Sunday, May 10, 2009

I slept from around 3:30pm - 11pm. Woke up from nightmares about giant spiders with my stomach in knots. I'm in a lot of discomfort. My stomach is killing me. My ass is hurting again. My throat doesn't hurt, but before going to bed it sounded like I was losing my voice. Ow. Ow. I'm in a lot of pain. I don't know how else to say it. This morning sucks.

   posted by Bald Jason at 01:02 AM
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My stomach is calming down. My pain levels are lowering. Hope it lasts. I need to get groceries; don't know when I'll make it out though.

I'm seeing Star Trek XI on Monday with Paul. I wish I was feeling better so I could be excited about the movie. I tend to get nervous about going to the theater, rather than get excited about the movies lately. I've had really bad experiences with the theaters. I only saw 2 movies last year; 1 was terrible (AVP:R) and 1 was amusing (Hellboy II). I seem to mostly be interested in sequels.

I miss Michael.

At that thought, I reached for my phone to find texts from Michael. He wanted me to visit him tonight, but I wouldn't have been able to even if I'd gotten the message when I first woke. Ugh. My stomach. I need to start taking my pills more. I think I've been so paranoid about this other condition that I've not been taking them enough. We'll see.

Oh. And from the message it sounds like Michael has finished Season 2 of BSG. He says he needs Season 3. I'm guessing that the new BSG movie "The Plan" will end with the finale of Season 2 from the Cylon perspective.

I need to take my pills.

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I responded to some Trek related threads. I helped Mark out with a youtube project that his brother's family is involved in. I should get ready, and try to go to the store for some groceries, but I don't know if my stomach can take it. I haven't felt this bad in a long while, which I'm grateful for... I used to be like this almost every day. Blah.

Michael texted me. Says he's been thinking about a lot and we need to talk. That sounds ominous. He's told me over and over that he'll never leave me and that he loves me and that he's mine for as long as I'll have him... but I've known so many men that said those things and then hurt me that it's hard to believe him, even though I want to. Part of me is starting to believe him. I'd just really like to avoid being hurt if I can. I have enough pain in my life already.

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   Monday, May 11, 2009

So I did talk to Michael yesterday. He was feeling some disconnect as well, but in a different way than me, and we talked it out and I think we're better for it. He's coming over later today.

Looks like I won't be able to play the game that DJ & Bryan wanted me to join in on today. At first I thought I wouldn't be able to as I'd be asleep, but then I figured I might be able to work around it, except they've scheduled it for when the Star Trek movie starts, so I'm sure to miss it now. This saddens me. I hate missing any opportunity to see my Hollywood peeps.

I played more Wii Tennis & Bowling yesterday, raising my standing in both. Mark & I played doubles Tennis. I also did the Wii Fitness test thing again and I'm at 26yo level now; last time I was at 87 or something like that. lol. So I'm improving.

I stayed up later than usual because I was watching Desperate Housewives. Including the finale that aired last night I have 5 episodes left this season. There was 1 episode that was sort of a stand alone with Beau Bridges that I especially loved, but over all the show still has it's original charm, keeping the quality up. The only season that really felt weak was Season 2, but thankfully they found their way out of that slump.

I have 4 episodes of Smallville to watch (including the not aired Thursday Finale). I have 1 episode of Brothers and Sisters to watch. If I give Heroes another shot I have 2 Volumes to watch, but that's another show that I enjoyed more when I can watch all the episodes together in a short amount of time, so maybe I'll like that more. I still have 3 seasons of LOST to watch. I never got around to watching the rest of Clone Wars, so I have about a season of that to watch. I have to finish Dollhouse and Pushing Daisies and Ugly Betty. I have a lot to watch. I'm hoping to catch up on my television over the summer. Desperate Housewives is just the first one I picked to watch.

I slept until around 2:30am I think. I woke up with a headache, which wasn't unexpected as my jaw has been troubling me the last 2 days, and I've also not eaten much as I never went grocery shopping. I took some Midrin and made sure to eat something and now it's gone. While waiting for the pain to go away I spoke to Michael, and played some Spider Solitaire (which I play rather often, actually). I had this craving for S Club's 'Don't Stop Moving', so I've been listening to that, and the 2 mashups I have of the song. I also added a post to the LGBT Trek Characters thread that I started on my Trek forum - which continues to get some really great responses. You can see this thread here.

My headach is gone, and I feel like I have some energy, so I'm going to pick up my room a bit, do the dishes, the trash, and shave. That's my goal anyways. Wish me luck.

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I did the dishes. I bagged up the trash. I shaved, which is actually a long process for me when I've not shaved in weeks - it feels so amazing to be shaved again. It always makes me feel better, though I have razor burn. I showered. I made my bed. I picked up some of the clutter in my room, but there's definitely more I could get done. My stomach seems to be behaving normally. My ass feels better than it has in almost a week. I'm excited to see the new Star Trek movie today with Paul, and to see Michael. Finally the horrible weekend has ended!

Today is my nephew Jordan's 14th birthday. Happy Birthday Jordan!!! ;-0)

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I called my sister Janice's house to wish Jordan a happy birthday, but he was already on the bus to school. She had to let me go so she could get Jill & John up for school. We haven't had any long conversations in a while she's been so busy. I need to make time to have a vist with them. I'm missing them a lot.

I called Jordan's cell phone and left him a birthday message. I'll have to give Mark the number later so he can leave him a message or something.

I feel so much better today than I have in a long time. I hope it lasts.

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I cleaned up my room a bit more, and played some Wii; starting to suck at Tennis again, but I've raised my points on Bowling. Mark is picking up some groceries on his way home from work. I thought I might take a nap but Paul should be here in about an hour. I guess I should just get ready.

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Paul & I made it to the movie on time. It was nice to see him again. The movie was fantastic; my favorite film in the series. It accomplished so much, and in such a classy way. Color me impressed. I highly recommend it!

After the movie Paul brought me home while we talked some more. He came in to see how my room had changed and we talked some more; all of it good. When Paul was leaving Michael arrived and we went to bed. We got up around 10:20pm. We're playfully bitchy. Michael is playing Wii while I pay attention to the computer and snack to avoid a headache. I'm gonna get dressed and join him. It's so nice having him here. The weekend sucked, but so far, the week is going great. I just wish things were going better for the people I love.

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   Tuesday, May 12, 2009

After the last entry, Michael and I fooled around, then played Wii, then fooled around again. He had to leave, and he wasn't feeling very well. He borrowed Season 3 of BSG. He texted me shortly after leaving (around 4:30am I think) saying that he was so ill that he wished he'd stayed. I slept some more after he left; until a about 9:30am. Mark was working late so he wasn't home yet.

I started working on a spoiler filled BSG timeline, which I'm mostly finished with until 'The Plan' airs in November. While working on this, Mark came home and complained about the hickeys that Michael left on me, saying they were abusive, even though I myself enjoy them a great deal (not the marks themselves, but the pleasure I get when they're being left). I told Michael this and he has now said he won't do it anymore...which leaves me feeling slighted by both of them. Mark for not respecting my feelings, and Michael for worrying more about what Mark thinks than I do. Later, Mark also told me that we have to see if I can get food stamps as we're so broke that we need help - or I'll lose my health insurance.

So...today is sucking for different reasons than the weekend. But I don't feel ill, and I'm trying to keep my spirits up; trying to look at the bright side of things.

Mark & I will attempt to get me set up for food stamps on Friday. I tried doing it on my own about 10 years ago and it was a horrific experience, that left me feeling humiliated and dirty. Hopefully with him there it will be less freaky, plus with the economy the way it is, I feel less stupid for needing them. Michael has offered to help in any way that he can, but I don't really know what he could do. It's nice that he offered though.

Here's a preview for Season 2 of True Blood:

(if you haven't seen Season 1, it's probably best you skip this)

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About BSG: The Plan, here are two videos I found. There are spoilers for Season 4.5, so unless you've seen ALL of the BSG episodes (and the Caprica pilot) you should skip these, and come back to them when you're finished (That means you: Michael & Mollie!!!) lol

Trailer #1:

Behind the Scenes Questions:

For those of you who've seen all of BSG and want to know more about The Plan, there is a page on my website that lists all that I've learned about it from various interviews and websites. You can find that -> here <-.

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My nephew Jordan (aka JJ); he's the one with the shaved head, playing the drums - he has a good part at the end:

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I watched the season finale of Brothers and Sisters. I was annoyed by one scene that was a rip-off of another scene in Buffy the Vampire Slayer; never excpected to have to say that. lol. The rest of it was just so so with an ok goodbye to Tommy - the stand out scene for me was Saul speaking to Holly - everything else was just...lacking somehow as a Season Finale, but it did expose me to Ryan Adams's cover of Wonderwall, which I love. Mashup, remixes and covers. My favorites. And actually, musically, this Wonderwall cover balances out last season's finale episode's use of "Can't Find My Way Home" by Ellen McIlwaine - the two songs seem like they belong together. I like it.

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I'm tired. I've been reading the news, listening to some new Depeche Mode, and making random lists.

Turns out that my 5 least favorite episodes of BSG are as follows:

01 Deadlock (Season 4)
02 Hero (Season 3)
03 A Day in the Life (Season 3)
04 The Woman King (Season 3)
05 Black Market (Season 2)

My 10 favorite episodes (or 12, depending on how you look at it):

01 Sometimes a Great Notion (Season 4)
02 Downloaded (Season 2)
03 No Exit (Season 4)
04 Unfinished Business (Season 3)
05 Act of Contrition (Season 1)
06 Maelstrom (Season 3)
07 Revelations (Season 4)
08 Pegasus Trilogy (Season 2)
09 Someone To Watch Over Me (Season 4)
10 Crossroads, Part 2 (Season 3)

And it should be noted that I prefer the extended cuts of "Unfinished Business" & "Pegasus".

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I think I'm going to bed.

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   Wednesday, May 13, 2009

I woke up around 1:40am. I'd missed a text from Michael at 1am asking if I was up so I asked him what was up, but he said he was hanging with a friend; he didn't say which one; and said he hoped that was ok. I remembered how ill he'd felt when he left last night; told him I was glad he was feeling better and that I love him, and that I hope he and his friend have fun.

I had a dream that Mark got a raise. Only he was 82 years old! lol. He could finally afford new teeth. lol. It's sad really because Mark asked for a long overdue raise last year, in August I believe. His boss told him that he would give Mark this raise in 2 months time, in October. Now another cost of living raise is past due, and Mark still hasn't gotten his first raise - and it's been SEVEN MONTHS. Mark was having money troubles back in August, but he's pretty much broke now... And it's not because they don't have money to give him these raises; they've given at least 2 other employees raises; one of them recently, which Mark's boss Ted told him about to his face - how cruel is that? I honestly think that the raise for Mark has just slipped his mind, or that he feels that since Mark hasn't followedup on it that he doesn't need it that badly or something. But he's wrong. Mark just trusted his boss to do the right thing...and he hasn't. Mark has been with the company since very nearly the beginning; back when they were working out of Ted's basement - and now people that have less seniority and who have contributed less and have less responsibility are getting raises while Mark's is at least a year overdue and Mark is broke. It's not right.

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I got a text from Michael, on his friend Melissa's phone. Apparently his phone bill needs to be paid so he can't text or call me; but I can call him. Bummer. His texts are a big part of my every day life of late.

Again - anyone who has not seen ALL of BSG should avoid the following link as it will spoil most of the series for you. So Don't Do That!!! ;-0)

I was updating my "BSG: The Plan" page yet again, as I found still more info (I'm so excited about this movie) - and I finally figured out how to embed content from youtube and the like. So those two videos I posted to my blog yesterday are now on the page. Score!

I'm having a nice chat with Mark at the moment. I told him about my dream, in more detail than I mentioned here. I guess I should update that section of my blog, but I don't feel like it. It involved elderly Mark buying newly fashionable teeth that were this freaky neon green. lol. Mark says he's going to ask about his raise soon, so hopefully that goes well. Because otherwise his boss is gonna piss me off even more.

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I'm getting tired.

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Still awake. I chatted online for awhile, while listening to Depeche Mode, and that Ryan Adams cover of Wonderwall; love that. Played Wii bowling, which I was sucking at. I made up for that though by raising my points in Wii Tennis 827, or somethng like that. Why am I not asleep?

And Mark is still at work. He's been there for over 13 hours! Hopefully this means that his employer will see how much Mark is worth and give him that raise he needs so bad. Mark is supposed to be back at work in 9 hours. If he stays any longer, then he might as well stay there until tomorrow morning.

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Still awake. I watched some BSG. I watched "Downloaded" and "Lay Down Your Burdens, Parts I & II". "Razor" takes place between those stories but I watched it last week. I also commented on the Trek forums and worked on my Facebook farm, though it made my Facebook go all wonky.

I'm going to bed. Or I'm trying too. I'm kind of acidy.

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   Thursday, May 14, 2009

I slept late. Michael came over last night, but I was in a haze from not having eaten. It's just a patch of oddly formed memories and dreams. I remember Supergirl (the movie), a mystery solved and walking into a bell tower with strange almost invisible stairs in slippery shoes. I managed to get a lot of sleep. I feel much better today. The acid seems to have been fought off. I shaved and showered. Michael's in the shower; we're going to LC to try some stuff I've never tried before. Stuffed Crazy Bread? Or possibly a different kind of cheese bread, though I'm not sure this store sells that. We'll see.

There's no entertainment news that interests me. There's a lot about the finale of Lost, but since I'm still seasons behind on that I have to avoid all that. I'm probably going to a doctor's appointment with Mark later, then I plan on watching lots of tv shows - finishing off Desperate Housewives, and maybe Smallville (the finale is on tonight) - and I also need to watch Dollhouse, United States of Tara, LOST, Dexter, WEEDS. Tons of stuff to watch. It's just a question of actually watching it.

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Went to LC. The food was over-rated. And upset my stomach in spite of me taking my pills. I knew that was a risk, but expected my stomach to be settled by the time Mark needed to go to his 3 o'clock appointment...

HOURS LATER

My stomach wasn't settled at the time; food was coming back up...Mark saw this and said he would go without me. I insisted on going because I knew he needed me to speak up for him with his doctor - my stomach was settled by the time we were waiting for his appointment.

I did speak up for Mark a couple of times, but his doc seemed to know what he was talking about. A lot of what he said demonstrated real physical proof of some of the pain that Mark has suffered for years, without anyone confirming it before, so I thought that was great progress. But the doctor didn't seem to have much to say about the numbness in Mark's right leg, which is very obviously distressing Mark a great deal. I told Mark the doc sounded like he was going to help with the other stuff, and suggested this might help with his leg, but he wasn't sure - so why don't we try to get him more help for his leg; more information and more options are always good. This way he has a better chance of feeling well, and won't have to feel like he's doing nothing. He seemed to like that, and was grateful for my input and my support. Mark & I don't always get along, but a lot of the time we're there for each other. I was glad I could be there for him today.

We then went to the post office and the bank. And now home. It's really beautiful out today. I wish Michael could be here.

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   Friday, May 15, 2009

Mark & I talked about visiting Michael at worked; I brought it up and Mark agreed. We decided we'd go later in the evening (on Thursday), but Mark went to sleep and I figured he'd changed his mind or something. Then later I went to sleep. Mark woke me up at one point saying he was sorry he'd slept so long, but I wasn't upset. I continued to sleep until 1:17am, when I got a text that my bleary eyes that was from my nephew Jordan. Thinking it was an emergency I replied that I was up, and I got a call but it was from my good friend Tony wanting to know if I'd seen the new Trek movie. I would have let him go to go back to sleep, but I rarely hear from Tony, and he's someone that comes in and out of my life, so I cherish everything with him, even if I'm really tired. lol. We had a good conversation about Trek and upcoming movies. He's going to be in town tonight (he was on a train approaching Grand Central Station during our conversation), but we're not sure we'll have time for one another. It would be great to see him, but I'm not sure what's going on or how I'll be feeling.

I'm going back to bed.

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I slept until about 5:30am. Good dreams. Felt rested.

Mark was awake.

My stomach was a bit upset

My ass is hurting again. It's never been like this before, where I have this pain for days and then it goes away and then returns. I have the number for a specialist, but I was told he probably wouldn't be able to help me unless my problems were more severe. My problems have become more severe since then, but probably not as severe as they need to be.

I ate.

Mark reminded me we're going to see about getting me food stamps today. He's very positive about it. I once tried to get food stamps around 1998 and the experience was so horrible that I never wanted to go back. Mark will be with me this time, so it might be better. But my stomach is upset from thinking about it. I threw up in the shower. That's 3 days in a row that I've been vomiting again, even though I've been taking the magic pills. I'm starting to feel worn down again, after only 3 days, though I think part of that is I simply haven't been able to just chill on my own. This will most likely change by Sunday. Then I can catch up on TV, read, and chill until the storm passes.

There are messages on my phone from Michael who got out of work around the time I went back to bed last night. He's probably getting off early today before he comes over. I have no idea how I'll be feeling when he comes over - I've been keeping my spirits up even though my symptoms of late haven't been that great; I don't know how long I can keep that up though.

Not sure what we're doing tonight. I'd consider cancelling and just chilling in the dark in my room, but Michael & I have very few chances to see one another, and to see him today & tomorrow is a rare gift that I feel I must take advantage of while I have the chance. My health can wait a few days. And perhaps I'll feel better as we go.

I'm starting to feel like I did those 7 years when I was constantly feeling ill. I don't like it. It haunts me. What if the pills have stopped working? What if my brief relief is all I'll get?

Michael is going away for Memorial Day Weekend and he really wants me to go, but I don't do lakes; I don't do sun; I don't do anything that has to do with that kind of vacation. And I don't want to hang out somewhere (I don't want to be) while everyone around me is doing the things they actually DO want to be doing. I don't want to bring everyone down. And I think it will help for me, in my current state at least, to chill here where I'm comfortable and don't have to worry about anything or suffer long car trips. I considered going for a few weeks, but the timing is really bad for me...which makes me feel guilty because Michael won't let it drop - and obviously wants me by his side. It's this constant pressure, though every time he brings it up he says there's no pressure. I think that because I've been so good at putting a happy face on how I'm feeling that he thinks I'd be fine up there, when really...I wouldn't be, and I know it. It's become this thing that I just want to be over with. The trip I mean. And I hate feeling like a disappointment, when I already feel disappointed enough that I can't just go and do whatever because of my stomach. It's really, really depressing when I think about it, so I just try to put it out of my mind.

So, my friend Tony is in town tonight. I'd like to see him, but I don't know if that will happen. I got most of my sleep last night, and it doesn't look like I'll be getting any more today - or probably not. Meaning I'll most likely be tired tonight.

I guess I feel good, yet I'm also weary and kind of frayed around the edges. Broken. But trying to enjoy my life. But sometimes I have moments of exhaustion that make the enjoyment part a lot harder. I hope this segment of my life will pass quickly. I just want to lay down and cry sometimes.

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I now have financial aid. Foodstamps. $200.00 a month ($109 for this month). And they'll pay my medical premiums (I think). This helps us out a LOT. So that's good. But it creeps me out that I'm basically making more than I did when I was working at Hollywood Video. I'm not complaining, because I need this help, but it's still kind of fucked up. Mark is really happy with the result as this will take a LOT of pressure off of him, which will hopefully spare him some stress. Our car will be paid off in August, which should give him some more cash as well, plus hopefully he'll get a raise at some point.

The experience of going to that place and getting the help was not fun, yet it was in most ways, the complete oppoisite of my previous experience of a about a decade ago, in which I was so humiliated that I never went back to confirm and get my help. I just wanted to die. This time, everyone was friendly (I met a BSG fan in the waiting room), and the worst parts were the waiting in the crowded place, and hearing so many sad stories...and seeing some people treated very badly.

I'm glad it's done with for now.

We went to LC afterwards, and so far my stomach is doing pretty well. Hope it lasts. Michael will be getting off work around 6pm.

I watched an episode of Smallville while I ate. I had 3 more left. I'd watch them, but I feel really tired.

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   Saturday, May 16, 2009

I just woke up and took a shower, and shaved. My stomach is upset again, which is odd as it's been like 8 hours since I ate, which says that my pill didn't work, though that wasn't uncommon with pizza in the past, so I suppose I shouldn't be surprised. I just took another pill. I'm supposed to call Michael if I'm going to the club, but I honestly don't know if I'm going or not, though I would like to. I just want my stomach to settle damn it.

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I called Michael, and he was on his way to the Adam's Apple with his friends Danny & Jesse. He changed his plans to come with me to Necto, which I didn't really expect him to do, and is picking me up to go to the bar. But now my stomach is feeling even more upset and I won't be able to just leave the bar if I feel ill. I know I should speak up about this and say it would be better for me to just meet them there, but there's a part of me that doesn't want people to know that I'm ill all the time; I don't want to seem like a burden to anyone, and I know that's crazy...but I'm a bit crazy, so it shouldn't be that surprising I feel that way. Hopefully this will all pass.

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My stomach didn't ruin the night after all. Michael arrived and we went to the bar, Danny & Jesse in the backseat. Jesse is staying at Michael's house now, though it's not known if he will move in or not. I guess Scott is NOT moving back in, and David might be moving in with Scott.

Anyways, the bar was fun. Ran into lots of friends: Jinx, Leon, Dug, Jesse (who I'd not recognized with my glasses off), Erica (Wendy's friend), Keevan (who watched our coats) Becky, and others I'm sure. We all had fun I think. There was this one guy that scoped Michael out all night long, which amused me.

After the bar, I wanted to go home, but Micahel wanted me with him, so off we went on some crazy car trip in the rain, with Michael mostly blind, and having to go here and there, and everywhere. It took over 2 hours to get back to my place - we showered the smoke off and I took my prilosec.

In the car I amused myself with texts to and from Mollie.

I have to remember to go to my facebook farm today.

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After the last entry, I took my prilosec. I was starving but wanted to wait before eating, so my meds could kick in. I slept for a few hours, happily entangled with my boyfriend. I woke up around 9 I think. I ate, taking one of my magic pills to assure that I wouldn't be ill, but it again didn't work. All the food came back up. I took a bath. When I got out I was shakey, and Mark was awake so I told him my pills had stopped working; that I've been sick to my stomach every day for several days in a row. My IBS which hasn't been bad in months has also returned, and I'm certain the 2 are connected. He got up and hugged me while I tried not to cry. He told me we'd make an appointment with my GI doctor on Monday. I could tell Mark was worried. When things got bad, shortly before I got my magic pills I was on the verge of suicide. I felt lost as I returned to my room.

I woke up Michael and told him what was going on. I cried. I talked about what my life was like before; about how I was sick all the time, and didn't like people to touch me most of the time; that I couldn't go out very often, and that the trips that he'd planned for us would have to be made without me. I told him I'd been close to suicide before, because of my condition, and how afraid I was that nothing could be done. He handled all this extremely well, saying all the right things, and taking it all in stride. This led to cuddles, and some hot sex. lol. But that so wasn't the point. Mark made sure he was there for me, and making the call, and then Michael let me fall apart, and put the pieces back together. I felt very loved. I'm very, very lucky.

I've been working on they cyber farm on facebook. Mollie & Chris, my nephew Justin, and several other people also have them. It's fun, but I'm slow to learn these kind of sim games, as I have very little experience with them. I'm getting better, I think. I've been doing stuff with that today.

Michael and I slept some more, and he had to get going, so he could get stuff done at his house. Sad to see him go. I won't be seeing him for over a week. He told me he wants to know when my appointment is, because he wants to be there, and if I have the surgery I suspect will be the next step he wants to be there too.

The morning, before I felt sick, was a happy one. I found confirmation pictures of 3 more beloved characters appearing in the final 3 Doctor Who specials for the 10th Doctor - set to air around November, Christmas & New Years.

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Ood Sigma (who made the prophecy of the Doctor's song ending soon in "Planet of the Ood") is said to appear in the next special "The Waters of Mars"; I've seen a photo of this. Also, many fans have sighted John Simm (The Master) in various disguises; I've seen at least 1 picture that I'd say is him. He doesn't seem to appear until the final 2 specials, but more than one fan has noted that the title of this special could be rearranged into the "The Master of Wars" or "Wars of the Master". Though from the trailer for the episode, it would seem to pertain to water and possibly Mars, so I'm not sure that matters.

The lineup for the final 2 specials are what interest me the most:

I've seen pictures of all of these characters:

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10.5 (the other 10th Doctor)
Captain Jack Harkness
The Master (in some form or another)
Wilfred Mott
Verity Newman / Nurse Joan Redfern
Donna Noble
Sylvia Noble
Luke Smith
Sarah Jane Smith
Jackie Tyler
Rose Tyler

I've not seen pictures of these, but they were reported as having been seen:

Midshipman Frame ("Voyage of the Damned")
A Graske
A Slitheen

It's also been said that Martha Jones returns, and why wouldn't she? But there have been no pictures of this, so it's hard to say one way or the other.

The finale is also said to involve another wedding for Donna (I've seen pictures), the destruction of the inner TARDIS (various reports, including early reports that the 11th Doctor would have a new TARDIS design), the 10th Doctor regenerating into the 11th (various reports and kind of a no-brainer as these are the last installments for the 10th Doctor), & the Journal of Impossible Things (I've seen pictures).

It's also been said that while these actors appear in the finale that it's hard to say in what capacity as there are dreams and such in the finale pertaining to the 10th Doctor's regeneration - some of the previous regenerations have been pretty TRIPPY (See 4th / 5th - and - 5th / 6th).

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Harry Potter 6 - TV Spots!

How cool are these!?!

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Short Films I like:

Agent Orange:

Reach:

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I watched the last 3 episodes of Season 8 of Smallville. It was pretty good. A bit confusing at times; a bit rushed in others, but overall this season was the best one yet IMO. Hopefully next season will be as good.

Michael texted me while I was watching, letting me know that his roomie David actually owns Season 1 of Doctor Who, so he'll be able to watch that when he's done with Season 3 of BSG. Though I'm not sure he's going to want to stop when he finishes Season 3 of BSG.

I ate earlier and didn't get sick; I didn't even take a pill. I think part of my problems lately could be from eating too much. Not sure though, and it's too soon to be sure. But so far, I seem to be ok, and that's good news.

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