Monday, October 6, 2008

Saturday was a great day. Mark & I took some pictures; went for a walk; went to Staples for a bargain deal; went to Meijer and Borders (I bought Son of a Witch); went to Hollywood & Little Caesars...then home for good food and a movie (Sex & the City), which was good.

I got a lot of reading done; finishing my New Frontier book and starting the final volume. I chatted online for a bit. And I slept really well. It was just a great day! Oh, and I tracked down some old friends online as well. It was perfect. ;-0)

Sunday was more of the same, though I couldn't find my phone, which didn't annoy me overly much, as I assumed it was probably left in the car. One of the old friends I found online contacted me and we exchanged some fun, memory filled messages. Her name is Roberta Hiner, and she and I lived together for 3 months back in 1994. It was so good to catch up with her, and this has inspired us to track down the rest of our old crew. It's a big smiley experience. lol

Monday morning I chatted with the cutest boy, named Peter. We're talking about hanging out, and hopefully that goes well. I also befriended a hot Star Wars obsessed boy, who thought my slashy Star Wars pix were hot. ;-0) I found my phone this morning, dead, but found in the car, right where I suspected it was.

I have this urge to watch "Princess Mononoke" but I don't own it. It's haunting me I tell you!

I love those little spooks. :-0)

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   Tuesday, October 7, 2008

I just woke up from the strangest dreams, of living on the streets with an interesting 'family' of people. I was having a 3some with a couple of them in one section, while the others watched. It was hot, but bordered on dark and creepy. I didn't wake up afraid or anything...maybe a little haunted, but I find the whole thing very interesting.

My libido of late has been pretty amazing, and has been informing just about every choice I make. It's hard to describe. lol Pun intended.

When I got back to my book reading yesterday I'd already read 92 pages of the book; now I have 92 pages left to read. I notice things like that, which I recently related to Mark, who finds the wacky book math that goes through my head to be rather adorable. I suppose he's right. But I bet Mollie notices such things. Maybe not. lol I mention the book, because I dreamt that I finished it, and it had a cliffhanger ending (which is entirely possible, but would suck because it's basically the last in the series for now).

Series 1 of The Sarah Jane Adventures is on it's way here, as is a copy of the book 'Wicked'. I downloaded the new Sarah Jane episode "Day of the Clown, Part I", but I haven't watched it yet, and I probably won't sit down to watch it until I can watch it with Mark; we've been watching the Whoniverse together for quite awhile now.

I got another message from Sean; we're gonna try to get me out to visit him soon. He lives 2 & 1/2 hours away though, which sucks. But I want to see him, and he wants to see me. That's good enough for me.

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Well this morning has been fun. So Sean called me at 2:18am. We talked for over an hour about all kinds of stuff, from fond memories to new experiences, to...well...we talked about a lot. It was great fun. I got another call from Peter (the cute guy I chatted with Monday morning) at 3:56am. I let Sean go to talk to Pete as he sounded really tired and I knew he wouldn't be able to talk to me for very long. I couldn't call Sean back because I might wake up his family so we agreed he'd call me back in an hour. The conversation with Peter went well, and hopefully we'll hang out sometime soon.

Then I waited for Sean to call me back, only he didn't. I'd spank him the next time I see him, but I'm betting he'd enjoy it too much.

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I finished reading the final New Frontier novel, which I enjoyed (though the ending felt slightly rushed), then I read the followup comic series, which I had all the issues of. The comics dealt with an apparent followup to an earlier Mirrior Universe story, which is 1 of a few New Frotiner themed stories I've yet to read. It was good, but not as good as the 'real' books, and it had some minor continuity problems in my opinion, but it was fun.

I have no idea what to read now.

I need to eat.

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Here's a neat page all about "The Gravely Anit-Equality Record Of The McCain/Palin Ticket". And of course, Saturday Night's SNL skit for anyone who missed it.

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   Wednesday, October 8, 2008

I took Mark to the hospital this morning for an endoscopy, which went well. I then took him to Burger King and work, before getting some groceries, returning the 'Sex & the City' movie for 'Iron Man'. While I was at Hollywood Video, I ran into an old friend, and talked her up while the new manager (David) rang her up. Then one of longtime customers (Les) came in and I spoke to him about why he doesn't recognize anyone at Hollywood anymore. I also talked up one of David's customers (who I didn't know) about the Buffy Spin-off Angel. It was interesting to be back at Hollywood and giving excellent guest service, while not actually being employed there. It was however, really cool, to be doing this where David could see it. ;-0)

I took a nap when I got home. Then I chatted online for awhile. I ate. And I watched political themed videos. If the Republicans win... It hurts my head.

I've started reading "Wicked", which arrived yesterday. It's good, but very, very odd. lol.

Also, 'The Sarah Jane Adventures' arrived today on DVD.

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   Saturday, October 11, 2008

Thursday. I woke up around 4am, and searched the house for my glasses, which I did eventually find. My stomach was pretty upset; I realized I'd been skipping doses of my prilosec, so it will probably take me a few days to get back to where I'm supposed to be. I drove Mark to work. I drove to Sean's house in St. Helen, Michigan. It took me a little over 3 hours to get there, with the distance, and several detours (one of which nearly broke me). Sean looked amazing! I got to meet his mother Tanya; his step-father Tom; his step-sister Carrie, and her son Isaiah. I got along very well with Sean's parents, with them both inviting me back anytime I'd like to visit. Seeing Sean again was surreal, because while listening to him, he was saying things I'd expect Sean to say, but looking at him, he'd changed so much, and I approved of it all. He thanked me many times; saying I was the first guy in a long time to make him feel good about himself, and cited examples of how I was doing this. We went for a walk in the woods, which was beautiful, and led to some woodland frolics. Later we went to McDonalds for old times sake, but when we got back to the house nobody was there. I was getting a migrain, but we fooled around in the dark of his room, which was romantic...and very sweet, very hot. We made the most of our time together, though the circumstances kind of sucked. Later it was decided that I'd stay the night and the Sean would come home with me on Friday.

Friday morning we left for Ann Arbor. The drive seemed to go a lot faster with Sean along for the ride. My stomach was still bothering me, but I tried not to complain about it. I managed to enjoy the trip home. When we got home, and it was like a walk down memory lane for Sean, who'd lost his virginity in my bed, in my room, and it was all really cool to just be with him again, and to acknowledge the history of it all. We messed around a bit, and then ended up sleeping some more. I woke a few times and wanted to get up, only to find Sean's arms around me; it was perfect.

Later we went to Pizza House, and picked up Mark from work. I was really not feeling well at this point, but I concentrated on having a good time, and managed to not be miserable; I didn't waste any of our time together. When we got home, I made myself comfortable while Mark & Sean talked; it was great to see them talking after so many years, filled with so many changes. Later we took some pictures, and waited for Sean's dad to call, letting us know he was in Ann Arbor. We met his Dad and Step-Mom at Meijer; it was good to see his father again; I hadn't seen him in nearly 7 years. We didn't talk long; I kissed Sean goodbye (for now) then shopped for a bit with Mark, running into Rita Knauss, and my friend Al from the bar.

I was a little down. I always feel that way when a friend has to go away. It was weird because he didn't get to spend much time at all with us; we were hoping for another day at least, but it couldn't be helped.

I was considering going to Necto, but I think with the way my stomach has been, I should stay in and rest. It's not bothering me right now, but I'm tired, and I want to sleep. I'll probably post some of the new pictures here, or on myspace later today.

In 7 days it will be exactly 7 years since I met Sean.

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I read a tiny bit of Wicked last night before falling asleep. I woke up around 7:30am. My stomach was still upset. I watched the latest episode of 'Pusing Daisies'. I read some more 'Wicked'. I only saw him for about 30 hours, but I miss Sean; I feel sort of lonely. I often spend large amounts of time in my room on my own, but I don't often feel lonely, and today I do. I find myself thinking about things that he said, or talked about, and wanting to experience them; somehow making us closer. I'm an emotional rollercoaster these days. It's not that I feel we're an amazing couple or anything, and we're not going to be involved again as there are far too many obstacles at the moment, but waking up in his arms, and cuddling and caring for him...even spending time with his family was such a joy, and now I'm back to what I was...and it makes me a little sad.

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I have music from Alias Season 1 stuck in my head. When I first dated Sean, Alias had just started airing, and I was in love with music from the series; I collected it and burned it on a cd for the car, which I listened to while driving to and fro from his home upstate in Fair Haven. I didn't get why this music was stuck in my head until just now. My brain is wacky.

Ironically, while I was typing that, Mark (who is cleaning his room) found his ticket stub to the concert at which we met Sean. It was October 18, 2001 - at the Fox Theatre. Sean had mentioned that he'd recently destroyed his ticket stub while trying to have it laminated. I'd told him that I hadn't kept mine, but I'm fairly certain that's not true now, because I know I scanned it for my webpage a few years ago. It's probably in a box somewhere.

I've been cleaning my room too. I just made my bed, cleaned up some of the clutter and such. I also showered and shaved. I might go for a walk later. If Sean had stayed another day, we were going to walk downtown.

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Apparently, using a paper shredder in close proximity to my monitor can kill my monitor, or that's the theory Mark has on why my monitor is now all wonky. More good news I suppose. Blah.

Mark & I took a walk down by the river, through the woods, across the dam, back up by the train station, through another park and back home again. It was nice to get some exercise and get out of the house. Both of us liked getting out. And we went through and around some places we'd never explored before. Just before we left, I cried on Mark's shoulder. Things are kind of terrible right now. I mean, I'm sonn gonna have this surgery and if it doesn't help me it could kill me - not literally, but it might as well. My pills don't even work as often as they should; my time with Sean demonstrated how bad that can be for me...and how it can get in the way of the things that I desire. Then there's not being able to go to school. Not having a job, or money; politics; all kinds of stuff that's just buidling and and building... But the tears were helpful I think, as was the walk and I'm feeling more upbeat now.

I sometimes feel like life is passing me by; like I'm not actually experiencing, but the time with Sean, and the walk with Mark helped quell that feeling a bit.

I keep having quick flashes of memory of Sean and the things we said and did. It's nice to be haunted sometimes. I'm gonna take a shower, then Mark & I are going to Hollywood so I can rent "The Wizard of Oz", and "Meet Me in St. Louis"; I've never seen the latter, and with Sean raving about Judy Garland and the Oz books, I'm thinking now might be the time.

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We didn't end up going to Hollywood. My computer started freaking out, but it seems to be ok now. We can't afford a new monitor right now. We can't afford much of anything right now. We're beyond broke. It sucks.

I ate, with no ill side effects, which was good. :-0)

I just watched the latest episodes of "True Blood" and "Star Wars: The Clone Wars"; I enjoyed both.

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