), so I could delete them from my computer and work on some DS9 / Angel themed ones for a later Mollie shipment. Mollie called me back after I started chewing gum and reading my Trek book. We had a nice update about what's going on with her, and anime, Harry Potter, Doctor Who & Battlestar Galactica - which hopefully she's watching right now. Then after I let her go, I ate again, as I continued with my book, which I've now got less than 100 pages left in, and now I'm writing this.

It's so hot in my room. And it's not making it easy to sleep. Which is fine, I guess, as I ate a bit ago, so I shouldn't sleep. But I'm extremely tired. Hopefully I get some sleep today, and maybe a visit from Michael. But if not, I'm sure we'll hang out soon. It would also be cool if I could finish my book today, though I'd be ok finishing it tomorrow too.

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Went to bed around 8:30am (finally); woke up around 3pm. I took my prilosec. Read the news. Ooh...The Doctor is rumored to be appearing in Season 2 of The Sarah Jane Adventures, which is currently filming! I had a snack, and I just finished reading "Q & A". That's 2 Trek books this week; go me! And the week isn't over yet. :-0)

I was hoping I'd be hanging out with Michael today, and it's possible we'll still see each other sometime this evening, though I'm not sure. Nothing is confirmed as yet.

When I was finishing my book, I got a call, that I ignored, as my phone didn't recognize the number, but apparently it was my ex-gf Jennifer calling me back (finally) after many messages. The voicemail she left me sounded good...like she's happy and doing well. Cool.

I'm gonna read the first chapter of the next book...then do something else. Probably shower and stuff, and decide what's next from there.

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I was having a good day.

I started that book, which is really good so far; nothing less than what I'd usually expect from Peter David. I've enjoyed the majority of the books I've read by him, with one or two exceptions.

I took that shower too. A long, hot relaxing shower. It was so nice.

Mark is home. We've been very affectionate lately. Lots of hugging and helping each other out (not in a sex way); just being very supportive.

He had asked me about this girl that we used to know the other day and I had told him her first name. Jessica. That was yesterday I think, or the day before. A short while ago he asked me what her last name was, and I told him. When I asked why he was interested, he told me that he wanted to be certified to carry a gun (which she would know how to do).

Hello to the tension.

I don't like guns. I don't want to be near guns. I don't like that people of any sort are near guns. The thought of being near a gun makes me ill.

Now I've fired guns. A few times with Mark, and once with Mollie. Other times when I was a kid with my father, and later my step-father, who collects guns. I had a B-B-Gun. When I was a kid, I didn't like guns exactly...but my B-B-Gun was pretty safe. Shooting the guns with Mark & Mollie at the range wasn't about having a gun - it was about drooling all over Jessica and her husband, who I was crushing on in the worst way...plus seeing Mollie shoot the Lara Croft gun with near perfect accuracy her first time out was kind of cool - so for anyone reading this - you don't want to mess with Mollie - she's an amazing shot. Maybe it's from all that House of the Dead we played at the arcade.

But having a gun in my home now...just creeps me out. Accidents happen all the time with guns. People die. I would never feel safe having my family over again. Then there's the fact that I've been known to have some suicidal tendencies. Now...I haven't had them lately, and I'd like to avoid them in the future...but if for some reason I did feel like offing myself, a gun is often pretty final, while most other methods take some time and are something I can be saved from. And being in the state of mind where I am now, and knowing that I don't want to die, I'm saying no to this gun.

I'm not sure what I would do without Mark. But maybe things would be better if I found out. I mean...Mark could have his gun...and his dog; he's always wanted a dog, but I can't stand living with animals, so he's never gotten one. We watched his dad's dog for 2 weeks once - and while she's cute to look at during a visit, 2 weeks with her was a hell that I hope to never experience again.

Mark just got this other weapon in the mail. Actually he got two. He got a new thing of pepper spray...and a stick thing that's supposed to be good for self defense. I would never feel comfortable even having those on me, but if it makes Mark feel safe to have them, then I can live with that... But why does he now want a gun? It's not like we were just mugged and he's acting out... And if he just got a stick and some pepper spray this week, and now wants a gun...what will it be next week? It's just freaking me the hell out.

I was going to eat. I was going to have more strawberries. I was thinking about it in my long relaxing shower, but now I can't eat because my stomach is all wonky from stress and worry. I was going to call Michael and see if he wanted to hang out, but now I'm going to have to let him know I'm not up for a visit...as my stomach is freaking out because Mark is gun happy, and I might have to find a new place to live / work / survive. It's all a bit much to take in right now...and now my happy relaxing day has turned into a crappy night with just a few sentences from Mark.

Better not get too depressed about how he can do that, because there might be a gun around soon.

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Hopefully within 48 hours I'll have the 3rd part of the latest Doctor Who story, tomorrow's Battlestar Galactica, and tonight's Smallville & Ugly Betty. And when Doctor Who airs a week from Saturday we'll offically be over half way through Season 4... How the time does fly.

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   Friday, May 9, 2008

My Star Trek book is extremely readable. I started Chapter 2, and without noticing how long I'd been reading, it's now morning, and I'm in Chapter 14. I've never been a fast reader, yet this week I've devoured 2 & 1/2 Treks without even trying that hard. Neat. Now if only I hadn't been snacking while I was reading, I could sleep. Great. Now I have that Cure song stuck in my head...

"If only tonight we could sleep..."

Still. Could be far worse.

So, I'm guessing that as soon as my stomach settles I'll get some sleep. Probably not as much as I'd like. Then I'll go to work, and come home and crash. Exciting, huh? I foresee more reading, with a possability of Michael time. With more reading while I wait for the New Who to air. :-0)

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As I predicted, I got a few hours of sleep. I did however read more than half of my book, which is somewhat larger than the previous two, which makes me feel good. It's one of those books that's so good that you can't wait to get back to it. I read 2 more chapters as soon as I woke up. I'm dressed for work, but I need to shave. I took another prilosec, a bit earlier than I need to, just in case the lack of sleep gives me trouble later on. I also made sure to take my stomach meds last night. Hopefully that goes well. I'm tired, but not exhausted. I need to finish getting ready though as Mark will most likely be here in about 20 minutes.

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I'm feeling frustrated.

I'm home again. Mark drove us to his work, and stopped on the way for food. Around that time, my stomach started revolting. I dropped Mark off and went to work, and I was determined I'd make it through the day...except DJ asked me how I was feeling when I got there, and I told him my stomach was upset. He said he was going to send someone home and asked me if it should be me. Now I wasn't planning on asking if I could go home; I was going to work my shift, and suffer in silence - and try to cheer myself up, as work often does do for me... But before I had even punched in the offer was on the table. It turned out that Bill was not feeling well either, and DJ asked us to decide which one of us would leave. I thought about it, and told Bill he could go. He'd been there before me, and I was pretty sure I'd be fine eventually; I wasn't contagious so I wasn't going to be making anyone else sick, and I didn't want to prevent Bill from leaving if he didn't feel well, because I've been there. Only DJ sent us both home. Which is fine. I mean...he asked me... It's not like he forced me.

DJ also asked me again about my upcoming doctor's appointment, and asked if he shouldn't schedule me until after I see my doctor, which we talked about last time, and I told him that while my acid reflux is getting beyond annoying to me, that there are many days that I feel fine, and I guess to me that was an admission that I'd like to be scheduled, because I didn't tell him not to schedule me, and I told him I felt fine many days - but when I left he hadn't scheduled me at all this week. I know he's looking out for me, and wanting to help me, and I'm grateful...and maybe I shouldn't be working? I think something else that might have scared him was that while I was there I had this...acid thing, where some acid came up, and I didn't have any tums with me, and I had to ask him for some (which he didn't have) and my voice got all kind of scary from the acid... Or it's possible, that our hours are so hard to come by lately, that when I asked for this Sunday off that was maybe the only day he could have scheduled me? Or maybe it's just that he knows that the days that I don't feel well really suck when I'm at work, and figures that cutting me from the schedule will help me out part of the time, while helping everyone at the store with labor?

I'm tired and emotional. I need to not over react to this. I'm fine. Things will be fine. Except they're not...but they will be. I mean...I'll survive.

Of course all this frustration is why I'm seeing my doctor in the first place, so while I feel put out...I know I'm doing something about it...only the waiting is annoying. I'll make sure I get some hours the week after next.

Now I just have to find some ways to fill my time while I'm home, because last time I had a week off, the meds made me kind of crazy, and I'd rather avoid that.

Hopefully Mark isn't upset that he came to get me, and then I came home so soon afterward...but that wasn't my plan for the day at all. This kind of blindsided me. I just need to make the most out of it. I need to do something positive. I think I focus too much on the negative sometimes, and that doesn't really do me any good.

I guess DJ likes Doctor Who more than Torchwood now. He showed his family BLINK in the hopes that it would convert them to Who, but they all thought he was crazy. I told him that I had the same experience with Mark and Mollie when I got them to watch "The Girl in the Fireplace", which he said he was thinking of having them watch. Doctor Who is strange, and if you don't kind of give it a chance, it's hard to get into, but if you just give it that little chance, you get hooked. He's been lagging on Torchwood I guess, and skipping episodes, but is going to catch up on those now, so that the end of season crossover will make sense.

I guess I should nap or something while I have the time.

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   Saturday, May 10, 2008

I picked up Mark from work after the nap. We went to the post office and tried to go return those movies I rented, but there was some kind of police drama cutting us off from out destination, so I just figured I'd return them on Saturday. We went to Kroger so Mark could get some groceries, and then came home. I read a little, and then went back to bed. I woke up around midnight. There was a message from Jordan saying he was going to Aut Bar at 10pm, but he was already home when I texted him. He says he misses me and wants to see me.

I thought I would go back to sleep, but the book called to me. I had a headache, so I ate (after not having done so in nearly 24 hours) and took some pain killer. I downloaded the new Battlestar Galactica episode, and left Mollie a voicmail...

And then I finished my book. A truly great Star Trek book. I'm aching for more, and this one seems to be setting up some stuff that I may only be imagining, but hopefully... :-0)

I'm uncertain of what I'm going to read next. I had thought I would be reading the Titan series, but now I'm craving more Peter David books. He wrote one of the Gateway stories, and there are Next Generation & Voyager volumes that I never read that crossover somewhat with that one. I had planned to re-read the DS9 relaunch, which also has a volume in there, but now I'm considering reading all but the DS9 volume, and just getting to the DS9 one when I have time to re-read that amazing series - while I concentrate on these titles that I've never read. Either way, I want to read some new Treks, and then dive into those new DS9 prequels once the 3rd (and final) volume is about to arrive.

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Chatted on line for awhile. Watched the new Battlestar, which rocked, in my opinion. Only 4 more episodes this year; that's just rude.

I'm tired.

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I'm awake. Feeling Good. Read my e-mail. Sent some messages. I've been exchanging messages with Corey's cousin; looks like we're gonna be friends; cool. And I'm now downloading the new Doctor Who episode. I'm gonna get dressed and return those Video Hut movies. Mark is asleep. When I get home, maybe we can watch the new Who. ;-0)

Oh. And I got a message from Amazon that the new DS9 prequel book is actually shipping a lot sooner than expected, like it will be here this week. That's cool. But I just started reading the unread Gateways books. Which leaves me wondering if I should drop those (not even through chapter one) and dive into the Terok Nor books...? I'll decide later.

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My stomach's not feeling that great tonight. I'm planning on staying in. I've decided on reading the 4 Gateways books (which will mean I've read all but the 1 volume which I have no interest in), and then reading the DS9 prequels, and then probably continuing on with the New Fronier books...though I could easily change my mind. lol.

The new Doctor Who was ok. Not great, but not terrible - lots of potential for future stories. Next week's installment looks better than I expected it to be; hopefully it is, as it will be the last new episode for 2 weeks, but this means we'll probably also get a nice trailer at the end of next week's episode, covering the rest of the season. Fingers Crossed.

I'm gonna see if I can hang out with Michael sometime this week.

I'm gonna take a bath.

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